Even tho I tried as much as possible to get in the way of incoming vehicles but somehow they were always avoiding me like a plague and I'm like why won't this happen to people who needs it, why do vehicle have to hit people who did not plan for it? I guess that was an rhetorical question no one can answer to but me. Finally got home, saw my mum lay on the mat in the parlor sleeping and I was like Bfr she wake her son might have been gone Eyah. I wish I could wake her to apologize Bfr I do this but I wouldn't wanna disturb this woman

I sneaked quietly to my room lay on my bed sobbing and thought so I'm really not gonna see this people no more? so Faith wouldn't have to hear my voice again? what a world I consoled myself and open the bottle and tried to pen down some words that's it'll at all it'd help relieve my Greefing mother

While lotta folks went bout their Happy life I woke up to another day of sickening thought and Depressing day. Mum just by the side down with fibroid, being a final year student with nothing whilst school's started already n lectures begun, the other hand I got my lil siblings who who come back looking up to mama and I like Brother what's home to eat?? No I wouldn't let them feel bad lemme trek out and see if I'd get to see a Bricklaying job that can give me 1k atleast so I can make both of them Happy I thought to myself. It's fine so I set out, trekked kilometers visiting sites to sites asking if they'd need labourer all of them said No. What can I do I can return home the same. saw some men Digging the side of the road probably trying to make a covet or something. plead if they'd need some help, a man grown took pity on me after I explained what brought me out told me he really want to help me but he can't cuz after all the hard work of the day they'd have to wait till month end Bfr they get paid. Asked how much? this aged man told me it's just 20k and thought checking thr my condition he wouldn't wish such job for me but Prayed for me and wished me well.

Oh, it's bout 3pm I'm really walking in deep into site I might find it hard trekking home so I turned back thinking to myself Imma just gonna return home like this with nothing achieved? well I think I've had enough bout life, mum I blame you cuz you wanted aborting me bout 22years ago who is the Nurse that tried so much to persuade you? I think I needed to see her and give her a punch but I can't even know her. But thank God I still got bout #600 left with me. What's the way out?? a small bottle of sniper would do I think I've had enough already I said. walked to this pharmacy as I treked home (Listening to some Celine Dion song hoping it'd be my last to ever hear her voice) got welcomed by this middle aged woman with a smile who offered me water seeing I look thirsty, I was humbled thanks ma'am I appreciated her and told her what i needed to buy a bottle of sniper. well she was somewhat inquisitive and asked is all okay?? Replied most definitely took my sniper n wrapped it in the nylon she gave me heading home in my heart wishing I never had to do this, can't a stray car just hit me and lemme be gone for good I wished. Hmmm

hmmm

RIP man

I think it'd be good

jesusjnr2020:
Add some fasting to your prayer bro. Fast to the point where you begin to see significant difference in your feeling, because you have the spiritual potential to overcome it. And fasting if able to help you unlock that potential.

After you do, kindly let me know how it goes.

God bless.

OK what should be my prayer points tho I was asked to do a 3days fasting n prayer this weekend till sunday

soulwin4life:


Just keep your faith alive, and avoid watching pornographic films, try as much as possible to fight those evil thought. And last never you listen to those deceiving words telling you that masturbation is not bad, it destroys ones destiny, they may not tell you what they are passing through but sure they are not any way fulfilled. Fight evil thought the way you fight your worst enemy, once you overcome it from your mind every other thing fall in place.

jesusjnr2020:
It's a good thing you've overcome masturbation but let it not just be about that. Let that be a part of living a life that's submitted to God. A life that seeks to please God and desires to do what God wants. Make it a lifestyle.

If you do that, don't worry about what's God's trying to do, because God knows best what He's doing even if you may not understand it. It's for your own good and with time you'd realize it and thank Him for it when you see the results.

God bless.

jesusjnr2020 that was a soul lifting exaltation thanks n I'm trying I'd say but I feel like the spirit have not left me completely cuz atimes the thought of the feeling flashes everyday and Bfr I know it the urge kinda comes but not as hard as it used to Bfr tho the thing would later die down within minutes

How can I help fight the thoughts please bcoz tbh I really can't control it, it just flashes n i feel the urge again tho I try to replace the thought with something else but I do have this fear in me that if not careful I might go back to the act unknowingly

Lol See as I take gear 440 enter thread
Nairalander no go end me Ylai

@soulwin4life me to brother. I just clocked bout 3weeks last weekend without masturbating after series of prayers n counsel but ion know thing have really not turn normal yet like that even tho I have this happiness in me that I've finally overcome masturbation but I Feel like God is kinda punishing me for wasting my time all thr this years cuz I really lost lotta opportunities last year due to masturbation n i know it...I just pray n hope He have mercy on me as soon as He can cuz I'm always down with disturbing thoughts

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jimyjames:


my brother Nigeria itself was never created by God but by the British, they just mapped out west Africa and shared it amongst themselves as business property British France Portuguese business partners

