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I choke and drag, smoking trees like the cure for my own disease... The only way I know to keep my soul at ease.... I been searching for a slow release from the dose of grief... That always seems to undermine the goals I've reached!!!!


I don't know if I should give up and go to sleep... Or keep breaking day, stay awake to follow hopeless dreams.... But I'm feeling like I'm kneeling on broken knees!!!!

I am chasing dreams.... Cause when I find it I will a hold a feast.... Invite all the beasts.... so each one of us could try to hold a peace!!!! cause we could fight for it forever!!!!! But we will all probably prosper if we fight for it together!!!!


A true sinner's conscience is lighter than a feather!!!!!

I get tired too!!!!!!

Freezing out here....

Maybe I should load up! Damn the consequences.... They never cared why should I? ...

They Happy screaming weather for two!.... while someone somewhere is dying of cold...


No shelter... Couldn't find God in Church
My belief system is on overload!!! No answers to all my questions..... My mind is been attacked constantly!!!

God have mercy!!!


I got a story to tell ~no fiction••

I have seen a lot of back and forths, had a lot of up and downs.... Met a lot of surface deep people on the underground...


Stay strong

azraeljaheel:
My distinctive personality fought for me! We are all humans and no one is perfect!

No grudges with you!

This past two weeks been hell for me! Spent almost two weeks in a vigilant cell! For something I got no idea of!

I refuse to be provoked into doing what I dont wanna do!!!

It is well.
Just keep up the spirit.
Always a light at d end of the tunnel.

WHAT IF



What if I never went through this phase in life!!!!

What if love was a trap!!!

What if I could take back the hands of time and turn back!!

What if human beings never had such baised opinion!!

What if people never had to sell drugs for a living!!

What if most who really did weren't predominantly blacks!!!

What if we could eat whatever and never become fat!!!!

What if the media had never brainwashed the kids!!!

What if love was the the reason most children exist!!!

What if jealousy was something only women possessed!!!

What if money never altered our moods when we are upset!!!

What if lies weren't the reason most people are nauseous!!!

What if we were so tough we didn't have to be cautious!!!

What if people weren't always held back by their past!!!

What if true love was something that was destined to last!!!

What if most mothers never used their kids as weapons!!!

What if people like myself weren't so emotionality sensitive!!!

What if I had some brothers who were loyal regardless!!!

What if arrogance had never made people so heartless!!!

What if we were never judged in life by face value!!!

What if regrets never stuck to our souls like tattoos!!!

What if bosses nowadays were a bit more lenient!!!

What if we could live life exactly how we conceive it!!!

What if someone had the gift of immortality!!!

What if the government never had to tax our salary!!!

What if lovers appreciated their spouse!!!

What if it wasn't so expensive to own a house!!!

What if we all had the power to bring back our loved ones!!!

What if words never scar like the bullets in guns!!!

What if just for one day there was no selfishness!!!

What if sexy didn't mean big tiiitties in blouse!!!!

What if I could shed tears instead of articulate!!!

What if I had the strength to cry at a funeral Wake!!!!

What if could be accepted for who I am today!!!!

What if no one had desires of wanting to change!!!!

What if I could make you trust me or see my intentions!!!

What if I could change your views in a matter of seconds!!

What if not wanting kids still guaranteed love!!!!

What if loneliness never got the best of us!!!

What if when i eventually close these eyes and it doesn't open

Sleepless night!!!!

azraeljaheel:
WHAT IF



What if I never went through this phase in life!!!!

What if love was a trap!!!

What if I could take back the hands of time and turn back!!

What if human beings never had such baised opinion!!

What if people never had to sell drugs for a living!!

What if most who really did weren't predominantly blacks!!!

What if we could eat whatever and never become fat!!!!

What if the media had never brainwashed the kids!!!

What if love was the the reason most children exist!!!

What if jealousy was something only women possessed!!!

What if money never altered our moods when we are upset!!!

What if lies weren't the reason most people are nauseous!!!

What if we were so tough we didn't have to be cautious!!!

What if people weren't always held back by their past!!!

What if true love was something that was destined to last!!!

What if most mothers never used their kids as weapons!!!

What if people like myself weren't so emotionality sensitive!!!

What if I had some brothers who were loyal regardless!!!

What if arrogance had never made people so heartless!!!

What if we were never judged in life by face value!!!

What if regrets never stuck to our souls like tattoos!!!

What if bosses nowadays were a bit more lenient!!!

What if we could live life exactly how we conceive it!!!

What if someone had the gift of immortality!!!

What if the government never had to tax our salary!!!

What if lovers appreciated their spouse!!!

What if it wasn't so expensive to own a house!!!

What if we all had the power to bring back our loved ones!!!

What if words never scar like the bullets in guns!!!

What if just for one day there was no selfishness!!!

What if sexy didn't mean big tiiitties in blouse!!!!

What if I could shed tears instead of articulate!!!

What if I had the strength to cry at a funeral Wake!!!!

What if could be accepted for who I am today!!!!

What if no one had desires of wanting to change!!!!

What if I could make you trust me or see my intentions!!!

