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internationalman:
All I have to say is quit masturbation...

I logged in to ask you this...who gave you this cheat code??


Guy stop masturbating and go to YouTube follow different videos on semen retention...your life will turn around, you will happier... Its not a magic wand but you won't b this miserable and pathetic

YoungandDepress:
Thanks for reaching out ma

Should I send you a mail?
(3102548117 first bank, 09030736350 number)

thunder fire you op. Depression kill you there. You know how much you go make for this your silly story?na only dey depressed abi?thunder faya you

kamtrix:
bro please let's talk. I also have a little gift for you. If you can go to Instagram, search for Lystra_business, and send a dm that it's you. I'll reply you within an hour. Please.

I sent you a mail sir and a message on your instagram page.

Thanks for reaching out Sir.

YoungandDepress:
My story is quite a sad and long one.
I wish I could write it all out. My life has been a terrible mess.
Where did it go wrong for me, I have no idea.

I am writing with so much emotion, my heart is full and heavy.
Life is bitter.

I am a 23 years old guy.
My life all started to go in the negative direction when I gained admission at age 16.
A 16 years old boy in the university, so much freedom and exposure.
I messed up my life, I became addicted to bet9ja virtual gambling I lost focus, Gambling killed me, I started failing exams, at the end I dropped out without my parents Knowing, but the truth came out when I was supposed to graduate, I could not hide it anymore. I told them the truth, my parents forgave me like the prodigal son.

They still believed in me especially my mom, she keeps reminding me of how intelligent I used to be.

Well I'm not here to talk about my past life but here to talk about how it is still affecting me today.

Ever since I started university all over again, I have been miserable and frustrated. Nothing has been working in my favour. I'm currently now in 200level hoping to graduate before 25.
All my mates I started with have done their NYSC.

I'm still stuck in the same stage.
I have no idea what I am doing with my life. I'm young, broke and depressed. I get irritated over little things. I feel disgust at how I uselessed my youthful life. How gambling destroyed me.

By the grace of whichever god exists, I am no longer addicted to gambling. I have quit the addiction for almost a year now but nothing changed, I still feel miserable. I hate having people around me even my family members including my mom.

I have no true friends. Nobody checks on me, nobody calls me.

At this age, I can't boast of having 500 naira in my account.
I'm broke and miserable.

I have started hating God and question my belief in God. I hate Sunday's. I hate hearing about God, I don't blame God for my troubles but I'm angry at the fact that despite my parents being dedicated Christians, things are not working well in my family.
My elder ones are graduates, but no solid job yet.

Only my eldest brother who is doing quite well now and I thank God for his life but we don't talk. I can't remember the last time I called him on phone. They don't hate me, I hate myself.
I have disappointed them a lot.


I just lost the last #1000 I had in my life today and I cried. The money fell out my pocket when I went to get something.

At 23 years, I have no idea what I will do with my future.
I still live with my parents and I have never rented an apartment of my own even in school.

What is wrong with me, why am I miserable?

I have no good clothes. My clothes are all worn out.
I have nothing doing, i live off my parents.

Since schools were shut down, I have been at home doing nothing.
Completely broke, damaged and miserable.

Can my life be any better. What do I do. I am depressed.
I keep asking myself these questions but there
Seem to be no answer.

When I was 23, I felt almost this exact way but today at 34 still with many challenges,I look back and laugh at those tougher times in my early 20's. Your story is actually much more common than you think and a lot of those your ex class mates are actually not as happy as you think they are.

Focus on your life and take it one step at a time. Have a goal and push towards it. Make sure it is not a criminal goal though. You will be fine in time

aniffy4eva:
@YoungandDepress

My brother.. calm dowwwnnnnn.

I was in your shoes like 15 years ago.. (except the gambling sha).. I was about your age in 200L too, and my mates had either graduated or in their finals.. After secondary school, i went to a polytechnic, finished OND, worked for one year (IT) before going back to university to start from scratch.

