I actually married as a virgin o, thanks to having a
strict mum who would not endorse me having
boyfriends until after university, being a born-again
Christian, praise and worship leader, hearing the
word of God daily aided me (I had my fair share of
temptations too, so l am no saint here).

I had two kids less than 1 year and l found out l
was pregnant again. Oh my God, my husband and
l were not ready for this. We then came to a
decision to terminate it. I secretly wanted my
husband to say no but…. I prayed earnestly for a
miscarriage but, nothing happened.

I went to the hospital but the doctor touched my
tummy and said it was hard, that l was too far
gone. ‘Go and do a scan’, he said. I went for the
scan hoping the doctor will say he would not carry
it out but my scan showed 6 weeks, EDD to be
October 2009 and the hardness was as a result of
fibroid. He scheduled the next day which happened
to be our wedding anniversary. I was hoping
something will happen to prevent the procedure
but alas the day came. I went in and l was
disgusted at the site of the ‘area’, which was a far-
cry from the hospital where l delivered (it was a
popular hospital o but with old and archaic
equipment). My legs were spread apart and he put
the ‘thing’ inside of me and drilling things out. I
moaned with pain. My body quivered in
unimaginable soreness when the action was taking
place. The painful part for me was that, my hubby
was not there with me. I went in alone. I cried out
of the theatre, out of the hospital, in the taxi cab,
till l got home, cried and cried asking God for
forgiveness.

When l got home and the realities set in, ‘what
have l done?’ l asked myself. Abortion! Yeepppa… I
cried and cried. I do not know of others who have
experienced it but l did not heal of it for years. I
could not receive God’s forgiveness. I healed
physically after two weeks as l was given
antibiotics and painkillers but the next months and
years were bad as it was full of emotional soreness
and guilt. I went back to the hospital to have
family planning in place to avoid any more
mistakes. The site of the hospital building
reminded me of those horrors.

Two years later, the craving for another child won’t
leave me. I decided l was ready and l removed
family planning but pregnancy won’t come. The
next following years were filled of self-guilt. Every
menses was a constant reminder of my sin.
People’s display of new-born ‘dp’ put prick in my
heart as a sinner. I was jealous of people pregnant
and celebration of babies. Although l had two other
children but l wanted a child like a woman who
never had one. I prayed and prayed, l would not let
go.

Finally; l got pregnant. Oh my God! It was like a
dream. This pregnancy for me was a sign that God
had forgiven me and given me a clean slate. You
know what, not only did l fall pregnant again, l
found out on our wedding anniversary and guess
what EDD was October (again). Do l need any
more sign of God faithfulness and forgiveness.
I am not writing this to celebrate abortion. I never
in a million year thought l would be part of it, l
was disappointed in myself but that experience
made me to realize that ‘he that thinks he stand
take heed lest he fall’.

Abortion shouldn’t be the last option, it is horrible,
and it’s like acting in a horror movie. Unfortunately
people don’t talk about it especially in this part of
the world. Many times we hear that “Don’t have
sex before marriage so that you won’t have to
abort and if you get pregnant, birth the child”. But
there is another part which is for married women
who have unwanted pregnancies, don’t abort!
Get family planning in place before sex resumes
after childbirth.

Also stop this rubbish of what people will say, for
example, people will say “na every year you dey
born ni” (Do you give birth yearly?)?, “are you a
baby factory?” etc. These people you are mindful of
wont be there where you are reaping the harvest of
your guilt but will surely shut up their mouths
when you are reaping the harvest of a God-sent
child. Also you yourself should stop making fun of
people, trust me a silly comment is the last thing a
pregnant woman wants to hear. Abortion, D & C is
horrible except if your heart is made of stone.
Many of us have heard stories of a child that a
woman wanted to abort but turned out to be the
most celebrated. Some may never have a second
chance like me but in all, do know that God is a
loving father and not a taskmaster waiting for your
mistake. In your mistake, do rise above it and
don’t go back to the sin.
Contact Aya Keni on: toesetoese@gmail.com

By. Aya Keni.

www.litehelp.

and how much is gold circle? Some poeple sef

If God has forgiven u let no man hurt u biko

Even a woman without a womb is a mother of 4

Biko


Move closer to God nd live life

WTF happened to summary

abortion shouldn't be an option at all.I can't even live with the thought of killing an enemy let alone my innocent child .GOD FORBID

lalasticlala

Ask for forgiveness,, buh dsts bad u kill an innocent child. Pray for forgiveness. Buh dsts bad you kill an innocent child.

^^ how do u want us to read dis long stuff na. Even nairaland rules no long reach lik dis. Nawaoooh

WTF is this lengthy nonsense?
ain't nobody got time to read that shít!

so if u never had another child, u ll always believe God never forgave u hon, this is one of the reasons we Christians miss it, besides abortion seems like the best decision in ur case, but the main issue is we are Nigerians nd our backward way of thinking will always be that ABORTION IS A SIN!!!!!

