Please it's a bit lengthy but kindly read through

Background info:

I used to be always happy, I wasn't super rich nor very comfortable but I could manage and I was happy, academically I was above average although I gained admission early and my childishness got the best of my grades but I managed to finish with a (lol... strong) 2.2 in Primary Education. I'd be 24 soon and I'm currently studying to become a computer programmer and hopefully a hacker(ethical hacking) this is besides my 22k teaching job (sad right but I have faith that things would definitely get better... but here are the dark nights affecting my sunshine

Career: Working as a teacher is not encouraging in Nigeria at all hence it's not a great career path to some extent. I fear I'm running out of time and the sad thing about my programming journey is that I'm still kinda a beginner (senior beginner if there's a thing like that). The thought of running out of time to "make it drives me crazy


Relationships (which prompted this article): I value ALL relationships and I was one who was quick to make friends and easy to like (you could call me an extreme extrovert, I was cool like that)... Until my last romantic relationship ruined me.After the lady broke up, I couldn't trust anyone with my life affairs. I cared less about how people felt about me and I felt comfortable going on for weeks without a phone conversation with anyone. My deep conversations and social interactions has basically been reduced to two people my big sis and my best friend.I can barely interact with strangers (it's that horrible RN) except if it's for an official or business note those are the only occasions my social prowess show forth. My current GF has complained severally that I don't communicate with her a summary of her words would go thus "I talk to my friends better than we talk' and "I feel like we run a crappy relationship".These words hurt me but I don't even know how to explain to her cos I feel she's right. I do love her so much, she's a great lady (very smart, ambitious, and slim... my perfect package) and I hope to someday marry her but it's looking like that's not likely cos we both are not "free" with one another.

Kindly advice practical ways i can get back my lively self back cos honestly I don't like this "me' I see in the mirror... it's depressing

What changed your person? Are you going through some early adulthood crisis? As per making it,just be persistent and do all you need do rightly. You are not competing with anyone and the most important thing is you being able to meet your basic needs and have some change for the rainy days.

So wu wl understand u bettr than your own self naw??

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Abeg I need summary

NotAsheeple:
The thought of running out of time to "make it drives me crazy

Who set this time? Who are you in a competition with?




You don't need a relationship now.

what do you mean by running out of time? do you have few years left to be alive?
pressure is so rampant in Nigeria because we want to proof people right or wrong.this is unfortunate.
we need to realise that so long as you keep up the pace,you are making progress.

progress can be measured at various stages of life and as such is relative.

imagine u even have another program you are taking up.
that is good progress and you will certainly reap the benefits eventually

Seems like u are depressed/socially awkward because u havn't achievd much. U sti gat more time.. Sometimes the people we value most hurt us in life, but that shldn't have much effect on our life. Live ur life d way u think is best for u