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| Re: Undecided by Ven97: 6:33am On May 08, 2020 |
Hmmmm. Thread carefully |
| Re: Undecided by BigDebbie: 1:05pm On May 08, 2020 |
Weldone OP |
| Re: Undecided by Lakesc: 6:49pm On May 08, 2020 |
Thanks OP |
| Re: Undecided by Faithfulmartins(m): 8:13pm On May 08, 2020 |
Thumb Up! |
| Re: Undecided by Moura7(op): 11:00pm On May 09, 2020 |
So sorry I haven't updated since....my phone's been acting up lately coupled with the ever unreliable power supply we've got here in Nigeria.....I'd make up when I fix my phone, so sorry guys. |
| Re: Undecided by KrazzyAndy(m): 2:58am On May 10, 2020 |
Started yesterday and you got ms hooked already bro i hope you fix it soon |
| Re: Undecided by Ultimategeneral: 4:28am On May 10, 2020 |
do it at your pace bro |
| Re: Undecided by Moura7(op): 9:07pm On May 11, 2020 |
Fola's POV I paced the lengths of the garden as I waited, a clear embodiment of worry and fear. 'What's still keeping him?', I thought as I continued my back and forth pacing. ''What if she got scared and raised an alarm and he got arrested again....yes that's it, I'm sure that's why he's not even answering his phone. I said it, I said it, I said it but he just wouldn't listen", I said to myself as I punched the air in frustration. Yes, you guessed right....Dibz had gone to meet Hailey and apologize since he finished his lectures early this afternoon and he's not yet back and it's a few minutes past 11pm now. I rushes inside the house to dress up properly before going to any of the police stations around to see if he was indeed arrested. I knew this idea of his was trouble but he wouldn't listen to me and now look what's happened now. I got outside and made to go the garage but then I remembered I didn't come here with my car and I didn't know where they belong kept the keys. Debbie is still shaken by her brother's sudden admission to raping Hailey and she's been staying with T for sometime now, prolly to get her head round the whole thing so she's not here now to help me. I don't know if to ask the maids if they know where the keys to the cars are kept as it may seem abit weird as I'm not even a member of the family, I guess I'll just order an Uber, no that might take a lot of time I'll just use a taxi. Just as I reached the main gate, waiting for the security guard to open now the smaller part of the gate for me to pass, Dibz honked. I watched relieved as his car slid into the compound and into the garage. I walked up to with an angered expression on my face masking the warmth and joy I'm feeling now knowing he's okay. "Why weren't you taking my calls...you had me so worried, what if something bad had happened to you?", I spat out immediately I reached him. He got out from the car slowly looking tired. He locked the car and turned to face me with a hint of amusement on his face. "Good evening to you too Fola", he said still with that stupid amusing look on his face. "Yeah, whatever, tell me what happened, why weren't you picking...did she have you locked up?", I asked impatiently. He looked taken aback when I mentioned the locked up part for a second but shook his head smiling afterwards. "Firstly, I wasn't locked up or anything", he began. "Secondly, my phone's bad so I wasn't with it, I smashed it on the wall yesterday out of rage, that reminds me I have to get a new one soon", he said beginning to walk inside but I blocked him with my arms folded across my chest. "Ehh....why are you blocking my way?", he asked cluelessly. "Thirdly?", I asked with my brow raised. "Thirdly what?", he asked concerned confused. I groaned in frustration as I looked at his clueless self. "You've what what happened firstly and secondly but no thirdly or finally.....tell me how did it go?.. What happened?", I asked feeling the last of my patience ooze out of me His smiling face changed into a scowl at once and he became moody. Oh no, it went bad , oh I knew this wasn't going to go down well. I reached out to him as he relaxed on his car now, his face still with that sad expression. "That bad huh?", I asked softly. "You can't imagine the half of it", he replied quietly. It went....it went.....She..She.....TBC |
| Re: Undecided by Moura7(op): 9:10pm On May 11, 2020 |
Hey guys.....I sweated pretty bad to type this with my bad phone. So sorry it's not that lengthy but I just couldn't stay without trying to drop anything at all regardless of how hard it was going to be. Please bear with me , when update regularly when I work my phone. Pls keep the comments coming and constructive too |
| Re: Undecided by mokoh(m): 9:27pm On May 11, 2020 |
Thanks for this episode |
| Re: Undecided by Faithfulmartins(m): 11:27pm On May 11, 2020 |
Thanks for the update |
| Re: Undecided by Moura7(op): 3:48pm On May 13, 2020 |
