In this emotional piece Nigeria’s weird one, Charly Boy writes straight from his heart of hearts. His intent is to reach out to someone who like him is at the lowest ebb of his/her life, in the wilderness of loneliness and emptiness. He’s aptly titled it ‘Escape from the Wilderness.’ Happy reading and remember to thank me later. Cheerios...

Escape From The Wilderness

Does anyone know how I really feel right now? So alone and empty, God! how I feel the pain. If you’re in the wilderness like me, then you know it can be insane. Here, my eyes are bleeding tears and my smiles are protecting my fears. I can’t even go around and fake happy, because I’m in stagnation and it is hitting me from all directions. There is this disturbing feeling that time is passing me by, yet I’m paralyzed, I can’t move and I can’t think too far. At nights I can’t sleep too easy, my heart is sore and my mind perpetually clustered with things that leave me shaking. Oh!!! God why? I have prayed I have fasted but nothing has changed, it’s almost a year now.

My dreams are nothing but nightmares of all the negatives in this wilderness. What’s happening to me? Look at me, I have always enjoyed comforting and giving directions to people in pain, right now I can’t even save myself and I have refused to take my own pills.Na so life be? On top of all of this, I’m so f…..king broke it’s a shame. No! It’s not just that I’m low in cash, but most importantly, it is about being in this state of helplessness, I’m not too proud to ask anyone for favour, but who will believe I need financial help when they have put me on such a high pedestal.

Wow, is this a case of Grace to Grass? Who would guess I’m dying slowly when all they can see is my biceps and triceps. I have always been the joy giver, I have put smiles on millions of faces and have inspired and motivated an army of youths, yet I can’t seem to talk myself out of this rot, out of this wilderness,hummmmm!! Why won’t this feeling of hopelessness leave me alone, I know I can do more than I’m doing for now, I know I deserve more. Too many times I have asked God, why me, why do I have to go through this wilderness....***Continue to read the rest from the link http://amakaikenga..com/2013/09/i-feel-so-lonely-and-empty-charly-boy.html

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Watch out for part 2....