derrick015:
Good day all,
I have decided to use my actual account for this.
I am depressed right now.
I am frustrated right.
I feel I have caused unrepairable damage to myself and my future.
I have lost faith in myself to the extent that yesterday I bought (on credit)the insecticide sniper so I could injest it. I am looking at it now. I feel it will be a great idea for me. I feel I will make me free from myself.
I lost my job which was totally my fault.
A lot of times I do thing in a very wrong way.
I feel to much unnecessarypressure on the job. I am depressed right now.

I have great plans for myself and my future this plans have been truncated
I am an introvert that Lacks discipline.
Even I claim to love God I do a lot of things that's against god's will.

I intended to be in a relationship with two people in my life they both rejected me.

I have no friends!
Even if I am graduate from the university it doesn't look like I am one.

My parents were rich but now very poor. I have failed them because they relied on me financially.
I can't even dream of going to them.


I have encouraged myself a lot times.

I am extremely lonely and poor right now. No food to eat. I am in a huge dept already.
I didn't manage my salary well where I worked.

I have thought of how to turn around my situation. I have visited companies etc. I am always been told we are not recruiting. Sent my CV as well.
Of course majority of the companies are thinking of how to downside the staffs.



I would have always been drunk but I dislike alcohol. Since this week began. I have been using sleeping tablet to avoid this depression.

I feel I am incapable of achieving my dreams
I am so TIRED. This sniper might be my last option. Even if I go to hell. I won't be alone there.

gunpoint:
Op you haven't said what you did/what is wrong. So how can we help or advise you if no one knows where you went wrong in the first place?

derrick015:
I still need help

UDUJ:


I don't want to know what you did that resulted in your job loss, I am more concerned about this your suicidal tendency borne out of the resulting depression.

You need to man the fvck up and discard those silly thoughts. Lots of great men have passed through stages in their lives when they were dead broke and frustrated but they all picked themselves up and kept on going no matter the difficulties. The list is endless and they are all millionaires today examples like Dwayne Johnson (the Rock), J.K.Rowling (the Harry Potter series author), Steven Spielberg (the famous movie producer, Michael Jordan (probably the greatest basketball player ever) etc etc. These dudes had a point in their adult lives when they had less than $10 in their pockets. Very dark times but they all pushed through it and became the stars we admire and respect today.

Start exercising every morning as soon as you wake up from sleep. Jogging is good as it helps with depression.