I was the capital B in "Broke", wetin i no sell? clothes oh, perfume oh, women's shoes oh.. Chai . To even cap it, there was this chic i liked that didn't agree to date me... mehn.. omo depression wey hold me ehn... i lost my erection ..i no fit sleep... na one nice deeper life woman who lived in our area that was just consoling me . Dey give me tracts to read..

But when the Lord turned again the captivity of Zion, we were like them that dream. Today, its a different story.. To God's glory, now dem dey call us Chairman, Oga sir.

See ehn, there are two things you must never lose o.. Faith in God and Faith in a better tomorrow for you. Right now, face your book, and just paint beautiful pictures in your mind of a glorious tomorrow. I remember taking long walks just speaking in tongues and declaring words about my future.

Good company also helps. My good friend (Baba Dee).. we met in 100L and have been friends since then till today.. We used to build dreams with our mouths and to God's glory, things don balance.

Wo aburo (see my lil bro), just be positive, read your books, hustle, pray and speak good words about your future. Your destination (when things go balance) is not as far as where you are coming from. A lot of times, strangers were the ones that encouraged me so maybe now its my turn to do same to you. One day, one day, dem go call you Chairman, Oga sir!!! (positive oh..not dem 419 type)

Happiness is a choice. Choose it. And remember, when you balance, make you sef encourage others.

Amen. I pray I become a testimony to others as well.

Thank you very much for reaching out Sir

greendice:
Honestly, you are lucky! Believe me on this. you are still young and can still recover all the loses in a short time.
The first and most important step is realizing and accepting the fact that you goofed.
23 years? forget it. I know a 36 years old guy who is currently in your shoes.
My advice:
Get a grip of yourself, U are still strong and I believe you are intelligent.
Take your time and ask yourself deep questions like What am I passionate about? Where can I add value? Where do I need change in my life? Do a lot of research and connect with people in that field.
Connect, share, Explore.
God is on your side.

Amen thanks sir

WriterX:
If I cor tell you my own na u go be like boss you still dey alive.

Op message me let me help you like I was helped out of my mess.

You are suffering from depression already.

I sent you a mail sir

prekumohtim:
Your problem is simple , #comparison#
The best way to destroy your life is to keep on comparing yourself with others especially when you think they are better than you. Whereas, your age mates are also in the prisons, hospitals, mortuaries.
At 23 you are still very very young to do things with your life. All you need is to invest in your life and believe in yourself. Nobody is pressing your button! ! Lack of self esteem and comparison is eating you up. Many made it at the age of 30 some 40, 50 but here you are , being 23(full of life) and you are talking about depression? I graduated 2014 and no job till date. I left my uncle's home in 2019 almost at the age of 31 but I am full of life and hope that there's a better tomorrow. On the aspect of worshipping God, you don't do God a service when you worship Him. Rather , the benefit is all yours. Before your forefathers were born, He has been God. He does not need us to be God , He's forever God...God all by Himself. But He rewards those who diligently seek Him. He has blessed me so much !! Stop talking about your past, we all make mistakes in life , as long as we got life , we can still be better. Hope is virtue , adopt it

Amen. Thanks sir

elganzar:
Bro what you're feeling is normal...

I was like this (broke) about 4 months ago too, I'm 24yrs...Maa fo

Pick up a small job for the main time... (Petrol attendant, POS, pure water factory job) just first aim at putting your bank account on 5 digits...gradually you'll increase it

What state do you reside?

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teemanbastos:
Many have felt like this at some point in their lives with no direction, you're not alone. Before their lives suddenly turned around for good.
Most times, they end up being great people. Napoleon Hill, Barack Obama.... etc
Well, I guess things are about to get better for you soonest.
And trust me if you eventually pull through this, you will be unstoppable in life.
Keep on! Your creator has not forgotten you.
Blessings.

Amen. Thank you very much for reaching out Sir

YoungandDepress:
My story is quite a sad and long one.
I wish I could write it all out. My life has been a terrible mess.
Where did it go wrong for me, I have no idea.

