I WANT A DIVORCE
We have been married for 15 years now and we are blessed with two lovely kids, two girls.

She was everything to me. She is a very affectionate mom to our children and will do anything for her children to be happy.

Permit to say that it was a peaceful marriage until this Easter 2020. She was secretly watching pornography without my consent and knowledge she did, but I always end up finding videos on her computer and smartphone.

I never like the idea of her doing this, I have told her that it hurts me, but still, she could not STOP doing it. This started at the beginning of our marriage. I still loved her, and I knew she loved me a lot too, so I let go even though I'm still wondering why.

I started getting dreams of her with other men for the past 4 years. Recently this led me to check her computer, and I found 40 videos of her and her affair partner. I couldn’t breathe or feel anything inside me for several minutes when I discovered this affair.

Our love life was regular. We had no problems in bed. I have asked for her if she was interested in anyone else other than me, and she said no, that, is only me.

I have as well asked if I was the only man she has been with throughout ber life, and she said yes.

A few times, I have even asked her to go with another man if she was attracted to someone else (this is to be sure if she loves me and still want to be with another man). Just to differentiate between wife and mistress.)

I regularly asked her these questions and asked her to promise me but she made false promises to God and to our children in all of my questions to her.

Even though I don’t want her to be with another man, I still gave her this freedom only because I loved her so much, and I didn’t want her to end up choosing someone else over me, but still, she fooled me.

I am devasted. I’m unable to accept that she’s been lying all the time. Her affair has been going on for five years (2015 – 2019). The videos constantly keep playing in my mind. I’m shivering, crying, and feeling a crushing pain in my heart. I have panic attacks during the night. I’m unable to sleep or eat well enough because of this trauma. It’s been a month now. I haven’t changed a bit. I’m suffering. I’ve shut myself up. I feel dead.

She says that she ended the affair last year because of guilt and regret. She feels sorry and is asking for my forgiveness. She says that he feels disgusted when she thinks about her past. She calls it past already.

She says that she tried to confess several times but didn’t confess because she was afraid that I would divorce her. I’m unable to believe anything she says because she didn’t confess. She still gave me false promises even after I discovered the videos than when I showed her proof, then she agreed. She says she was addicted and couldn’t stop.

She says she enjoyed pleasure from the other man. She assumed that I wouldn’t find it, so she wanted to continue for some time and then stop. She was confident and convinced that she could hide it from me. The truth is that I would not have found out because their contact was never through phone or emails. He was his colleague, so they used a work phone to chat and to plan their meeting.

I have so many questions piled up in my head. I have become angry and violent. I don’t intend or plan to hurt her or call her names, but I always end up slapping her and calling her names whenever I ask her about this. This is not me. I’ve never been like this. I’ve never even raised my voice to her. She and I can’t believe that I can yell this much. Recently she got frustrated with my behavior and hit me back a few times.

I’m unable to forgive as she, didn’t confess, has made false promises, broken our rules and gave my place to another man, I can’t accept that he was better than me on bed. I’m unable to accept that I’m not as good as him, and that has damaged my self-confidence so much.

I will forgive her someday for sure, but reconciliation remains a question mark. Should I continue to live with her for the sake of our innocent children, or should I walk out of this marriage? I don’t want my kids to know about their mother's betrayal even if I divorce.

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Hhh

What is she looking for after two kids and fifteen years of marriage

Well men do this all the time and when we tell them to stop y'all want to shut us up,

now that it's a woman what should I say?

Men started it, and they made it look so cool now every woman wants to try. Who doesn't like cool things

I don't want to imagine what this type of betrayal feels like nonetheless experience it...

xendra:
Well men do this all the time and when we tell them to stop y'all want to shut us up,

now that it's a woman what should I say?

Men started it, and they made it look so cool now every woman wants to try. Who doesn't like cool things

Ode,is this the best you can say

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xendra:
Well men do this all the time and when we tell them to stop y'all want to shut us up,

now that it's a woman what should I say?

Men started it, and they made it look so cool now every woman wants to try. Who doesn't like cool things

u r mad. Do u instruct the king on how he controls his territory? Did u know how he suffered to earn the throne? if he wasn't a king, do u think u would be his queen n be entitled to the royal lineage. Women learn to pay groom price, pay rents, fed the kids, don't worry the man will not work, he will stay home n take care of the kids, so u can have extra affairs. Since ur sense have never captured that women in their nature looks filter and dirty when they cheat. Have u ever seen objects that receives plenty and varying materials treated with respect. They are mostly misused n unkept. A woman receiving plenty sperm deposits naturally looks filthy, because u know men just drop n go, they forget it, but the collector lives with deposits for life.

Lol. So the wife is a porn star. If he's so heartbroken and frustrated i wonder how he'll turn out when he eventually does a paternity test on the 2 daughters and realise one or both of the kids ain't his. Na 3rd mainland bridge things be that

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xendra:
Well men do this all the time and when we tell them to stop y'all want to shut us up,

now that it's a woman what should I say?

Men started it, and they made it look so cool now every woman wants to try. Who doesn't like cool things

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