Dibz's POV "She forgave me", I said and started laughing when Fola's worried face turned into scowl and she tried to hit me. I ran into the house as fast as I could with her hot on my tail with one of her heels in hand. I tripped when I got to one of the living rooms and fell as I failed to regain balance. I held my hands up in surrender as I continued laughing hard which seemed to infuriate her the more as she stood over me not knowing whether to hit me with her heel or just kick me. "You should...you should have seen your face ..haha", I tried to say but the laughter wouldn't just let me say anything coherently. Frustrated, she crashed beside me on the floor with a frown that was trying really hard to fight off a smile coming on her face. "It's not funny joor, I was pretty worried", she said pushing me with her hand. "Especially when you didn't return on time, I thought something bad had happened", she said. "So she forgave you? just like that?", she asked eagerly now. "Well, she didn't really forgive per say", I started but Fola's eyebrows shut up instantly and I knew I needed to say something to ease her quickly. "But", I said with a finger up signalling her not o say anything yet. "But she said she'll think about it and I should just give her time", I said. "Hmm....ok", she said but one could tell she wasn't one bit okay at all. "So tell me, how did you do it, like talk to her. I've been friends with Hailey for sometime now and I know that girl can keep a grudge and there's no way an apology in just one day can make her forgive someone.. not even you", Fola remarked. I sighed as I leaned to get one of the sofa pillows to rest my head as I laid back beside her. FLASHBACK I had put off work at the company for the meantime to attend school regularly for now so as to plan well to achieve my quest to get Hailey's forgiveness. Due to the sudden revelation of my intent to ask Hailey's forgiveness and the confession to the sais rape, most of my friends had more or less alienated themselves from me. Debbie had even moved out of the house to stay with T but I knew she'd come around later now, she can't stay mad at me forever. Josh too had avoided me ever since, not that I blame him though but I know with time they'd accept me back into their good graces. Ironically, Fola had stayed back. I don't know what's with her though or maybe she's feeling guilty for not being there before and she's now using this as an opportunity to start on a clean sheet , i don't know but one thing's that I like the feeling of having her around. Liv's has prolly changed her number or she's blocked mine cus I can't seem to get through to her at all, she's not even talking to her cousin too. I wish things didn't have to end up like this, but I pray she finds it in her heart to forgive me and my actions and eventually understands why I have to do this, to get my peace of mind. So back to the matter. Fola had setup the meeting between Hailey and I using the pretence of her wanting to meet with Hailey to get Hailey to come cus if she mentioned my name then there's a 100℅ chance Hailey wouldn't show. "Hi Hales", I said as I emerged from where I was hiding watching her as she awaited the supposed arrival of Fola. She became still for a moment before turning to me slowly. Her half caste complexion almost white with fear as she beheld me. She looked around frantically with her mouth open and immediately I knew she was about to scream. "Wait Wait... Hailey, please please don't scream, please I just want to talk I'm not here to harm you", I held up my hands as I begged desperately. "Please Hales, I remember what happened that night", I said again but her facial expression changed to one of horror again. "No no Hailey, I'm sorry. I'm here to say I'm so sorry for defying you like that. I was hurt and drunk that night and I don't know what came over me, pls forgive me.I know...I know saying sorry won't change what has already happened but pls I'm truly sorry and ashamed what I did", I begged as I watched her face exhibit an expression of calmness before it was replaced quickly with that of anger. "Sorry?", she finally spoke up since she came here. "You sorry? after all these time, you're now sorry?", she flared up. "Do you know how ashamed I felt of myself? how I almost committed suicide because of what you did?", she continued and I bowed my head in 'apparent' shame and disgust at what I had allegedly done. "I heard all about that Hailey and I'm so so sorry , I'm so selfish and I don't deserve your kindness at all. What was I thinking coming to beg you for forgiveness, I wouldn't even forgive myself if I was in your shoes now. I'm sorry Hales, it's just that lately thoughts of you had been clouding my mind and I've nothing than to think about you lately and that's why I came to seek your forgiveness and if God smiles on me, become friends with you again but I can