Created the account just for this.

I am in my late 20, have not had sex, but I do other stuff, like kissing and romance, which isn't often, because I am in a Long Distance Relationship. Been a Virgin isn't a desire I imposed on myself, it just happens that I hardly get influenced by society/peer pressure. I don't take alcohol/smoke even.
But one thing about me that I have struggled with so much I wish I can tell anyone, is that I always have the urge to touch a woman (as far as she has a breast and still good look <35), without their consent. This might be when they are sleeping, or if she is sitting close to me in public transport, and hardly have they ever complain about this if they find out what I am trying to do(touch their breast).
Once I do this, and climax( i do have orgasms just touching a lady's breast), I then feel sad about myself. wish it never happened. I don't masturbate, but this feels much like it. I have tried so many times to stop this.
Now I have always believed that God finds a way to make me escape having premarital sex, I don't get influences and I got this great girlfriend who does so much believe in no sex relationship, I love her with everything I have, and wish not to be the one to cause a break up in our beautiful relationship which has span years.
So my tipping point here is, I haven't had any close lady that is quite loose(sorry for the choice of word here), till she* came along, and it seems if I want sex the next minute all I have to do is to go ahead in one of our office romance, she is a co-worker. I can't control myself, I have promised myself not to engage in such, but it seems after a couple of days, I find myself in same similar situation.
I am afraid that I might get someone pregnant even when I clearly don't love her(she knows I am in a r/ship, everyone knows, it is a pretty big deal the whole office knows), this is due to my naivety, I don't even know what safe sex is(using condoms etc), I am very scary only after I have done the deals, just i write now, it like <8hrs. I feel depressed, afraid, guilty that i might be failing in life and in who I want to be.
Sometimes i just wish i could, just wish away my sexual urge till when i need it. I have googled have to get castrated as a means to reduce my sex drive.
HOW DO I GET HELP!!!

The problems you’d encounter with masturbation is small compared to what you’ll face if you act on your desires with any lady
You have to choose between two devils
But I’d advise you to practice abstinence

Hmmm
Sexual assault is not something you want to toy with o. The destruction it could cause to you is not something you might ever recover from.

Why can't you get married? That's your only and best option.

Distance between you and prison no long at all... Keep pushing harder bro, stay strong and don't pick up the soap

Work on your mindset and pray more

Continue to fight over that urge...u will win...take away anything erotic close to u that can trigger sexual urge....the repercussion for sexual assault is destructive oo

Tadeknkeepcalm:
Hmmm
Sexual assault is not something you want to toy with o. The destruction it could cause to you is not something you might ever recover from.

Why can't you get married? That's your only and best option.

That's what I wanted to say: get married and all this virility for sex will go or reduce drastically