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Bironke:
And i hope you find it.

kollinzgee:
bironke girls like you are rare ,am the kind of guy you might consider a badboy but when i meet loyal girls like you i drop my guards .as for the foolish guy leave him alone he will surely come back by the time this golddigging,bloodsucking nerve wrecking broke naija girls deals with him with their never ending demand for recharge cards ,sub,money for hair,shopping plus entitlement mentality he will remember he had a rare gem and will look for it i pray you find a good guy like me by then lolzzz so he will be the one suffering emotionally just as you are doing nw.

Bironke:
Thanks but it's hard. Really hard.

stinflame:
My Sister if it's an igbo guy, and u from another tribe, forget it. They have been configured to marry their tribe by parents configuration. Only few unshackles themselves..
So they aren't taking any tribe serious, just fuk baddies.

kollinzgee:
shut up diaaaaaa!!!.stop saying nonesense joor from where did you get your facts from .who told you we dont marry other tribes.
..

Bironke:
Long post but please i really need the advice. Please.

Background.
I started dating my now ex-boyfriend when i was 17. We met when i was in 100lvl but started dating in 200lvl.
He's 6years older than me.
It has always been long distance. 9-10hours apart but that wasn't a problem for either of us.
He was my first boyfriend and i thought, hoped and prayed would be the last. I've always wanted just a guy in my life. He did his masters in kaduna while i served in minna. He chose it so we could be closer together. All through my service year, i was the one doing the visiting because he later started working in abj around that time which kept him busy and tired.
So, i thought it was only proper for me to be visiting.
We ended up having sex on one of the visits and that was 3 years down the relationship.

He's a very good guy, doesn't pressurize me, loves me, not promiscious, but he has a bad habit of not picking up hints and he doesn't know how to talk also.

Whenever i travelled, i went with foodstuffs, utensils and appliances he might need. So, it left me broke as a corper at times. At times, i randomly say I'm broke to him and he buys data when offline. My problem with that is i wish he payed more attention.
All through almost 4 years now, i never asked for a dime and he never gave me.

I once had a boi seminar in abj and of course i used the opportunity to see the love of my life. Nysc orientation camp was given as accommodation. So, there was this day i saw some clothes i liked and wished to buy. So, while chatting, i told him i saw some nice clothes i liked. I expected him to say something like let me add something for you but he merely said ehn ehn. Ended up buying all myself which he later saw too. This is just one instance. I honestly cant remember others. I don't keep tabs on things like this.

Before you castigate me, what I'm saying is i just want to feel special. All through the time i went to abj, he never for once took me out. We were always inside on weekends and i was always alone weekdays since i belonged to ministry of no work lol (served at local govt secretariat). I didn't hate it as i don't really like being around people.

I'm from a richer family than him which makes me have more money than him. I sort him out with little whenever he didn't have enough on him. I'm not comparing us now but even if i have, i just want him to be my man and make me feel loved by doing even little for me.

I'm very easy to please, very simple and i definitely love hard. Just writing me a note, buying me a book, basically little gestures can make me smile. I'm light hearted.

Trust was never an issue between us.

There were however days i wanted to break up with him because of his bad manners. (doesn't know how to talk and since I'm a words person, it gets to me a lot) He knows that but isn't willing to compromise on that little for me. This is our biggest problem. I'm quick to say sorry, thank you, i forgive you but him, he wouldn't talk to me for days till after so much teasing and cajoling from me..

Honestly, aside this, we are perfect for each other based on our mutual likes for stuffs but love is never enough.

THE FIGHT.
I told him i was broke. He wanted to purchase a shirt on aliexpress. i always do that for him and he sent 6k extra.
I knew the extra was for me but i just wanted him to say it. He got pissed. Didn't say but i knew and told me to ask anyone about the money situation. That is why he sent extra. That was the first time ever he decided to send me money so, i was surprised because there were several times he could have but didn't.
I told him the next day asking anyone wasn't necessary but i had something to say. I kind of let it all out. Not angrily, just said my mind. He was angry of course but i didn't think he would take it so serious. He compared me to his exs, said i have pride and don't appreciate stuffs. I was pissed he would say that to me cos it's not true.
What followed was "kindly send my money back"
Didn't expect it and it came as a shock. I really felt disgusted by that statement so i sent it to him.
Then he said kindly get yourself another boyfriend.
Ah ah, biggest shocked of my life and blocked me on whatsapp.