I am writing with so much emotion, my heart is full and heavy.
Life is bitter.

I am a 23 years old guy.
My life all started to go in the negative direction when I gained admission at age 16.
A 16 years old boy in the university, so much freedom and exposure.
I messed up my life, I became addicted to bet9ja virtual gambling I lost focus, Gambling killed me, I started failing exams, at the end I dropped out without my parents Knowing, but the truth came out when I was supposed to graduate, I could not hide it anymore. I told them the truth, my parents forgave me like the prodigal son.

They still believed in me especially my mom, she keeps reminding me of how intelligent I used to be.

Well I'm not here to talk about my past life but here to talk about how it is still affecting me today.

Ever since I started university all over again, I have been miserable and frustrated. Nothing has been working in my favour. I'm currently now in 200level hoping to graduate before 25.
All my mates I started with have done their NYSC.

I'm still stuck in the same stage.
I have no idea what I am doing with my life. I'm young, broke and depressed. I get irritated over little things. I feel disgust at how I uselessed my youthful life. How gambling destroyed me.

By the grace of whichever god exists, I am no longer addicted to gambling. I have quit the addiction for almost a year now but nothing changed, I still feel miserable. I hate having people around me even my family members including my mom.

I have no true friends. Nobody checks on me, nobody calls me.

At this age, I can't boast of having 500 naira in my account.
I'm broke and miserable.

I have started hating God and question my belief in God. I hate Sunday's. I hate hearing about God, I don't blame God for my troubles but I'm angry at the fact that despite my parents being dedicated Christians, things are not working well in my family.
My elder ones are graduates, but no solid job yet.

Only my eldest brother who is doing quite well now and I thank God for his life but we don't talk. I can't remember the last time I called him on phone. They don't hate me, I hate myself.
I have disappointed them a lot.


I just lost the last #1000 I had in my life today and I cried. The money fell out my pocket when I went to get something.

At 23 years, I have no idea what I will do with my future.
I still live with my parents and I have never rented an apartment of my own even in school.

What is wrong with me, why am I miserable?

I have no good clothes. My clothes are all worn out.
I have nothing doing, i live off my parents.

Since schools were shut down, I have been at home doing nothing.
Completely broke, damaged and miserable.

Can my life be any better. What do I do. I am depressed.
I keep asking myself these questions but there
Seem to be no answer.

you are lieing op. Don't send him any money. Faking stories everywhere.

bigtt76:
Your own morning will come dear ....its still night, don't panic. Sending you hugs

Thanks ma

Heartlessbanker:
thunder fire you op. Depression kill you there. You know how much you go make for this your silly story?na only dey depressed abi?thunder faya you

Ok.

YoungandDepress:
Ok.

you've made money from these gullible people who bought your story abi?

Heartlessbanker:
you are lieing op. Don't send him any money. Faking stories everywhere.

I have nothing to say to you bro or no reason to exchange words with you.

Just be happy for all the troubles of life you don't have. If you are living a worry free life, you have no idea what God has done for you. Enjoy

YoungandDepress:

I know the sins of my past are catching up with me. Karma is hitting me from all directions.
I see my mates riding nice cars, living in their rented apartment, I cry.

Most of my classmates I finished secondary school with are now responsible graduates and here I am, stuck in 200level.

I see them in the street and I hide myself in shame and disgrace because I can't answer the catching up questions.

I still ask 500 naira from my parents just to go out.

I stayed through out the month of June without earning even one thousand naira by myself.

Sometimes I curse the day I was born and why I came through a mid level family and not a rich family.

God has abandoned me. I can't remember the last time I prayed. Not that I even care now.
I am turning into an atheist because of my frustrations.

Sometimes I think why not just die and end it all, I mean we are all going to die one day so what is the point, but then I think of my family and the shame it will bring upon them and at the same time I think what if I die and heaven and hell is real. It's funny how the thought of hell keeps me going and trying to do good with my life when I don't really believe in God anymore.


