A masked spirit-man leaps high into the mid-afternoon sky.

The swishing sound of its whip slices the air as the sound of drumbeats is heard, increasing in intensity and reaching a crescendo that swallows up the squeaks of excitement from the gathering crowd. Two strong men are holding on to the ropes around the spirit-mans waist. Their muscles are bulging and sweat is streaking down their glistering black backs as they tug on the ropes to keep the leaping spirit-man from going on rampage.

Suddenly, from nowhere two other masked spirit-men are let loose.

Shrieks from the terrified children and women begin to rent the air as the children scatter in different directions, screaming as they run; looking for places to hide while the women take cover behind their husbands. Women are forbidden to look at the masked spirits face-to-face, lest some unspoken evil befall them.

These spirit-beings, ndi mmuo, who hide their faces behind the fierce-looking masks, are the mmawu; the living-dead who have come in response to the libations of the elders. These are the spirits of the ancestors who have climbed out from their world into ours through the tiny ant-holes in the ground and through which they will once again return to their world once their mission is accomplished.

They have come because the elders’ poured libations on the grounds and invoked them to come and cleanse the land as a prelude to the New Yam season. And for the last two days they have been on rampage; roaming from one compound to the other in search of those children who have committed different offences; offences that the children thought had been well-hidden from the prying eyes of adults.

I was hiding behind the large storage drum that is placed close to the wall of our house; the one that faces the allotment where our own section of the Obieze family has planted fluted pumpkins and corn. The storage drum has been placed at such a distance from the wall, that it can collect the water that drains from the edge of the corrugated zinc roof of the house.

My heart is pounding as I crouch behind the drum.

I am peeping out occasionally to see what is happening inside the compound and I glimpse that the mmawu has started to head back towards the crowd that is still gathered at centre of the compound. I begin to heave a sigh of relief because once again, the mmawu have not been able to catch any of the children from this compound…

“Kasi, why are you hiding? You stupid boy…” It is the voice of Da Agnes, my step-mother “…what have you done that you are hiding?”
“Da, I have done nothing!?”
“Da, I have done nothing? “ She mimics, coming up to me and starts to wring my ears.
“Ouch! Leave me alone…”
“Shut up! If you don’t tell me what you have done I am going to take you to the mmawu to punish you. Useless child!”
“I have done nothing!”

“Okay, if you have done nothing, what about the lump of meat that went missing from the pot of soup yesterday? Do you think that I don’t count the number of meat in the pot?”
“Da, it wasn’t me!”
“Then it was me, stupid child!” She starts to wring my ear a little harder.
“Ouch! I don’t know who it was…”
“Okay, since you don’t know who it was, you will not eat meat in this house!” She said and pushed me with such force that I have crashed into the ground. ”You will not eat meat again, until you tell me who stole the meat from the pot. Idiot child!”

She is walking away. At least she didn’t bring out the broom to hit me as she did yesterday over an incident, which I don’t even know about. But I know the person who took the meat from the pot of soup. It was her daughter Ngozi, my four year old half-sister. She had gone to the kitchen and taken out some soup and a lump of meat for me to eat because she was aware that I hadn’t eaten for a whole day.

The sound of excitement brings me back to the unfolding dance of the masquerade that is playing out in the centre of the Obieze compound. I can hear the energetic beating of the drums and the crowd shouting as the masked spirit-men begin to depart for the next compound.

I am still lying on the ground where I have fallen. Tears are clouding my eyes and I can feel one trickling slowly down my right cheek. Why does Da Agnes treat me like this? And why does my father keep silent when it is so clear that his wife hates the ground on which I walk. She tells me that I am useless and that I am just like my mothers people, who she says killed members of her family during the war that ended just a few years ago.

I am wondering why no one speaks out for me as I think of the suffering that[i] Da [/i] Agnes has subjected me to on a daily basis. And the tears continue to stream down my cheeks; tiny rivulets of tears that taste like salt-water. I am trying very hard not to cry because I don’t want her to see what she is doing to me. But my chest is heaving up and down and it feels as if something tender is breaking inside of me.

