Ajoboss:
Your life Your problem

oluebubeneo:
Yeah...never said it was yours

oluebubeneo:
If I could be born again, I will choose to be born in a non-religious and non-spiritual home. I don't call myself an atheist. I don't know if I still care about the whole supernatural existence or not. I've been dealt a heavy blow by religion, spirituality and all that. Yeah, religion might have favoured some people or many people, ion know, but for me, spirituality, religion and all that have caused me too much fear... terror even. I have experienced mental torture in terrible forms. Breaking free from these beliefs is not easy even though I have been through so much pain because of them. Likely because most of these beliefs have a lot to do with a very strong emotion.... fear. I know some people might judge and jump into conclusions. If it hasn't happened to you, you won't understand. I don't want to say I hate religion or spirituality. Lemme just say, I don't want to care about them anymore.

Hier:


Okay, you spoke many parables here

Second, what was the cause or source of fear

You spoke about Spirituality, which form of spirituality, under which religion?

Please clarify the above, let's start with that.

oluebubeneo:
I can't really put the experience into words. It's terrible. It could be all in my head because it has a lot to do with my thoughts. I am pulling through though. Just thought letting out a little will be fine. Someone going through that might see that post and know that he/she is not alone cause this experience is so weird one might feel he/she is alone.

Doctufos: Otem Erectus 226:13-30

13. And Otem saw how all gods of religion gather and say, we shall not let humanity and dwellers of the earth have rest of mind. And Allah said, I cannot let go my impact upon the earth.
14. Now many homos who died religious had been made the same with the gods. And they had almost equal powers with the gods. And they said also, the religion which we practise on earth must not be defeated.
15. Now Yahweh said, what shall my great name become in the mouths of the people of the earth if i agree that religion should be made of none effect in their minds? Shall they not curse my name forever?
16. And Eubius said, what shall happen to the history of Krishtanite which I have written? I shall rather protect it, or else I shall be found the greatest liar in history. And Mirza and Moloch and Eshu and many other gods said, the fun of the earth shall be lost when they do not call upon our names anymore.
17. And their continual weeping to the gods, being fun to us, shall be a thing of the past. No, we shall not allow this. Now while they spoke, the gods who wanted science and development in the world came and said, are you ready for the battle? And they said, we are ready.
18. And the battle began.
19. And Otem heard voices and saw many gods how they did all manner of inexplicable things. And there were vacuums, but only Otem and the gods of findings saw the vacuums.
20. And when the gods of religion had entered into the vacuums, they were not seen anymore.
21. And Otem awoke. And his pupils had broken the door of his house when he did not appear in the school that day. And they had done many things to revive him.
22. And Otem said, I saw all the things which you do to my body to rescue me. Why do you sit on my chest and blew my nose? Why do you disturb my sweet sleep? For the words which are made flesh are currently being conquered.
23. And henceforth, all sacred texts shall be seen as the things useful for refuse dump. And they shall lose the powers behind them, because all gods who insist on continual deception of the world through their threatening and motivational books are currently being held captive in vacuums.
24. Now for a space of three months, Otem continually saw how the gods stepped into vacuums and were not seen anymore.
25. Now when eighty-nine days was complete, the gods of findings began to carry the vacuums in their hands, dumping them into a larger vacuum. For the vacuums began to become visible when they had carried them. And they dumped more than two hundred and fifty nine thousand vacuums into a larger one.
26. And they said, Otem of truth, we have overcome the gods by vacuums, so go and make known all the things which you have seen. For we imagined the vacuums with our thoughts for the capture of the gods who are antihumans.
27. And in the vacuums shall they be for a thousand years. This is the spiritual cage of all gods who oppose development. And focus shall be shifted from the words in the books to the thoughts of the heads.
28. And a period shall come when the pastors and the priests of many religions shall begin to misbehave. For their gods are encaged. And the minds of many homos shall begin to go after the truth within themselves rather than the lies written in the books of lies.
29. Now Otem, we have done our own part, therefore go and do your part also. Be not lazy in the compilation and interpretation of the texts of histories which we have given to you.
30. And we shall breathe life into the history which you shall write and it shall live on in the minds of the people, rather than religious texts. And humanity shall begin to use their own brains, worshipping no god while they do good to themselves.

