@OP Is he your first boyfriend? I mean is he the one that disvirgined you? Anyways, dont ever try having it again with him cos instead of solving a problem you will create more problems for yourself.

@poster
my conclusion is that you were so much in love with him when you were together
that now all you are doing is comparing him with other guys
I'd advise that since you don't want him back,is for you to go into a new relationship and try to learn things about each other, don't try to compare how the hugs are, the sex is, the kisses are etc
just go with the flow
that way the memory of the past wont have so much influence on your present or future relationships
be strong and best of luck

Sounds like some juju stuff. Either that, or loving so good that she can never forget it