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 Literature / Re: Being Human by SunshineSylvia(f): 5:44pm On Jan 08, 2020 |
'Reina', my mother called out softly. 'Are you in here? You've been asleep for quite some time now. Are you felling well?' 'Yes mum, I replied. 'Just tired from the day's work at the company. I didn't hear you come in. Did you just return?' "That's cus you were deeply asleep. Good thing I have my own pair of keys, I would have cracked my voice calling out for you to open the door.' She retorted. I quirked at the tone of my sweet mother's response and regretted taking the pills. As I tried to apologise, she stood up almost immediately to leave, announcing that dinner will be ready on time if i stood up from my slumber and joined her in the kitchen. That name kept on ringing in my head and there was no way to stop it from tearing me apart. The disquieting emotions lodged in my heart threatened to send me to hades if I don't speak out. I literally laughed out at myself for asking God for calmness; I believe he probably is bearing down on me with rage in his eyes right now for defiling his prized sacrifice. I strode to the bathroom to wash my face and set out for dinner preparation when I caught a glimpse of myself on the wall mirror: the sunken cheeks, face devoid of colours, eyes bags from not getting enough sleep, loss of fat and all other bodily features that screamed worry and neglect. I was a shadow of myself and no amount of makeup will dare to make me beautiful just like before. It seems like everything around me knew what I did and are revolting on behalf of their creator. I miss my life before this chaos I got myself into; yes, I agree it wasn't so pleasant but I could sleep well albeit... I am so tired of how much I have lost in my life within a short time and I am begining to lose it completely. There, standing before the mirror, gazing at my sorry, helpless self, I made a decision again, this time, determining to go through with it; a decision to pull myself out of this swirling, dark, bottomless hole... The greatest decision of my 29 years existence. |
| Literature / Re: Being Human by SunshineSylvia(f): 4:39pm On Oct 30, 2019 |
Getting interesting huh?? |
| Literature / Re: Being Human by SunshineSylvia(f): 11:59am On Oct 30, 2019 |
Back at my apartment, I rushed to my medicine bag, took some pain relief pills, settled in my soft bed and prayed for some divine calmness over my being. It was so scary that I have to fight to keep my eyes open as falling asleep has become a luxury I cannot afford anymore. Alas, very tired eyes gave in and ended up betraying me. I could feel his hands round me from back; his sweet kisses on my neck has always been my undoing. He knew and always held unto that info. His warm body against mine and the caresses were so welcoming. His breath on my neck accompanied with a soft moan after the kiss was so irresistible. I couldn’t hold back anymore. Turning to face him, with the hotness welling up in me, I feasted on his lips; craving for the slow sensuous kisses that only he knows how to give so well. He responded with same urgency as mine and we shared such passionate kiss as we never had before, just like two lovers who have been apart for a long time. Before we knew it, we were already a tangled mess on the bed with our clothes tossed all over the room. As we lay on the bed, touching and reveling in each other’s company, I raised my eyes to look at his face. He had this somewhat satisfied look on his face and that was enough to make me happy. I was positive that I love him so much, not because of how he kisses, not because he provides for me or says he loves me. I just cannot find a reason. All I knew was that I love and accept him wholly. I love, love this man so much However, that happiness was short-lived when there was a knock on the door and the callout, Fr. Nick. At that point, I woke up, drenched in sweat, somewhat mixed with tears. |
| Literature / Re: Being Human by SunshineSylvia(f): 10:39am On Oct 30, 2019 |