Reached him via text but he didn't reply. So, i gave him a break.
Later sent him a mail which he replied. We talked and seemed like we were having it back together and i merely asked him to apologize for he said to me and he said he wouldn't. All i wanted was i'm sorry for my harsh words.
I decided not to beg him this time. Each time we have issues which mostly he's wrong, i apologize. I really can't bear him not talking to him. I don't keep friends, i tell him everything like everything, my world basically evolves around him. My first bf, i don't believe in multi. He has been saying we should get married but i just don't have it together yet. So, i was already saying team 2020 lol.

I have never imagined myself with any other guy but why can't he just say something as little as I'm sorry.
I'm sorry to me can make me forgive anyone for anything they've done for me.

I don't always have to do the begging. What if we get married. I'd get tired of begging him.
There were times i wanted to break up with him but i always find a lot of reasons to stay and he'd beg me not to say it again but now its reversed and he can't even find a reason to stay. Really painful.

No calls, no messages. I'm going crazy.

Now that it seems like we've broken up, i can barely eat, sleep(always waking up with a swollen eyes from crying. My sisters already said i have apollo sef). I can't think straight, I'm slow etc
There are so many guys asking me out but i can't bring myself to go on dates.
It feels weird that it's not with him.

I basically don't know where to start from. It has just been one guy for almost 4 years. 17-21yrs.

How do i move on or forget him? is there an easy way?

This is just a brief summary. I can occupy the entire front page if were to go in details.

You can ask me questions.

stinflame:
My Sister if it's an igbo guy, and u from another tribe, forget it. They have been configured to marry their tribe by parents configuration. Only few unshackles themselves..
So they aren't taking any tribe serious, just fuk baddies.

omoskenso:
Hmmmmmm.... Am searching and i need your kind of loyalty

Bironke:
Long post but please i really need the advice. Please.

Background.
I started dating my now ex-boyfriend when i was 17. We met when i was in 100lvl but started dating in 200lvl.
He's 6years older than me.
It has always been long distance. 9-10hours apart but that wasn't a problem for either of us.
He was my first boyfriend and i thought, hoped and prayed would be the last. I've always wanted just a guy in my life. He did his masters in kaduna while i served in minna. He chose it so we could be closer together. All through my service year, i was the one doing the visiting because he later started working in abj around that time which kept him busy and tired.
So, i thought it was only proper for me to be visiting.
We ended up having sex on one of the visits and that was 3 years down the relationship.

He's a very good guy, doesn't pressurize me, loves me, not promiscious, but he has a bad habit of not picking up hints and he doesn't know how to talk also.

Whenever i travelled, i went with foodstuffs, utensils and appliances he might need. So, it left me broke as a corper at times. At times, i randomly say I'm broke to him and he buys data when offline. My problem with that is i wish he payed more attention.
All through almost 4 years now, i never asked for a dime and he never gave me.

I once had a boi seminar in abj and of course i used the opportunity to see the love of my life. Nysc orientation camp was given as accommodation. So, there was this day i saw some clothes i liked and wished to buy. So, while chatting, i told him i saw some nice clothes i liked. I expected him to say something like let me add something for you but he merely said ehn ehn. Ended up buying all myself which he later saw too. This is just one instance. I honestly cant remember others. I don't keep tabs on things like this.

Before you castigate me, what I'm saying is i just want to feel special. All through the time i went to abj, he never for once took me out. We were always inside on weekends and i was always alone weekdays since i belonged to ministry of no work lol (served at local govt secretariat). I didn't hate it as i don't really like being around people.

I'm from a richer family than him which makes me have more money than him. I sort him out with little whenever he didn't have enough on him. I'm not comparing us now but even if i have, i just want him to be my man and make me feel loved by doing even little for me.

I'm very easy to please, very simple and i definitely love hard. Just writing me a note, buying me a book, basically little gestures can make me smile. I'm light hearted.

Trust was never an issue between us.

There were however days i wanted to break up with him because of his bad manners. (doesn't know how to talk and since I'm a words person, it gets to me a lot) He knows that but isn't willing to compromise on that little for me. This is our biggest problem. I'm quick to say sorry, thank you, i forgive you but him, he wouldn't talk to me for days till after so much teasing and cajoling from me..

Honestly, aside this, we are perfect for each other based on our mutual likes for stuffs but love is never enough.

