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|Re: Chances by Pearl05(f): 5:18pm On Jan 05|
Why did you tell dad about it penshalom?
You should have allowed mum to handle it nau.
|Re: Chances by Penshalom(f): 7:20pm On Jan 05|
Pearl05:Dad will find out eventually
|Re: Chances by AryEmber(f): 8:32am On Jan 06|
And I was hoping the pregnacy test they did was wrong oh but it's not always like that in reality truly. You paint it so real Penshalom, I love it.
|Re: Chances by Penshalom(f): 10:02am On Jan 06|
Song: Noni- Blackbird (Beyond The Lights Soundtrack)
My heart stopped at my Mom's answer.
Of course he knows, he probably brought me to the hospital.
"Is--is he really mad at me?" I asked as I played with my fingers.
"Uhm, relax yourself baby so I'll go and arrange for you to be discharged"
My Mom rushed out obviously avoiding my question.
Knowing my Dad he is probably raging like a wounded lion.
I'm so dead.
I stood up and took off the hospital gown to put on my clothes.
I touched my stomach, it's still unnoticeable but soon it will start forming a bump.
My Mom came back few minutes later, she gently moved me out of the room.
"Mom I can walk by myself"
I removed her hands off my shoulder gently, she gave me a weak smile and we both walked out of the hospital room.
I saw Dave by the car but I soon as he spotted me he entered and sat at the back seat, I sighed at that.
"Give your brother some time"
"He's probably disappointed in me" I said sadly.
"Why are you not saying anything Mom?"
"I'm mad at you Fe but I'm more sad at the fact that you could not confide in me. I'm sad that if I had been a better mother to you maybe, maybe this wouldn't have happened. The thought of how much you must have been scared when you found out, how you would have felt keeping this within you for so long brings tears to my eyes"
She sobbed quietly, my eyes too were filled with tears.
"Let's just get out of here first, we'll figure this out"
I texted Vera and told her everything when I entered the car and she texted me back that she will be on her way, Dave on the other hand kept quiet throughout the journey home looking out the window the whole time.
I HESITATED TO come out of the car when we got home, I even heard my Mom taking in unevened breaths.
She placed her hands on my nervous ones and I gripped it tightly in mine.
Dave interrupted our moment.
"Stay back in the car Felicia. Mom let's head in first."
Dave said not looking in my eyes as he talked, he walked away as he finished talking and Mom trailed after him later.
Vera came minutes after they've entered, sweating, she must have ran here.
"Felicia, Dad wants you"
I looked at Vera, she nodded at me and helped me out of the car, I hesitated many times before I turned the door knob, opened the door and entered the house with Vera behind me.
THE ATMOSPHERE WAS so tense you could touch it.
I stood there in the middle of the sitting room, my Mom, Dave, Vera and my Dad surrounding me, I was shaking like a cow about to be slaughtered.
"Dad I'm sorry" I said in a whisper and looked at him, he was standing directly before me breathing heavily .
He raised his hand and slapped me.
It was a resounding slap echoing in the house.
I heard everyone gasp.
"Dad" Dave shouted in a hard voice.
I held my cheek gingerly, crying.
"You are a disgrace"
He pointed at me disappointment in his eyes.
"You are an embarrassment, a shame to this family. Despite all the things I did not to make you wayward you still ended up in hands of a man.
"Who is he?" He asked quietly.
"Who is he?" He screamed in my face when I didn't reply on time.
"He--he was my substitute music teacher"
His face dropped at that.
"So my own daughter has been frolicking around with her teacher. Where is he now?"
That was the hardest question I heard all day.
"I --don't know" I replied, my voice breaking at the end.
"Despite all the things I did you ended up embarrassing me. A well-known pastor in this town. Felicia, how could you this? Why will you do this? Where did I go wrong by you? I gave you everything you wanted"
"No you didn't" I said quietly.
"What did I hear you say?"
"No you didn't" I said again, this time my voice loud.
