WINNERMENTALITY:
MumJJJ things are getting better now... I am yet to get medicated, most of the hospital and pharmaceutical shop I called... Don't have any medicine pertaining to Adhd. I still got my hopes up of getting out of this country one day.... How is your boy doing?

now trust me, living with a mental illness is tricky, especially in this part of the world, there's loads of them, like someone said, schizophrenia and the like, chronic depression and anxiety disorder, PTSD, now the stigma is using drugs, the fact is its the only option...just have the discipline to not get addicted to it, how can you partition one part of your mind to focus on repress those symptoms and another part to focus on your goals in life, trust me, your brain was not designed to multi-task consecutive cerebral activities...truly, pop a pill, SSRI'S, Adderall, Xanax if u must... Getting high is not the point, it's being functional....an unexamined life isn't worth living, are you going to call me a junkie cos I pop a xan to deliver a lecture because of my chronic anxiety? Well that's your problem... come on now.... Always look beyond what you see...its your life, No one else feels your pain, have you ever been so depressed you constantly have suicidal thoughts? not cos some stupid girl broke your heart, I'm talking chronic depression... I'd rather be a junkie...
Good thing is you have meds, and most people think inevitably using would make you an addict... WRONG!.... addiction is the uncontrolled use of a substance(drug) dependence on the other hand...damn...God help us all..

I see a couple people doubting the price tag, well, from what I'm seeing it's VVS, stone cold, two tone, sapphire crystals.. with those pieces, I think he got he's money's worth...besides they are custom made...look at those buggets...it really is worth it

Come on now, what's up Lance? How you holding up? I hope you are better..
Well, I'm still depressed, still suffer from anxiety...
We all have to face our demons, buh a select few like ourselves have to face a legion...
You see my man,, it's all prove we are genius, I recall someone saying 'fitting a v12 in a corolla'...
Seeing your post for the first time a couple years back made me tear up...fast forward to now, same old shiii...depression is messed up, you lose interest in everything that once made you happy..."I've held hands with the grim reaper" trust me, suicide might seem like solace...BUT DONT YOU DARE...this world needs us...
You see, the worst kind of loneliness comes from being misunderstood... It could make you lose your grasp on reality....accept the things you can't change, have the courage to change those you can, and have the wisdom to know the difference between what you can and cannot change....being a mechanical engineer should normally increase every normal person's self esteem, but it don't for me..."to thine own self be true" , you're not normal, you're something much greater... Do what you must, everyone has their ways of coping... But discipline is key...
An unexamined life isn't worth living...
Life is too short to be sad for so long...
Don't just exist, live. love. Always Strive and Prosper...
I wrote an entire mixtape on D/A "the Lonerz Boulevard" ... You should listen to it...
There's always that one thing you feel like you're really good at...for me it is Music, I'm still a nerd tho, I love coding, aerodynamics, gaming, but the propensity to participate in those fluctuates... Just never let go.. Remember, it's all in your head...the marathon continues... God help us all

kingthreat:
At 14 years old, I craved for fantasies like this. Lucky boy

14 years old... it was definitely with his consent...the only foggy thing is 'underage sex act'

gicezofa:
this is serious!. A whole sultan's son...codeine is getting on the edge

im quite sure his dad does lean too..you see, codeine phosphate is a painkiller singularly... now with diphenhydramine... (major cause of drowsiness) in these syrups... BUT plus alcohol..... oh lord... [one of the worst drug interactions ever... painkillers n alcohol, perhaps benzo's (rophynol.. xanax etc...is fatal...amplifies d risk of overdosing...]
bottom line...if u gon do drugs do drugz
buh stay d f$$k from alcohol...otherwise...]

LancelLogan:
I have chronic OCD coupled with other mental issues like ADHD, chronic depression, extreme anxiety, bipolar, Low self-esteem, Perfectionism(OCPD similar to OCD) and the Fantasy Disorder (i waste hours fantasizing about a character rich fantasy world i have created in my head for almost a decade now) and (i don't know) i think i'm autistic... It kills me inside... I have contemplated suicide but i'm afraid it will be too painful or unsuccessful (since firearms are not sold in this country)...

