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*****WHY ?*****

Why do you tear me down
When all I do is build you up
Why do you hate me so much
Why do you deny my touch

Is drinking that important
and family so expendable
you call me names
and tell me I'm the one to blame

It's all my fault
I deserve a verbal assault
Not a bruise on my body
only scars on my soul

I am alone
I am scared
I'd be better on my own
What happened to the love we shared

I am a cheat, a liar
When all I am is a crier
you say I'm not faithful
but it's our relationship that's not stable

I don't deserve this
I am a good person
Lets try a kiss
to release my burden

when will you stop
stop the drunken arguments that mean nothing
I am tired, I am wore out, I can't go on
knowing I am not on top

I want to mean more than a liquid you pour down
your throat
the one that drives people away from you
does it mean that much to you
that you have to see all you can lose before
something means more.

I love you with all my heart and soul
But I am tired
tired of being put last
when you are so wired
you have to know my every move
but what do you do for me?
I don't ask much
just asking for you to improve.

*****Tears of love*****

Tears of pain run down my cheek,
wishing I was able to hold the one I seek.

Tears from my heart I cry,
left out here alone to die.

Tears I cry from the soul,
wishing my heart was once again whole.

Tasting the tears,
trying to wipe away the fears.

Wondering if I will ever be able to hold the one I
love,
wondering if someone will help me from above.

I can't take this anymore, you've won,
Tears run down my cheek, as I hold this gun.

******illusion of fantasy*****

Where do I go, which way do I turn
searching for that love I so desperatly yearn
fading memories of a past I'd soon forget
isolated and alone waiting for the one not met.

Is she just a vision or does she really exist
illusion of a fantasy like a ship in the mist
the truth of it all remains to be seen
for in this moment of time I can only dream.

Laying awake I stare into the night
doom and dread surround, like the demons I fight
river of emotions flow like a swift moving tide
spiraling so fast downward I slide.

Will ever I find that peace, I do not know
breaking down more with each passing blow
desperation and pain a part of everyday life
words not spoken that cut like a knife.