Hey, this is for yall ardent porn watchers and pro masturbators, aka the vaseline boys..
Beware...but if this guy's story below doesn't touch u,then porn is now doing all your thinking. You need to rewire your brain.


Masturbation was not a word in my dictionary
when I was 17. I didnt even know what the
hell it was because I never had time or
exposure to the word. There's something
called "ragging" in professional colleges in
India, so a senior asked me if I knew how to
masturbate. Someone told me the meaning
of it, and I never bothered about it because I
had higher goals to achieve. Sounds fine until
now. Come age 20, I saw a porn image on a
computer at a cybercafe. That caused my
penis to go up. As far as I remember, I had
erections before but nothing to that
magnitude. But, its a public place and one
obviously feels embarassed if caught in the
act.
My father was kind enough to get me a
computer with an internet connection which
started masturbation addiction, or porn
addiction i should say (honestly, I dont know
which one). I masturbated maybe 3 times a
week or less during that period. It continued
for 3 years with some gaps in between
because I got busy with study. There was no
decline in my study or marks. I passed my
course with decent scores. During the fourth
year of my college I had a relationship with a
girl when I was 21. It lasted for a whole year.
Being brought up with conservative ideals, I
never had sex with her nor a french kiss. The
relationship was my first one. Owing either to
my inexperience in such matters or selection
criteria of the girl, she decided it wasnt a
good relationship to continue. I was heart-
broken. I believe everyone or most of the
people goes through such phases once in a
while. I was introduced to a spiritual person
who gave me a photo to pray to and
meditation. He was an aura reader and said I
had made "a mess of my life". At that point I
didnt understand what this mess was. But
neither did I have the mind to ask him. I
decided to do meditation. The addiction to
porn however did not go. I continued to
masturbate cause the urge was so strong, that
small periods of abstinence would make me
irritable. I would throw things in the house.
None of this affected my education or career
significantly at that point. I was a top scorer
in exams. I went abroad for further studies.
The spiritual person I talked about had
advised me that I would fall in trouble if I
had relationship with any girl abroad since he
foresaw events. My trust in his word was so
much that I never had a relationship with a
girl during this period. I got addicted to porn
so much during this period that I would
masturbate once daily, either by compulsion
or to go to sleep. Being anxious in nature and
depressed most of the time, it only increased
my obsession with porn. Masturbation
became a bad habit to release tension (not
just sexual tension). I decided it was time to
get married to a girl, but the relationship did
not work (it was not related to masturbation
or porn, cause I was very happy with her. She
had other plans....so we broke up). Well, you
guessed it right. Loneliness crept in again. For
the next 2 years, I masturbated almost every
night because I wouldnt be able to sleep
otherwise. My performance at work did not
go down, but I felt tired all the time, more
than I generally would otherwise. I became
more irritable, reclusive and lonely. No one
to talk to. Slowly but surely enough I felt
"old". I completed my course and took a job
which involved night work, sometimes 36
hours straight. I did that job for 8 months,
but quit since I could not take that stress
level (working 230 hours a month wasnt
easy). When I went back to the spiritual guru,
he said I had wasted all my energy in
masturbation and lost a lot of vital energy.
When I asked him if there was a way to
regain this vital energy, he said there is a
quota for everyone and we cannot get more.
Despite all that praying and meditation, I
couldnt control masturbation or addiction to
porn. I began feeling pain in both of my legs,
back pain, lethargy, no interest in actvities.
No interest in interaction with friends or near
ones. I have lost focus in my life. My sleep is
not fulfilling. My career interests are down
the drain. I dont know what to believe in
anymore. Where did I go wrong? did I follow
a wrong person?Did I masturbate too much
to deplete all this vital energy....? I have
stopped watching porn and masturbating and
have been so for 2 weeks. I dont know who to
trust or what to believe anymore. But I know something for sure, I WIll stop porn and masturbation even if its the last thing I do,even if it drains me of my willpower, I will prevail.

Try hard bro, wish you luck. Still having a hard time getting over it myself

youngpol:
Try hard bro, wish you luck. Still having a hard time getting over it myself

but how do one get addicted in d 1st time

teemanbastos:
but how do one get addicted in d 1st time

I can still remember vividly, I got addicted the year you made this post.

Now I'm regretting my actions, many people are suffering bro.

How I wish, I didn't know about it. I wish someone tell me but how will they know. I use to do it secretly.🥲