I've just found out that I have personality disorder (BPD to be precise). Though I haven't seen a doctor yet but I came to realise it when I experience most of the symptoms of PD.
Pls I need help on how to treat this illness with or without medication. Right now I can't afford to visit a consultant based on my work and financial issues. Can I really survive with this illness cos one of its symptoms is suicidal thought even though I'm not really depressed. Another symptom I find difficult to handle is the state of always being alone and can't socialize with people. I always sense abnormal response from people I meet on a daily. People i knw be4, I hardly keep contact and then everyone becomes distance even family members.

I can't type all what I'm going through now but I need som1 to talk to either a doctor or som1 with similar experiences.

Mods pls help me

Get yourself a job!

EmptyGarden:
Get yourself a job!

Even if I have millions of naira with me doesn't guarante I will be heal of this disease. Its a mental disorder not a poverty disorder

andyblinks05:

Even if I have millions of naira with me doesn't guarante I will be heal of this disease. Its a mental disorder not a poverty disorder

Who said anything about money? Get yourself a job and engage your mind in something productive.

EmptyGarden:

Who said anything about money? Get yourself a job and engage your mind in something productive.

I get your point but I'm working I'm not staying idle but I find it difficult to keep up

Na bipolar be dat.

andyblinks05:
I've just found out that I have personality disorder (BPD to be precise). Though I haven't seen a doctor yet but I came to realise it when I experience most of the symptoms of PD.
Pls I need help on how to treat this illness with or without medication. Right now I can't afford to visit a consultant based on my work and financial issues. Can I really survive with this illness cos one of its symptoms is suicidal thought even though I'm not really depressed. Another symptom I find difficult to handle is the state of always being alone and can't socialize with people. I always sense abnormal response from people I meet on a daily. People i knw be4, I hardly keep contact and then everyone becomes distance even family members.

I can't type all what I'm going through now but I need som1 to talk to either a doctor or som1 with similar experiences.

Mods pls help me

All these your description perfectly fits into me,
Do you have a girlfriend?
How old are you?
Seriously I have exactly the same problem, but meditating alot helps me

qwertyboss:

All these your description perfectly fits into me,
Do you have a girlfriend?
How old are you?
Seriously I have exactly the same problem, but meditating alot helps me

I'm 27 years, I don't have a girlfriend cos even tho I start a relationship I find it difficult to maintain it

andyblinks05:

I'm 27 years, I don't have a girlfriend cos even tho I start a relationship I find it difficult to maintain it

Am a bit older though but never had girlfriend except during my NYSC program which of course the girls first make the advances.
To be sincere being an introvert is a very difficult thing especially if you have challenges in your life which if you are not careful enough you end up committing suicide but suicide is never an option just try to be happy, do things that makes you happy and avoid masturbation at all cost and be religious else you can't survive it

andyblinks05:
I've just found out that I have personality disorder (BPD to be precise). Though I haven't seen a doctor yet but I came to realise it when I experience most of the symptoms of PD.

How exactly did you learn you have BPD if you have not been to see a doctor?

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Symptoms
Borderline personality disorder affects how you feel about yourself, how you relate to others and how you behave.

Signs and symptoms may include:

■ An intense fear of abandonment, even going to extreme measures to avoid real or imagined separation or rejection
■A pattern of unstable intense relationships, such as idealizing someone one moment and then suddenly believing the person doesn't care enough or is cruel
■Rapid changes in self-identity and self-image that include shifting goals and values, and seeing yourself as bad or as if you don't exist at all
■Periods of stress-related paranoia and loss of contact with reality, lasting from a few minutes to a few hours
■Impulsive and risky behavior, such as gambling, reckless driving, unsafe sex, spending sprees, binge eating or drug abuse, or sabotaging success by suddenly quitting a good job or ending a positive relationship
■ Suicidal threats or behavior or self-injury, often in response to fear of separation or rejection
■Wide mood swings lasting from a few hours to a few days, which can include intense happiness, irritability, shame or anxiety
■ Ongoing feelings of emptiness
■Inappropriate, intense anger, such as frequently losing your temper, being sarcastic or bitter, or having physical fights

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You mentioned that you don't have depression, but the 4 of the symptoms of BPD above are depression-related.