Bfr this Burna boy's "Another story" song there was this man that said something bout British making Nigeria a business entity for themselves. The problem started when Awo and Zik kept advocating n fighting for independence when we were not ripe for it even Bello kept saying it to that we were not ripe, I personally feel things wouldn't have been this worse as a Nation if they all had given the Brits time. But what had been done had been done and the way out of this mess is the Division of this country no doubt

Ok

jimyjames:



as sad as it sounds sometimes I think your people the tiv people are paying for the part they played in the genocide of the igbos from 1966 to 1970 they were deceived by the hausa/Fulani to see themselves as northerners and igbos the common enemy , 60% of the northern soldier's that participated in that war were tiv people, the 3th marine battalion under Lt con Benjamin adekunle that entered into Biafra through the sea from calabar were about 40 thousand half of them were tiv soldier's under the command of their own brother Lt con SHANDE he was eventually killed by biafran soldier's in owerri that was when tiv soldier's started leaving the war
when the igbos were running from the north back to the east tiv people captured them in makurdi killing and dumping their bodies in river Benue

Lt con Joseph akahan who was heading the military Barracks in Ibadan helped the hausa/Fulani soldier's to capture and kill all the Igbo officers that were in that Barracks in such a horrifying manner , sometimes I feel all these bad things happening in the north and middle belt could be karma .

That's an horrifying history I never got to know much bout but what i knew bout the Biafran war was that the North central played a major role in making sure Biafra wasn't achieved. but what more can we say?? Maybe it wasn't the plan of God for a divided Nigeria then, can we question Him?

kabillionaire:
It's this kind of mindset that keep Benue state where it is right now.
How can you renounce your ancestral home?
When you're rejected there, we'll equally reject you.

It's that rejection I'm even really after. Benue has stopped being my ancestral home since 2015 after I got my Taraba state of origin certificate. the thing y'all should pray for in Benue is Peace and an advocation for Peace. until that is done nothing good would be known bout Benue even food sef

Chelsea350:
Please can someone put me through on the reason why Nigerian female Generals and Major Generals are not common in the Army. Though there are few Notable ones among them such as Major General Aderonke Kale and Major General Abimbola Amasu.

If not for the spoilt Nigerian settings Ladies/women in the Army ain't supposed to pass the rank of a Major. what wars do they go for or fight?? how many military success stories has been attributed to military women? I'll categorically tell you those two we have self are not worth the rank

jimyjames:
Forward the poem to ortom

Trust me I'm from Benue but I'll say I'm always ashamed to say I'm from there cuz I really can't wrap my head in knowing what Benue is really good for except Food production and Bloodshed. It's just a pity media don't carry majority of what's going on here

If Jukun are not killing Tiv, Tiv are facing Agatu. these faction of hoodlums are waging supremacy war against the other community everything get settled the next you hear is Tiv people killings in Taraba and those faction are fighting back. the funny thing is it happens mostly every week. Well, I thank God my great grandfather had root in Taraba I've since renounce everything that had me to do with Benue n claimed Taraba for good and thank God same has been done on all my Documents

Well I'll leave the matter over to the Redpill boss in the House to address this issue

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tyup:


Now I think that Tolulope olawale is a real nigga with a right thinking faculty. Karma is an Hoax and believing Karma is real is like believing Buhari would one day turn #1 to $50. out of my abundance of examples, I'll pick Obasanjo who murdered thousands n hundreds at Odi and zakibiam respectively. my fellow good people you'll be shocked same man yesterday stormed a party in Edo and is still dancing Zanku n gbe body leg work as we speak

Don't be fooled Karma is only n just a quantum of Physics perspective of Action and Reaction which is directly related to Newton's 3rd law

Isn't it funny how Nigerian would carry their own hands n leg shook inside problem and expect a miracle from no where, What do Nigerians think they'll get from a man who doesn't even have a certificate let alone having any iota of education in mind

It's quite thrilling how people thought the problem a PhD holder in person of GEJ couldn't solve an herder could solve it just as easy as a snap. By the time Buhari is done with Us in 2023 ehn Ohh Lord, a chicken without feathers would look more cute than most people

Who am I to speak on this thread when Righteousness89 hasn't utter a word on this yet

Lol man would sha always attack China in one way or the other

SexynSerious:
Let me guess …
…. Afonja, right

Nah rather Anti-igbo

yomi007k:

Where in the north can an educated Southerner go ? What jobs are available? Thank you.

Anywhere apart frm North central

esp Borno government they pay very high

Buhari would be absent during the swearing in

9jvirgin:
There was no reason to commit suicide to live in a country like Malaysia. This is a case of a poor literate that sees no potentials in himself except living in a God forsaken country like Malaysia. What a sad end!

Did you say God forsaken

it's obvious you're bleeping ignorant about alot

yomi007k:

How?

what dont you understand?

Haddeyholler:
Please Nairalanders, am so depressed.
Am in highly depression mood, everything around me is uninteresting. No supports nor encouragement from Family and friends. I don't want to think negative nor do any stupid things to myself.

I need your help and advicesNairalanders.

If you're educated go to the North and prosper

my 2cent

Even in American movies atimes evils are perpetuated with cats

It's speaks more about cat in person