"You never showed me love. All you ever did was criticize me, you called me names, names a father should not call a daughter. Prostitute. Delilah. LovePeddler. Daughter of Belial. A disgrace. An embarrassment. Everything I did never satisfied you. I tried so hard to be the daughter you wanted but I always ended up failing you, you never acknowledged me as your own but you are so nice to members of the church. I never wanted this but for once in my life I wanted to rebel against you and he was right there, he showed me love and I accepted it. I know I made a mistake but you caused it. You caused it father"
I shouted out the last words trembling on my feet.
"I don't want to see your face. Get out"
Dave ran quickly towards him.
"Dad don't do this. Where do you want her to go? She's your daughter"
"I want her out of this house, now"
He turned his back away from me.
I wiped my tears and turned towards the door to, my Mom stopped me, holding my arm.
I gently pried it off and smiled at her.
"I'm sorry Mom" I whispered and walked towards the door.
"She made a mistake, she should not be sentenced for it. Imagine how she would have felt when she found out." Vera spoke for the first time.
"Let's go V"
She wiped her eyes and walked towards me stopping for a bit as she got to the door.
"By the way, she tried to kill herself when she first found out that she is pregnant. Just thought you should know"
Vera walked out holding my hand, at least V is here for me right now.
We walked out of the house without glancing back oblivious to the fact that my Dad was watching us as we left tears falling from his own eyes.
|Re: Chances by Penshalom(f): 10:02am On Jan 06|
|Re: Chances by Penshalom(f): 1:42pm On Jan 07|
Song: Jaymikee - No More
After that dramatic episode in my house, Vera took me to hers, her parents welcomed me that day asking no questions, they didn't ask what happened but Vera told them later. They asked me no questions fortunately, I was tired of repeating myself, it brings back the memory.
It's been a week now, been a week since I left home, my Mom calls everyday asking about my health, tells me to take care of myself at the end of every call we cry. I have heard nothing from my Dad since then. I winced as I remembered the memory of that day.
"Someone's here to see you Fe"
Vera brought me out of my thoughts, I sat up on my bed wondering who is here to see me.
I looked up and saw Dave enter smiling at me.
I was so surprised to see him but I was half Unclad, I tried to look for a shirt to put on.
"It's nothing I haven't seen before you know." Dave said with a wink handling me a camisole he probably picked from the floor.
I quickly put it on as Dave sat down beside me on the bed.
"You look horrible" Dave said still smiling.
I smiled back and hugged him.
I've missed him so much.
I inhaled his scent trying to engrave it in my memory.
"I'm sorry Fe. I'm sorry it took so long to come see you. I'm sorry I left you alone. I'm so sorry Fe"
Dave said looking at me few tears dropping from his eyes, I wiped them off.
"It's okay Dave. You were right to be mad. I should have told you but I was afraid you will be disappointed in me. I'm sorry Dave"
He also wiped a few tears that dropped from my eyes too and we both laughed at each other.
"Okay enough with the sappy moment, you both look like you are shooting a movie. Dave, I saw you bring a basket inside and I bet it's something yummy so run downstairs and bring it up"
"Food does not get past you"
Dave rolled his eyes and ran downstairs while Vera failed miserably to throw a pillow at him.
"That was such a bad throw" I said laughing.
"Well a girl can try" Vera said falling into the bed.
Dave came back few seconds later.
"Did you fly downstairs or something?"
Dave rolled his eyes again.
"Yes. Can you see the wings?" He said pointing to his back.
"You are so rude" Vera said successfully hitting him with a pillow this time.
Dave opened the basket.
"Well Mom packed soup, eggs, milk, fruits and she made you pasta. She also gave me this sweater, said it's very thick, in case of cold."
"She really packed a lot but can we eat the pasta first?" Vera said batting her eyes at me.
"Of course V." I laughed at her child-like attitude.
"Yummy. I'll go get plates"
She practically hopped downstairs.
"How are you?"
"I've been fine Dave. I feel weird some times tho, I still vomit. Well Vera's parents have been good to me. How is everyone?"
"Honestly, the house is quieter, scarily quiet, Dad is like a time bomb about to explode so we always tiptoe around him. Mom misses you and well I do too. Don't worry Dad will come around"
I just played with my fingers without saying a word.
"Okay let's eat"
Vera said immediately dishing the food.
