it is 2am on the 9th of January, 2012.

Tears flow freely from my eyes,
for the first time in a very long while.

My mind is occupied with thoughts of you,
I guess i cry for a number of reasons,
not just one.

I cry because I miss you,
though its not been long since we last saw,
and though i know i'll see you again, soon,
I miss you even more,
cos i feel we're falling apart.

I feel like you are drawing farther,
farther from me than the physical distance seems,
and even though we talk occasionaly,
I still miss your voice,
you still seem so distant.

don't get me wrong,
I'm in no way trying to blame you,
there are Circumstances known to both of us,
and its responsible for the wall between us,
more tears,

I cry most especially because I love you,
I have never meant those words this much in my life,
in fact i have hardly ever said it,
but with you it seems natural to speak it, to feel it,
I cry for what life without you might be, (more and more tears).

I cry because i have tried to think,
think of falling in love again,
Ive tried to think of what she would look like,
but, *tears*, all I see is you,
knowing that I must, how can i separate myself from your love.

i always dreamed of a friend,
when i was younger I wrote of a confidante,
one i would have in future,
who would be the best thing ever to happen to me,
i even told of you of her.

I told you i expected this person to be a she,
when i eventually find her,
that is if I eventually found her.
Heaven knows i eventually found her,
I found her but didn't realize.

I found her in a fair maiden with a large heart.

i always thought what true love would be like,
how i would know the exact right feeling,
but you defined it,
True love is someone you can be yourself with,
and share literally anything.

NOBODY knows as much of my life, my past, of me as you do.

True love is when you cant imagine a life,
a life without that person,
You try but you cant imagine it,
she pops up everywhere in your imaginations,
words don't come close to how your heart really feels about her.

despite all the words i have used at this hour,
i still feel insufficient,
these words do my heart a disservice.
but for the love i have for you,
I must bring this to a halt.

my heart's ramblings will soon begin to bore you,
its time to walk away and take this especially painful decision,
Loving you was bliss,
I wonder if time would ever take it away,
you are NEVER GONE from me,
you are NEVER FAR from my heart,

my tears have stopped,
but my heart still throbs,
i just smiled, you usually say i talk a lot about my heart,
I know that i am guilty of it again,
but is the human HEART not at the center of LOVE and LIFE?
it is impossible to separate it from the life i have,
or the immense feeling that burdens my chest,

i evaded sleep this morning,
to find words to let you know that i love you,
but more importantly,
that i'll always love you,
You are always in my heart.

signed in your own words: TCCIC

:d

Diary? Really?

I love this, the sweetest, most honest write up, i have ever read, felt like it was talking to me. Awwww!!!!!!!!! so romantic.