What if I could change your views in a matter of seconds!!

What if not wanting kids still guaranteed love!!!!

What if loneliness never got the best of us!!!

What if when i eventually close these eyes and it doesn't open

Sleepless night!!!!

A lot of "What ifs".
But do you know that all these "what ifs" are like hold backs to peoples? They keep one from forging ahead.
We should not dwell too much on them. Just my humble opinion.
Keep on keeping on bro.

dayleke:
A lot of "What ifs".
But do you know that all these "what ifs" are like hold backs to peoples? They keep one from forging ahead.
We should not dwell too much on them. Just my humble opinion.
Keep on keeping on bro.

True elder!!!

But na just reality!!! Won't lie to you. I have lost all sense of positivity!!! E be like I just they live to get by

azraeljaheel:
True elder!!!

But na just reality!!! Won't lie to you. I have lost all sense of positivity!!! E be like I just they live to get by

Hey bro,
Never you lose that sir. That's what most people hold onto. Been there, done that.
When you hear about other people's trials and tribulations, wahalai, you go thank God and even wish you could help that pesin.
Like it says in the holy book, after the tears in the night, joy cometh in the morning. (<---- well, maybe not word for word sha).
It is well bro.
I'm still waiting for your response as per that one though.

dayleke:
Hey bro,
Never you lose that sir. That's what most people hold onto. Been there, done that.
When you hear about other people's trials and tribulations, wahalai, you go thank God and even wish you could help that pesin.
Like it says in the holy book, after the tears in the night, joy cometh in the morning. (<---- well, maybe not word for word sha).
It is well bro.
I'm still waiting for your response as per that one though.

Thank you for this.

dayleke:
Hey bro,
Never you lose that sir. That's what most people hold onto. Been there, done that.
When you hear about other people's trials and tribulations, wahalai, you go thank God and even wish you could help that pesin.
Like it says in the holy book, after the tears in the night, joy cometh in the morning. (<---- well, maybe not word for word sha).
It is well bro.
I'm still waiting for your response as per that one though.

Elder no be lie!!! On Monday I did a job like that conveyed 233 blocks from on point to another I was paid 2,500 instead of 2330 per block I was supposed to be paid 10 (9 inches block)

With my homelessness and joblessness people still admire me! Gave an elderly woman 1k from the money !! The woman was looking like who could give up the next min!! Imagine old woman dey beg inside sun..

azraeljaheel:
Elder no be lie!!! On Monday I did a job like that conveyed 233 blocks from on point to another I was paid 2,500 instead of 2330 per block I was supposed to be paid 10 (9 inches block)

With my homelessness and joblessness people still admire me! Gave an elderly woman 1k from the money !! The woman was looking like who could give up the next min!! Imagine old woman dey beg inside sun..

Afar Bros... We fit dey enter site together? Where your base?

azraeljaheel:
True elder!!!

But na just reality!!! Won't lie to you. I have lost all sense of positivity!!! E be like I just they live to get by

Good morning bro.
Done.
Top up is .5
Aza is 3
Good luck and stay safe.

yungchop:
Afar Bros... We fit dey enter site together? Where your base?

Arigbajo ifo Ogun state... Bout the site thing i just go from one place to another.. No be like say I get connect per say

dayleke:
Good morning bro.
Done.
Top up is .5
Aza is 3
Good luck and stay safe.

Hopefully you got my mail... Coming online these days na war!!!

God bless Elder!!!

Another Thursday gone... One step at a time

Sometimes I can't sleep, I try to contemplate the reason... Wondering what the earth is going through, since I can't see them...

I use to have lot of beautiful women within my friendlist ... But many are not worth the sacrifice of friendship..

Simply cos we live two different lives with different views.. When it comes to lies we will both be held accused....

We both have been through hell emotionally, but with me I don't compare, judge or dwell.. I am like a confined world.. Like the ones in asylums... Dark and lonely!!!!

I pray for angels to hold me and take flight... And separate me from the madness at day and silence at night..

I am confident, but some of my faith already decayed.. It is hard to tell though coz nothing is really displayed..


I put in overtime to obtain what I am without... And it makes me psychotic when I am feeling withdrawn, so I consume happy pills to conceal my flaws....

So nobody gets discouraged!!! Fake face worn in public.. You people got problems with me.. ? Then you should probably see that I am just a casualty of lots of deceit...

I am facing first glance judgement, and then you wonder why I am single! Coz I am so straight up.. So unimpressed by the way some children were raised up..


Selfish beings I really pity them, they seem so lost indoctrinated by society, media and of coz, the way they use money...


Some girls dress up like mannequins.. And they question themselves like "why don't I have a man again?"


Typical and pitiful, I tend to ridicule the envious because we don't compare...


People seem picky, but liquor will change that.. Bring you down to earth!!! Weed might be your way back up to heavenly fantasies


Stress got me worn out like bodies losing stamina.. When laziness comes in contact with a treadmill, bones could have broken coz the agony is dreadful...

Nothing special unless it actually holds some worth. The whole situation is absurd!!!


Life is too short like good times that were anticipated and really should have come earlier to the impatient..