THE FIGHT.
I told him i was broke. He wanted to purchase a shirt on aliexpress. i always do that for him and he sent 6k extra.
I knew the extra was for me but i just wanted him to say it. He got pissed. Didn't say but i knew and told me to ask anyone about the money situation. That is why he sent extra. That was the first time ever he decided to send me money so, i was surprised because there were several times he could have but didn't.
I told him the next day asking anyone wasn't necessary but i had something to say. I kind of let it all out. Not angrily, just said my mind. He was angry of course but i didn't think he would take it so serious. He compared me to his exs, said i have pride and don't appreciate stuffs. I was pissed he would say that to me cos it's not true.
What followed was "kindly send my money back"
Didn't expect it and it came as a shock. I really felt disgusted by that statement so i sent it to him.
Then he said kindly get yourself another boyfriend.
Ah ah, biggest shocked of my life and blocked me on whatsapp.

Reached him via text but he didn't reply. So, i gave him a break.
Later sent him a mail which he replied. We talked and seemed like we were having it back together and i merely asked him to apologize for he said to me and he said he wouldn't. All i wanted was i'm sorry for my harsh words.
I decided not to beg him this time. Each time we have issues which mostly he's wrong, i apologize. I really can't bear him not talking to him. I don't keep friends, i tell him everything like everything, my world basically evolves around him. My first bf, i don't believe in multi. He has been saying we should get married but i just don't have it together yet. So, i was already saying team 2020 lol.

I have never imagined myself with any other guy but why can't he just say something as little as I'm sorry.
I'm sorry to me can make me forgive anyone for anything they've done for me.

I don't always have to do the begging. What if we get married. I'd get tired of begging him.
There were times i wanted to break up with him but i always find a lot of reasons to stay and he'd beg me not to say it again but now its reversed and he can't even find a reason to stay. Really painful.

No calls, no messages. I'm going crazy.

Now that it seems like we've broken up, i can barely eat, sleep(always waking up with a swollen eyes from crying. My sisters already said i have apollo sef). I can't think straight, I'm slow etc
There are so many guys asking me out but i can't bring myself to go on dates.
It feels weird that it's not with him.

I basically don't know where to start from. It has just been one guy for almost 4 years. 17-21yrs.

How do i move on or forget him? is there an easy way?

This is just a brief summary. I can occupy the entire front page if were to go in details.

You can ask me questions.

Biglittlelois:
You are my kind, very rare, guys like him always come begging, he'll come back begging, but don't fall, just move on, you'll be fine.

If true, then your Boyfriend is one lucky dude...

Bironke:
Long post but please i really need the advice. Please.

Background.
I started dating my now ex-boyfriend when i was 17. We met when i was in 100lvl but started dating in 200lvl.
He's 6years older than me.
It has always been long distance. 9-10hours apart but that wasn't a problem for either of us.
He was my first boyfriend and i thought, hoped and prayed would be the last. I've always wanted just a guy in my life. He did his masters in kaduna while i served in minna. He chose it so we could be closer together.

Bironke:
Long post but please i really need the advice. Please.

Background.
I started dating my now ex-boyfriend when i was 17. We met when i was in 100lvl but started dating in 200lvl.
He's 6years older than me.
It has always been long distance. 9-10hours apart but that wasn't a problem for either of us.
He was my first boyfriend and i thought, hoped and prayed would be the last. I've always wanted just a guy in my life. He did his masters in kaduna while i served in minna. He chose it so we could be closer together. All through my service year, i was the one doing the visiting because he later started working in abj around that time which kept him busy and tired.
So, i thought it was only proper for me to be visiting.
We ended up having sex on one of the visits and that was 3 years down the relationship.

He's a very good guy, doesn't pressurize me, loves me, not promiscious, but he has a bad habit of not picking up hints and he doesn't know how to talk also.

Whenever i travelled, i went with foodstuffs, utensils and appliances he might need. So, it left me broke as a corper at times. At times, i randomly say I'm broke to him and he buys data when offline. My problem with that is i wish he payed more attention.
All through almost 4 years now, i never asked for a dime and he never gave me.

I once had a boi seminar in abj and of course i used the opportunity to see the love of my life. Nysc orientation camp was given as accommodation. So, there was this day i saw some clothes i liked and wished to buy. So, while chatting, i told him i saw some nice clothes i liked. I expected him to say something like let me add something for you but he merely said ehn ehn. Ended up buying all myself which he later saw too. This is just one instance. I honestly cant remember others. I don't keep tabs on things like this.

Before you castigate me, what I'm saying is i just want to feel special. All through the time i went to abj, he never for once took me out. We were always inside on weekends and i was always alone weekdays since i belonged to ministry of no work lol (served at local govt secretariat). I didn't hate it as i don't really like being around people.