Da Agnes says that I will amount to nothing in my life but I will grow up and prove her wrong. I know that I am just eight years old and that I do not have any power over my life. But she will live to see me become a good man; one day…

BOOK ONE: The last Days of Innocence

“Experience, which destroys innocence, also leads one back to it.”                                                                    -                                                                               James Arthur Baldwin.


Ten years later…

Uncle Levy’s old blue Peugeot 504 salon-car has been parked outside the departure lounge of the Murtala Mohammed International Airport in Lagos for the past ten minutes. It is raining heavily outside and I am wondering how best to get out of the car; haul my luggage out of the boot and then dash into the airport with my heavy load, without getting wet.

I am peering at the rain right now and watching the thick slices of raindrops as they crash into the closed car windows with such ferocity that makes me think of the sound of thousands of ripe udara fruits falling onto the corrugated zinc rooftops in the village; after their branches have been shaken vigorously by a mischievous schoolboy. If the size of the raindrops had been as big as the udara, many things would have been damaged.

“Kasi…” It is uncle Levy calling me“…I’m running late for work and I will need to leave here within the next ten minutes…” He is speaking to me in English again; this almost got him into trouble at our village-people’s meeting yesterday.

He had taken me to the meeting and as the Igbo tradition demands, I was asked to break the Cola-nut since I was the youngest person there. Uncle Levy had tried to give me instructions in English on how to go about dividing the cola nuts equally among every body there; but this had incensed some of the elders who remarked that he had done something sacrilegious!

“He is talking English to us when we are breaking cola nut…Ewoo…the land is defiled!” somebody muttered. But Uncle Levy had tried to defend himself-still in English-and ended up being shouted down by the now irate elders:
“Shut up! We are discussing what he has done and he is doing more! Chei…the white man’s education is making our children to forget the customs of the land…”A redcap-wearing chief stated and decided that Uncle Levy should be fined. And then they had argued about how much fine he should pay.

“He is a foolish person…onye iberibe” A bald headed man with greying hair had muttered to the person who sat next to him, glaring at uncle Levy after they had come to a consensus on the fine.
     
I eventually broke the cola-nuts and passed them around with a bit of guidance from the red-capped chief.
“My son, when you go to the white man’s country I hope that you will not come back as foolish as your uncle…!” He muttered as I brought the tray of cola-nuts before him to take his own pick.

“What’s wrong with this foolish man?” Uncle Levy muttered, jolting me back to the moment. The driver of the white Mercedes salon-car parked next to us has been beeping his horns loudly for the past few minutes. Though other cars have their horns also beeping, the proximity of the Mercedes was making the sound of his own to grate on the nerves. Most of the noise outside has been muffled by the sound of the rain. Now and then a spark of lightening is seen flashing across the darkening Lagos sky and then there would be the ominous rumble of thunder.

“Look at that porter over there in the yellow raincoat…” Uncle Levy is saying and starts to beep his horn to draw the man’s attention. The porter doesn’t seem to be able to pick out the sound of the horning from the rest and he is darting his head from one side to the other in apparent confusion.”…You’ll have to dash over there to him and get him to help with your luggage”

“Okay…“ I say trying to brace myself for the ordeal of having to run through the rain.
   “…em…” I clear my throat ready to make the parting speech, which is the respectful thing to do“…Uncle, you have done well for me. I won‘t let you down in my studies…”

“It’s yourself that you should not let down, Kasi. You must never forget what you are going there to do. You are no longer a child.”
“I know…”I say as we shake hands and I notice that his grip is very firm. He is looking into my eyes and I have to lower my gaze out of respect.
“When you return you will be a good man…ezigbo nwoke”
“I know…” I say as a lump gets stuck in my throat.
“Okay then, let it be…”
“Let it be…” I say and dash out of the car.