Safe to say, my suicidal tendencies are very low to non existent but I hope I have the courage to keep pushing. I hope one day, I just don't loose it completely.

Even my phone I am using to type this has a damaged screen which I'm half managing but it is what it is, I have no funds to fix it and no relative to help.

I mean I'm just here watching the days go by, taking evening walks around the neighborhood and thinking how my life would have been if I didn't mess it up or did all these happen to me so I can be a testimony to others if life decides to smile on me?
I have no idea.

I'M JUST A YOUNG, BROKE, MISERABLE AND DEPRESSED MAN.

I PRAY MY SOUL FINDS THE PEACE THAT IT DESPERATELY SEEKS.


I just wanted to table my emotions here and vent out all the frustrations in my head because I have no one to talk deep with me. I hope to find little relief and seek solace in the peace of others.

Bro

Go and read
The richest man in Babylon


Read it like ur life depends on it
When you are done read Rich Dad, poor Dad


Thank me later

YoungandDepress:

I know the sins of my past are catching up with me. Karma is hitting me from all directions.
I see my mates riding nice cars, living in their rented apartment, I cry.

Most of my classmates I finished secondary school with are now responsible graduates and here I am, stuck in 200level.

I see them in the street and I hide myself in shame and disgrace because I can't answer the catching up questions.

I still ask 500 naira from my parents just to go out.

I stayed through out the month of June without earning even one thousand naira by myself.

Sometimes I curse the day I was born and why I came through a mid level family and not a rich family.

God has abandoned me. I can't remember the last time I prayed. Not that I even care now.
I am turning into an atheist because of my frustrations.

Sometimes I think why not just die and end it all, I mean we are all going to die one day so what is the point, but then I think of my family and the shame it will bring upon them and at the same time I think what if I die and heaven and hell is real. It's funny how the thought of hell keeps me going and trying to do good with my life when I don't really believe in God anymore.


Safe to say, my suicidal tendencies are very low to non existent but I hope I have the courage to keep pushing. I hope one day, I just don't loose it completely.

Even my phone I am using to type this has a damaged screen which I'm half managing but it is what it is, I have no funds to fix it and no relative to help.

I mean I'm just here watching the days go by, taking evening walks around the neighborhood and thinking how my life would have been if I didn't mess it up or did all these happen to me so I can be a testimony to others if life decides to smile on me?
I have no idea.

I'M JUST A YOUNG, BROKE, MISERABLE AND DEPRESSED MAN.

I PRAY MY SOUL FINDS THE PEACE THAT IT DESPERATELY SEEKS.


I just wanted to table my emotions here and vent out all the frustrations in my head because I have no one to talk deep with me. I hope to find little relief and seek solace in the peace of others.

pending when the lockdown will be over, Look for a small job and do, Even if its beer palour or restaurant that pays 10k to 15k job
So that you can leave home in the morning and return in the Evening. This will make you busy. Send me your account details 09021738527. Only text me. Even when you see the Alert don't call to thank me. Nothing dey this life. God be with you

YoungandDepress:
My story is quite a sad and long one.
I wish I could write it all out. My life has been a terrible mess.
Where did it go wrong for me, I have no idea.

I am writing with so much emotion, my heart is full and heavy.
Life is bitter.

I am a 23 years old guy.
My life all started to go in the negative direction when I gained admission at age 16.
A 16 years old boy in the university, so much freedom and exposure.
I messed up my life, I became addicted to bet9ja virtual gambling I lost focus, Gambling killed me, I started failing exams, at the end I dropped out without my parents Knowing, but the truth came out when I was supposed to graduate, I could not hide it anymore. I told them the truth, my parents forgave me like the prodigal son.

They still believed in me especially my mom, she keeps reminding me of how intelligent I used to be.

Well I'm not here to talk about my past life but here to talk about how it is still affecting me today.