CHAPTER 2 ‘Reina’ ‘Reina’ Mrs. Rose called out again. ‘Yes ma’ I replied with an exhausted tone. ‘Are you ok? Do you feel up to this session or should we reschedule for next time?’ ‘ I am fine’ I responded with a sigh. The trip down to my counselor’s office this morning was a decision made hesitantly. I didn’t want to go bare myself before her, exposing all of the dirty things done in secret. Above all, I despise facing my past which overtime, transformed to demons tormenting the hell out of my existence. I could feel Mrs. Rose’s eyes on me, regarding me tenderly and soothingly urging me on. But before I could speak, my phone rang. My eyes darted to my sling purse with a scared demeanor. Could it be him? Is my past catching up with me? ‘Reina, do you want to take that before we begin?’ Mrs. Rose asked. I was still lost in thoughts and didn’t catch the question. ‘Reina, are you sure you are ok?’ ‘Huh… Yea, I… I am fine’ I stuttered. ‘No, I am not fine’ I added hastily. ‘I am sorry Mrs. Rose, but can we do this another time?’ I marched out of the office hastily not bothering to check for the caller or wait for a response. Outside the office gate, I stopped for a while to catch my breath. What is happening to me? What in God’s name is going on with me? |
| Literature / Re: Being Human by SunshineSylvia(f): 10:38am On Oct 30, 2019 |
CHAPTER 1 The cold water from the shower jolted me back to reality. I noticed that I was sitting, legs apart, on the floor of my bathroom decorated with pieces of pale pink tiles. My thoughts have taken over me again, taking me far away from reality once more. This has not been the first time nor would it be the last time if I do not do something about the situation, which has now, turned to a throbbing headache. I wish I could turn back the hands of time to correct all those bad decisions of life as the consequences are dragging me down this dark cold lane filled with heart-wrenching pains and sorrows. I knew the consequences would be this grave. I knew what I was stepping into…. I knew…Oh, I so knew it all. However, I have to face it head on. I have to save myself for the last time even if I have to sacrifice a part of me I hold so dear. The past 2 years have been fulfilling, not until towards the end of the second year did my woes begin. My brother, Joel, shared a Christian broadcast on YouTube with me and after viewing it, I felt the burning sensation in my heart. I was positive scales fell off my eyes and a wealth of understanding was introduced anew to me. All I could think of was, WHAT HAVE I DONE? |
| Literature / Being Human by SunshineSylvia(f): 1:36pm On Oct 26, 2019 |
A very interesting, thought-provoking and educational story. Stay tuned |
| Phones / Re: Checkout The Infinix Hot 8 Battery Power Management System. by SunshineSylvia(f): 1:29pm On Oct 26, 2019 |
phonedaddy:How about you give me a general difference? |
| Phones / Re: Checkout The Infinix Hot 8 Battery Power Management System. by SunshineSylvia(f): 10:53am On Oct 24, 2019 |
Compared to S4, which is best? |
| Romance / Re: Does A Big Penis Make A Difference While Having Sex? by SunshineSylvia(f): 10:44am On Oct 24, 2019 |
Yes o..... It does make a big difference for me. 3 Likes |
| Education / Re: Public School In Anambra Using Ankara Material For School Uniform (Photos) by SunshineSylvia(f): 8:25am On May 24, 2019 |
You just saw one......Come Onitsha and see something. I have lost count sef. 1 Like |
| Romance / Re: How To Make Your Ex Want You Back After Breakup by SunshineSylvia(f): 3:34pm On Jan 15, 2019 |
This one na correct work o. Biko, I want myself back in all my glory. 1 Like |
| Religion / Re: Samurai's Prophetic Thread. Drop A Post And I Will See A Vision For You. by SunshineSylvia(f): 12:23pm On Jan 15, 2019 |
Saintsammurai:Of course I am more than enough  |
| Romance / Re: How To Speak To Get Her Aroused. by SunshineSylvia(f): 9:23am On Jan 15, 2019 |
PaulAris:Who no like good thing?? |
| Religion / Re: Samurai's Prophetic Thread. Drop A Post And I Will See A Vision For You. by SunshineSylvia(f): 9:14am On Jan 15, 2019 |
Saintsammurai: I declare by the power and authority of the Mighty God that it will be peaceful. 4 Likes |
| Religion / Re: Samurai's Prophetic Thread. Drop A Post And I Will See A Vision For You. by SunshineSylvia(f): 9:05am On Jan 15, 2019 |
This one no be small prophetic talk. Abeg the election should be peaceful o. I don't have strength to run about. |
| Business / Re: Learn How To Make Money Producing Organic Skincare Products by SunshineSylvia(f): 10:47am On Jan 10, 2019 |
Pls I need this class Is it still available? 1 Like |
