Hmmmm,,,, stp wearin dah mask 0f happiness....let yhur family knw yhur c0nditi0n...pr0blem shared, is pr0blem s0lved... Principalities 0f p0wer ar manipulatin u....read yhur Bible....G0 can't f0rsake yhu...visit a past0r pls... Dah pr0blem d0esnt w0rth takin yhur life... D0 dis and we wil be waitin fr testm0ny....

Op,there are people here to support and hear you out.There are things one does not have control over in this life but you can make the best out of life with things that can change.



Abi u old,husband no dey?

Cutehector:
seriously u r deranged...

I have been called worse.

OP. You haven't said what makes you sad and depressed. Anyways, you should talk to someone about it and spend your time doing what gives you fulfillment and joy.



There's more to life than that little thing you call a problem.

Layema:


You think this is a joke right?

layema... We love u.. People love u... We don't want u to commit suicide.... Please holdfast to hope... It keeps us alive within..

I hereby summon the demons of higher hades, the ones who are under the rule of the prince adramelech.. Beleth! I summon them distinctly to aid you in your quest an passion for suicide, and as I will, so mote it be.

In corpus viri, el sarcotis . Zalulum

MrsChima:


I have been called worse.

seems maybe ur d one dat needs to hav a date wit d hang man..

ikeepitreal:
I hereby summon the demons of higher hades, the ones who are under the rule of the prince adramelech.. Beleth! I summon them distinctly to aid you in your quest an passion for suicide, and as I will, so mote it be.

In corpus viri, el sarcotis . Zalulum

I bind u..

Cutehector:
wit kiwi ryt? Wen ur done leme knw.... Urm btw, bullets don't kill spirits...

But it will kill the mofo that made her depressed.

Cutehector:
I bind u..

Hector wetin na? Or you want your own

MrsChima:


But it will kill the mofo that made her depressed.

lol I would so love to enjoy watchn u die alongside him..

We still dunno ur problem.....

ikeepitreal:

Hector wetin na? Or you want your own

allow me make I bind u na...

MrsChima:

But it will kill the mofo that made her depressed.

Oh! So it's a guy thing.



Looooooong hiss.....

Cutehector:
allow me make I bind u na...

Never, oya.. By the blood on the pentacles and the chains of the dark runes. Thee, cutehector shall be therefore .....

MrsChima:


She said she she's needs help.

tot u were reasonable... u just proved me wrong. *nonsense

justified19:
tot u were reasonable... u just proved me wrong. *nonsense

Irrelevant

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ikeepitreal:


Never, oya.. By the blood on the pentacles and the chains of the dark runes. Thee, cutehector shall be therefore .....

shall be therefore master and ruler of the seven realms.... U can say amen to dat

Brandnew2:




Oh! So it's a guy thing.




Looooooong hiss.....

Did I say it was?

Cutehector:
lol I would so love to enjoy watchn u die alongside him..

. You gets the first bullet.

MrsChima:


. You gets the first bullet.

hands her d gun... Shoot me...

Layema:
Dear Nairalanders I am a regular user on this forum but I decided to use an alternate account for this.

The truth is there is a lot going on in my life that I have no control over. A lot of things that when I think about them I just feel so hopeless and sad.

I have been depressed and in pain for quite some time now and I have tried to do things that make me happy just to provide an escape from the steel cages of depression.

Nairaland has helped me to forget the pain and sadness that I am passing through, but it seems it isn't just enough.

I know some people will say things like draw closer to God and all that, but the truth is, I did that and God forsook me. He left me when I needed him most and he left me to suffer shame and reproach.

My family and friends don't have an idea of what's going on
All they see is a happy, intelligent lady who seems to have everything she wants.
But how long will I continue to wear the mask of happiness when there is a heavy tumoil brewing up on my inside.

How does one escape from a situation that looks like there is obviously no way out?
What's the point of being alive when you already feel dead?

Suicidal thought flood my thoughts all the time. Whenever I feel sad or I am in a bad mood, all I can see is the image of me stabbing myself with a knife or me standing in front of the road waiting for a car to hit me and end my miserable life.

Right now, I feel worse than ever and I don't know if I can bear this till the end of this week.
Please I need advice.

Super mods please do this for me and send this topic to the home page.
I posted this on this section because it has more active users

Cc
Ishilove
Lalasticlala

I can relate to this. Nothing seems to work for you or so it seems and like they say, when it rains it pours, everything negative seems to happen to you right now.

It will pass. I have been there. I understand how you feel. Depression is worst than cancer. I have suffered it and can give a first hand account.

In one and half year the first love of my love, the person I wanted to marry, married someone behind my back while we were planning marriage, had a person tragdy that almost claimed my life, later got into a serious relationship with my then best friend but lost her just 3 days to the day I planned to engage her ( I told the story on here), went deep into depression, had a nairaland practically ruin my business but it been a while now, and I am standing, shining, ready to love again and a better person.

Don't give up, life will be sweet again and you will remember today and be proud. Seek medical help ( a nairalander here, not sure if she will want to be mentioned) was one of those who really helped me overcome this.

Cry if you feel like it, but me, I got better when I embraced gratitude. See, I am not trying to sweet talk you ( I just can't go into full details on here) but I have been through a lot, I have had times I just hated GOD but like I told friend who just lost her first cousin, we run away from GOD in situations like this when it is he who can help us.

Have you tried gratitude? Have you tried to thank GOD first and look for the reason later? I bet you, it works. I will tell you a story of how gratitude works -

One day, just few weeks after I lost my fiancee, I had an appointment with a doctor, a Nairalander who is a doctor herself ( Dolly maybe you can help here? ) compared me to see the doctor to help with my depression. I didn't want to. I was bitter. My ex's mother called me, and she was like "my real name, you have not called me today, you are thinking again, just give thanks" (Me and her were/are very close) I was like what the f*ck is this old woman saying, well you sha do not know what your daughter was to me ( and she agreed to date me at my very worst, I had money and everything but not happiness, I call her my unlikely angel), why exactly should I thank GOD. Then something happened that changed my life and thinking towards GOD. I was to see a doctor that day, I needed some money to go with me, went to the bank ( and it is far from me), on my way to yaba to see the doctor, I broaded a bus to an eatery where I would have my breakfast ( if you are in lagos and know Sango well, the place I am saying is toll gate bus stop, I was coming from Sango where my bank was and was living at Alakuko ), the conductor complained of no change and because he was rude. I decided to stay, I ignored all his shouting and cursing. Then my phone rang and I needed to call the person back, got off the bus to get card with the hope of coming back to take my front seat only to find out the bus had move. I like quarrel pass fight and it was an opportunity to show the conductor.

10 minutes later, I saw the bus already had an accident at toll gate bus stop and the person who took my seat for sure did not make it or if he did, he will be permanently disabled. That was when I started remembering all that GOD has done for me.

You may not be fortunate to have this example to appreciate GOD but when things are tough, just say "thank you father" reasons will come. Being a french catholic brought up ( I am partly Nigerian not fully) , I kiss the back of my hand, and point to the sky and say " thank you father" for no reason then reasons actually come later. It works. Try it.

If you want to discuss this one on one, mention me on here and we will talk.

Hang in there, a set back is only a set up for a big come back and when you fall, if you can look up, you can get up. I am cheering for you, you can do it, you are the best despite the challenges.