I'm from a richer family than him which makes me have more money than him. I sort him out with little whenever he didn't have enough on him. I'm not comparing us now but even if i have, i just want him to be my man and make me feel loved by doing even little for me.

I'm very easy to please, very simple and i definitely love hard. Just writing me a note, buying me a book, basically little gestures can make me smile. I'm light hearted.

Trust was never an issue between us.

There were however days i wanted to break up with him because of his bad manners. (doesn't know how to talk and since I'm a words person, it gets to me a lot) He knows that but isn't willing to compromise on that little for me. This is our biggest problem. I'm quick to say sorry, thank you, i forgive you but him, he wouldn't talk to me for days till after so much teasing and cajoling from me..

Honestly, aside this, we are perfect for each other based on our mutual likes for stuffs but love is never enough.

THE FIGHT.
I told him i was broke. He wanted to purchase a shirt on aliexpress. i always do that for him and he sent 6k extra.
I knew the extra was for me but i just wanted him to say it. He got pissed. Didn't say but i knew and told me to ask anyone about the money situation. That is why he sent extra. That was the first time ever he decided to send me money so, i was surprised because there were several times he could have but didn't.
I told him the next day asking anyone wasn't necessary but i had something to say. I kind of let it all out. Not angrily, just said my mind. He was angry of course but i didn't think he would take it so serious. He compared me to his exs, said i have pride and don't appreciate stuffs. I was pissed he would say that to me cos it's not true.
What followed was "kindly send my money back"
Didn't expect it and it came as a shock. I really felt disgusted by that statement so i sent it to him.
Then he said kindly get yourself another boyfriend.
Ah ah, biggest shocked of my life and blocked me on whatsapp.

Reached him via text but he didn't reply. So, i gave him a break.
Later sent him a mail which he replied. We talked and seemed like we were having it back together and i merely asked him to apologize for he said to me and he said he wouldn't. All i wanted was i'm sorry for my harsh words.
I decided not to beg him this time. Each time we have issues which mostly he's wrong, i apologize. I really can't bear him not talking to him. I don't keep friends, i tell him everything like everything, my world basically evolves around him. My first bf, i don't believe in multi. He has been saying we should get married but i just don't have it together yet. So, i was already saying team 2020 lol.

I have never imagined myself with any other guy but why can't he just say something as little as I'm sorry.
I'm sorry to me can make me forgive anyone for anything they've done for me.

I don't always have to do the begging. What if we get married. I'd get tired of begging him.
There were times i wanted to break up with him but i always find a lot of reasons to stay and he'd beg me not to say it again but now its reversed and he can't even find a reason to stay. Really painful.

No calls, no messages. I'm going crazy.

Now that it seems like we've broken up, i can barely eat, sleep(always waking up with a swollen eyes from crying. My sisters already said i have apollo sef). I can't think straight, I'm slow etc
There are so many guys asking me out but i can't bring myself to go on dates.
It feels weird that it's not with him.

I basically don't know where to start from. It has just been one guy for almost 4 years. 17-21yrs.

How do i move on or forget him? is there an easy way?

This is just a brief summary. I can occupy the entire front page if were to go in details.

You can ask me questions.

Biglittlelois:
You are my kind, very rare, guys like him always come begging, he'll come back begging, but don't fall, just move on, you'll be fine.

Bironke:
Hi guys. Just wanted to say a really big thank you to you all. I really appreciate all your sincere words, advice and suggestions.
I'll definitely put them to practice.
Some made smile in many days . I feel a little better already.
Thank you.

labanj1:
We plenty wey dey find am.

Bironke:
Long post but please i really need the advice. Please.

Background.
I started dating my now ex-boyfriend when i was 17. We met when i was in 100lvl but started dating in 200lvl.
He's 6years older than me.
It has always been long distance. 9-10hours apart but that wasn't a problem for either of us.
He was my first boyfriend and i thought, hoped and prayed would be the last. I've always wanted just a guy in my life. He did his masters in kaduna while i served in minna. He chose it so we could be closer together. All through my service year, i was the one doing the visiting because he later started working in abj around that time which kept him busy and tired.
So, i thought it was only proper for me to be visiting.
We ended up having sex on one of the visits and that was 3 years down the relationship.

He's a very good guy, doesn't pressurize me, loves me, not promiscious, but he has a bad habit of not picking up hints and he doesn't know how to talk also.

