for some reason am always depressed. granted my childhood was terrible. I grew up in a broken home with my dad not living with us and my mom verbally and physical abusing me..my mom had sex with men while I was still on the bed and sometimes I could hear and see them (she stopped this when I was fourteen)she constantly masturbate in my presence, that still gives me nightmares till now.
my sister was a hot temper monster in my opinion
and my dad was cool but was never really there.

now that am older have tried my best to put that aside and enjoy my life but every time am always depressed and sad
one minute am happy thenthe other I just want to die
as I get older it keeps getting worst and for some reason I tend to over think

can my depression be linked to my childhood

Now as an adult have you reconnected with your father?

Abetterperson:
for some reason am always depressed. granted my childhood was terrible. I grew up in a broken home with my dad not living with us and my mom verbally and physical abusing me..my mom had sex with men while I was still on the bed and sometimes I could hear and see them (she stopped this when I was fourteen)she constantly masturbate in my presence, that still gives me nightmares till now.
my sister was a hot temper monster in my opinion
and my dad was cool but was never really there.

now that am older have tried my best to put that aside and enjoy my life but every time am always depressed and sad
one minute am happy thenthe other I just want to die
as I get older it keeps getting worst and for some reason I tend to over think

can my depression be linked to my childhood

I'm so sorry about your experience. If you want, I would like to recommend online therapy sessions. Some are free and can be very helpful. I recommend cimhs.com, it's a site that offers therapy for depression.

You probably live here in Nigeria, see if you can speak to a certified and trained therapist that specialises in treating early child abuse and adult depression. Avoid unsympathetic people as much as possible.

No, they are not being "real". They are being very cruel and thoughtless. So sorry. Please take care of yourself

What an experience!!!

Find solace in God's goodness and mercy, embrace him in all totality and acknowledge him as your source of happiness.

U need to move closer to d word of God and also a therapist. like sum1 said above, u can register for free courses on hw to overcome depression sure it will help

eiya sorry,terrible experience for you, my prayers are with you

It's a pity, if you can just stop thinking much about ur childhood negative experiences, u will overcome.

Nothing makes me shed tears than my childhood and growing up.. Nothing hurts more than being raised in a broken home... We overcome bro. .. even now I'm distancing myself from God..

I'm so sorry about your childhood.

1.Psychotherapy would be good for you.
2. Always pray and keep God first.

I wish you well.

Find Solace in the word of God, pray, work hard, put yourself in a better situation

Try to find a hobby. Many successful people have had rough pasts. You must be determined not to focus on it. Date only people that truly love you. Never be under pressure to settle. Focus on yourself and a tangible career. If you're a student, focus on your studies and do well. Your mother has let you down by exposing you to that rubbish but be intentional to do much better.

Abetterperson:
for some reason am always depressed. granted my childhood was terrible. I grew up in a broken home with my dad not living with us and my mom verbally and physical abusing me..my mom had sex with men while I was still on the bed and sometimes I could hear and see them (she stopped this when I was fourteen)she constantly masturbate in my presence, that still gives me nightmares till now.
my sister was a hot temper monster in my opinion
and my dad was cool but was never really there.

now that am older have tried my best to put that aside and enjoy my life but every time am always depressed and sad
one minute am happy thenthe other I just want to die
as I get older it keeps getting worst and for some reason I tend to over think

can my depression be linked to my childhood

Honestly at this your present age am sure that you are above 20yrs of age

Why are you holding back yourself when you are are supposed to keep moving

Those things you saw your mum doing shouldn't hold you back

Stop remembering them because it's not taking you anywhere, it's now left for you to prepare yourself as a man and workout a way to achieve success

One problem with depression and is, if you welcome depression the depression will bring his entire family to live in your head and start frustrating your life

So don't give them the room

merieam16:
U need to move closer to d word of God and also a therapist. like sum1 said above, u can register for free courses on hw to overcome depression sure it will help

U need to move closer to the word of God. Why?

This is psychological not spiritual, there is a distinct different between the two

I too, feel for you and what you have gone through. I also agree that while spirituality is important, issues regarding mental health concerns (such as depression) often overwhelm our spiritual responses and require psychotherapy treatment. I would suggest a therapist who practices either Narrative Therapy or Person-Centred Therapy. These are both therapies which will build you up and affirm you as you seek to understand the damage which has been done to you.

You can find an example of a Narrative/Person-Centred Therapist here - www.whiteboardcounselling.com.

This is the type of therapist which I believe would be ideal for you.

All the best.

Abetterperson:
for some reason am always depressed. granted my childhood was terrible. I grew up in a broken home with my dad not living with us and my mom verbally and physical abusing me..my mom had sex with men while I was still on the bed and sometimes I could hear and see them (she stopped this when I was fourteen)she constantly masturbate in my presence, that still gives me nightmares till now.
my sister was a hot temper monster in my opinion
and my dad was cool but was never really there.

now that am older have tried my best to put that aside and enjoy my life but every time am always depressed and sad
one minute am happy thenthe other I just want to die
as I get older it keeps getting worst and for some reason I tend to over think

can my depression be linked to my childhood

Talk to her about it. Tell her how her actions affects you

I know it might not be easy but you can try forgetting those shit by talking about it with close confidants and just laugh it off.

Kyp

Waoooo....

I'm surprised about 15 nairaland monikers who commented above were humane and sensitive.Waoooo.... I'm still surprised.


To op, embrace God,He will only give you that which you are seeking for,try also to forgive your mother and reconnect with your father.

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Abetterperson:
for some reason am always depressed. granted my childhood was terrible. I grew up in a broken home with my dad not living with us and my mom verbally and physical abusing me..my mom had sex with men while I was still on the bed and sometimes I could hear and see them (she stopped this when I was fourteen)she constantly masturbate in my presence, that still gives me nightmares till now.
my sister was a hot temper monster in my opinion
and my dad was cool but was never really there.

now that am older have tried my best to put that aside and enjoy my life but every time am always depressed and sad
one minute am happy thenthe other I just want to die
as I get older it keeps getting worst and for some reason I tend to over think

can my depression be linked to my childhood

Have you seen a psychotherapist

chii8:
Waoooo....

I'm surprised about 15 nairaland monikers who commented above were humane and sensitive.Waoooo.... I'm still surprised.

To op, embrace God,He will only give you that which you are seeking for,try also to forgive your mother and reconnect with your father.

Have some people not exercised their God-given brains to understand the issues better?

whiteboardcouns:
I too, feel for you and what you have gone through. I also agree that while spirituality is important, issues regarding mental health concerns (such as depression) often overwhelm our spiritual responses and require psychotherapy treatment. I would suggest a therapist who practices either Narrative Therapy or Person-Centred Therapy. These are both therapies which will build you up and affirm you as you seek to understand the damage which has been done to you.

You can find an example of a Narrative/Person-Centred Therapist here - www.whiteboardcounselling.com.

This is the type of therapist which I believe would be ideal for you.

All the best.

Remain blessed for your brilliant suggestion.
Thanks

sabbiboi:
U need to move closer to the word of God. Why?

This is psychological not spiritual, there is a distinct different between the two

Thanks to you too.