I have been thinking about killing myself for years now but never quite had the balls to follow through cause of how lovely my family is.

I just feel life is really boring and stressful and would really just love to exit. I started thinking today if it would be possible to commit suicide by means of organ sales. I mean take the anaesthesia and all my organs are harvested for sale and the money from the sales given to my family. Is this something possible to do?

How much Is a hacked PS4 with games.

It's also weird that many Nigerians kill themselves to study and pass this exams whereas others are buying in their way with money and this are high end schools. They are getting posh big name degrees which would lead to quality jobs and eventually a citizenship something a lot of Nigerians seriously crave at the moment. The whole world is just one big pay to win scam.

I was on reddit today and I saw a thread about cheating in American universities. It was shocking to say the least. Comments from ex and present students affirmed this to be true. The culprits are mostly rich Chinese and Saudi kids. They cheat on the SATs, GRE, GMAT, TOEFL and absolutely nothing is done about it. Funny enough the schools are aware of this but turn a blind eye (they get a lot of money from foreign students).

I still find this very shocking to believe as I have always viewed the west as a meritocratic driven society but so far it appears you can pretty much buy your way with money. If there are Nigerians who schooled abroad and experienced these things, they are welcome to talk about it.

This is a link to the Reddit thread

https://www.reddit.com/r/news/comments/bjtuq3/a_chinese_cheating_ring_at_ucla_reveals_an/

Pictures of some shocking comments from the thread. PS this wouldn't even be allowed at the University I graduated from.

HeWrites:


Hi,

Permission to copy this your Adventure?

Permission granted.

Do you have a steering rack rebuild kit for a 1999 Honda accord.

As much as I am a Mercedes fan, Toyota pioneered the fuel cell technology. The Toyota mirai was the first hydrogen fuel cell car. It should have been a Mercedes

peacengine:


Nigga Wu you calling stupid? All blacks? Ur fada there
Did you ask how they buy those cars? Ask Ibrahimović, the guy de Europe, you be learner

On average, most black people are stupid very stupid. If Africans were not stupid, Africa especially sub Sahara Africa will not be a shithole. Look at Nigeria a black nation of 200 million people. 200 million people with no electricity. 3 years ago some foolish 12 million mugus voted for a brain dead decrepit and you wanna say blacks aren't stupid really Bro

Boss13:


Living like animals - that’s a strong descriptive word to use. I think it’s offensive.

Bro I wish I could say less but this is a country that has no basic amenity or infrastructure. No electricity, no good roads, no water for its citizens. How many Nigerians have access to fresh water. Something a ship does effortlessly (producing fresh water from sea water). The basics aren't even there. I don't even wanna talk about more complex things. It is easier to make money here if you have the right business I won't deny that but the quality of life here is really shit.

Most Nigerians don't even know what is normal or abnormal or what they should have or not have. Not having electricity or security or access to clean water is seen as normal here. How is that not living like an animal?

Mille:


So a Nigerian moving to Ghana ie not Migration or what? Someone needs to define migration to you. Definitely not me.

It's understandable now when you say you don't see smart and beautiful Nigerian women. Coulomb's law states that "Like charges attract, and unlike charges repel".

Yadayada . I have given the op my own advice. He can do whatever he wants. It's his life.

Taofeekdboy:
Guy, don’t just because you went to Italy and saw beatiful roads and good infrastructures, that will mean everything is good with them including job opportunities, if you know how some Nigerians fair abroad, then you will know it is not easy at all. Even Italians are migrating to neighboring countries because of job opportunities and you are here in your own world talking about good roads and good infrastructure, maybe that’s what op will be feeding on when he gets there.
PS: you think if there is a sure job of 500k monthly salary been assured for some Nigerians abroad, you will see a lot coming back including me ��

Migrate to where. Italians don't even need a visa to leave their country to any other developed nation. With the rest of Europe they could just go with an ID card. If the Africans in Europe have it that bad then they should come back to Nigeria. Elections are next year and Buhari has a 99 percent chance of winning. Maybe he will bring in the so talked about jobs with a salary if 500k at least a month.

The below pic is what Italians need to go to Germany. I chose Germany because she has the largest economy in Europe.