Whenever i travelled, i went with foodstuffs, utensils and appliances he might need. So, it left me broke as a corper at times. At times, i randomly say I'm broke to him and he buys data when offline. My problem with that is i wish he payed more attention.
All through almost 4 years now, i never asked for a dime and he never gave me.

I once had a boi seminar in abj and of course i used the opportunity to see the love of my life. Nysc orientation camp was given as accommodation. So, there was this day i saw some clothes i liked and wished to buy. So, while chatting, i told him i saw some nice clothes i liked. I expected him to say something like let me add something for you but he merely said ehn ehn. Ended up buying all myself which he later saw too. This is just one instance. I honestly cant remember others. I don't keep tabs on things like this.

Before you castigate me, what I'm saying is i just want to feel special. All through the time i went to abj, he never for once took me out. We were always inside on weekends and i was always alone weekdays since i belonged to ministry of no work lol (served at local govt secretariat). I didn't hate it as i don't really like being around people.

I'm from a richer family than him which makes me have more money than him. I sort him out with little whenever he didn't have enough on him. I'm not comparing us now but even if i have, i just want him to be my man and make me feel loved by doing even little for me.

I'm very easy to please, very simple and i definitely love hard. Just writing me a note, buying me a book, basically little gestures can make me smile. I'm light hearted.

Trust was never an issue between us.

There were however days i wanted to break up with him because of his bad manners. (doesn't know how to talk and since I'm a words person, it gets to me a lot) He knows that but isn't willing to compromise on that little for me. This is our biggest problem. I'm quick to say sorry, thank you, i forgive you but him, he wouldn't talk to me for days till after so much teasing and cajoling from me..

Honestly, aside this, we are perfect for each other based on our mutual likes for stuffs but love is never enough.

THE FIGHT.
I told him i was broke. He wanted to purchase a shirt on aliexpress. i always do that for him and he sent 6k extra.
I knew the extra was for me but i just wanted him to say it. He got pissed. Didn't say but i knew and told me to ask anyone about the money situation. That is why he sent extra. That was the first time ever he decided to send me money so, i was surprised because there were several times he could have but didn't.
I told him the next day asking anyone wasn't necessary but i had something to say. I kind of let it all out. Not angrily, just said my mind. He was angry of course but i didn't think he would take it so serious. He compared me to his exs, said i have pride and don't appreciate stuffs. I was pissed he would say that to me cos it's not true.
What followed was "kindly send my money back"
Didn't expect it and it came as a shock. I really felt disgusted by that statement so i sent it to him.
Then he said kindly get yourself another boyfriend.
Ah ah, biggest shocked of my life and blocked me on whatsapp.

Reached him via text but he didn't reply. So, i gave him a break.
Later sent him a mail which he replied. We talked and seemed like we were having it back together and i merely asked him to apologize for he said to me and he said he wouldn't. All i wanted was i'm sorry for my harsh words.
I decided not to beg him this time. Each time we have issues which mostly he's wrong, i apologize. I really can't bear him not talking to him. I don't keep friends, i tell him everything like everything, my world basically evolves around him. My first bf, i don't believe in multi. He has been saying we should get married but i just don't have it together yet. So, i was already saying team 2020 lol.

I have never imagined myself with any other guy but why can't he just say something as little as I'm sorry.
I'm sorry to me can make me forgive anyone for anything they've done for me.

I don't always have to do the begging. What if we get married. I'd get tired of begging him.
There were times i wanted to break up with him but i always find a lot of reasons to stay and he'd beg me not to say it again but now its reversed and he can't even find a reason to stay. Really painful.

No calls, no messages. I'm going crazy.

Now that it seems like we've broken up, i can barely eat, sleep(always waking up with a swollen eyes from crying. My sisters already said i have apollo sef). I can't think straight, I'm slow etc
There are so many guys asking me out but i can't bring myself to go on dates.
It feels weird that it's not with him.

I basically don't know where to start from. It has just been one guy for almost 4 years. 17-21yrs.

How do i move on or forget him? is there an easy way?

This is just a brief summary. I can occupy the entire front page if were to go in details.

You can ask me questions.

Bironke:
Long post but please i really need the advice. Please.

Background.
I started dating my now ex-boyfriend when i was 17. We met when i was in 100lvl but started dating in 200lvl.
He's 6years older than me.
It has always been long distance. 9-10hours apart but that wasn't a problem for either of us.
He was my first boyfriend and i thought, hoped and prayed would be the last. I've always wanted just a guy in my life. He did his masters in kaduna while i served in minna. He chose it so we could be closer together. All through my service year, i was the one doing the visiting because he later started working in abj around that time which kept him busy and tired.
So, i thought it was only proper for me to be visiting.
We ended up having sex on one of the visits and that was 3 years down the relationship.