@ angel_empy

Thanks.
The excerpt above was the penultimate prologue for my book Guilt and Redemtion but after a lot of consideration-and hearing that it wasn't gripping enough-i have revised the prologue and what would have been the epilogue has become the new prologue 

You're right if i sound confused!

The new prologue is set somewhere in London on Christmas eve of the millenium year.
You will meet Kasi-now all grown up and quite accomplished in life-in search of absolution. This is inspite of the fact that he has now become the 'good man' he wanted to be.

I'll be posting that new prologue once i'm back in town on sunday night (i'm in the office and will be leaving straight to the airport and i have just realised that i don't have a mobile version of the manuscript on me!)

Essentially, Guilt and Redemption takes the reader through Kasi's journey from innocence, through a wilderness experience of self-indulgence and back in search of his lost innocence.

It will raise the questions of why we do the things we do. It will also ask about the prescription for absolution from guilt. Kasi, for reason's hidden in the book, will decide not to believe in the option of submitting to any higher authority other than himself.

But then again, this is really a tragic love story. You see love, at the end of the day, is the greatest power on earth. And it is worth writing about. It is a tragedy though because even those who love still die.

For your sake, i will post that new prologue when i return.

[color=#006600]thanks a lot. pls look at the excerpt from my soon to be published book'adventures of the awesome four.'
i personally think the story isnt such a hype, but just sincerely tell me what u think.its meant to be a children's classics.
Teacher Nwankwo was in the garden behind his house pruning the soil with a garden fork. His house made of burnt brick was built by the missionaries for teachers of senior classes. It was a two-room house with a bathroom and toilet at the far end of the school premises.
His wife, a young girl-once a student in his class had made a little shed beside the first room and it served as kitchen. They had no children yet, but his wife was pregnant and her protruding belly stood out in front like a protégé.
A few children who had problems with their school work or were stubborn-stayed with the teacher and wife for at least two weeks. The four children- three boys and a girl who lived with him were working on the farm. The boys were weeding the farm while farm while the girl plucked okro seeds and vegetable for household use.
The teacher who stood at an amazing 5ft 9 inches as compared to his wife of less than 5ft, had on faded knickers and a white turned ash singlet. His broad shoulders moved in rhymic patterns as he worked.
His body shone with sweat and he hummed to himself in a monotone. The boys grumbled but wouldn’t let him hear them for fear of smelling his rod. From a distance, the noise of children having an extra-mural class with a teacher was spread evenly over the compound by the wind.
“My lord, you have visitors.” Nneka the teacher’s wife announced to him.
He stood from his working position and looked in the direction of his heavily pregnant wife.
“What did you say?” He asked.
He looked up and saw four boys. He recognized them immediatey.
“Kachi, come and take this fork.” He said to one of the boys working with him.
The boy who had a large dark birthmark on his chin came and took the fork; and the teacher went over to where the boys stood on his verandah.
“Good day sir” The boys chorused.
“Good day boys.” He replied
A little silence ensued as sweat dripped down his hairline, his dirty hands were clasped together. The silence was embarrassing.
“Do you want to see me?” He asked the boys helping to loose their tied tongues.
“Yes sir.” Gozie said
The children working on the garden occasionally raised their heads to look at the teacher and his visitors.
“Come with me.” He led the children from his house towards the school library. They walked past the head master’s office until they reached a room with an inscription on it. “Assistant head teacher” it read. The boys exchanged glances.
The teacher opened the door and led them in. He sat on a table behind a desk and waved them to a seat while the twins stood behind them like their bodyguards.
“So what could be the problem?” Teacher Nwankwo asked in his characteristic straight to point manner.
The boys looked at each other.
“Sir, it is about Gozie.” Tobe said boldly. The teacher gazed at him. The former paused.
“Yes, go ahead.”
His friends had their heads swimming over their necks.
“He may not be coming to Umueze with us next week.”
The teacher sat up on his seat.
“But why?”
“His mother said she can’t afford to see him through secondary school.”
“So…………………….?”
“She is sending him to Umuohi to stay with his father.”
Everyone became quiet. Teacher Nwankwo seemed to be pondering what he had just heard. As if waking up from a deep slumber, Gozie spoke.
“I do not like my father. He is a cruel man. I don’t want to be far away from my family and friends. I don’t to go to Umuohi.” He said. He had begun to cry. His face looks pathetic.
The teacher was moved, he came over to where Gozie sat and pulled him up. The snout, tears and mucus filled his face.
The teacher held him close.
“Don’t cry Gozie my boy, you will not go to Umuohi. I promise you that.” The huge man said trying to prevent his dirty hands from touching Gozie’s blue strip shirt.
The rest of the boys watched with hope in their eyes as the teacher consoled their friend.[/color]