My mental issues started when i was around 5 years (or maybe since child birth)... My depression heightened during my secondary education at a military secondary school (Nigerian Navy Port Harcourt).

I stay in Port Harcourt and school in the University of Port Harcourt (Uniport)... I'm repeating my final year because my mental issues did not allow me focus on my project and two difficult Maths courses.. i find it hard to focus (ADHD) and study... If i am not battling with that ever present inner OCD voice, I'm fantasizing about another world inside my head...

Everybody thinks i'm rude because i am never smiling and i don't know how to talk to or reply people (I'm always anxious even when i'm familiar with the person trying to talk to me)... no matter how i try i will always say something awkward or I wouldn't be able to say anything at all (my heart will always seem to be racing and my speech stuttering)... So i just detach myself from people generally to save myself from embarrassment...

What my OCD and OCPD has obsessed and compelled me to do over the years is just so much i can't write all about it here... It's more than the regular "wash your hand before and after you touch anything if not you will be infected or fall sick" or "if you press the wrong letter while typing a document, you must clear the whole page and start again if not the document file will be corrupted"]... If ever i try to resist the OCD voice, I'll feel so uncomfortable, anxious, disturbed and drowsy... i won't be able to concentrate on anything at all...

Also, it has made me abusive to my younger brother... If he does something I(or the OCD rather) don't(doesn't) like ... Example, if he doesn't wash his hand before touching things in our room or doesn't follow a couple of sequence i normally carry out while cleaning our room... i get so angry, i yell or sometimes(rarely though) physically abuse him... Any little thing he does irritates me even if he is just playing music, making a call or even laughing at a joke he read on his phone... This makes me hate myself but i can't stop this behavior...

Side note:[I have nothing against Christians or religious people... Please, don't be offended] I recently stop believing in religion (Christianity in my case)... I see it as a mechanism implemented to make people behave and make people be motivated to live and enjoy life... I also don't identify as an atheist because most atheist these days are just religious about their non-believe... They will undoubtedly support theories like The Big Bang Theory and yet criticizes Christians for believing in the Creation Story... I don't believe both of the aforementioned theories(stories)... I can say I'm agnostic because i do not know about the origin of existence.. Although, when i was still an ardent Christian, my OCD voice will compel me to give large portions of my personal savings to "God" so that i'll receive a specific blessing or answer to a prayer request... lol...

I have not talked to anyone about my issues because i know they will not understand... during my secondary school days, i told my parents i was contemplating suicide... they beat me up and took me to church for deliverance... lol... so there is no point talking about it to my family...


I will appreciate talking to someone who understands... Please reply or email me...

Thanks...

yo boss
I know exactly what your going through because im going through same| please disregard irrelevant comments from shallow minded individuals. ...
Well, i manage by problems by using anti-anxiety meds n all...i do smoke weed alot tho
Im not suggesting you do same, buh thats jus how i manage mine
And also you need a lover...i mean a girl whos real n truly cares about you. ...love depletes depression
Buh boss...steady grind...
Na money naim kill depression pass
Trust me when i say i completely understand how you feel...

Im gonna upload a second freestyle off J_ASAP. ..
Titled 'snitch streets'
Yall show yo boy love n listen to ma music. .
You won't regret it
Godspeed yall

I absolutely urge yall to download and listen to it
Ah need to hear what yall think before i release it officially

May the better team triumph
GGMU tho
I know it ain right to put a link below buh i hope yall forgive me when you hear the track..
Thanks
https://www.nairaland.com/4058494/freestyle-off-mixtape-titled-j#60517042

Perfect post...kudos op
I know it ain absolutely right to put a link below
Buh ah hope yall forgive me when yu hear the track...
Thanks yall..
Merry Sunday
https://www.nairaland.com/4058494/freestyle-off-mixtape-titled-j#60517042

Great day nairalanders...obviously i am one
hope yall having a great day...
Well im working on my mixtape J_ASAP .... [always strive and prosper] and below is a link to a freestyle that features shred. ....ceo lancity records. .which im signed to....so before i put it out, i wanna know what ma family thinks about it...id love to hear your comments....critisisms n otherwise. | thanks alot..

http://www.datafilehost.com/d/ee431df7

PROPHETmichael:
That is a marine spirit!!! If you sit down in your room one day and call her by her name to appear, she will definitely appear (I don't mean to scare you).