As we ate, Vera and Dave bickering as usual, I felt like vomiting so I quickly ran to the toilet and vomited it all out.
"You still vomit?"
Dave said crinkling his nose in disgust.
"Obviously Einstein" Vera said.
"I don't feel like eating anymore" I said as I returned from the toilet.
"At least eat some fruits. An apple maybe?"
"No I'm good" I said with a yawn suddenly feeling sleepy.
I laid on my bed and slept off with a smile on my face.
Happy first Sunday
|Re: Chances by Penshalom(f): 8:12am On Jan 08|
Song: Cece Winans - Mercy Said No
A MONTH LATER
Well my life has taken some kind of routine, sleep, eat, go to the hospital for check up, sleep again, I've been living my life just like that.
Vera and Dave have been, well, those that I've been keeping me strong. My Mom comes around once in a while to check up on me when she has the chance too because of Dad. I haven't been to church since then, the shame wouldn't let me, I don't know what my parents have been telling them tho. I try my best to avoid people seeing me but I know one day the truth will come out.
I sat down on my bed and placed my hands on my stomach which has formed a bump, I rubbed my stomach gently wondering if there is really a baby inside this small bump. I heard people talk to their babies during their pregnancy, sounds ridiculous but I just feel like doing it.
"Hey baby" I whispered.
"You are in there right? I know you can't hear me and this looks absolutely ridiculous but just know I love you. I love you baby." I said choking back the tears that threatened to fall.
"Fe" I heard Vera calling for me.
"I'm in here" I called back out to her.
"We got accepted Fe. We got accepted to college"
Vera said squealing with joy practically jumping up.
"Oh" I said with a sigh.
"Uh. You are supposed to be happy"
"Congratulations V" I tried to put a smile on my face but failed miserably.
"What's wrong? You are supposed to be happy about this. Your Mom told me to give you the letter" Vera said as she took a seat beside me.
"Well, it's not like I can go or anything" I mumbled out.
"Why can't you go?" Vera asked.
I looked at her like she suddenly grew horns.
"Obviously because I'm pregnant"
"Is that why?"
"Isn't that enough reason?" I said annoyed throwing my hands up in the air.
"No it's not. You are pregnant, so big deal?"
"Easy for you to say, you are not pregnant" I said getting really irritated with her.
"No I'm not but that does not mean I see you differently. You are pregnant not handicapped, you are not the first teenager to get pregnant nor will you be the last Fe."
"You don't know what it feels like to be like this Vera"
"No I don't but I'm not gonna watch you waste your life away wallowing in self pity"
"Shut it Vera"
"No you listen to me Felicia. You made mistake. So? No one is perfect, every one has a past. Stop being bound by your past, rise on your feet and start living your life again. Being pregnant is not a disease, people are going to talk, mock you, yes but you should never let them bring you down. Show them you are better than this, show them you are stronger than this. Show them that you can rise again. Show them Fe. This is a chance for you, don't throw it away so get up and get your life back."
She stood up angrily and went out slamming the door and opened it again just about the same time.
"And for the love of God get out of this damn room" She slammed the door back again.
I looked around the room I've been cooped in for a month now.
She's right, I've been a shadow of myself.
I stood up and knelt down by my bed sobbing.
I closed my eyes and opened my mouth to sing for the first time in two months.
"I was just a child, when I felt the Savior leading
I was drawn to what I could not understand
And for the cause of Christ, I have spent my days believing
That what He'd have me be, is who I am
As I've come to see the weaker side of me
I realize His grace is what I'll need
When sin demanded justice for my soul
Mercy said no
I'm not gonna let you go
I'm not gonna let you slip away
You don't have to be afraid
Mercy said no
Sin will never take control
Life and death stood face to face
Darkness tried to steal my heart away
Thank You Jesus, Mercy said no"
I sang crying so much, worshipping God has been a part of me and right now, doing it again makes me feel like the old me.
As I continued with the song I felt free, joyful, peaceful for the first time in two months.
AFTER ABOUT A hour, I got up feeling refreshed and ready to start afresh. I opened the door of my room and walked out, moving slowly before I reached the last step and made my way to the sitting room where Vera's Mom and Dad were laughing at what they were watching on TV while Vera just sat there staring blankly at the screen, Vera's Mom noticed me first.