Ever since I started university all over again, I have been miserable and frustrated. Nothing has been working in my favour. I'm currently now in 200level hoping to graduate before 25.
All my mates I started with have done their NYSC.

I'm still stuck in the same stage.
I have no idea what I am doing with my life. I'm young, broke and depressed. I get irritated over little things. I feel disgust at how I uselessed my youthful life. How gambling destroyed me.

By the grace of whichever god exists, I am no longer addicted to gambling. I have quit the addiction for almost a year now but nothing changed, I still feel miserable. I hate having people around me even my family members including my mom.

I have no true friends. Nobody checks on me, nobody calls me.

At this age, I can't boast of having 500 naira in my account.
I'm broke and miserable.

I have started hating God and question my belief in God. I hate Sunday's. I hate hearing about God, I don't blame God for my troubles but I'm angry at the fact that despite my parents being dedicated Christians, things are not working well in my family.
My elder ones are graduates, but no solid job yet.

Only my eldest brother who is doing quite well now and I thank God for his life but we don't talk. I can't remember the last time I called him on phone. They don't hate me, I hate myself.
I have disappointed them a lot.


I just lost the last #1000 I had in my life today and I cried. The money fell out my pocket when I went to get something.

At 23 years, I have no idea what I will do with my future.
I still live with my parents and I have never rented an apartment of my own even in school.

What is wrong with me, why am I miserable?

I have no good clothes. My clothes are all worn out.
I have nothing doing, i live off my parents.

Since schools were shut down, I have been at home doing nothing.
Completely broke, damaged and miserable.

Can my life be any better. What do I do. I am depressed.
I keep asking myself these questions but there
Seem to be no answer.

Bro I'm in the same shoe. I didn't get addicted to gambling but I just don't know. I've just always hated myself. Im 23 and about to restart uni. I hate anything about church or God, not that I don't believe he exists per se, I'm just angry. I'm broke and depressed. No job, I have talents I could cash in on but I have absolutely no self confidence or self worth. I don't think of suicide anymore, but I'm definitely miserable. I'm at home morning till night, locked up in my room cos I really don't want to be around people. My parents started telling me I need to get a job, but I'm just here with no motivation to do anything with myself. I have no friends, I eventually built a wall around myself and somehow ended up distancing myself from the one friend I had. I'm just like a dead leaf being carried along in a current of water. I have absolutely no idea what I'm supposed to do with my life.

Daddyboy21:
pending when the lockdown will be over, Look for a small job and do, Even if its beer palour or restaurant that pays 10k to 15k job
So that you can leave home in the morning and return in the Evening. This will make you busy. Send me your account details 09021738527. Only text me. Even when you see the Alert don't call to thank me. Nothing dey this life. God be with you

Thanks for reaching out Sir, I appreciate. I sent you a text and mail sir

ZINIBANKS:
Not only you bro
I went to church this Sunday since last year
August
If not for the Bible my believe is that there's no God

There was a time I didn't step into the church for 3 years but that didn't stop me from believing in God.

People are here competing on whose experienc is worse. It doesn't matter. The op knows he's not the one that has it worst in the world, he's just sharing his feelings. I totally understand him. The feeling of hopelessness, obviously we know others have it worse but there's no minimum point or experience that one has to hit or have before they can start feeling depressed. It's not maths or physics.

You are your own problem, stop putting unnecessary pressures on yourself,you're still quite young

BigTableShaker:
Life is hard bro, but you were the fastest out of those billion sperm cells your father ejaculated that day.
Don't disappoint the cells that didn't make it.
Your life is a gift, don't throw it away- Make it count.

you wan kill me with laugh

You are still a boy who just de wake up to life .. at least u ll still graduate at 25.. .. Are u the oldest in class?Remember there is always light at the end of tunnel. . The only different in here and there is (T)which is (time)think of ur mate who were no more when there is life there hope .. in addition overtaken is allow ..