Taofeekdboy:
He should flee without proper planning when he is earning half a million in Nigeria, I’m not against him Travelling because at some point in life, you will need to experience the outside community. At first, going for masters degree in USA or Canada will not guarantee you automatic job after graduation because you will join bunch of jobless immigrants seeking job opportunities also because I have like 2 friends that ended up in Nigeria after their masters degree. Secondly , if you plan on doing any kind of work(hustling) over there, then I can implore you to move but a bird at hand is worth a million in the bush. The kind of salary that even Nigerians in abroad are even dreaming of is what you are debating on...

The way una dey blow zobo for us eh. Which Nigerian abroad is dreaming of 500k a month. There is absolutely nothing in this zoo of a country called Nigeria. If the Nigerians in the diaspora have it as bad as it's being portrayed on nairaland then they should all come back.

Mille:


What experience are you talking about? The experience of chineji, someone who spent a few days in Italy on vacation, not even someone who studied, worked or stay longer in the country to understand the real experience. Someone who has experienced and with no knowledge of neither the living or working conditions.

I hope Mr chineji has been to Milan lampugnano to see the hundreds of Africans who are looking to leave Italy in droves due to lack of job opportunities. I hope he has been to Parma to see how 12 Nigerians are cramped in 2 bedroom apartments. I hope he also saw well educated Nigerians who are sweeping the streets of Italy. And I do hope he knows there are as many Italians migrating to Germany for better opportunities.

So I think you need those with more experience that that. Well, unless you are going to the USA or Canada to go and admire the blue sea, US & Canadian women, the good roads or the fast trains.

The Nigerians there should all come back to Nigeria then since Nigeria is better than Italy. Any Nigerian abroad who is advising a fellow Nigerian or African to remain in Africa is more wicked than the devil. Op even the politicians in Nigeria all have foreign passports. They give birth to their kids abroad and yet they tell the commoners to believe in Nigeria. Believe in what. You are bright and young leave ASAP. I finished school and no job in this shithole called Nigeria. To run a business or raise funding in this hellhole is as hard as rocks yet I kept on working and believing in the continent. We have suffered so much that we see abnormal as normal. Op flee if you can flee.

You should leave ASAP but make sure you are going to a top school. Target at least top 50 and spread your tenticles. Look also to schools in the USA and research on scholarships. I used to be one of those that believed in Africa and would always talk people out of leaving but after I saw Italy my perspective just changed. We in Nigeria are living like animals and no amount of money can change this. Leave if not for your sake, for your children's sake. They would forever be grateful.

Mizwisdom:
I'm now convinced that "Black men" are Africa's problem Oga, you are telling your fellow black about the beauty of "Whites" how did you contribute to the good of us by this? As you've seen that we are all suffering, before you leave to Europe finally, gather your friends to MMA, that place where you saw hip of refuse, go and pick it up and do a rally to sensitize people before you leave. This is what our leaders do to us and we complain, they travel, see things but don't replicate it here, same thing we ourselves do.
Meanwhile bro, update us with info when there's an opening in your coy.

You eh

chukxie:
Dear Op:
I must say I totally enjoyed your accounts of your cross continental journeys. And I must say I unequivocally agree with all you said concerning sub saharan African countries especially Nigeria. You see until I left Nigeria I never really knew how bad, I mean rotten things were. In Nigeria people are so used to suffering that they have come to accept it as a way of life, like that is how things are meant to be. We lack even the most basic of amenities. We suffer miserably without any respite in the horizon. So often times I get infuriated by gullible Nigerians who continually sing praise for the same politicians who have stolen our collective wealth. These same gullible individuals would heap praises on politicians for commissioning pedestrian bridges. Good luck in all you do, bro.

Thanks Bro. We have it really bad many people don't know. It's like theres absolutely no hope at all. We aren't developing in anyway.

TonyeBarcanista:
Nigeria shall be great again

Nigeria has never been great and will never be.

I really wish I could show more pictures from my trip but the others had my face in it and I dont wanna show my face. We are really suffering in Africa. I used to be one of those who believe in this continent but I don't anymore. We are living like animals especially here in Nigeria. Nigeria especially is the worse amongst all African countries. Nigeria lacks the basics a country that can't provide electricity nor water for its citizens or even healthcare. In all of Italy, healthcare is free. They live so long. You see so many old people on the street. They get sick they go to the hospital and get treated for free and they got quality healthcare. We got absolutely nothing in Nigeria. I am back to Nigeria now and at the moment I am confused on what I wanna do. Everything here feels so strange and so weird. Everyone in Nigeria is suffering I mean it everyone. You have to really go outside to see how bad it is here.

