naturally, i wouldn't want to put me in that situation but my very close friend is ,  and here's her story


i would be 20 by July next year and i am still a virgin, not that i am not proud to be bearing that "title" but sometimes its just that sometimes it becomes a burden.

i have had several relationships usually short-lived due to the fact that i don't wanna let go with just any guy because he may not only end up sleeping with me without me feeling anything for him, but this guy, i met him like 2 years back, i started this thing short of a fling with him only that i couldn't sleep with him the night we stayed together because i was not relaxed enough,  he considered the fact that i was young and made me feel like sex really is not every thing,  i fell headlong for him.   

we do  not see frequently,  we had no talk about relationship or anything close to it but any time i was in town visiting we would always see and hang out only to end up always in the same situation,

my friend is going out with his friend so I hear his own version of what he feels for me through my friend,  he says: i love her a lot but i don't think i want to be going out with a girl i cannot sleep with in the long run. though i think with the right words i would cave in to his  subtle demands,  it broke my heart cos we had a lot of distance and even when we are together we do not talk about whatever it is that we were doing,

i met my current boyfriend after i had made up my mind about ditching any ideas of having a real thing with  my other guy,  only that i couldn't let go what i felt for this other guy,  i left school and went for training for a year,  there i had time to bond with my current boyfriend ,  i was so into him and i felt i had forgotten the other guy,  now I'm back in square 1 with my boyfriend out of the country whom i told i wouldn't wanna sleep with him because i have somebody i may do  it with after him{i said that so i could be able to hold body even if i jam my other chairman since i couldn't trust me }     
that turned out to be the worst decision ever, 
cos now i feel like sleeping with someone so bad,  not just any someone, its my other guy cus I've been seeing and hanging out with him ,

oh its just so complicated,    i don't know what to do,  sleep with the other guy and loose a relationship of two years without sex{wouldn't i be soo unfair} and my greatest fair is that even if i go through with this feeling, it could be cut short by whatever it is that i feel after i do it which may be indifference or i may just ave a sort of fall out with the guy,



isn't the angel you know better that the devil you do not know? would i risk losing a relationship of 2 years {that being my longest hurl ever} for an on and off thing that i wouldn't even call a relationship,  n even I know that he is just not my friend,

Dont make a mistake u wuld regret 4eva, its obvious u just wan2 go 2 bed wit ths guy,brush it off and wait 4 ur man!

This write-up is as confusing as the story itself.

Goodness! Did you learn anything about writing in school? But look, it's your choice. . .