YoungandDepress:
I have actually tried to look for a manual monthly pay job but could not find any within my locality.

It's just as if things are working against my favour.
I have tried so much in being a better person but every step I take still goes in the wrong direction.

I'm not a lazy person. I have so much will to become better, one minute I'm beaming with positive energy, the next Second, I feel lost and dark. The energy is all gone.

Yeah. Remember I started learning web design, I went at it with everything, then suddenly all the energy died and I was just lost. It's like one moment you're about to take control of your life and the next all that energy is gone. I keep thinking if I regain admission this year, maybe things will change and it will be the one thing I need to finally take my life in some semblance of the right direction, I'm scared honestly.

At 40 many had no idea what to do with Thiers. Mine started coming together recent.

Trust in God. You will be suprise how it all come together.

Rilwayne001:
If you're not making a dime by yourself for a whole month and have to depend on your parents to get 500, I believe it's only logical, if you really hate your situation, to go out and try to make at least 2k on your own. You said you were at home doing nothing for a whole month, and yet still complain you didn't make 500 on your own. Pray tell, is it possible for one to make 500 by just sitting down at home doing nothing all day?

When I finished my OND and could not find a placement for internship, I was home most times eating my parents food, have a room of my own in my fathers house. My Mom can always give me money whenever I asked her. But I hated myself being idle. I stayed home for 4months doing nothing and just eating, always coming on nairaland argue politics and religious stuffs like my life dependend on em. But I never liked my situation. When I noticed I was starting to hate myself, I just went to a BAKERY to seek u employment. I got it, even though the work was tedious. I fell sick after the first week because you hardly get to a sleep in the bakery. Stilli went back because I just can't stay at home doing. Within a month I got used to the condition. And I was able to hold on to the work for like 6 months before I decided to take Direct entry form again. It was better than sitting down at home and getting fed without being productive.

Being idle and doing nothing productive with a terrible bank balance is a depression on its own, but if you really don't like it, you, as a man, have to drop your past to the past and wake up to take charge of your life. We've all made mistakes and it's until we utilize our mistakes to correct our future, we'd continue to dwell on the futility of the past.

Betting is a very terrible thing. Really addictive and enticing. There's a reason why it's called the fool paradise because the more you play, the more you win, the more you dwell in the world hoping to win more till you lose everything. To avoid it, you need to understand the psychological effects it always has on one and how deceitful the supposed winnings always turn into losses in the long run. Secondly, detach yourself from friends that engages in it. They are blind and would not mind making you blind too. If you see them win, let them celebrate their winning on their own. Don't be greedy to want to win too. In the long run they'll give back all their winnings to the game.

Yahy!! I've said enough.

Uncle, stop making betting look so bad, people have really made money out of betting if you don't know, if you're talking about virtual then i agree with you because you will not gain anything and you'll constantly be losing your money. This week alone i've made a profit of 150k+ from 2 sure odds from a good punter, if you strategize well you can make a living out of it, I'm 22 now and i believe by the end of this year i'll be a millionaire from betting, in this life you have to be smart, there are many punters that can predict 2odd without failing and it's not hard to find them. People potray betting as bad but those who do that always play big odds that is why they keep losing, if you subscribe to a good punter you'll win weekly and that's a fact

Depressedkidd:
Yeah. Remember I started learning web design, I went at it with everything, then suddenly all the energy died and I was just lost. It's like one moment you're about to take control of your life and the next all that energy is gone. I keep thinking if I regain admission this year, maybe things will change and it will be the one thing I need to finally take my life in some semblance of the right direction, I'm scared honestly.

It's the hope that kills.
Bro, just try and go back to school at least.
It's a decision you won't regret. I don't know what to personally advice you myself.

It's not easy bumping into old coursemates asking what you are still doing in school all these years. That moment, your past will flash through your eyes again and you don't even know what answer.

If you have a flair for programming and the tools at your disposal, please pursue it by all means.
You have a laptop, even better.


