pbreturned:
I like you already. YOU ARE MATURED

Yxxx:

I was very little when it happened.
Grewup to understand that I was abused. The person who did it thinks I can't remember.
I started masturbating as a result of this secretly but when I got to around age 7.I heard a voice within me encouraging me to stop and I believe that was God. Till date I don't.
I'm also strongwilled because most times I don't go back on my decisions.
I was also exposed to church activities at an early age, that also help.
So my advice.
Pray to God to help you.
Be firm in your decision to stop.
When that feeling comes, resist it in the name of Jesus.
Stroll out.
Stay away from Gay stuffs .
This can also work for lesbians.

pbreturned:
This your testimony though :-/

Yxxx:

Thank you.

Yxxx:
Yes we need to come out of closets. It's relieving. Op demanded for it,I shared.

Kyom20:
I am glad when i see stories like this. Sexuality for a number of us isn't strictly defined, it covers a whole spectrum and even fluctuates from time to time. Despite trying to cover up our needs so as to meet up with societies standards, the body wants what it wants.

I remember my first same sex experience, it happened when i was 5, i spoke out and my family got to know and i was beaten throughly. Afterwards i learnt to keep it secret. There were so many encounters but suprisingly i and the people i had them with dont even mention it when we see.

I was molested a few times by the opposite sex when i was younger and i feel that was what made me seek solace in the same sex. Quite frankly i was scared of the opposite sex.

Through all my encounters i had never actually climaxed till the last partner i had. I told the person that i had never climaxed because i am not gay but i just like to be with someone of the same sex for the comfort and excitement. The person was persistent and kept pushing till the day i came like i had never come in all my life. I became a slave to my partner, nothing had ever felt so good. That was when the realization of my sexuality dawned on me.

However, life got in d way and we went to different schools. I was finally introduced to the wonders of the opposite sex. i enjoy it very much but every now and again i miss the good old days. I am happy when i see that i am not alone in this.

pbreturned:
Don't ever blame anybody for your sexuality. There's nothing like because I was abused I turned gay. NEVER!!!!! You're gay you're gay. It's either in the process of the abuse, you climaxed and discovered this is for you or your hatred for it increased as per your discovery that it's not your thing (though sometimes there are few exceptions). I've had experiences too so let's not lie about it here. I don't support molestation though but I'm trying to pass a message to people who like to blame others for their problems. No. It's wrong. Don't attract self pity. Like I said I've had molestation issues which I have long forgiven and forgotten save for this topic that reminded me. One even asked for my forgiveness when I was young (though he was not old too, he was also under 14 then .) though I formed I was angry (as I really enjoyed it and wanted more cos he really knew how to handle me) but said I forgave him which I really did cos to me sef, he didn't get me angry but made my day. I was just forming angry to do Shakara as I really enjoyed it. This topic and your post just reminded me.
I opened a diary some times back until my woman discovered nairaland and told be to deactivate my account which I did. She still went ahead and opened an account in my name begging the world i have repented lol. I told her every though and she told me hers (though she's not a lesbian) here's the diary. It could help some people understand they are not alone and also expose hypocrisy of naija men. https://www.nairaland.com/3007441/real-me-bi-18-please
I'll still open a diary soon hopefully before the week runs out
BTW I sighted you refiner how have you been? longest time no see. Remember me? poundsboy
Dexlomo you're not alone bro

Ishilove:
Why did you have to be so graphic? I can sense from the gleeful tone in your narration that if a man with a yam sized mandingo comes your way, you will remove your trousers and submit your anus with embarrassing alacrity. Shior.

Are you promoting homosexuality?? Scratch that, you're bisexual.

I feel really unclean after reading this filth.

Tueh!!

zexy2030:

wey d money J111333 gi u make u gi us..time neva reach to disburse ?? abeg hurry , man dey vex as hunger dey tan.

Ishilove:

The money don finish. Better luck next time.

Besides, you need to stop acting so entitled. He doesn't owe you anything.