@ Angel_empy
You may want to post your excerpt on a new thread to allow room for people to post their comments. Under this particular thread-The Masquerade-it doesn't seem quite right.

But below is the new prologue i promised.


PROLOGUE

24th December, 2000. Somewhere in London.

The on-call bleep, lying on the table just across from where i am sitting, has just gone off. I check my watch and I notice that it’s 9:08pm.I can still hear the footsteps of my colleague, whose shift had just ended 8minutes ago, walking down the corridor towards the lift. He has just handed over a patient who is ‘waiting to be cleared by the medics’ and as I look at the number that is flashing across the screen of my bleep, I am beginning to think that this is going to be another very busy night.

It is Christmas Eve again and as always it was very easy for me to arrange to be on-call. Most of my colleagues always wonder why I like to work on Christmas Eve but I find it difficult to explain to them that I just have to be working tonight. It’s something that just has to be because it was on a night like this, so many years ago that Tanya died. Tanya, the lovely half-Russian girl who loved me had killed herself on Christmas Eve. I try not to think of it; I tell myself that time would ease the feeling of guilt but my soul remains restless and nothing I do seems to be enough to pacify her spirit that torments my soul.

If only I had fulfilled my promises to her. If only I had ignored my own self-pity and told her the words that she so longed to hear from my lips; If only I could turn back the hands of time. But I too was young and so very foolish. And now the mistakes of my youth will live with me forever…


I was feeling cold on the last night I saw Tanya alive. Even though it was early spring, I remember a cold chill come over me as I had stepped out of the bus that had brought me on the twelve hours trip to Pyatigorsk, the Russian town, which is located on the foothills of the Caucasus Mountains, where she was studying English and German at the Pedagogic University. I had come in from Rostov-On-Don, the city where I was a second year medical student.

But as I remember that night, I am no longer sure if it was really the weather that was cold or if it was the cold breeze that blows over me whenever I think of that night. I have relived that night so many times in my mind and I know that there is so many things that I could have made to happen differently. I could have stopped her from killing herself. But I didn’t.

The taxi I took from the bus station had stopped me in front of her hostel, which is located just off Kalinin Avenue. I had gone up to her room on the third floor of the hostel and she had been alone that night. As she opened the front door, I first noticed that she had a bandage tied around her left arm and it was stained with blood. This meant that she had cut herself again.

Tanya had once told me that she cuts herself as a distraction from the inner pains. She said that physical pain is a lot more bearable than 'the thing' that she felt inside and that whenever she cuts herself, it feels as if ‘something is released and the pain is bled away in the blood’.

After I saw the blood-stained bandage, I then noticed her eyes. And I knew that something had gone irredeemably wrong. I could not quite define why I felt that way, but I sensed something and it sent a chill down my spine. It was also then that I knew that I had lost Tanya and that the person who stood in front of me was a total stranger-a cold life-form that was bereft of life.

I could sense no more that hope, which had sparkled in her eyes, almost a life time earlier, when we had taken long walks through the romantic green avenues of Gorky Park, where we fed the squirrels and discovered a desire for each other that seemed so pure and so innocent. A desire that roused her to make the promise of love to me, after our lips had brushed in our first shared kiss, under the shower of the water-fountain as the music of Ala Pugachova had played so softly in the background.
   