Anyone that wants to leave Nigeria should do so ASAP. This country and by extension much of sub Sahara Africa will never get better. I mean even Gabon that has so much oil and very few citizens has so much poverty and really shit infrastructure same with equitoreal guinea.

The most painful aspect is that most African leaders travel to this countries regularly and see how things are done here and see how people live like human beings but cannot replicate same in their home nations.

Anyone that has an opportunity to leave Nigeria should waste no time. We are suffering in Nigeria. Life is not all about money quality of life matters too and quality of life in Nigeria is shit real shit.

I notice that when they drive here, no one skips their lane. The obedience to traffic rules was just so strange especially for someone who has stayed a long while in lagos.

Pictures from my road trip to Milan.

Did I talk about Italian women? I have never met such beautiful women in my life. Beautiful and very interesting. I used to think it was impossible for women to be interesting and funny but white women proved me so wrong. My Co workers were always so fun to have conversations with. They knew absolutely everything about everything cause they read a whole lot. In Italy, the women are always smiling all the time ( it's a total different ball game in most African countries where most women are always ugly and angry all the time) and the greetings omg. It's not weird to hug a woman and give her a peck on both cheeks and say bounjourno or bounesera depending on what time of the day it is. La spezia had a lot of beautiful women but then we took a road trip to Milan and it was like a total different ball game. It was just like a real life miss world beauty pageant.

Italian women are the most beautiful I have ever seen in my life. I just pray I can marry a Nigerian because ever since I got back all the girls are just ugly to my eyes

Italy.

I really used to be one of those who used to feel that someday Africa would get it right. That things are not as bad as we imagine it to be, that somehow black people are actually not stupid as other races think but being in Italy totally changed my mind. I have been living in darkness all my life and in Italy I saw light. First of all, once the ship crossed into Italian waters, I noticed the ocean water to be very blue (in most African countries it's usually very brown and dirty when you are close to port). You could literally see your face inside. We docked in a small town called la spezia. La spezia is a village by European standards and the scenery totally blew my mind away. As soon as I left the ship to see town. I just couldn't stop cursing all the leaders in Africa past and present and the idiot citizens who support their ineptitude. I was in an European village and there was freaking WiFi everywhere. The roads omg. I have been to more than 10 African countries in my short life span and I have never seen roads of this standard before. Public transportation. We got no public transportation in Africa. Our buses and trains are all shit. The public buses in Italy were


The roads just blew me away over and over again. The way the roads were built with considerations for pedestrians and cyclist. It was just strange to me that people could actually live like this, people could actually live sane.

I love automobiles, when I am not reading or working in them. I watch YouTube videos and drool on my favourite models I cant afford but here my favourite models were being used as taxis. Cars that would be used by Rich elite Nigerians being used as taxis and the kind of cars Italians drive gosh. I saw so many recent BMWs, Mercedes, audis and volkswagens. Cars I didn't even think we're out on the road. It was so unreal to me. Meanwhile in Nigeria, someone would do a thanksgiving ceremony for being able to buy a piece of crap camry or corolla.

The storm before the calm.

We got into a very big storm in french waters. I really felt for any illegal immigrant vessels that would have been in the water at the moment. We faced 8 meter wave heights and 97 knots of wind. It was crazy. The whole ship crew started to drop like flies due to seasickness. Everything started rolling. There was no way you could even sleep cause the ship just kept rolling over and over taking your body swiftly from left to right. It was a crazy experience.

The strait of gilbraltar.

From the canary islands we set sail for Italy. There was nothing much to see anyway except the occasional dolphins not until we got to gilbraltar. The sight was so beautiful. Morocco was just on one side and Spain is just on the other side. You could literally swim across from Africa to Europe. If you are thinking of trying this be well informed that there are many European navy ships patrolling the straits of gilbraltar and shooting down illegal immigrant ships. Once we were at the strait of the gilbraltar, we got a call from the Moroccan officials wanting to know who was on our vessel and countries they were from. The Spanish authorities also did same. For some weird reason, we started to get pursued by a Spanish naval vessel (I guess cause we arrested some Spanish citizens in gabon). The vessel asked us to stop so they could hang out but my captain and second mate ( she's spanish) would have none of that bullshit. They eventually left us when we got into french waters.

Canary Islands.