"Felicia" She said in surprise, her calling my name brought the attention of the others to me.
"Hello Mrs. Dean"
She grinned at me and stood up hugged me and then pulled me to sit with her.
Mr. Dean nodded his head and smiled at me.
I looked at Vera and our eyes met.
"Thank you V" I mouthed to her.
"You are welcome Fe" She mouthed back to me.
We both smiled at each other widely before turning back our attention to the TV.
"Don't let your past mistakes stop your future.
Get up and get your life back"
|Re: Chances by bummybummy(f): 10:24am On Jan 08|
it has been a while I comment on stories but u really got me good with this dat makes me cry when reading it. like seriously, am highly motivated, u raise my hope high again. tnk u, luv u
|Re: Chances by Penshalom(f): 11:57am On Jan 08|
bummybummy:Aww, thanks dear, I'm happy you got motivated, God bless you dear
|Re: Chances by pweetymhi(f): 8:01pm On Jan 08|
hmmmm Fe it gonna be well,a.mistake doesn't mean d end of d world. penshalom u make me drool,ur stories are always outstanding. keep it up.
|Re: Chances by Penshalom(f): 7:50am On Jan 09|
Song: Nathaniel Bassey- Olowogbogboro
A WEEK LATER
I got lucky that I still had a chance to go to college even after a month. Vera encouraged me to tell my Mom about it and that's exactly what I did. I told her my decision and she said she was going to support me.
Well, now I can say I'm a college student.
I go to the local college in my town just thirty minutes to my home, I mean Vera's home, all I need now is a job to support myself, I can't be depending on my Mom and Vera's parents all the time, it's really embarrassing.
"I still don't know why you need a job, think of the baby" Vera complained as she parked in front of popular coffee shop very close to the school who I heard are presently hiring.
"That's the reason I'm getting this job, because of the baby. I need to start saving up and buying baby things. And also it's a shop where I can get fruit juices probably for free and that's also for the baby" I winked at her before I walked out of the car to the coffee shop with Vera behind me.
We entered, the shop is a little bit scanty maybe because it's midday. We moved to the counter and we were greeted by a waitress standing there.
"Hello, welcome to Good Coffee. What can I get you?" The girl said like a robot with a smile on her face, it looked so fake.
"Uh, I heard you are hiring. Is the owner around?"
"Yes. I'll take you there" She walked ahead and I walked behind her telling Vera not to follow me.
"How did it go?" Vera asked me as I entered back into the shop.
"I didn't get the job, because of the baby" I scowled.
"Sorry about that but at this time you should be resting. Technically in your condition you can't stay on your feet for long."
I sighed at that, disappointed I didn't get the job.
"Come on babe, cheer up. You and the baby will be okay" Vera patted my back.
"I just feel useless, everyone is doing everything for me and I'm doing nothing. It's so annoying." I said in an irritated voice, my voice loud a bit.
"Oh no, the pregnancy hormones are kicking in. Let's get out of here before you decide to murder everyone. Don't get worked up it can affect the baby, you always be relaxed"
I rolled my eyes getting annoyed at her mentioning "the baby" in almost every sentence but I still followed her out, still annoyed.
When we got home, I went straight to the kitchen to make myself a sandwich, sandwiches tho. After I was done I took a yogurt from the fridge went to the sitting room and turned the TV.
"Hey, did you make a sandwich for me?"
Vera said as she came back downstairs from changing her clothes.
"Nope. The baby didn't allow me to" I said not bothering to look back at her.
"Fe, there are about a dozen in front of you" Vera
said giving me a look
"That's an exaggeration. The baby was really hungry you know"
"So you can't spare me one?" I shrugged my shoulders before she walked to the kitchen and came out few minutes later with two sandwiches.
"It's really weird seeing you watch TV" Vera said still chewing her food.
"Since I can't get a job because of "The Baby". I have to busy myself with something"
"You are such a drama queen" Vera said shaking her head. I just stuck my tongue out at her.
"If you really want to work, you can be a private tutor or something"
I looked up instantly at that.
