I just can't take it anymore, I keep living everyday telling myself it will roll away but it keeps getting worse.
I have never felt so much depressed in my life before, it has eaten me up too deep to the point of giving me a blank soul but I'm on the edge now and no options.

I just felt like I should spend my last moments and final words here with my precious friends on nairaland before I leave.
I don't wanna be a burden to anyone anymore, I just wish there are people who feel the pain I feel but it seems that ain't possible.

It breaks even more when the people you trust, people you call family, people you once helped, people you call true friends, people you always heed to when they beckon on you but those same people become the ones who makes you more depressed, nobody to help out.

I just want to leave the world for them and I don't want anyone of them to cry in my funeral cos their tears are not worth it.

My landlord is coming to pack me out tomorrow but I told him not to bother that I would leave on my own.


Modified:

I couldn't believe I would still be alive today but thanks be to God and nairaland family for giving me another option in life when I thought it was all over.
Though I was beaten by thugs and taken to the hospital on that case, yet my heart was pierced by the touching words of my nairaland brothers and sisters here. I was discharged yesterday and starting a new life right now which has been given me by God and nairaland family.

I also say Thank You to all that called, texted, adviced me and also helped me in substance. You are great people.

Please, I want to start a trading business so I can also live in the store for now as I've been chased out by my landlord.
If you ever feel in your heart to help me, you can reach me on my number.

0 - 7 - 0 - 4 - 1 - 1 - 9 - 1 - 7 - 9 - 0

I can't drop any details here or pics of my wounded self.

GOD WILL SURELY TO BLESS THE NAIRALAND FAMILY IN JESUS NAME. AMEN.

Locked up in my room right now and thinking of the after life.

I can't imagine how the after life looks like

Hey dear friend, Pls hold on. Don't give up. It's gonna be ok if you continue. Imagine yourself a year or two from now. It's not over yet

Ogbenni don't kill yourself pls, the major cause of disappointment esp with people is having expectations that's not met. Nothing is as bad as it seems. There's always a way out.

Send me a DM, let's talk. It is well

what do I know every Mallam with him kettle, since u have decided already safe suicide mission. tell fela that burna boy won grammy

If you kill yourself, then you've let God know you're capable of taking the life he gave to you - hurray!

After life is amazing, it's filled with joy...no sorrow bruv, u're gonna enjoy the good life.

Go ahead, dare to be different.....drink that poison, hang that rope, take that knife and do the needful.....FINITO

Kestolove:
what do I know every Mallam with him kettle, since u have decided already safe suicide mission. tell fela that burna boy won grammy

Lol

Bro, this life is a drama. It is a movie that can be interesting at times and some other times, it is not interesting.

Do you even have the guts to end your life?

smart1204:
Hey dear friend, Pls hold on. Don't give up. It's gonna be ok if you continue. Imagine yourself a year or two from now. It's not over yet

I can't even imagine one month from now.

Account number?

Yusufisraelj:
Ogbenni don't kill yourself pls, the major cause of disappointment esp with people is having expectations that's not met. Nothing is as bad as it seems. There's always a way out.

Send me a DM, let's talk. It is well

Okay thanks... Call me on 0 - 7 - 0 - 4 - 1 - 1 - 9 - 1 7 - 9 - 0

Ishilove:
Account number?

What do you want with that?

Kestolove:
what do I know every Mallam with him kettle, since u have decided already safe suicide mission. tell fela that burna boy won grammy

Thanks for your words though, I will keep that in mind..

Catfishing:
If you kill yourself, then you've let God know you're capable of taking the life he gave to you - hurray!

After life is amazing, it's filled with joy...no sorrow bruv, u're gonna enjoy the good life.

Go ahead, dare to be different.....drink that poison, hang that rope, take that knife and do the needful.....FINITO

Hmmmmm

Usorohtheman:
Bro, this life is a drama. It is a movie that can be interesting at times and some other times, it is not interesting.

Do you even have the guts to end your life?

I don't think you get it at all, right now there is not just guts but conclusion.

The pain from that knife won't hurt me as much as what I feel right now

.