see how foolish my thinking had been. I'll just go back and turn myself in for an arrest again cus I don't think I can ever live as a free man again without your forgiveness", I said as I made to stand up and leave. I walked away slowly, counting my steps as I walked hoping she calls me back but it seemed she wasn't going to bulge. "Wait Dibz", she called out finally and my leapt with relief. "Do you mean all you just said now? that you're sorry and also that you've been thinking about me since?", she asked quietly. "From the depths of my heart Hales, I swear", I said as she bent her head a little. What could have been a blush and a small smile donned her face as she raised her face to look at me. "Don't do it....don't turn yourself in yet. Just give me sometime to think this through", she said. "Ok Hales.... thanks", I appreciated as she smiled a little. "Yeah, I'll be going now", she said as she walked off. PRESENT "And that was how it all went down", I said to Fola who was now leaning on her side using her hand to support her head as she looked and listened with rapt attention. "Wow... that's just wow", she whispered. I imitated her posture so I could look at her. We stayed like that for a while, each of us savouring the look of our faces with our eyes. Her lips parted a little and I didn't miss it and she knew too that I saw her do that. I drew my eyes from her lips to her eyes and back to the lips and just when I decided to go in for the kill damming all consequences, the door opened immediately causing us to come back to reality causing a sudden wealth of distance between us. Just who was this killjoy or perhaps saviour?.......TBC |
| Re: Undecided by doctorexcel: 5:21pm On May 13, 2020 |
Wow. Pray it 's not Hailey |
| Re: Undecided by rayvelez(m): 6:30pm On May 13, 2020 |
I'm coming back after u finished the story. |
| Re: Undecided by Moura7(op): 1:02pm On May 16, 2020 |
Contd "Sir please I wanted to know what you'd like for dinner. You weren't around and Ms Fola didn't answer us when we asked what to prepare so we didn't prepare anything", one of the maids said as she entered the room I sighed with relief inwardly that she was the one that barged in us on but frowned at the fact that she didn't knock first but then I realised that we were in a living room and not a bedroom and so there wasn't really any need to knock. "It's ok , I'm not really hungry but you can ask Fola if she'd like anything", I said. She nodded and turned to Fola, who was looked abit lost to everything happening. "Miss?", the maid said when Fola didn't say anything in reply to her question. "Huh?", Fola asked , coming back to her senses. "Master Dibz said to ask you whether you'd like anything in particular for dinner?", the maid repeated, her frustration subtly expressed in her tone. "No, I think I'm full", Fola replied slowly. With that the maid left and the room became silent for a while. Fola toyed her fingers while I just drummed my fingers slowly on the sofa I was leaning on. "So uhmm...I...I think I'm just gonna go wash up now", I said or more like stuttered. I couldn't stand the tension in the room any longer. "Yeah. sure...I...I'll just go to my room now", she said nervously. She seemed like she wanted to say more or something but decided against it. I laid on my bed bored. The shower was quite refreshing and on a good day I might have spent more time there but I wasn't just in the mood now. Flashes of what happened earlier or almost happened flooded my mind as I laid on my bed. My heart was at war with my conscience in the sense that my heart was disappointed with the intrusion on what would have been ....I don't even know, but my conscience was biting me, it was eating up at the moral part of me, the part that felt somewhat guilty that I almost cheated on Liv. Yes, she said she needed space but that didn't mean we were through, it's just like we were separated but not divorced, but then I still felt guilty even if technically, I didn't do anything wrong because I knew deep down that if that maid didn't intrude, I would have gone all the way with the whole thing, I wouldn't have been able to stop myself. I woke up quite early the next day and decided to some up exercise. I didn't feel that energetic to hit the gym so I just settled on bike riding. I rode miles and miles as I thought about my life and how much I'd been through at this young age. Sometimes I felt God didn't care about me if not why did he let me go through so much. It's been a really long time since I'd known genuine happiness and joy without being scared that it won't last. Now welled up in the emotions I'm feeling now, I screamed as I paddled faster. 