What arrant nonsense.

zexy2030:

u mad ho oo o
this is why I hate it when a lady is given resources, she will greedily divide it.
mtchwwww.

Ishilove:

Is J111333 not a young man like you? Can't you sef provide resources for people? Your own na to stay here and be chooking eye on someone else's money.

Nna biko swerve make person see road.

Ishilove:

Is J111333 not a young man like you? Can't you sef provide resources for people? Your own na to stay here and be chooking eye on someone else's money.

Nna biko swerve make person see road.

zexy2030:

mechionu!
see yeye pezzin or na geh, I no blame u, d covid 19 lockdown got me unwares and impromptu as i just returned from a travel with expenses, thinking i will do a little biz and get back to shape, I cum c give away by my fellow guy u say make I no drop akant, sey I no get today no mean say I lazy, besides I give a lot too but don't keep records of beneficiaries, na my fellow guys say make I drop akant, because I no say ur sense no go reach 2 divide am well...evening news*****r. mtchwww.
I'm sure d cash u think u have right is just a privilege never should u use it to insult any who doesn't have right now...change is inevitable.
Even what u have now may be earned by your cheap body sale or by inheritance...I mean u never worked as hard as we do to make such dough. Our backgrounds may be different doesn't mean our ends will b same.
ishi...whatever don't mention me again if u don't want problems on this thread.
the worse u can do is to ban. yeye E.N.P CEO.

ornicus:


When he never chook 1k ashewo finish? Those ones are wishing they were put in charge of sharing that money. Na to knack ashewo straight

Ishilove:

LMAAAAAAOO! E pain am.

All these tales by moonlight on top your fellow guy money. You are shameless.

You have a nauseating sense of entitlement. Get the fvck away from me and stop this your internet bambiala.

Online begging has become a culture in Nigeria. Pathetic!

Ishilove:

You dey mind the ishilove. See as she is vibrating that money did not get to her, as if I pluck money from trees.

Sometimes I wonder if these giveaways are not encouraging an entitlement mentality in today's youths.

ValCon888:
Op. You went to a federal government college. Either Odogbolu or Ijanikin. Yes or No?

zexy2030:

see this aunty wey no wise, sometimes when u come online to rant, u r just ranting because u r far, I swear if u see me physically u won't say a word, u will cringe with Fear.
if I won do u bad now, its easier, because I see spiritual leakages all around u, one arrow is enof to turn u a beggar for d rest of ur life.
now let me tell u, u don't insult in d public, leaern this lesson now because if u don't, u will be a sample for others to learn from.
peace.

Lamanii22:
Oh my God... You went through a lot in life oo... For a sec I thought you were a girl... I'm amazed at how you find the opposite sex attractive after all of these... Mehn.. You're amazing...

Ishilove:

See this oponu ayidayida. Use your 'spiritual eyes' to lift yourself out of poverty and stop looking for where to beg money online. Spiritual leakages ko, physical leakages ni.

Oya fire the arrow na and see what will happen to you. You think it's everyone you can threaten with spiritual things? I laugh in other tongues. I say fire the arrow if you tink sey you get power. Beggi beggi oshi.


You jam rock. Werey alaso.

Ishilove:

See this oponu ayidayida. Use your 'spiritual eyes' to lift yourself out of poverty and stop looking for where to beg money online. Spiritual leakages ko, physical leakages ni.

Oya fire the arrow na and see what will happen to you. You think it's everyone you can threaten with spiritual things? I laugh in other tongues. I say fire the arrow if you tink sey you get power. Beggi beggi oshi.


You jam rock. Werey alaso.

zexy2030:

u mad ho oo o
this is why I hate it when a lady is given resources, she will greedily divide it.
mtchwwww.
just watch d next thing to do na to ban me...mtchwww

Jimbadly:


She's no longer a mod on nairaland tho, for like years now.

pbreturned:
Don't ever blame anybody for your sexuality.

refiner:



U caught me there...howdy??

searchng4love:

You posted last December 25, 2019...

refiner:


U caught me there...howdy??

pbreturned:
I dey. long time dear