I was sacked from my peaceful job just because I was honest.
Should I go against my principles just for dishonest riches?

A good name is better than riches...(that's my motto and my daily slogan)

Just returned from the police station yesterday for something I didn't commit. I was only trying to help and now my help has brought me this.

Why must the world be like this when it can be a better place?

InEvitable0000:


I don't think you get it at all, right now there is not just guts but conclusion.

The pain from that knife won't hurt me as much as what I feel right now

I will advise you not to do so, but if you still insist, you can go ahead bro.

It is not easy to stay alive and it is also not easy to end one's life.

Choose for yourself what you want. Life goes on oooo

Paying a debt I didn't owe, now I got no cash anymore, they coming to warn me, seize my possessions and beat me up.

Family doesn't check on you cos they don't care except it's monetary unless you are useless to them.
Fakers live like you don't exist but when they need you, they become friends and come crying down to you.

The more I try to brighten up, the more everything becomes worse by the day.

Latest format.

Brexxit:
Latest format.

Call it whatever you like, I pray you never be in my shoes.

Listening to my best song since one week ago,

(Rema - Peace of Mind)

Hmm bro calm down. I spent my last card,sold my two cars, borrowed money about 7 million in total treating my late wife before she died. It was as if the World have come to an end. I have faced really hard times in life so many times, sometimes I felt the way you feel. There is what I realized later....
Any problem have it's expiry date if you can wait. With time, problem fades away. My advice, wait for a month. Just a month, things will be very difficult but u will see that as time goes, it will subside and u will be out of your problem. Trust me, wait for a month, u will be better and gradually things will improve.
Learn to live life as it comes and it will make u strong and better. Good luck!

You need an Anchor.
What is an Anchor?

An anchor is something or someone that
keeps you attached to this World.


It could be Family and Friends; it could
be desire for Wealth and Material
Possessions; It could be a Religion
or an Ideolgy; It could also be having
a Purpose.
Sometimes it might even be a Girlfriend;
Wife or Children.

Find and Anchor and Hold on to it.

I suggest something like having a Purpose
or A Religion.
Because every other thing can be taken
away from you but a sense of Purpose
will give you Endless Power(will to live).

IgbohoSunday:
Hmm bro calm down. I spent my last card,sold my two cars, borrowed money about 7 million in total treating my late wife before she died. It was as if the World have come to an end. I have faced really hard times in life so many times, sometimes I felt the way you feel. There is what I realized later....
Any problem have it's expiry date if you can wait. With time, problem fades away. My advice, wait for a month. Just a month, things will be very difficult but u will see that as time goes, it will subside and u will be out of your problem. Trust me, wait for a month, u will be better and gradually things will improve.
Learn to live life as it comes and it will make u strong and better. Good luck!

Thanks a lot for the words..

Ayo13945:
You need an Anchor.
What is an Anchor?

An anchor is something or someone that
keeps you attached to this World.

It could be Family and Friends; it could
be desire for Wealth and Material
Possessions; It could be a Religion
or an Ideolgy; It could also be having
a Purpose.

I understand you bro.... thanks.

Any help is from you my nairaland family and friends cod you are the only people I have now, every other person is written off now.

Psychological, emotional or help of any sort.

Thanks for all the words....

InEvitable0000:
Paying a debt I didn't owe, now I got no cash anymore, they coming to warn me, seize my possessions and beat me up.

Family doesn't check on you cos they don't care except it's monetary unless you are useless to them.
Fakers live like you don't exist but when they need you, they become friends and come crying down to you.

The more I try to brighten up, the more everything becomes worse by the day.

You just dey lament....kill urself nd gedifvk outta this earth!!

Catfishing:
You just dey lament....kill urself nd gedifvk outta this earth!!

Thanks.

i bet there are many worse than you. commot shame for your body,and you wud be fine. dnt mind the shaming by landlord, neighbour , and continue keeping your head high.goodluck

Chummynoni:
i bet there are many worse than you. commot shame for your body,and you wud be fine. dnt mind the shaming by landlord, neighbour , and continue keeping your head high.goodluck

Thanks a lot for the words bro.

Sniper