'Why Lord, why...why do I have to go through so much, why does it feel like nothing is working for me, why?!!!, I screamed the more. I thought about calling my mum but I decided against it, I wasn't sure if Debbie had told her about my confession ish and I didn't want to risk it all. Somehow I ended up in front of the 'HABITAT'. It was big building that contained various pent houses. It was mainly for the elites of Lagos cus it's prices were ridiculous like 10m/year rents just a three bedroom pad. It was where most foreign expatriates lodged and so most BlueBlood students too cus it was quite close to the school. It was also where Josh's apartment was. I sighed as the elevator took me to the floor where his apartment was. I knew the code but I preferred to use the buzzer instead. He hadn't spoken to me since which meant hes still at mad at me so I had to play it safe now. He opened the door and as he saw it was me, he frowned. "What?", he asked. I smiled. He talked to me so he's not the mad at me like before. "Ain't you gon let me in", I asked smiling. "No", he frowned. "Out with it, I ain't gat all day", he said impatiently. "Cmon dude, atleast let me come in", I begged. He didn't bulge and instead used his body to shield the small space from the opened part of the door. I smiled as an idea popped into my mind. I looked to my right and whistles at what I saw... nothing. "Damn bro, you got a new neighbor or something? she's so hot", I said still looking there. Josh immediately poked his head to look at what I talking about and that gave me the opening I needed and trust me I made good use of it. I forced myself in laughing as Josh who now realized he'd been used closed the door and cursed as he turned to me. I just knew Josh couldn't pass up the chance to ogle at any hot female thing, even if it was a mannequin( ok I'm just exaggerating now). "Cmon man, when will this cold shoulder attitude end?", i asked after Josh just sat down and pretended as if I wasn't there. "F**k off", he scoffed. "I'm serious man, it's been almost two week", I retorted. "You're really something", he said with a fake smile on his face. "You piece of shit, five years man, five f**king years and you lied to me, your supposed best friend. You lied about what happened that day, I defended you man and even ended up in cell one time fighting for you and you were the guilty the whole time, guilty !!!", he screamed. "Josh is not..." "Just shut up, you hear me? Just the f**k up, I don't wanna any excuses", he continued. Now the weight of what I had done dawned on me. I didn't care to think about how all these people who had stood by me would feel, I just thought of myself. It was selfish of me and I need to make this right. Maybe I can tell Josh the real reason for everything. "I didn't do it Josh", I said quietly. "I didn't rape her and I'm ready to tell you why I apologized to her", i continued. What happened next was something I didn't expect. Josh who had been acting the betrayed friend suddenly smiled and rushed out and back with two cans of beer. I watched with my mouth open ajar wondering what was happening. "Alright bro, go on", he urged smiling but one could still see how anxious he was for me to spill. "But...but...you...you were...", I tried to talk but I couldn't seem to form anything. "Oh that? I was just acting, I'm good ba?. That was the only way I knew you'd open up about what the hell you're doing. I know you didn't rape her and so you're sudden apology had to mean something so I pretended to hate you and give you some space before coming to you and do this but instead you came to me and I delivered my masterpiece acting skills like the master I am ", he finished smiling widely. He was really feeling himself. I shook my head smiling as I took a go at the beer. Ha, I had just been used. "You had me , man", I conceded. He laughed at that and urged me to start spilling. "Hmm.... before I start, are you the only one around? knowing you, some girl might just be sleeping in your bed. now", I asked before I started talking. I didn't want to risk someone else getting a whiff of anything I was going to say, it might just spread. Josh though reacted abit oddly at my question but he shrugged it off and affirmed that he was alone. "OK , there's evidence that I didn't rape Hailey and she's got it, in her laptop. That's why I apologized to her, I need to get close to her, befriend her again in order to gain access to her laptop", I said watching his reaction. He smiled widely as he nodded. "Yes, I knew it"!!!, someone shouted as the person rushed to join us in the living room. I almost fell of my chair in fear at the sudden outburst and intrusion, but my eyes widened when I saw who it was. ."T?", I said quietly. She had a an oversized basketball Jersey on, obviously Josh's. I put two and two together and the reality of the whole thing dawned on me. When did this happen. I looked at Josh who was avoiding my gaze and T who looked away too maybe realizing she had slipped up. I smirked as I looked at Josh again.........TBC |