I have no valuable belonging. I can't even ask for a loan to start up basic things because I have no collateral to give. The standard is just too low.


I was planning on how to start learning programming when my phone screen got damaged and that was the end, till now I'm just managing the phone like that.

A lot has really happened, I just can't say it all. It is well.

JBoss25:
Uncle, stop making betting look so bad, people have really made money out of betting if you don't know, if you're talking about virtual then i agree with you because you will not gain anything and you'll constantly be losing your money. This week alone i've made a profit of 150k+ from 2 sure odds from a good punter, if you strategize well you can make a living out of it, I'm 22 now and i believe by the end of this year i'll be a millionaire from betting, in this life you have to be smart, there are many punters that can predict 2odd without failing and it's not hard to find them. People potray betting as bad but those who do that always play big odds that is why they keep losing, if you subscribe to a good punter you'll win weekly and that's a fact

See bad advice. When it finally happens don't come here and be telling us how you're depressed and suicidal.

YoungandDepress:
I'm overwhelmed by the encouragement I have gotten so far. I will dedicate this night to digest clearly all the comments from page 1.

I have replied the mails I have gotten so far ,
I really appreciate everyone who has reached out to me.

I can't describe how I'm feeling this night. I don't remember the last time I got so much attention like this and so much messages from anyone.

God bless you all.

Your life is better than many people i know, you shouldn't be hard on yourself, some people are getting beat up and raped in prison everyday, some people are facing life in prison, some people are disabled and can't walk for the rest of their days, some people can't even see garri to eat and are homeless, you should be grateful that you're not facing these issues. I'm also experiencing these type of experiences you're facing. You shouldn't be hard on yourself. There's nothing wrong with living with your parents at the age of 23, that is completely normal, the only thing you should concentrate on is making money and your books nothing else, bro the sky is your limit, always remember that there are people that are in a more worse condition than you're currently in, be grateful.

Rilwayne001:
If you're not making a dime by yourself for a whole month and have to depend on your parents to get 500, I believe it's only logical, if you really hate your situation, to go out and try to make at least 2k on your own. You said you were at home doing nothing for a whole month, and yet still complain you didn't make 500 on your own. Pray tell, is it possible for one to make 500 by just sitting down at home doing nothing all day?

When I finished my OND and could not find a placement for internship, I was home most times eating my parents food, have a room of my own in my fathers house. My Mom can always give me money whenever I asked her. But I hated myself being idle. I stayed home for 4months doing nothing and just eating, always coming on nairaland argue politics and religious stuffs like my life dependend on em. But I never liked my situation. When I noticed I was starting to hate myself, I just went to a BAKERY to seek u employment. I got it, even though the work was tedious. I fell sick after the first week because you hardly get to a sleep in the bakery. Stilli went back because I just can't stay at home doing. Within a month I got used to the condition. And I was able to hold on to the work for like 6 months before I decided to take Direct entry form again. It was better than sitting down at home and getting fed without being productive.

Being idle and doing nothing productive with a terrible bank balance is a depression on its own, but if you really don't like it, you, as a man, have to drop your past to the past and wake up to take charge of your life. We've all made mistakes and it's until we utilize our mistakes to correct our future, we'd continue to dwell on the futility of the past.

Betting is a very terrible thing. Really addictive and enticing. There's a reason why it's called the fool paradise because the more you play, the more you win, the more you dwell in the world hoping to win more till you lose everything. To avoid it, you need to understand the psychological effects it always has on one and how deceitful the supposed winnings always turn into losses in the long run. Secondly, detach yourself from friends that engages in it. They are blind and would not mind making you blind too. If you see them win, let them celebrate their winning on their own. Don't be greedy to want to win too. In the long run they'll give back all their winnings to the game.

Yahy!! I've said enough.

Ishilove:
See bad advice. When it finally happens don't come here and be telling us how you're depressed and suicidal.

I have a strong heart that will never happen, I've been through alot.