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Monfeels:
Why would I be ashamed?

I love myself and I've embraced what I am.

It's not like I chose to be what I am.

Monfeels:
What kind of games? Like Call of duty, GTA and the likes

OR

Like getting 5 freezers and hiding a baby in one of them and giving the mum 3 chances to guess which one the baby is in?

Monfeels:
I want to share my problem with you guys in the hopes that maybe I'll get some good advice or at least some insight into my problem.

When people first meet me their impression of me is that I'm good looking, cool and intelligent. Most girls usually assume that I have a girlfriend or a legion of side chicks that I Bleep whenever I want to.

The truth about me is that I've never been in a proper relationship with another woman before. All I've had is sexual partners that I stop talking to after I have sex with them, and girls I get intimate with just to control them and get them to fulfil my desire of having a female to own, please me and do my biding, and then I get bored of them and cease contact and move on like I never knew them.

The reason for this behavior is that I don't possess the emotional resources needed to engage in a healthy relationship with another human being. I have no empathy and I usually feel no guilt or remorse for my actions. It's impossible for me to care genuinely for another person. I don't feel people's pain or suffering and I'm not moved by the death of family members or friends. I simply do not care for any other person but myself. I've been this way for a very long time. I lack the ability to maintain relationships with people hence why I lose friends often. Relationships are usually a means to an end for me and when that end is met, I become irritated by the person I've gotten close to.

Despite the fact that I don't see the point in relationships, I still find that I get jealous of couples in healthy relationships. It's not like I want to experience what they experience, just that I am envious of the fact that they are participating in something I can't participate in.

When I find a girl that I want to get close to, I'm usually consumed with jealousy over her previous relationships, and over any current relationship she has with any member of the opposite sex, even if it's merely platonic. All I want is for her to devote all her time to me and shower me with attention and love. The problem with all this is that I don't want to reciprocate this behavior. In fact the idea of devoting attention to, and showering affection on someone else irritates me. It's all pointless, but I enjoy when it's done to me.

Another weird side to all this is that I don't just want to control the girl, I also enjoy making her feel bad, but in a way that makes her crave for me more. I enjoy poking holes in herself esteem, making her second guess the presumably good qualities she thought she possesed, making her not feel wanted by me, and making her do more to please me.

I don't love women, I only become obsessed with them. Obsessed to the point that I'm constantly tortured by thoughts of them being sexual with another guy especially when it's someone she has dated before. I want her all to myself and even if she had sex with someone before I met her or before we became close, I am filled with anger and jealousy whenever the thought crosses my mind, and I want to punish her for that. It's like I want to erase her past and replace it with me. I want to be all she's ever had. I don't want anyone else in her life and I don't want anyone else in her past.

All this must sound crazy to you guys but this is my reality and it's eating me up. I need advice.

LadyHeaven:
I thought you came here to seek assistance? But your subsequent posts have really been terrible, life should be lived and enjoyed, may you not look back at your choices and regret why you didn't make conscious efforts to change. GL

philcz:
He’s not here to seek for any assistance. I am surprised a lot of you didn’t know he was manipulating your emotions from the write up. SMH. This post is a ‘high’ for him. He’s enjoying the attention. Monfeels is a Sociopath to the core.

Monfeels:
I want to share my problem with you guys in the hopes that maybe I'll get some good advice or at least some insight into my problem.

When people first meet me their impression of me is that I'm good looking, cool and intelligent. Most girls usually assume that I have a girlfriend or a legion of side chicks that I Bleep whenever I want to.

The truth about me is that I've never been in a proper relationship with another woman before. All I've had is sexual partners that I stop talking to after I have sex with them, and girls I get intimate with just to control them and get them to fulfil my desire of having a female to own, please me and do my biding, and then I get bored of them and cease contact and move on like I never knew them.

The reason for this behavior is that I don't possess the emotional resources needed to engage in a healthy relationship with another human being. I have no empathy and I usually feel no guilt or remorse for my actions. It's impossible for me to care genuinely for another person. I don't feel people's pain or suffering and I'm not moved by the death of family members or friends. I simply do not care for any other person but myself. I've been this way for a very long time. I lack the ability to maintain relationships with people hence why I lose friends often. Relationships are usually a means to an end for me and when that end is met, I become irritated by the person I've gotten close to.

Despite the fact that I don't see the point in relationships, I still find that I get jealous of couples in healthy relationships. It's not like I want to experience what they experience, just that I am envious of the fact that they are participating in something I can't participate in.

When I find a girl that I want to get close to, I'm usually consumed with jealousy over her previous relationships, and over any current relationship she has with any member of the opposite sex, even if it's merely platonic. All I want is for her to devote all her time to me and shower me with attention and love. The problem with all this is that I don't want to reciprocate this behavior. In fact the idea of devoting attention to, and showering affection on someone else irritates me. It's all pointless, but I enjoy when it's done to me.

Another weird side to all this is that I don't just want to control the girl, I also enjoy making her feel bad, but in a way that makes her crave for me more. I enjoy poking holes in herself esteem, making her second guess the presumably good qualities she thought she possesed, making her not feel wanted by me, and making her do more to please me.

I don't love women, I only become obsessed with them. Obsessed to the point that I'm constantly tortured by thoughts of them being sexual with another guy especially when it's someone she has dated before. I want her all to myself and even if she had sex with someone before I met her or before we became close, I am filled with anger and jealousy whenever the thought crosses my mind, and I want to punish her for that. It's like I want to erase her past and replace it with me. I want to be all she's ever had. I don't want anyone else in her life and I don't want anyone else in her past.

All this must sound crazy to you guys but this is my reality and it's eating me up. I need advice.

BusterG:
It a disorder you have bro.