I remember how we had gotten drunk in each others laughter as we watched other young lovers, walking by hand-in-hand with no cares in the world, whispering foolishness into each others ears. I remember the lovely sparkle in her eyes as she had asked me about how comes love has the power to make children out of adults and had then started laughing out of the joy of just having me there with her at that moment…
     
But those same eyes were now lifeless as they stared back at me on that night in Pyatigorsk. They had been staring inwards and had looked so frightened by what they were seeing. And when I had asked her what was happening to her, she had met my questions with the ghost of a smile and then started to respond in monotones; giving away very little and yet…and yet I knew that she was screaming out to me for help. But what she wanted of me I could not give to her because my life was so messed up at the time.
   
Later that evening, I had walked out of her hostel and into the cold Pyatigorsk night, thinking of the haunting smile that had lingered on her lips as she had shut the door of her room, quietly behind me. And as I walked into the night, I knew that I should not have left her alone.
     
When I came back to Pyatigorsk four weeks later it was already too late. I was told that she had packed her bags in the week of my previous visit and had left town. And after that nobody-not even her babushka-knew where she had disappeared to.

Eight months later, babushka had come to my hostel and informed me that Tanya had been found by some strangers. They said that she had been lying in the snow and was slowly bleeding to death from a deep cut on her left wrist. The strangers had called an ambulance, but by the time the ambulance arrived, she had lost too much blood and had died a few minutes later, in the early hours of Christmas morning. They say that before she died, she had kept on repeating one strange name, which babushka says sounded like the name ‘Kasi’. She had kept on repeating that name as she bled out her pain and then finally became still in death… 


“Hello, it’s the duty Doctor here. Did you bleep me just now?”
“Yes. Is that Kasi?”
“Yes…”
“Did your colleague tell you about the patient in the A&E?
“Yes…”
“She’s been medically cleared”
“Okay, see you in a bit then…”
     
I have just stepped out of the long corridor of the main building and I have walked into the drizzling rain. I am walking briskly across the well-lit hospital car park and I notice that an ambulance has stopped in front of the large A&E building. As I approach the building, the back door of the ambulance is flung open and two paramedics have jumped out and are trying to lift out a patient who is lying on a stretcher. A very tall black man, wearing the green porters’ uniform, has wheeled out a hospital trolley up to the back of the ambulance, and the paramedics have hoisted the patient onto the trolley.
     
A male nurse who has just come out of the A&E building has been handed over a drip bag with an IV-line running into the right arm of the patient on the stretcher and as I pass by, I notice that the patient is a pale-faced middle aged white woman and she seems to be in a lot of pain.     
     
I have stepped into the warm brightly lit reception hall of the A&E and I notice that it is crowded as always. A scruffy looking white man, whose offensive smell of alcohol can be smelled from the entrance, is talking at the top of his voice to a middle aged Asian man in a Sikhs turban. The unfolding commotion is disrupting the long queue of people, who had been patiently waiting for their turns to be attended to by the elderly female reception clerk. She was was now standing behind the glass security panel and looked quite flustered by the commotion. 
‘Join the bloody line…!” The man in the turban is shouting at the disheveled gentleman. 
‘No, you go back to your country you bloody paki!’
     
I notice that at the far end of the hall, two police men are standing next to a large black man in handcuffs. The man in handcuffs seems to have a swollen left eye and I can see what appear to be blood stains on the left side of his torn white shirt. The police men are talking among themselves and it looks like they are going to intervene in the unfolding commotion.

“Kasi…!” I hear the familiar voice of Kate, the Psychiatry Liaison nurse, calling me from behind and I turn to see her coming towards me, carrying some papers in her hands.             
       