It is pretty basic, we all need some kinda distraction... Before we fall into the ocean of happiness... How I wish I could rewind time and leave the stress...

Life is all about money, impression and nothing less!!! Or maybe I just can't see the bigger picture it presents... My confidence can be a threat to those who don't own it.. But I am just me. A human being with no public personas ...!!!!

Staring at the sky... Wild thoughts running through the mind of a saint!!

Can't feel mosquitoes bite again

Grateful for life


Today I made over 156 heaps ... 10 naira per heap...

God thank you

Everything is changing around me and I wanna change too... one thing I know, it ain't cool being no fool.. I feel different today, I don't know what else to say
But I will get my shit together, it's now or never...


I am sick, sick of waiting in vain, tired of playing the game.... Thinking of making a change, finally breaking the chains... Every phase, every happening craze... When it's said and done, my head is right back in the haze

I am ready for the next chapter and page to start acting my age... And part ways with Black Thought from back in the days.... I'm stargazing from the back of the stage... Questioning if who y'all praise is worthy of praise..

What is the phrase, 'Bygones is bygones'?.... Dudes who used to be the underdog is icons... People say the light shines once in a lifetime... Is this mid-life kind of crisis a little bit like mine?...



I am thinking not now but right now..... I need some kind of sign that the future is bright now...

opportunities lost because I blew them...
On the sunniest days of my life, I cried through them.... Mom is out the picture and Pops? I barely knew him.... And I would pray to God but I am tired of lying to Him...



Tired of trying to run from the things inside of us.... Got a lot of fam and a lot of admirers.... Who tell me that I should aspire to change.... But when I think of changing... It's like why even try this sh!t?


My mind hazy and my thoughts, they get distorted.... I know my good and bad deeds both get recorded... You do right so your soul can last... But my role was cast before I even auditioned for it!!!!!

So I don't really see an end to my vice... It's just false reformation, no end to my strife... Feel the evil overpowering.. You can go ahead, throw the towel in... Cause people, that's the end of the fight

When I look into the mirror and see my own image.... It feel like there is something else far off in the distance.... Something I wanna see but something that is resistant... And everyday the haunting is growing more persistent!!!



I never noticed it before but now I can't miss it... And the constant pounding is drivin' me ballistic.... I ran from it for years but it's still next to me.... And it's growing stronger, taking and leaving less of me!!!!


I can't fight it now, I know it's just destiny.... And I just wonder what is going to happen when it catches me... Will it leave me face down, in a chest of pee? Or will it just start bringing out the best of me?

But is the best of me really just the worst of me? And if so, yesterday could be my anniversary.... In sinner's court, it's important to have church with me... I am trying to get rid of these ghosts that is cursing me...

pattymike smartr david470 goyoker0 dayleke telim budaatum nemadatquod petyprincess mariangeles healthrelatedjo vikkypee igiveladiesbj nezzjnr emmajnr1 and many more!

Happy new month and blissful eid al fitr to you..



As man don't have a FAM to celebrate with man decided to celebrate with his online FAM

Special thanks to Dorcas aka mama Cyprus don't know your moniker

Y'all are angels without wings

We had no meat to eat... No liquor to drink... No family to celebrate with... No enemies to even hate on...


But we got life to be grateful for.....

Hierarchy in the trenches

As man don't have a FAM to celebrate with man decided to celebrate with his online FAM

Special thanks to Dorcas aka mama Cyprus don't know your moniker

Y'all are angels without wings[/quote]Happy new month manchi

azraeljaheel:
Hopefully you got my mail... Coming online these days na war!!!

God bless Elder!!!

Seen.

azraeljaheel:
opportunities lost because I blew them...
On the sunniest days of my life, I cried through them.... Mom is out the picture and Pops? I barely knew him.... And I would pray to God but I am tired of lying to Him...



Tired of trying to run from the things inside of us.... Got a lot of fam and a lot of admirers.... Who tell me that I should aspire to change.... But when I think of changing... It's like why even try this sh!t?


My mind hazy and my thoughts, they get distorted.... I know my good and bad deeds both get recorded... You do right so your soul can last... But my role was cast before I even auditioned for it!!!!!

So I don't really see an end to my vice... It's just false reformation, no end to my strife... Feel the evil overpowering.. You can go ahead, throw the towel in... Cause people, that's the end of the fight

Last paragraph.....
No sir, it's not the end of the fight.

What you think is a battle for you might just be like a hen fight to another person.
I still maintain that you shall look back one day and wonder if all these really happened to you and how you were able to overcome.

Peace bro.

azraeljaheel:
pattymike smartr david470 goyoker0 dayleke telim budaatum nemadatquod petyprincess mariangeles healthrelatedjo vikkypee igiveladiesbj nezzjnr emmajnr1 and many more!

Happy new month and blissful eid al fitr to you..



As man don't have a FAM to celebrate with man decided to celebrate with his online FAM

Special thanks to Dorcas aka mama Cyprus don't know your moniker

Y'all are angels without wings

Guy how far?

Omo been a while I cheeked in. Been going through some stuff.


Omo hope you're making progress. Happy New Month!!!