AS I KISS THE WORLD GOODBYE
By
Ojei Emmanuella Ngozi

As I kiss the world goodbye

Sitting here with no more feelings
The feeling of existence and being human
I no longer possess
Those peaceful chirps from the morning birds
As they queue up excitedly on the gigantic cedar tree
Outside my window, like an orchestrated choir
Suddenly no longer amuse me
I long for greater promises above all I see before me

To you friends,
I know you will be the first to wail
Epistles of greatness I possess,
You will proclaim to the world
The constant help you have rendered to me you will acclaim
How you would have to help more only if I have asked you will lament
Well I say thank you,
Thank you for your claims, thank you for being you
For the days you backstabbed me I say......... gracias!
Indeed u pluck spears from my eyes
Even though you neglected the several in your own eyes
Then the spears from my eyes,
My heart you use to dismember
You were quick to judge me to the world
A river-full of tears I have donated for your sake

As I kiss the world goodbye

To acquaintances
Sometimes you regard me as sweet
Maybe to please me I guess
Then most of the time, I am the devil you see
Well, thank you!
Thank you for making me feel unwanted
And in my face proclaim love to me
Those thousand storms,
For your sake I have sojourn
Never in a hurry will I dispatch
I hope you got all you wanted from me
The bucket I mean to kick
And unfair of me will it be
Without first raising to you a final..... Aloha!
Or better still.......... Au revior

As I kiss the world goodbye

I imagine how it will be,
Men will lift my once underrated body,
Which of course would have been adorned,
With those clothes I never got to wear
Flowers will reside all around me
When in days I had sought for one of those sweetly perfumed roses,
But never have I received any
Aaah!...... My heart breaks and from my eyes tears freely escape
You were always needing me
And I was always there,
But when I needed anyone,
A thousand miles they will be away from me
Ouch!........ I wish I never remember these days anymore

As I kiss the world goodbye

To........ mi familia
You were always there,
Always expecting more,
Making sure i understand,
That I am a burden you we're meant to carry
For a sickly child, what is to be expected
Times before I had tried to make you see
"I did not create myself this way"
But now...... I don't want to know anymore
Hmmm!......... Maybe you were right,
I don't belong here,
I never did,
Sorry for the bother,
Thank you for letting me see the world,
But now I want to go away
This way I won't bother you anymore,
Even at death I still acclaim you as my beloved
I don't judge you,
I only admire your courage,
Keeping up with a "problem " like me is a job,
A blacksmith,
Who bends those stubborn irons into adorable objects
Could have never coped,
Like a more stubborn iron,
I have proved unbendable over the years
For all I say thank you

As I kiss the world goodbye

I plead to my creator,
Do not reject me, for in your bosom I come
I have one last wish,
That I will come visit the world again
But has a more better person
Who deserves all the love the world has to offer
As a stronger person,
who can take all what life throws at me
As a better person,
That brings smile to every face, I meet
As a selfless person,
That makes the world a better place for others
And not just myself
As a resilient heart,
Who will not take suicide as an option,
To run away from crisis
As a freedom fighter,
Who will fight and curb the ills of the society
As a me,
That will love all,
Even when I don't feel their love
I will believe in their smiles,
And reside in any amount of comfort I find,
For one cannot have everything
But has for now, the deed has been done
I can only wish for a better next time,
What an eventful life.............. Au revior!

Beautiful, but not suitable for people suffering from DEPRESSION presently as this poem will motivate them to grab a bottle of their favorite juice (SNIPER) and ease their way to the great beyond.