Narcissistic personality disorder (NPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a long-term pattern of exaggerated feelings of self-importance, an excessive need for admiration, and a lack of empathy toward other people.

Just like Judas, some people are destined to be destroyed by their own self sooner or later. You are one of such.

Don’t stress yourself looking for advice.

It’s your destiny.

Atomemmy:
I DON'T FIND ANYTHING WRONG IN UR CHARACTERS. I ONLY FIND SOMETHING WRONG WITH UR MINDSET. U FEEL LIVING UR LIFE IN CONTRAST TO THE WAY OTHERS LIVE MAKES U REJECTABLE, AND THEN U WANT TO PLEASE THEM.
IT'S NOT BAD NOT HAVING FEELINGS FOR WOMEN. IT'S A GOOD SIGN U'RE MORE THAN A MAN. TRY USING THIS NATURE OF URS TO ADVANCE GOD'S KINGDOM LIKE BECOMING A PREIST UNNO?

LadyHeaven:
I had no idea, I read each thread with a open mind, I was very aghast reading his subsequent mentions to people...its his cup of ogogoro, people like him should be ignored. Imagine been glad to be a Narcissist Sociopath

philcz:
He’s not here to seek for any assistance. I am surprised a lot of you didn’t know he was manipulating your emotions from the write up. SMH. This post is a ‘high’ for him. He’s enjoying the attention. Monfeels is a Sociopath to the core.

LadyHeaven:
I had no idea, I read each thread with a open mind, I was very aghast reading his subsequent mentions to people...its his cup of ogogoro, people like him should be ignored. Imagine been glad to be a Narcissist Sociopath

Monfeels:
I'm not glad to be a narcissist sociopath or whatever label that fits my personality. I am just a guy who has embraced who he is and found solace in loving himself.

And I can't help acting the way I act. Trust me, I'm very self aware and very knowledgeable and I've realized that there is no cure to what I am.

So I have two options.: Try to be a different person and suffer dissatisfaction and an internal turmoil so excruciating that it tears me inside out, or just do stuff that makes me happy, even though it might hurt someone. I know you'd pick the later but whatever argument you'd make would fly in the face of my lack of empathy.

Monfeels:
I want to share my problem with you guys in the hopes that maybe I'll get some good advice or at least some insight into my problem.

When people first meet me their impression of me is that I'm good looking, cool and intelligent. Most girls usually assume that I have a girlfriend or a legion of side chicks that I Bleep whenever I want to.

The truth about me is that I've never been in a proper relationship with another woman before. All I've had is sexual partners that I stop talking to after I have sex with them, and girls I get intimate with just to control them and get them to fulfil my desire of having a female to own, please me and do my biding, and then I get bored of them and cease contact and move on like I never knew them.

The reason for this behavior is that I don't possess the emotional resources needed to engage in a healthy relationship with another human being. I have no empathy and I usually feel no guilt or remorse for my actions. It's impossible for me to care genuinely for another person. I don't feel people's pain or suffering and I'm not moved by the death of family members or friends. I simply do not care for any other person but myself. I've been this way for a very long time. I lack the ability to maintain relationships with people hence why I lose friends often. Relationships are usually a means to an end for me and when that end is met, I become irritated by the person I've gotten close to.

Despite the fact that I don't see the point in relationships, I still find that I get jealous of couples in healthy relationships. It's not like I want to experience what they experience, just that I am envious of the fact that they are participating in something I can't participate in.

When I find a girl that I want to get close to, I'm usually consumed with jealousy over her previous relationships, and over any current relationship she has with any member of the opposite sex, even if it's merely platonic. All I want is for her to devote all her time to me and shower me with attention and love. The problem with all this is that I don't want to reciprocate this behavior. In fact the idea of devoting attention to, and showering affection on someone else irritates me. It's all pointless, but I enjoy when it's done to me.

Another weird side to all this is that I don't just want to control the girl, I also enjoy making her feel bad, but in a way that makes her crave for me more. I enjoy poking holes in herself esteem, making her second guess the presumably good qualities she thought she possesed, making her not feel wanted by me, and making her do more to please me.

I don't love women, I only become obsessed with them. Obsessed to the point that I'm constantly tortured by thoughts of them being sexual with another guy especially when it's someone she has dated before. I want her all to myself and even if she had sex with someone before I met her or before we became close, I am filled with anger and jealousy whenever the thought crosses my mind, and I want to punish her for that. It's like I want to erase her past and replace it with me. I want to be all she's ever had. I don't want anyone else in her life and I don't want anyone else in her past.

All this must sound crazy to you guys but this is my reality and it's eating me up. I need advice.

Monfeels:
Finally someone smart just made a comment.

You know I actually took screenshots of some posts that I liked.

philcz:
I don’t see myself as being smart, I am just me. I thought you’ve had your ‘fill’ with this post, clearly I was wrong.

Monfeels:
I had my fill when I posted it 4 days ago. But I just realized minutes ago that it made front page. Front page means more comments so I'm still enjoying the comments for now.

BlackLaw:
this shayt's made up

Monfeels:
@philcz

Coupled with the traits I mentioned I also have even more severe sexual disorders.

I'll give you a riddle because I'm not comfortable mentioning it here. Figure it out.

All beauty is to me stale except it be preserved in silence.

Monfeels:
@philcz

Coupled with the traits I mentioned I also have even more severe sexual disorders.

I'll give you a riddle because I'm not comfortable mentioning it here. Figure it out.

All beauty is to me stale except it be preserved in silence.

philcz:
Fûck no way, Man! SMH. You need help bro.

philcz:
This is you trying to manipulate me into continuing this conversation with you after I said goodbye

Monfeels:
You figured out the answer to my riddle?

Give me a hint.