Akin1212:
Seems to me like you have made a good choice. It's all bullshit.

Akin1212:
Seems to me like you have made a good choice. It's all bullshit.

oluebubeneo:
If I could be born again, I will choose to be born in a non-religious and non-spiritual home. I don't call myself an atheist. I don't know if I still care about the whole supernatural existence or not. I've been dealt a heavy blow by religion, spirituality and all that. Yeah, religion might have favoured some people or many people, ion know, but for me, spirituality, religion and all that have caused me too much fear... terror even. I have experienced mental torture in terrible forms. Breaking free from these beliefs is not easy even though I have been through so much pain because of them. Likely because most of these beliefs have a lot to do with a very strong emotion.... fear. I know some people might judge and jump into conclusions. If it hasn't happened to you, you won't understand. I don't want to say I hate religion or spirituality. Lemme just say, I don't want to care about them anymore.

Lec25:
My sister same here what i truely saw i can explaine it in word some time i wish i never ventute in to that so call spirituality right now i think i am losing it. i just wish i never exist cause my existance trouble me

oluebubeneo:


Have you talked to anyone about it?

Lec25:
No initially the whole the look as if am going to be a preacher bt i dnt know what went wrong bt joke apart my dead was reveale to me i still remember where they took me away is is long story sha i just wish i will recover from the whole thing

oluebubeneo:


I think you should undergo therapy. please do see a psychiatrist if you can.

Lec25:
Are you a christian?

oluebubeneo:
No

oluebubeneo:
If I could be born again, I will choose to be born in a non-religious and non-spiritual home. I don't call myself an atheist. I don't know if I still care about the whole supernatural existence or not. I've been dealt a heavy blow by religion, spirituality and all that. Yeah, religion might have favoured some people or many people, ion know, but for me, spirituality, religion and all that have caused me too much fear... terror even. I have experienced mental torture in terrible forms. Breaking free from these beliefs is not easy even though I have been through so much pain because of them. Likely because most of these beliefs have a lot to do with a very strong emotion.... fear. I know some people might judge and jump into conclusions. If it hasn't happened to you, you won't understand. I don't want to say I hate religion or spirituality. Lemme just say, I don't want to care about them anymore.

oluebubeneo:
If I could be born again, I will choose to be born in a non-religious and non-spiritual home. I don't call myself an atheist. I don't know if I still care about the whole supernatural existence or not. I've been dealt a heavy blow by religion, spirituality and all that. Yeah, religion might have favoured some people or many people, ion know, but for me, spirituality, religion and all that have caused me too much fear... terror even. I have experienced mental torture in terrible forms. Breaking free from these beliefs is not easy even though I have been through so much pain because of them. Likely because most of these beliefs have a lot to do with a very strong emotion.... fear. I know some people might judge and jump into conclusions. If it hasn't happened to you, you won't understand. I don't want to say I hate religion or spirituality. Lemme just say, I don't want to care about them anymore.

UnchangeableGod:
Sir, I think I understand your plight. I was once in your shoe. Unfortunately, religion or 'spirituality' has never helped anyone. All you need is Christ. The more religious or spiritual without Christ, the more confused you become. I was once like you until I had a personal encounter with the Saviour. I see that some people are 'preaching' to you to become ungodly, irreligious and carefree like them. Well, you have a choice sir. However I humbly recommend you choose Christ. Repent and turn away from your sins and accept Christ Jesus into your heart. As you sincerely do, all your doubts, puzzles and confusions will be cleared and solved. Your life will also have a meaning and your life will experience peace from the Prince of peace. You may also choose to attend any of the Bible Studies handled by servants of God like pastor W.F Kumuyi. God bless you.

oluebubeneo:


Thanks for your contribution. I'm not a sir though.

oluebubeneo:


Thanks for your contribution. I'm not a sir though.