In your mistake, do rise above it and don’t go back to the sin

ebeneade:
so if u never had another child, u ll always believe God never forgave u hon, this is one of the reasons we Christians miss it, besides abortion seems like the best decision in ur case, but the main issue is we are Nigerians nd our backward way of thinking will always be that ABORTION IS A SIN!!!!!

its not a backward way of thinking.abortion is MURDER.

CaroLyner:
its not a backward way of thinking.abortion is MURDER.

don't get me wrong here, I don't support abortion but if it's for the greater good, why shouldn't it be encouraged? nd hope u remember that God forgives murder too? but some Nigerians ll b like ahhhh abortion is against my religion blah blah blah!!!!

ebeneade:


don't get me wrong here, I don't support abortion but if it's for the greater good, why shouldn't it be encouraged? nd hope u remember that God forgives murder too? but some Nigerians ll b like ahhhh abortion is against my religion blah blah blah!!!!

i get your point.yes he forgives dont mean you wont get punished for that wrong doing.
what you sow you shall reap.

CaroLyner:
i get your point.yes he forgives dont mean you wont get punished for that wrong doing.
what you sow you shall reap.

Really!!!!! does God punish a sin he has forgiven? then what is the essence of forgiveness? he shoulda jez spare me the joke called forgiveness nd proceed to the punishment, nd for the record what do u reap for abortion? u reap having not to worry about another child who you can't cater for. we always scream bout our religious beliefs yet we only seem to understand so little bout our religion, God ll jez be shaking his head at us.

ebeneade:


Really!!!!! does God punish a sin he has forgiven? then what is the essence of forgiveness? he shoulda jez spare me the joke called forgiveness nd proceed to the punishment, nd for the record what do u reap for abortion? u reap having not to worry about another child who you can't cater for. we always scream bout our religious beliefs yet we only seem to understand so little bout our religion, God ll jez be shaking his head at us.

chill..am not being cynical here yea i know nigerians take religion to the extreme sometimes.

CaroLyner:
chill..am not being cynical here yea i know nigerians take religion to the extreme sometimes.

but?

ebeneade:

but?

let me give you an instance...david killed uriah in the bible and took his wife.God forgave him but said all his first born sons would die.for what he did.he was forgiven,but not left unpunished.

CaroLyner:
let me give you an instance...david killed uriah in the bible and took his wife.God forgave him but said all his first born sons would die.for what he did.he was forgiven,but not left unpunished.

you are bringing the Bible into this argument o, but let me ask you, had Jesus died when David committed that sin? nope he hadn't, that's the difference, since Jesus died God had stopped punishing believers for their sins because he already punished Jesus

ebeneade:


you are bringing the Bible into this argument o, but let me ask you, had Jesus died when David committed that sin? nope he hadn't, that's the difference, since Jesus died God had stopped punishing believers for their sins because he already punished Jesus

oh never knew that.thanks for clearing that up.

CaroLyner:
oh never knew that.thanks for clearing that up.

so u get my point now hon? we shouldn't be hypocritical about abortion by always crying out that our religion forbids it. if it's for the greater good, why shouldn't we allow it nd besides when we argue dat it's a sin nd we most time forget that the act that caused it too was a sin.......... I respect u ma'am cos u hold an open mind

ebeneade:


Really!!!!! does God punish a sin he has forgiven? then what is the essence of forgiveness? he shoulda jez spare me the joke called forgiveness nd proceed to the punishment, nd for the record what do u reap for abortion? u reap having not to worry about another child who you can't cater for. we always scream bout our religious beliefs yet we only seem to understand so little bout our religion, God ll jez be shaking his head at us.

so many consequences of abortion..guilt for life,,dat memory can never ever be forgotten and for the side effects...ori yato sori,,hope y yoruba is correct

octopusfreaky:
so many consequences of abortion..guilt for life,,dat memory can never ever be forgotten and for the side effects...ori yato sori,,hope y yoruba is correct

your yoruba is correct, are there actions that doesn't have consequences? I never said there are no consequences for abortion

Dis op can lie 4 africa ehnn,two kids within d space of 1 year ..when it takes 9 months 4 an embryo 2 fully develop. Remove 9 from 12 n u will be left with 3

So d second child was only 3 months in d womb,b4 being giving birth to ..wat a myopic write up.

Btw I understand d message ur trying 2 pass tho#teamsaynotoabortion#

ebeneade:

so u get my point now hon? we shouldn't be hypocritical about abortion by always crying out that our religion forbids it. if it's for the greater good, why shouldn't we allow it nd besides when we argue dat it's a sin nd we most time forget that the act that caused it too was a sin.......... I respect u cos u hold an open mind

yea i get you.....