| Re: Undecided by Herbiedeen(m): 2:13pm On May 16, 2020 |
wow, the longer the time, the shorter the update
Nice one though, great piece. Kudos |
| Re: Undecided by Faithfulmartins(m): 8:34pm On May 16, 2020 |
This last update is quite funny, kudous bro! |
| Re: Undecided by KrazzyAndy(m): 9:50pm On May 16, 2020 |
Please i can't be the only one living this story characters and their lines in my head |
| Re: Undecided by Moura7(op): 7:51am On May 17, 2020 |
I need comments guys.... comments!!! |
| Re: Undecided by Vitalvector2017(m): 8:06am On May 17, 2020 |
Moura7 You are doing a good job �� But please/biko/ejo more updates� |
| Re: Undecided by BigDebbie: 9:50am On May 17, 2020 |
Kai,this story is becoming more more interesting,Thanks OP. can't wait for more |
| Re: Undecided by Lakesc: 6:58am On May 18, 2020 |
Thanks OP.... |
| Re: Undecided by Moura7(op): 7:41pm On May 20, 2020 |
Thanks alot guys......so sorry for the breach in updates. I've been pretty engaged in alot lately. Hopefully I'll drop something tomorrow. Pls you guys shouldn't vex too for me abeg. |
| Re: Undecided by Dybala11(m): 10:59pm On May 20, 2020 |
Moura7:Thanks in anticipation OP. |
| Re: Undecided by Moura7(op): 1:51pm On May 21, 2020 |
Dybala11:my man howfar na, been a while |
| Re: Undecided by Moura7(op): 3:24pm On May 21, 2020 |
Dibz's POV After my pleasantly weird meeting with Josh and T, I felt better than when I left home this morning. I whistled as I paddled my way home, feeling hungry as I remembered I didn't eat anything last night. Thinking about home now, I wondered how I was going to face Fola now. I know things are gonna get awkward between us again and suddenly i didn't think it'd be a good idea to let her continue staying with just me at home. Her cousin had left so there wasn't really any reason for her to remain. "Oh hey, you're back", Fola greeted cheerfully as I got to the kitchen to get water to drink. 'Now that's weird', I thought to myself. I didn't expect her to be all bubbly after last night. I was expecting something more like her sulking or trying her best to avoid me but this....this was new and I dare to say I liked it. "I knew you'd be hungry so I decided to make some pancakes", she said dishing some on a plate and passing them to me. I sat down and poured some syrup on the pancakes before taking a bite and I couldn't help the moan that escaped my mouth as my taste buds were greeted with heaven. "So..?", she asked in nervous anticipation as she watched me. I didn't notice she'd been staring at me but I got confused at her 'so?' question. "So what?", I asked confused but she just rolled hee eyes at that. "The pancakes, how is it?", she asked nervously again. Oh, now I get it now, the whole nervousness was hee thinking I might not like it. "Oh, they are good..pretty good", I replied before thinking. I mentally slapped myself at how easy I seemed with my reply. I had opted to act like i wasn't that moved by the pancakes but it's Fola we're talking about here-- she just brings all the stupid in me, all of them. "Thanks, I'm glad you like it", she said smiling. I smiled back at her and continued wolfing down on the pancakes. "So how was your run or whatever exercise you went for this morning?", Fola asked sitting down too. "It was great, I even stopped by Josh's", I said with my mouthful. She frowned abit at that. "You guys talking again?", she asked. "Yeah, we made up today or more like he forgave me plus I saw T there too", I continued. "T?", she asked surprised. I smiled as i remembered how T came out from her hiding spot in the bedroom. "Mhmm..", I affirmed as I munched on. "I think they are a thing now", I continued. "Wow, T didn't say anything about it to me. Good for them though, been a long time coming", she said. "Josh better step up and be good to her. He needs to stop womanizing", she continued. I nodded absent mindedly while drinking my juice as she went on and on about Josh needed to grow up for T and blah blah blah. "Excuse me sir, Ms Williams is outside, should I let her in?", one of the maids announced by the doorway. I stood still for a moment at that but composed myself later on as I signalled that she let Hailey in. I wondered what Hailey wanted now and why she didn't call to inform me about this sudden visit, but then I remembered I'm yet to replace the phone I smashed. I guess I shouldn't be surprised by such given that I was the one who asked for friendship. "Miss Williams?...as in Hailey Williams?", Fola asked in a somewhat annoyed manner. I nodded and her frown deepened. "Why are you doing... . "Hey you?", Hailey greeted as she entered, cutting Fola off from what she was saying. I forced a smile as she got closer to me. She opened her arms for a hug which I accepted reluctantly. "Hey Hales, how are you?", I asked. "I'm