"Yeah. It will not be so stressful and the pay is a bit okay depending on who you work for anyway"
"Oh my God Vera you are a genius." I stood up and hugged her.
"Don't choke me." She pulled me off off her.
"Now that there is a prospective job, can you stop whining about the baby now?" Vera said giving me a knowing look and I laughed.
"What's left now is how to get someone to tutor." I said going back to my original seat.
"It's easy. The Greggorys are looking for someone to tutor their daughter, the one in Junior High"
My heart sank at that, they were my church members and that's what I've been trying to avoid.
"I don't think I want to work with a church member."
"Fe, sooner or later everyone is going to find out, if some haven't already. The Greggorys are nice, they always ask of you. It's high time you go back to church Fe, starting from this coming Sunday."
Silence filled the air after that, how will I face these people?
Morning sweets, wishing you a fulfilling day..#peace
|Re: Chances by Penshalom(f): 7:50am On Jan 09|
pweetymhi:Aww, thanks hon
|Re: Chances by Nobody: 8:13am On Jan 09|
|Re: Chances by DemiKOL(f): 9:20am On Jan 09|
Nice story you have here!
Lemme just sit and enjoy....
Keep it up.
|Re: Chances by Penshalom(f): 11:28am On Jan 09|
|Re: Chances by Royaldave200(m): 11:58am On Jan 09|
Nice... I couldn't help but visualize the whole scene..more ink to your pen dear.
|Re: Chances by Oroolorun(m): 1:26pm On Jan 09|
Your story is WOW!
But pls next time you want to write an inspirational story like this, pls write it with an african home. nothing inspire a black guy or lady than knowing some1 out there (without white privilege) overcome challenges.
RIDE ON BOSS
|Re: Chances by samwobi(m): 1:36pm On Jan 09|
Wonderful Piece I Must Say
|Re: Chances by 0x0n3(m): 5:05pm On Jan 09|
xo i ended my day at work to read this post now i have to shift 1/4 of my today's work to tomorrow well no regret sha cox i learn one or two things from the story. nyc write up it is @penshalom
|Re: Chances by pweetymhi(f): 8:23pm On Jan 09|
Penshalom:u are welcome dear,just kip on updating
|Re: Chances by vickyluvspices(f): 12:05am On Jan 10|
penshalom i think i like...no i was about to say i love u,am deeply touched by every single episodes and what lesson it portrays...just keep it up girl...u are really gud.
|Re: Chances by Penshalom(f): 12:34am On Jan 10|
CAST THE FIRST STONE
Song: Frank Edwards- Changing Lives
Sunday came faster than normal, V is right, I can't keep running from them forever but the thought of facing all those people scares me, my Dad, my choir leader. My baby bump is already showing, I can't really hide it anymore but I still try to, this is why I'm putting on a loose flowery gown which is slightly below the knee.
"Maybe we should just do this another time" I said nervously to Vera as we got to the church's parking lot.
"Nah, you will keep pushing it, we are gonna do this today. I'll be there for you through it all, Dave will be there for you." She squeezed my hands affectionately and smiled at me.
She held my sweaty hand in hers and we walked into the church me trembling and sweating all over.
"You'll be fine Fe" She said to me quietly.
We entered and thankfully it was during the worship session and almost everyone had there eyes closed.
Vera and I sat at the back, Dave sighted us and came to sit with us.
I closed my eyes allowing the music to flow through me, tears fell from my eyes, I miss this.
When the worship session was over, all eyes were opened, and then the drama began, starting from those sitting beside us.
I saw someone shake his head and one of them gave me a look of disappointment after staring blatantly at my stomach which I tried to cover up with my hands, the stare unnerving me.
I saw from the corner of my eyes Dave looking at the lady who looked away, he probably glared at her.
All throughout the service I felt so uncomfortable, I felt like everyone is staring at me, I almost ran out at some point but I still stayed still where I was. My Dad's eyes met mine, he looked shocked at first, then a look of concern before he blinked and turned his eyes away from mine plastering a smile on his face and then began his message.
I WENT TO sit outside under a tree alone after we were done with the service, V had to go attend to some things and Dave went to the restroom. I felt someone tap me and I looked up to see my choir leader. I stood up playing with my fingers looking down in shame, tears falling from my eyes.