He's a very good guy, doesn't pressurize me, loves me, not promiscious, but he has a bad habit of not picking up hints and he doesn't know how to talk also.

Whenever i travelled, i went with foodstuffs, utensils and appliances he might need. So, it left me broke as a corper at times. At times, i randomly say I'm broke to him and he buys data when offline. My problem with that is i wish he payed more attention.
All through almost 4 years now, i never asked for a dime and he never gave me.

I once had a boi seminar in abj and of course i used the opportunity to see the love of my life. Nysc orientation camp was given as accommodation. So, there was this day i saw some clothes i liked and wished to buy. So, while chatting, i told him i saw some nice clothes i liked. I expected him to say something like let me add something for you but he merely said ehn ehn. Ended up buying all myself which he later saw too. This is just one instance. I honestly cant remember others. I don't keep tabs on things like this.

Before you castigate me, what I'm saying is i just want to feel special. All through the time i went to abj, he never for once took me out. We were always inside on weekends and i was always alone weekdays since i belonged to ministry of no work lol (served at local govt secretariat). I didn't hate it as i don't really like being around people.

I'm from a richer family than him which makes me have more money than him. I sort him out with little whenever he didn't have enough on him. I'm not comparing us now but even if i have, i just want him to be my man and make me feel loved by doing even little for me.

I'm very easy to please, very simple and i definitely love hard. Just writing me a note, buying me a book, basically little gestures can make me smile. I'm light hearted.

Trust was never an issue between us.

There were however days i wanted to break up with him because of his bad manners. (doesn't know how to talk and since I'm a words person, it gets to me a lot) He knows that but isn't willing to compromise on that little for me. This is our biggest problem. I'm quick to say sorry, thank you, i forgive you but him, he wouldn't talk to me for days till after so much teasing and cajoling from me..

Honestly, aside this, we are perfect for each other based on our mutual likes for stuffs but love is never enough.

THE FIGHT.
I told him i was broke. He wanted to purchase a shirt on aliexpress. i always do that for him and he sent 6k extra.
I knew the extra was for me but i just wanted him to say it. He got pissed. Didn't say but i knew and told me to ask anyone about the money situation. That is why he sent extra. That was the first time ever he decided to send me money so, i was surprised because there were several times he could have but didn't.
I told him the next day asking anyone wasn't necessary but i had something to say. I kind of let it all out. Not angrily, just said my mind. He was angry of course but i didn't think he would take it so serious. He compared me to his exs, said i have pride and don't appreciate stuffs. I was pissed he would say that to me cos it's not true.
What followed was "kindly send my money back"
Didn't expect it and it came as a shock. I really felt disgusted by that statement so i sent it to him.
Then he said kindly get yourself another boyfriend.
Ah ah, biggest shocked of my life and blocked me on whatsapp.

Reached him via text but he didn't reply. So, i gave him a break.
Later sent him a mail which he replied. We talked and seemed like we were having it back together and i merely asked him to apologize for he said to me and he said he wouldn't. All i wanted was i'm sorry for my harsh words.
I decided not to beg him this time. Each time we have issues which mostly he's wrong, i apologize. I really can't bear him not talking to him. I don't keep friends, i tell him everything like everything, my world basically evolves around him. My first bf, i don't believe in multi. He has been saying we should get married but i just don't have it together yet. So, i was already saying team 2020 lol.

I have never imagined myself with any other guy but why can't he just say something as little as I'm sorry.
I'm sorry to me can make me forgive anyone for anything they've done for me.

I don't always have to do the begging. What if we get married. I'd get tired of begging him.
There were times i wanted to break up with him but i always find a lot of reasons to stay and he'd beg me not to say it again but now its reversed and he can't even find a reason to stay. Really painful.

No calls, no messages. I'm going crazy.

Now that it seems like we've broken up, i can barely eat, sleep(always waking up with a swollen eyes from crying. My sisters already said i have apollo sef). I can't think straight, I'm slow etc
There are so many guys asking me out but i can't bring myself to go on dates.
It feels weird that it's not with him.

I basically don't know where to start from. It has just been one guy for almost 4 years. 17-21yrs.

How do i move on or forget him? is there an easy way?

This is just a brief summary. I can occupy the entire front page if were to go in details.

You can ask me questions.