Pray for me Mother, for I have killed a boy.
I mercilessly shattered his heart to pieces,
I wickedly broke his soul for no reason.
Mother do say, whatever I do shall be paid back in full.
Does that mean I'll have my heart destroyed too?
It was unintentionally delibrate, the heartbreak was.
I lead him on, on, on and on,
Knowing fully well I have nothing to give back in return.
It was a game and I enjoyed it,
Wasting his precious time bit by bit.
I had no reason to love him,
Even if I tried, nothing from this heart will belong to him.
I was just playing my revenge tactics on the boy,
A revenge that has nothing to do with such innocent boy!
His friends claims he want to take his life,
As if it's my business, whatever he does with his life.
The question is; Will I Find True Love Again?
Or have I burnt out my only chance at happiness AGAIN?
P.S: I'm so sorry for my silence all this while. I promise to deliver more often.
Thank you.

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All i can say is that i just read something creative and so beautifully expressed.

Well love is trust, without trust love will rust and blown away like dust . Love is care, without care love will tear and shade tears. OlufemiAbisola put that in mind. But most importantly dont sell yourself at a paltry price. Keep it "TIGHT" and remain as natural as life. [/Thank you so much. I do appreciate it/]

Lol... Jadoskii ...... U can still buy d Apple juice na.... U then hustle hard for the Iphone7... Iphone7 not ifong o

@Jadoskii..... Iffa iffa iffa hearl!

@Jadoskii , wehdon sir...... Is this how you decieve all dem girls and make them fall for you?

Nothing is more beautiful than loving a woman who sincerely loves you back. It's every man's dream to fully occupy the heart of his girl.
They say women are complicated human beings, I concur. Catching a woman's heart is the easiest yet hardest thing a man could do.
Money makes the world go round. The believe is that what money cannot do, more money can. Your love life will 70% depend on your financial stability.
Take hear on a date-Money
Surprise her with gifts, flowers-Money
Do this do that- its all about CASH! So you think all the display of love you see on Hollywood and Nollywood can be done without money? All those walk in the garden, the picnics, the shoppings, was it done with paper?
As for me o, the fastest way to a woman heart is MONEY. So tell me, what's yours?
Happy Sunday Nairalanders, hope you went to church today or did you just laze around?

[quote author=Jadoskii post=54491561]Bisola don't worry I won't run away.Nd to answer ur question*I dnt av a gf,at least not that I knw of....i knew u wanted to say something yesternight,buh I didn't want to push it...r u still coming over today?[LOL! In your dreams Jadoskii....]

The most painful thing is I don't even know if he has a girlfriend or not...... I'm sitting on the fence here. It's either I let go now or I keep hoping he takes this thing further. I can't go back to being just friends with him. Help me guys

Jodha
Lol..... We are close. Very sef..... We are friends so if he wants something else he could just say it

Hey guys, I am new here. Won't you welcome me?

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**Love** nwantiti




its just obvious, you are in love with this dude.....


Just open up and tell him.
What if he runs? What if what I feel is one-sided? I don't want to get hurt again

Lol.... Jayson1, these words are my thoughts not copy and paste

Have you ever felt timid when talking to someone you like?

Why am I afraid of asking you questions?
Why do I look forward to talking to you and then become speechless when i get the chance to?
Why do I feel intimidated by you?
Why do I feel so comfortable yet nervous around you?

This is not love, is it? I'm quite the out-spoken type. I always speak my mind,what I feel n how I feel it.
That's one of the things my past lovers and my friends like about me. I always put my feelings, any kind, into words.
But now, it's different. I feel like a fool. Stammering and blabbing like an idiot. I feel too vulnarable when am with him. Weak.
After the pleasantries, I hardly have anything to say because these questions, (too personal questions) i want to ask won't let my brain rest.
Yes, I like him. I don't know if I love him but I do like him alot. We are friends. He never indicate the otherwise. Even though our chat is just like that of lovers. Quite personal and sensual, yet he never made mention of anything too close.
I don't want to raise my hope high too. I just want to enjoy the flirtationship that exist between us. Nothing serious attached. No commitment, no nothing. Just the sweet words and cuddles. That's the exact thing I told myself I want. That I need.
Maybe I'm scared of breaking this tight( tight?) bond between us. Scared of saying or asking something that might spoil everything. I don't want to get too personal. I really don't want to. Like i said, he didn't indicate he wants more.

Now that's the issue!
That's what, exactly, I'm trying to avoid. MORE! I think I want more. No I don't. Well, maybe I do. I want it all. Everything that goes with it.
But I have made this mistake once. Asking for more where there was nothing. Am still suffering from the pain it left me. The scars are still fresh.
After all the promises I made to myself, here is history repeating itself. Please don't tell me am in love! Please don't. I don't think so. I don't even think I know what love is anymore. It's just this problem of feeling weak everytime I hear his voice. Thank God for distance! I might just drop dead everytime I see him.

He does urge me to open up but what if I do?
What will happen if he sees am getting too attached to him?
Will he run away just like the other?
Will he stop talking to me?
Will I end up losing in both ways?

I don't like this feeling of immaturity. This feeling of incompetence. This feeling of cowardice. I feel 12 when i talk to him. I wasn't like this before. I want to go back to how it was. Friendship and nothing more.
Maybe I should try avoiding him. No, i won't. I have learnt from experience that 'that' won't work. But I need to find a solution before this get out of hand. Before I hurt myself. Before I lose control. I will need to caution myself. I don't need 'MORE'. I really don't. 'MORE' hurts. I just need to keep reminding myself on that. 'MORE' hurts.