She pulled me to a warm hug and patted my back gently.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" I whimpered.
"It's okay my child, it's okay"
"Hello ma'am" Someone's voice interrupted us, I wiped my eyes.
"Hi Ms. Finn" My choir leader replied. I looked at Ms. Finn and greeted her but she did not reply me.
"My wonderful daughter will like to join the choir, she has a really lovely voice. I believe you will need someone now, now that someone has given herself to sexual immorality" Ms. Finn said looking at me with disdain.
"Ms. Finn" My choir leader shouted at her. I just stood there shocked at her words. She was one of the people I respected in church, I never knew she can be someone to talk this way.
"Well is that not the truth?" Ms. Finn said still giving me an irritating look.
"You didn't have to word it that way, you are embarrassing the poor girl." My choir leader stated.
"She's the one that is an embarrassment. To the church and even to her parents. Imagine a 18 year old carrying a baby. A pastor's child"
Before I knew few women had join, some were looking at me with disdain, some were throwing words at me. I looked around searching for someone to help me but I found no one, I saw familiar faces but now they were more like strangers.
"What are you doing?" I looked up to see Vera an angry look on her face and Dave behind her.
"Daughter you should not be friends with this girl. She's going to influence you."
"Birds of the same feather flock together you know" Someone said from behind.
"What the.." I heard someone say.
"What are you all doing to my daughter?" I heard my Mom say from behind.
Everyone kept quiet for a while before Ms. Finn spoke up.
"With due respect ma'am, your daughter is an embarrassment to everyone, she has shamed us all…"
"Who are you to call my own daughter an embarrassment?" My Mom said with anger by now the crowd has become more.
"Because she made one simple mistake she has become an outcast? Were you not all the ones praising her and now you are using that same mouth to insult her?"
"But ma'am she's supposed to be an example. She was one of the lead voices, a worship leader, she ended falling into the sin of immorality, sexual immorality and got knocked up. She should be kicked out" Ms Finn said with a sneer.
"Whoever is without sin among you let him throw a stone at her first" I was shocked to hear that voice, I looked up to see my Dad.
"S--sir?" Ms. Finn said stuttering.
"Whoever has no sin among you all let him or her be the first to cast her out of the church." My Dad stated firmly.
Everyone was silent, passing glances at each other. Ms. Finn left first, followed by another, another and another and then it was just me, my family and Vera.
I looked at my Dad, my vision blurred with tears, I never expected him to come, I never expected him to support me. We stared at each other for a while before he looked away first.
"Let's go every one. Get in my car."
We all followed him to his car as he drove off, the car was silent through out.
I didn't take note of my environment until I felt someone shake me.
"Fe" Vera said happily.
"Oh we are here already?"
It was then I looked around and realized we are not at Vera's house.
Dad brought me back home.
Let's not throw people away or cast them aside for their mistakes, you ain't perfect neither am I. You could make a mistake worse than theirs.. Let's show ourselves love.
And thanks for the comments, I can't explain how happy I am to see your comments.. Love you guys.
|Re: Chances by Penshalom(f): 12:35am On Jan 10|
Royaldave200:Amen, thank you
|Re: Chances by Penshalom(f): 12:36am On Jan 10|
vickyluvspices:Thank you dear, I appreciate it
|Re: Chances by Penshalom(f): 12:37am On Jan 10|
0x0n3:Lol, thanks o
|Re: Chances by Penshalom(f): 12:37am On Jan 10|
Royaldave200:Amen, thank you
|Re: Chances by Penshalom(f): 12:38am On Jan 10|
|Re: Chances by Penshalom(f): 12:38am On Jan 10|
Oroolorun:Thank you for this
|Re: Chances by DemiKOL(f): 8:17am On Jan 10|
Keep it up. More grace
|Re: Chances by Hefymicky001: 10:49am On Jan 10|
i really loved every bit of this story. God bless the writer. waiting for more stories from you
|Re: Chances by Penshalom(f): 2:16pm On Jan 10|
|Re: Chances by itsandi(m): 3:11pm On Jan 10|
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