1.
Faithful here simply means unswerving adherence to the oath or promise by which a tie was contracted between both of you and it's obvious you have forgotten, hence, the need for her to remind you by asking "have you forgotten?" Instead of 'can't you remember me' (i.e. referring to herself).

2. Heaven deals with cathedral while marine kingdom deals with hotels.

3. Only Jesus Christ of Nazareth is faithful.

May God deliver us from deceptive spirit.

Damn, professor in marine affairs... (im not being sarcastic) this actually makes decent sense//
Forgive my perspective, but a dream is a combination of your past, present, imaginations and fantasies not withstanding. ..
Although with the little time ive spent on this planet ive come to realize that the world is abysmally deep, dark and full of terror....

Papiikush:
Happy birthday to him.

I can't keep calm by the way. Winter is HERE!!!!!

wagbayi!

teelaw4life:
Op is just a cynical person. Mind you, merely saying Call of duty without specifying which one exactly goes to show he is a novice. Also marking out GTA IV, isn't this the one with the Niko bellic storyline? I played the Bleep outta this game on Xbox360.
Op stop being cynical and enjoy yourself.

its that simple, its all about perspective....we all look but see differently. ..
yea it iz, plus,(the lost and damned, and the ballad of gay Tony)...cant believe its 8 years already

Sexina851:


I swear I can't believe it, that is is a free ticket to heaven

in some type of way yea, heaven, 400mg in someone with little or no tolerance is enough to trigger seizures. ...1500, couldn't be any worse right love?

Sexina851:


So it's still possible to over dose on 1500mg?

yea sure, if your tolerance is below that

farano:
hmmm. . Check out Chris Brown's shoe closet

hehehe e be like boutique

chimaobinelson:

tnk u dear. i do knw abt it, js wana school d dude

you a real niqqa, you didnt take the other shii I said personal/ some fake ass niqaas would turn it into a battle

paradigmshift:

understand what my guy get out

excuze me? You obviously are a low life cos of your lack of manners/ usually I wouldn't quote you, jus had to let you know...life is wayy deeper than you know

Dongreat:


The reward pathway consist of about 4 different types but opioids is connected to the mesolimbic pathway (another discussion of neuroscience). Basically it has to do with the release of the neurotransmitters "DOPAMINE" from the ventral tagmental area (VTA) into the nucleus accumbens (NA). TraMadol when taken is released from the bloodstream and pass the blood brain barrier into the brain where it binds to the opioid receptor (MU receptor), causing a release of inhibitory GABA neurotransmitter which is picked up by another pre synaptic neurons that cause the release of dopamine. Opiate slow the MU receptor causing pain relief and dopamine release is responsible for the euphoria i.e. happy feelings.
But dopamine is short acting and it's re-uptake back into neurons. This lead to a relapse of the happy feelings. So inorder to cause more happy feelings, you take more opiate, and more and more until you desensitized the pathway.
The feelings you get from good food (cake, jollof rice), likes from selfie, passing an exam and of course sex is caused by the release of dopamine.

