I think I'm cursed or something. People dont get admired except they look rich or really good. In my case I'm always behaving like a junkie, I never shave or take care of myself and I'm always looking scruffy facially but everyone starts admiring me and flirting with me. I get so frustrated because I made myself look scruffy so people would leave me tf alone but the reverse is the case. But you know the freaky thing? Anytime I really shave and actually believe I look good because I never believe I look good..except when I do really shave and then I actually see the good looks people keep saying I have , immediately everyone just become normal..no more weird stares, nobody is flirting with me anymore. Like I actually walk past girls and they actually dont stare....like wtf? Now I look good the attention suddenly stops? I dont fucking understand my creepy existence....this is why I like going mad....no drama. Just suffering and pain

There was a time this year when I did dreadlocks, the type you pack with a rubber bunny, boy I swear I looked so fucking good....I never felt so goodlooking in my life, guess what? Every girl that walk past me that period made it their life mission not to stare at me. I literally have no record of any girl looking at me through out that period.....but the second I took it off and started looking rough again , boom these hoes started smiling at me at every turn. Am I even alive? Cuz this shit is so freaky and abnormal

Maybe Kcee is your mentor...

But on a more serious note, I want you to do this,

Don't give a furck about what people think about you. Just do you.

Except your own purpose in life is to please everyone.

Erediauwa:
Maybe Kcee is your mentor...

But on a more serious note, I want you to do this,

Don't give a furck about what people think about you. Just do you.

Except your own purpose in life is to please everyone.

I honestly dont give a Bleep, but the pattern is so weird. Making it feel like theres something supernatural going on in my life

Is that your greatest problem?.