We have now walked into the restricted area together and have closed the reinforced glass doors behind us, shutting out the noise in the waiting area.
“Can you tell me a little bit more about the patient?”
“She is a sixteen year old girl with a recent impulsive paracetamol overdose”
“Has she been medically cleared?”
“Yes, she took twenty tablets and her bloods have come back okay…”
“Is she known to our services?”
“This is the second time she is presenting in the last few months. She has a past history of self-harming and attention-seeking behaviour, basically another PD-in-the-making…”

I winced when she described the behaviour as ‘attention-seeking’. A lot of the staff, working in the front-line services, has come to dislike the personality-disordered patients or the PD’s as they are called. These patients have been much traumatized in their childhoods are now finding it a difficult to cope with the challenges of interpersonal relationships. It is as if their feelings of emptiness and frustration are such that even the staffs, who work with them, eventually end up feeling emotionally drained from the realization that their lives are too complicated to really sort out.
“There she is over there…”
       
The person she is pointing out to me is a young girl of what looks like a mixed African-Caucasian racial background, possibly Asian. I notice, from her long legs that are pulled in under her chair, that she is quite tall for a sixteen year old. I suppose it’s her very slim frame, of somebody who has been starving herself of food that makes her to appear a lot taller than she really is. She is seated on a blue plastic chair with her head bowed and her long black hair is cascading over her slender fingers that are holding up her head.
   
As I approach, I can hear the sound of sobbing coming from her. I have checked the name on the case-note, which the liaison nurse has just handed over to me.
“Hello…” I say as she raises her head and looks from me to the nurse. Her face is slender and beautiful and her large brown eyes look so puffed up and tired…
“Amina, this is the duty doctor…”the nurse says“…Kasi, I really have a lot of work to do. Can I leave her with you?”
“You know what the policy is about male staff needing chaperones…I’m sorry”
“I’m Dr Obieze…” I say, addressing the young lady “…I am the Psychiatrist-on-call and I have been asked to come and talk with you. Is that okay?”
“Yes”
“Can we go to the consulting room over there?”

She is nodding and has slowly gotten up from her chair. She is now following me to the adjoining consulting room and the nurse is walking just behind us.
“Please sit down….” I say offering her a seat and deciding to wait for her to settle down a bit, but she remains standing. “I know it must be difficult for you, but please sit down and let’s see how we can help you…”
“Amina sit down and stop crying so that the Doctor can ask you some questions”
   
She has decided to sit down, but her sobbing is not abating. The tears continue to stream down from her swollen eyes and I notice that the front of her sweat-shirt is already soaked in tears.  I am reaching for the box of tissues on the table next to her.
“Here, have a tissue, okay and maybe you can tell me why you are crying…”
“I want to die and you cannot help me!”!” she declares and starts to sob again.

I have picked up her notes to flick through and have decided to allow her to cry a bit more. I notice that the nurse is glancing at her watch, but I am ignoring her as I flick through Amina’s notes, checking for any significant events in her life that may have been documented. She has already been here before and it is important for me to have an understanding of what her underlying psychological make-up is. I am reading that she was abandoned by her single-parent mother and then adopted by a middle-aged couple. She was then sexually abused by her adoptive father and has since been living in one care home after another for the past eight years. Poor girl.
     
What really can I do for her? What will my mere words do that will erase the stained slates of her troubled soul? Can I offer her anything that will give her a new beginning and make her learn to trust life again? I am feeling frustration already and I have not even started to talk to her. I am watching her sob and I see how her whole body heaves up and down in fits of pain from her unhealing life wounds.

“My boyfriend has just left me….” She says in-between sobs and starts to wipe her puffed up eyes with the fragmenting tissue-a metaphor for her life-that have now become so soaked with the streams of her unending tears.
“Here, have another one….”I say offering her another tissue.
     
I am watching her and as always I hear Tanya’s voice calling my name, crying out to me to save her.     
What do you want me to do, Tanya that will be enough for you to set me free…?
     
Amina is groaning in emotional pain and I can hear the words of her unvoiced cry. I can hear her reaching out to me for help, but I am feeling so very powerless before her.
“I am here to help you…”



BOOK ONE: The last Days of Innocence

“Experience, which destroys innocence, also leads one back to it.”                                                                    -                                                                               James Arthur Baldwin.

Fourteen years earlier

this is interesting!!!
but i guess it wouldnt
be expensive here when
published!!!