Anyways, before you get yourself all tied up in anxiety knots, I suggest you wait to get a second opinion abeg..

Kobojunkie:
How exactly did you learn you have BPD if you have not been to see a doctor?

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Symptoms
Borderline personality disorder affects how you feel about yourself, how you relate to others and how you behave.

Signs and symptoms may include:

■ An intense fear of abandonment, even going to extreme measures to avoid real or imagined separation or rejection
■A pattern of unstable intense relationships, such as idealizing someone one moment and then suddenly believing the person doesn't care enough or is cruel
■Rapid changes in self-identity and self-image that include shifting goals and values, and seeing yourself as bad or as if you don't exist at all
■Periods of stress-related paranoia and loss of contact with reality, lasting from a few minutes to a few hours
■Impulsive and risky behavior, such as gambling, reckless driving, unsafe sex, spending sprees, binge eating or drug abuse, or sabotaging success by suddenly quitting a good job or ending a positive relationship
■ Suicidal threats or behavior or self-injury, often in response to fear of separation or rejection
■Wide mood swings lasting from a few hours to a few days, which can include intense happiness, irritability, shame or anxiety
■ Ongoing feelings of emptiness
■Inappropriate, intense anger, such as frequently losing your temper, being sarcastic or bitter, or having physical fights

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You mentioned that you don't have depression, but the 4 of the symptoms of BPD above are depression-related.

Anyways, before you get yourself all tied up in anxiety knots, I suggest you wait to get a second opinion abeg..

I said I experience most of the symptoms not all. I've live with it for years bt I just discovered it recently based on my personal research

andyblinks05:
I said I experience most of the symptoms not all. I've live with it for years bt I just discovered it recently based on my personal research

How have you been living with any of the symptoms so far and what particular ones do you believe you are capable of working through on your own, this without treatment?

Kobojunkie:
How have you been living with any of the symptoms so far and what particular ones do you believe you are capable of working through on your own, this without treatment?

■A pattern of unstable intense relationships, such as idealizing someone one moment and then suddenly believing the person doesn't care enough or is cruel
■Rapid changes in self-identity and self-image that include shifting goals and values, and seeing yourself as bad or as if you don't exist at all
■Periods of stress-related paranoia and loss of contact with reality, lasting from a few minutes to a few hours
■Impulsive and risky behavior, such as gambling, reckless driving, unsafe sex, spending sprees, binge eating or drug abuse, or sabotaging success by suddenly quitting a good job or ending a positive relationship
■ Suicidal threats or behavior or self-injury, often in response to fear of separation or rejection
■Wide mood swings lasting from a few hours to a few days, which can include intense happiness, irritability, shame or anxiety
■ Ongoing feelings of emptiness

These are the ones I experience at the moment, whenever I try to treat them it only goes for a while and comes back again

andyblinks05:

■A pattern of unstable intense relationships, such as idealizing someone one moment and then suddenly believing the person doesn't care enough or is cruel
■Rapid changes in self-identity and self-image that include shifting goals and values, and seeing yourself as bad or as if you don't exist at all
■Periods of stress-related paranoia and loss of contact with reality, lasting from a few minutes to a few hours
■Impulsive and risky behavior, such as gambling, reckless driving, unsafe sex, spending sprees, binge eating or drug abuse, or sabotaging success by suddenly quitting a good job or ending a positive relationship
■ Suicidal threats or behavior or self-injury, often in response to fear of separation or rejection
■Wide mood swings lasting from a few hours to a few days, which can include intense happiness, irritability, shame or anxiety
■ Ongoing feelings of emptiness

These are the ones I experience at the moment, whenever I try to treat them it only goes for a while and comes back again

Then my suggestion to you is that you give more focus to tackling the depressive symptoms as those, from my experience, tend to have the move impact on one's quality of life.

As for the others, I can't imagine a workaround other than professional treatment from a certified professional..