| Literature / Re: Lost in Lust [A story by Toyin Olorunsola] by SunshineSylvia(f): 6:31am On Jan 04, 2019 |
Waiting for update... |
| Family / Re: Beautiful Photos Of Three Young Brothers With Their Only Newborn Sister by SunshineSylvia(f): 8:25pm On Jan 03, 2019 |
Beautiful |
| Crime / Re: Man Commits Suicide In Enugu, Hangs Himself On A Tree. Graphic Photo by SunshineSylvia(f): 7:45pm On Jan 03, 2019 |
For this New year?? Haba 7 Likes |
| Family / Re: I Easily Get Angry And Keep Malice A Lot, Please Help by SunshineSylvia(f): 7:15pm On Jan 03, 2019 |
Alpha001: I know this feeling and I have been through that road before. My brother, recognizing that this is a problem is one step to solving it. First, try finding out if there is/are underlying reasons why you're behaving in such manner or always give into anger and its cohorts. In my case, I am asthmatic and it started manifesting from when I was just 2 weeks old. The pain associated with the sickness, the pain from taking injections and drugs, the constant in and out visit to the hospital made me really moody. Exhibiting too much emotion ( be it happiness or anger) is not allowed. One minute I am well and happy and the next minute, I am sick and sad. I never play out with my siblings. Always inside by myself and toys. Overtime, that became my life pattern. Happiness was a rare thing for me. Even my family suffered that roller coaster of emotions. I was overwhelmed by it to the extent that it became part of me not until I opened up to my family and they helped me through it (patience, encouragement and prayers). Right now, I am a happier version of myself after so many years of being angry. Anger is very very bad. It is just like a chemical destroying every part of you. So my brother, try to tell someone about your problem, try all you can to socialise little by little each day and ultimately, pray everyday about it. Faith without working on it is useless. There is nothing, nothing at all God cannot do. I wish you a happy life from now on in Jesus name ...Amen 2 Likes |
| Romance / Re: I Will Show Off More Flesh In 2019, Nigeria Lady Says. See Her 2019 Pictures. by SunshineSylvia(f): 5:30pm On Jan 03, 2019 |
NWABUKA007: Cool |
| Celebrities / Re: "Sexy Mama" - Linda Ikeji All Smiles As She Shares Sexy Photo by SunshineSylvia(f): 4:05pm On Jan 03, 2019 |
| Romance / Re: I Will Show Off More Flesh In 2019, Nigeria Lady Says. See Her 2019 Pictures. by SunshineSylvia(f): 3:57pm On Jan 03, 2019 |
NWABUKA007:Uhm .....nope |
| Romance / Re: I Will Show Off More Flesh In 2019, Nigeria Lady Says. See Her 2019 Pictures. by SunshineSylvia(f): 3:23pm On Jan 03, 2019 |
[quote author=NWABUKA007 post=74413615][/quote] Yes, I am |
| Romance / Re: Man Breaks Up With Girlfriend Of Three Years Cause He Has Never Seen Her Angry by SunshineSylvia(f): 3:21pm On Jan 03, 2019 |
DAntivirus:As always  |
| Romance / Re: Man Breaks Up With Girlfriend Of Three Years Cause He Has Never Seen Her Angry by SunshineSylvia(f): 1:10pm On Jan 03, 2019 |
DAntivirus:You should know that if we start, I already know that you're out to annoy me and I already developed antibody against it. So ko le work..  |
| Romance / Re: I Will Show Off More Flesh In 2019, Nigeria Lady Says. See Her 2019 Pictures. by SunshineSylvia(f): 12:28pm On Jan 03, 2019 |
NWABUKA007:It was cool, thanks |
| Romance / Re: Man Breaks Up With Girlfriend Of Three Years Cause He Has Never Seen Her Angry by SunshineSylvia(f): 11:10am On Jan 03, 2019 |
DAntivirus: Not when I'm determined.... You will only be fuel to my success  |
| Romance / Re: Man Breaks Up With Girlfriend Of Three Years Cause He Has Never Seen Her Angry by SunshineSylvia(f): 10:50am On Jan 03, 2019 |
DAntivirus: No, my own na knockout level I get angry normally when provoked but not getting angry when provoked is something divine....and this year, I shall acquire this virtue. |
| Romance / Re: Man Breaks Up With Girlfriend Of Three Years Cause He Has Never Seen Her Angry by SunshineSylvia(f): 10:43am On Jan 03, 2019 |
God please bless me with such virtue.... Practise begins today.... |
| Romance / Re: My Gf Is Always Wet. by SunshineSylvia(f): 10:41am On Jan 03, 2019 |
Na her type of body. Free the babe. Abi you prefer always dry?? 28 Likes 1 Share |
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