This is about my experience when PGAD affects me. I'm not constantly living with this arousal. It comes from time to time, whenever it feels like it. In my case, it doesn't last days, or months, or years like it does in some women. Mine only lasts for hours. There are women with very different, and much more debilitating cases of PGAD. I’m just trying to spread some awareness
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First off, I was overwhelmed with emotion reading the article about Gretchen in the Tampa Bay Times a few days ago. I finally gathered up the courage to watch what she had to say in her video today. When I did watch it, i balled my eyes out because i was able to so closely relate her experience to mine. It’s awful that something as serious as this disorder has only begun to get looked at. One could conclude that it’s because of the societal pressures women deal with when it comes to keeping our sexuality on the down low that it has only been diagnosed. I actually posted a few months ago in VOICEDIT if anyone else had PGAD and got no response.
I'd been dealing with PGAD since I'm pretty sure around 8 years of age. I remember finding porn around this age on the TV and obviously being turned on by it (I got caught once, and my parents blocked the channels).This was around the time I also discovered the shower head. Now, as time went on, I thought that it was normal to randomly get aroused without any kind of mental stimulation. I would be anywhere from home watching tv with my relatives, at school, at the mall, restaurants, etc and i badly needed to touch myself. I'd even done it with my family in the room (i'd wear an over-sized pj tshirt, pull it done over my feet, and just touch away). This went on all the time for years, then i finally get to middle school. In middle school, I finally really learned about masturbation from my guy friends. One day, this guy in my group of friends told us that if we would make it to masturbating 10 times in one day, we'd become immortal. I remember thinking, "only 10? I could reach about 20-30 orgasms a day for years now. I must be beyond immortal!" As I got older it became progressively worse. I remember one night around 9th grade, I was laying in bed about to go to sleep when it hit me. I was insatiable. Insatiable to the point where i rubbed myself raw, on the verge of bleeding, to the point where your clit should not be able to feel anymore, yet it was still throbbing with arousal. This lasted for HOURS until the NEXT MORNING. That night, i did not sleep one minute. Sitting at my desk in class was extremely uncomfortable. I was so frustrated and the only explanation I could think of was that I had an abnormally high sex drive, that I was hypersexual, possibly even a nymphomaniac even though I'd never had sex with a guy at that point.
When I did finally become sexually active, there were times when sure everything was normal. Everything was normal until the PGAD decided to make its unwanted visit. I'd become this insatiable beast. I made guys feel ashamed that they couldn't "keep up" with me. Not only could they not "keep up", but they couldn't satisfy me EVER. I hated sex for a while. It wasn't enjoyable because of the few bad experiences I'd had with the PGAD. I thought I was a nympho or that I had to be in love with someone to be satisfied. I was obsessed with the idea of sex, but I hated it at the same time. I lost my virginity to my high school love (unrequited love) so I assumed that I needed to feel loved for it not to affect me.
Fast forward to about a year ago when I was pretty much living with a boyfriend. This was the first boyfriend I’d ever had sex with . I’d stayed away from having boyfriends for years, I was and am still known for being a free spirit, and I’m not the kind to just settle just because I “need a man”. I still had no idea I had PGAD. Our sex life was above average. I hadn't been affected by it in about a month. I felt great, we even made love blah blah blah. My weird explanation for this was that I was finally sexually satisfied because I was in a “loving relationship”. Then, one night we’re laying in, bed after sex ,and he’s just fallen asleep. I’m on the computer doing some reading for class when the “insatiable feeling” decides to make its visit. I try to wake him, but we’d just had a good few rounds at it and he has to wake up in a few hours for work. So, I go ahead and touch myself. Touch myself til I can no longer bare to touch it anymore, but my clit is still pounding with arousal.
The relationship didn't last much longer after that.
This past May I was diagnosed with Panic Disorder among a few other anxiety disorders (something else I've been struggling with since I was a youngster, but it wasn't something the parental unit took seriously). The “insatiable feeling” was the least of my worries at this point because of the panic disorder and the panic attacks I was constantly experiencing. Anyway, a few sessions in, my therapist asks how my current love life was going. The “insatiable feeling” was the first thing to come to mind. I tell her about how every so often my body does this thing where I become ridiculously aroused for no reason and I can’t sleep, think, and I just want to cut my clit off. I said, “ I think I may be a nymphomaniac”. Then she told me that wasn't it at all, that it’s in fact PGAD. Tells me she has one other patient who has the same thing but hers lasts days at a time. I immediately felt some relief to know I was not alone.
I go home straight after my session and decide to bring it up to my mother. We’re really open about sexuality in my household but for some reason I had a bit of a difficult time telling my mom about it. After I finish telling her, she goes, “oh that’s what it is? Your father always did tell me I could have sex with the entire military and never be satisfied. I’ve had that forever.”
I ended up being prescribed by the psychiatrist 150mg Zoloft and 25mg Hydroxyzine (I refused to be prescribed any benzos) for my Panic Disorder. I was told these medications would reduce my sex drive, which it did, but had no affect on the PGAD. PGAD is purely physical from what I've experienced. I just have to deal with it when it comes around. Fortunately, my case seems to be pretty mild compared to many that I've read about, but it is still agonizing. I will even go as far as to say that it’s like my own body is raping me.
Anyway, this is getting a little too long. I’ll just leave you guys to ask questions .
**If you know anyone who has PGAD, please ask them to join in on this AMA. I'm curious to know about other women's experiences as well.



http://voicedit..com/2015/11/testimony-of-nympho-condition-medically.html