good and you? I'm sorry for coming with informing you first, I was driving through and just decided to stop by since you know, we are friends again", she said, grinning quite brightly as she said the last part. "I also wanted to drop off this I.V, I'm hosting a party next weekend and I'd like it if you came", Hailey said as she kept a hand on my bicep now, a weird look in her eyes. At the gesture, Fola cleared her throat rather loudly might I add and it kinda scared Hailey for a minute. Honestly, how did she notice Fola the whole time she was there. "Oh Fola?.. you're here too", Hailey said as she and Fola stared at themselves quite oddly. I thought they were friends now so why the staring contest now. "Oh Hales, would you like some pancakes? Trust me they are good, Fola made them" "Really? making pancakes now, are we?" she said smiling as she continued staring at Fola. Even a blind man would know that smile was fake . "You know what? I think I'll pass, maybe next time. Pls do come to my party and you too ,Fola .Bye" she said as she walked to me to have me a quick hug before turning to Fola with a knowing coy smile and then blew her a kiss before walking out. "What was that all about?", I asked when I was sure Hailey had left the premises. "What the hell are you doing?", she fired back instead. "Why are you doing this?", she continued. "Doing what?", I asked back. "The whole confession and being friends with Hailey again, why are you doing it?", she asked. I scoffed as I left her to march up to my room but she followed. "You're playing with fire and I don't want you to get hurt again", she said she entered my room after me. "Well, that's none of your business now, is it?", I thundered. She appeared hurt at my response momentarily before she started talking again. "If course it's my business", she said quietly. That got me interested mildly as I turned to face her. "What do you mean?", i asked her. She sighed and sat down on my bed. " I still love you, Dibz. I really do", she said tearfully. At that moment, I didn't know what to feel at what she just said. I know I love her , there's no doubt about that but I don't know why the words 'i love you too' didn't come out from my mind. "Wow, a little too late for that now don't you think?", I found myself saying. "I know, I know I have no right to feel what I feel now but I've realized my mistakes then I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Dibz", she cried softly. "No no, you don't get to do that, you don't get to abandon ms and just come back with the ' I still love you crap'. Do you how long I suffered just to hear those words from you in prison?.... I prayed everyday for you to come see me but you prayed I died there somehow", I said while she cried harder. After a while, after I had calmed down a bit , I walked to where Fola sat now crying quietly. I sat beside her, staring into space. "Please stop crying now, I hate seeing you crying" , I said softly. "I'm sorry for going off on you like that again. I know you're just trying to look out for me". She wanted to say something but I stopped her cus I wasn't done yet. "Now, I told you I had accepted your apology earlier and it wasn't right for me to bring up the past against you like that and I'm sorry.....but I'm faithful, Fola. I can't be the one for you anymore, I don't think we can ever work out as couple again. I have someone who loves me, even though I think that I still...no, even though I know I still love you. Liv and I might not be on talking terms now but we haven't broken up officially and I'll be faithful till she breaks it off herself . You know sometimes, love isn't enough for two people to be together. I'm sorry", I said and cleaned a tear from my eyes. She sobbed quietly as I finished. "And Fola, I don't think it'd be a good idea for you to continue staying here ...I think it'd be best if you left today", I said as I turned to leave as the my tear ducts opened and poured freely......TBC |
| Re: Undecided by Dybala11(m): 6:19pm On May 21, 2020 |
Moura7:I'm fine sir. I've been a little busy these days sha. |
| Re: Undecided by Dybala11(m): 6:27pm On May 21, 2020 |
This last update is kinda emotional o. |
| Re: Undecided by Moura7(op): 9:54pm On May 21, 2020 |