I wish there were more people like you in this country...I love this

Originalsly:
First off... I'm not in the medical field period... nor really done research on weed. But,... I've been around it a lot... saw quite a few documentaries on it.... and learned a lot from the streets. Even here I'm learning some details from Greatdon!
Weed has many health benefits...more effective than prescription drugs. E.g... glaucoma. ... weed reduces the pressure in the eye. The drugs prescribed to do the same are based on the composition of weed... basically... synthetic weed... but it is not as effective as weed. From observation.... people who smoke hard usually have smaller eyeballs.... weed reducing the pressure thereby making them smaller. It is very effective in preventing one from vomiting. .. you will never see someone using weed vomit and I'll stop at opening one's appetite. After smoking. .. a weed head can eat a whole cow. .ask them. .they're up in here! Why that happens...I don't know... see Greatdon! One group that really pushed for the legalization of weed are the people suffering from ehmmm....don't recall the name.. some muscle/bone disease... very painful. The drugs help but the side effects are just as bad. They found weed as effective but minus the side effects. The thing is.... the weed being given out as medical marijuana has been modified to not contain THC. Thus is not as effective as natural weed.
On being addicted...weed is not. If someone is addicted it is because that weed is adulterated with some other drug...an addictive drug. Why?...to hold customers. Eg... if we both selling natural weed... customer A can buy from either one of us.. same high. Should I sprinkle crack cocaine in my weed. .. the high he would get... is no way he would be buying from you again... your weed can't do wonders for him like mine. Depending on the additive... the weed head would react accordingly...some become paranoid... some become violent... some just lose their minds but a pure weed smoker would just be sitting smiling/laughing or eating.
Like anything else... if abused... then it must have some kind of negative effective...but nowhere as bad nor life endangering as hard drugs or opiates.
Phew!...rolling paper?..anybody?!

your right, absolutely, weed makes you wanna eat. its called muntches....thc the main compound in weed traps a chemical called leptin, leptin usually lets your brain know when your stomach is full, so without leptin, you could eat a cow like you said.....
Plus weed is a gateway drug, gateway in the sense that it leads you into using other drugs,at some point you won't be feeling the weed as you used to and you'd wanna try some thing else...ma real niqqas out there would confirm that whenever your on , a nice high, from a pill or codeine, smoking weed along side amplifies the high....if you don't get high you'd never understand

Sexina851:


I don't get the "reward pathway ' pls

yo sweetness, this niqqa right here is sentimental....tho he is right about you needing more and more amount of the drug as your body "develops tolerance" . so you cannot overdose on 1000mg of tramadol hydrochloride if your body has developed a tolerance to 1500.....tho these are very high doses and may, only when mixed with other opiods, benzodiazepines, and worse alcohol...be not so good

timilehin007:


That bloke dey lie ooo..no joy at all lol

no mind am, niqqas whey never roll joint for their life before

chimaobinelson:

THC or tetrahydrocanabinol is the compound found in that canabis plant, inhalation of this vapourised compound in form of smoking can cause psychosis or madness,short memory, cancer, lungs and other cardiovascular impairments, aside from it being hallucinogenic jus lik other sister drugs in Opiate, narcotics, etc. families. it can destroy once males sexual life and to women neonatal impairment of dea baby. that its one of the controlled substance and liable to abuse

why you dey lie oga? Niqqa step aside

chimaobinelson:

i wud lik to knw the pharmacological component or the alkaloid in weed dat makes some of its users to get high

mariquana contains two main compounds tetrahydrocannabinol, and cannabidiol...now when thc which is the former, gets to you brain, it triggers euphoria, which is the nice, wonderful, feeling we call 'high'...

Dongreat:


Lool. Probably they are mixing the drug with another that may be generic for viagra. Tram just depress you and kill whatever pain you are feeling. Taking tram when you intend to quash or drive is suicidal.

to someone who has zero tolerance, maybe

paradigmshift:
this guy no well o.
don't abuse drugs.
why must you take tramadol everyday?
Take tramadol if u wana have sex if need be n dt all.
u just wake up dey take tramadol, dt one no be mugu. gerarahere

you obviously lack empathy, you'd never understand....don't insult I'm

2dugged:
and what about rephnol and codeine, I recall mentioning those too, or you think I dont know tramadol is an opiate drug?

rohynlol is a benzodiazepine, the big brother of vallium (diazapam)....sorry to write all this while quoting you but...I'd never try a drug except I know enough about it..and I'd never ever od, that guy is an armature, if you don tey for the game,, alcohol is a no no when it comes to drugs...if you od on codeine, you'd most likely have a seizure because overdosing on codeine causes respiratory depression. ....please I beg yall, never judge a junkie...because trust me you don't understand even the slightest. ....has any of yall ever been depressed?....I'm not soliciting for drugs or non of that, no...in fact cocaine, heroine, methamphetamine, even I would not go there....it's all about discipline....you expect to be on two painkillers ( tramadol and codeine) plus alcohol ...in large quantity, you probably even hadn't eaten well...God help us all