Ok, I am well above average in academic capability. But from time to time I cheat because I am too lazy to study for subjects I do not like. I am not just lazy, I just doubt my ability in those areas. So for example, I will study for all my math and programming classes, but I have problems when a course is all about memorizing definitions. I was caught yesterday. But that is not the problem. I am less concerned about the consequences of being caught than by the huge guilt that is burning inside me. I feel like a fake. I am well regarded in my school (maybe even overrated) as a very smart person. I feel like I am taking everyone for a ride. I am also trying to get into graduate school. If I get in, how do I not live forever with the guilt of knowing my success was not purely earned? Has someone been in this situation before? How can I get out?

Go to the Church pray for forgiveness from God, to forgive u ur previous sins of cheatting and turn a good leaf and try to study and don't be lazy to study. Though for now ur conscience will be at rest but try to call God for intervention.