When we were in Gabon, the engine room was at least 50 degrees celcius and remained all that way till we got to the canary Islands. The temperature coupled with the sea sickness and the vegan food (I would write about this in its own paragraph) was a complete disaster for me. At the canary Islands, the temperature in the engine room reduced to 30 degrees (a very huge relief for me) and the seas were somehow calmer. I still hated the food though. We couldn't port at the canary Islands so I was only opportune to view its beauty from afar. I would someday come back to visit this place.

Liberia

Liberia Is one hell of an expensive country. A plate of jollof rice at a nice restaurant goes for at least 10 to 15 us dollars. The currency used here is either the liberian dollars or the us dollars. The infrastructure in Liberia is really shit (they just finished a civil war anyway). Monrovia is a real shithole by even shithole standards. We didn't do much in Liberia except patrol around. After our patrol we set sail for the canary Islands.

Transit to Liberia.

The next day work began in full swing and we had to get the vessel engine ready for our trip to Liberia. We worked like crazy. Our Liberian trip was the next day and we had to be on schedule. The day we departed for Liberia, our main engine stopped at around 12 nautical miles off the coast of port gentil. We did everything we could but the engine didn't start so we had to tow the ship back to port gentil. Once at the port, we started to diagnose the engine and we got to find out the fuel pump had failed. Changing the fuel pump on a 3000HP MAN B & W engine is a different ball game from my beloved automobiles. We finally did and got the engine running. We departed for Liberia the next day. We were off schedule. We had to sail deeper into the Atlantic then take a 90 degree turn to Liberia. We avoided Nigerian waters totally as it's the most dangerous on the African continent. Filled with pirates. The reports on ICC international piracy watch about pirates here is disgusting but as usual no one cares to do anything about it.

Port gentil
I arrived port gentil around 11pm at night. I had someone from the organisation waiting at the airport to pick me up to where I would start working. We had the next day off anyway (it was a Co workers birthday). I got there and I felt so weird. I was the only black person. I have never spoken to a white man and yet here I was in the midst of them. I felt a bit shy but I am a naija boy na so I blended in. Next day was off for everyone so we all went to the beach. I noticed Gabon is a bit empty. You could walk for miles and you won't see a single soul on the road. At the beach, it was just me and my Co workers. Shops there close at 3pm. We got back at 4 and tried to get a coca cola and we couldn't anywhere. I found it very weird.

Gabon
I got my ticket reservation immediately after my interview and started to plan my trip to Gabon. I have heard a lot about this African country oil rich and a small population of 2 million people. It should look like paradise right. They have the resources and not too much people. I felt it would be like an African dubai. Anyway, my flight left lagos to Cameroon and from Cameroon to Gabon. Everyone knows that murtala Muhammed airport is a big disgrace, the toilet at the arrivals stink, there's a very huge refuse dump in front of the airport. The excavators and some of the air conditioners don't work. I arrived Gabon and the airport though small was a little bit more organised. Immigration officers were very respectful and do not ask for cash, the air conditioners worked along with other equipment. There was even free WiFi to use at the airport but you could only use WhatsApp and Facebook messenger. From Libreville, I had to fly to port gentil. A photo from the waiting area.

I am many things an engineer, an auto enthusiast but most importantly I am an average Nigerian youth hustling to get a better life.


A brief introduction.
A year ago I left the university bagging a degree in one of the most uninteresting engineering fields you can think about. I found it boring throughout my time at the university but I made sure to put in my best but came out with a miserable 2 2 . I left school like everyone else and started applying for jobs and got nothing. I got tired of the whole process and decided to start a business while learning the basics of what I have always loved (automobiles). Running my business while learning and working on automobiles was quite difficult. I gained a lot of traction but tried to raise money and was so unsuccessful at it and then when it seemed nothing was forthcoming an important email came through.

The opportunity
When i left school, i applied to more than 500 jobs. Most people think I exaggerate this figure but you could do the math. I started in January 2017 and was sending out at least 5 CVs a day. I did this till June but never got a reply at least not until after a year.

I got an email from an NGO I applied to a year ago asking me to come work for them. This totally blew me out of the water. I was gonna go to Gabon and the work will take me through Liberia and the canary Islands before I finally disembark in Italy. They covered my flights and were gonna give me a tiny stipend I felt I could use to get something to use for my business. We did the interviews over Skype and they were so impressed with my exploits over the year and told me they couldn't wait to have me. They asked me if I had any problem with vegan diet (I had no idea what this meant as of then) but I answered no and felt I could cope with it after all I am from Nigeria (we are rugged people afterall)

Selempepe
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