FOLA'S POV I cried as I laid curled up on my bed cuddling my huge teddy. I smiled in tears as I wondered why I got so affected by the way things turned out. I expected this, the whole rejection and everything, I expected it and prepped myself for it but yet here I am crying, tears gushing out my eyes like water from a running tap. I guessed I just sort of hoped things would be work things out by itself and I thought it was working when we seemed cool with each other these past few days. Even when he attacked the pancakes this morning with that ferocious appetite, I felt so so happy, so happy he loved my food. Even when he smiled at me from the table this morning, I felt finally was getting somewhere but how wrong had I been. The only upside to everything was that he admitted he still loves me but can't be with me now or ever according to him. I smiled sadly as I recalled the way he said he still loves me. Somehow, I drew strength from that cus as far one is still alive, there's always hope. He said he'd wait till Liv calls off their relationship cus he can't cheat on her and I'm ready to wait but I still can't help but feel even if she calls things off between them, Dibz might still not decide to get back with me unless maybe Olivia blesses it. Yes, he's so good like that, he wouldn't want her to feel bad by getting back with her cousin so he'd rather remain single like that or date someone else. Now I might seem so wicked and heartless considering the fact that I'm willing to go against my sweet cousin for her boyfriend and I feel abit bad too about it but I'm willing to risk it. The truth is if there's even the slightest, minutest chance that Dibz would come back to me if Olivia is out of the way then I'm more than willing to take it, to wait and hope she leaves even though I know she loves him too and it would hurt her. Now I'm won't hurt her in anyway, no I'm not a monster but I would hope she doesn't end up with him, I would pray Dibz comes back to me. My phone rang cutting me off from my thoughts. I rushed at it hoping that maybe, just maybe it's Dibz, calling to me tell me to come back. "Hello?", I answered without even checking the called ID. My voice was shaky and I'm sure my breath could be heard at the other end of the line. "Well well well, if it isn't Baker girl", Hailey said in a sing song kinda tune. Oh this b***ch, she's the reason for everything that went wrong today. "What do you want Hailey?", I asked icily. "Woah, what's up with the hostility. Calm down girl, can't I call to check up on you anymore" she said. I closed my eyes, willing myself not to lose my cool with her. I know she didn't call to check up on me or whatever B.S she claims. "You just saw me a few hours ago Hailey so quit lying already", I remarked. "So I didn't know you were staying at Dibz's place", she began. I smiled at that, I just knew that was the reason she called. I knew that look in her eyes when she saw me there, the same way she used to look at me back in highschool whenever she saw me with Dibz. She still has the hots for him, even after she claimed he allegedly raped her which seems weird. Now after the incident happened, I felt so ashamed of Dibz that I took upon myself to be there for Hailey and that included me studying alot of rape victims and none, I mean none seemed to forgive the rapist. They might move on and all that but once the rapist is mentioned, they get depressed again and starting crying and cursing, no matter who the rapist was to them, even if it was a friend or even a brother or father so one can understand how weird it is that Hailey forgave Dibz, even to the extent of being attracted to him again just after one apology.And Hailey isn't one to forgive or let go things at all talk more of being friends again to someone who had wronged her in the slightest way unless....OMG...Unless she lied about the whole thing and Dibz had been telling the truth all along but then the question of how she faked the evidence and Dibz's recent confession brings more confusion about the whole thing. "Hey, you still there?", Hailey asked bringing me out of my reverie. "What...what did you say?", I asked. "I asked if you're cousin knows you're staying with her boyfriend your ex", she replied. I could tell she was smiling that wicked smile of hers. "That's none of your business", I retorted. "You know, Henry told us what happened and honestly, I think he's sorry about what happened. He regrets it so much Fola. I think you should forgive him ", she pleaded. Now this pathetic display of desperation is sickening. Wow, she really wants to get with Dibz so much that she's now trying to push me to Henry. This is alarming, this girl might be obsessed and that's not healthy. God how did I not notice this all through the five years we were friends? "Look Hailey, I don't feel like talking anymore so bye", I said as I hung up immediately. I laid back on my bed wondering how I was so blind to everything, oh how hate had clouded my sense of reasoning and thought. I've been so foolish but not anymore, I have to find out how to right everything even if I don't have a clue how, but I just know I won't sit down and do nothing this time around......TBC " |
| Re: Undecided by Ven97: 10:58pm On May 21, 2020 |
Thanks for the update bro! |
| Re: Undecided by KrazzyAndy(m): 11:02pm On May 21, 2020 |
Another bangerrrr!!!!!!! ![]() |
| Re: Undecided by Lakesc: 6:15pm On May 22, 2020 |
Thanks OP... |
