Someone gave me a simple job of making an existing static site template responsive within 24 hours and I blew it. A simple task that should take few hours, it looked all good on my localhost only to test it on netlify and it turned out to be a disaster. I'm just so ashamed of myself.

I've been learning web dev since mid last year though its been a case of one month on three months off, I've been grossly inconsistent due circumstances beyond my control. I haven't even coded this year because I come back from my menial hustles with battered bones and weak muscles. You can imagine trying to code after offloading a trailer load of cement all day. I even had to use bet shops around for the gig amidst the pangs of hunger I felt while working coupled with the noisy and distracting environment I was working in which contributed to my legendary blunder.

At the age of 30 and unemployed I've always seen programming as my way out of poverty but it seems I'm not good enough. I'm painfully watching that little flicker of hope fizzle out before my tearful eyes. Which other skill can I dabble into product design?? I suck at designs reason why my frontend skills is below average... should I try backend?? I'm just confused, frustrated and down casted not knowing the next step to take while time is no longer on my side.

Life currently has no meaning and direction to me, I just seem to be flowing aimlessly with the flow. My situation is giving me sleepless nights and I now rely on drugs to sleep for even three hours a day.

I really need someone to talk to, I'm really tired of trying to work out things on my own. I'm 30, broke, lonely and depressed, single has been a constant in my life's equation cos I don't even like myself for who I am presently so I don't expect someone's daughter to like me in this my miserable state.

Someone should please show me the way, this dark tunnel is fast turning to a maze that I can't navigate on my own.

Supremedrizzy:
Someone gave me a simple job of making an existing static site template responsive within 24 hours and I blew it. A simple task that should take few hours, it looked all good on my localhost only to test it on netlify and it turned out to be a disaster. I'm just so ashamed of myself.

I've been learning web dev since mid last year though its been a case of one month on three months off, I've been grossly inconsistent due circumstances beyond my control. I haven't even coded this year because I come back from my menial hustles with battered bones and weak muscles. You can imagine trying to code after offloading a trailer load of cement all day. I even had to use bet shops around for the gig amidst the pangs of hunger I felt while working coupled with the noisy and distracting environment I was working in which contributed to my legendary blunder.

At the age of 30 and unemployed I've always seen programming as my way out of poverty but it seems I'm not good enough. I'm painfully watching that little flicker of hope fizzle out before my tearful eyes. Which other skill can I dabble into product design?? I suck at designs reason why my frontend skills is below average... should I try backend?? I'm just confused, frustrated and down casted not knowing the next step to take while time is no longer on my side.

Life currently has no meaning and direction to me, I just seem to be flowing aimlessly with the flow. My situation is giving me sleepless nights and I now rely on drugs to sleep for even three hours a day.

I really need someone to talk to, I'm really tired of trying to work out things on my own. I'm 30, broke, lonely and depressed, single has been a constant in my life's equation cos I don't even like myself for who I am presently so I don't expect someone's daughter to like me in this my miserable state.

Someone should please show me the way, this dark tunnel is fast turning to a maze that I can't navigate on my own.

Frustrations when the stars refuse to align....

But this shall pass if only you must choose one master...

Either the menial jobs or the programming...

When you have a task, first see it as your own...Then, bring your A game to it...Focus and deliver...The money must come only if you deliver..

Referrals will increae the bank account.

At 30, life just started...Just don't be a fool at 40.

You, have chosen the IT world, stay focused on IT...And keep striving to be the best part of yourself...This shall pass.

I remember in 2013, When I paid a firm to allow me do industrial training, the managers conspired and duped me without agreeing to terms..

It wasn't upto to time, I was asked to go...I left, called my Dad..He said I shouldn't worry, I should return home...I cried that day and left..And, I knew I made some promises to myself...No stopping..

Looking back, when I remember those days, laugh over it...
I mean if I pay people to work for me now, then no cause for alarm..

Dude focus on the IT work...Don't lose hope and confidence in yourself.

You need to understand and admit you were not good enough but in a good way.

This is March and if you've not coded this year then you should expect that you will suck at it.

Offloading trailer? Please quit that job. You might think it's the only way to feed but it isn't, even a teaching job is better than that.

Look around you, find jobs that are less stressful and will give you time off. Infact, you can negotiate with potential employers to give you a day off for lesser pay. This might seem impossible initially, but if you give them a good reason or lie, they might agree.

Try to socialize, go out, have fun, stop being a loner. It will increase your confidence and self worth. Also, ask girls out for fun. It will relieve all these pressure.

Don't think too much about this loss. Shit happens!

Karleb:
You need to understand and admit you were not good enough but in a good way.

This is March and if you've not coded this year then you should expect that you will suck at it.

Offloading trailer? Please quit that job. You might think it's the only way to feed but it isn't, even a teaching job is better than that.

Look around you, find jobs that are less stressful and will give you time off. Infact, you can negotiate with potential employers to give you a day off for lesser pay. This might seem impossible initially, but if you give them a good reason or lie, they might agree.

Try to socialize, go out, have fun, stop being a loner. It will increase your confidence and self worth. Also, ask girls out for fun. It will relieve all these pressure.

Don't think too much about this loss. Shit happens!

Follow this advice but please whatever you do, don't ask any useless girl out (either for fun or otherwise).
In addition to socialising, learn GAME.
Visit the redpill thread on Nairaland romance section, it'll help you learn game, improve your self confidence. There's also a techy redpiller there, ichiodo. He's good at what he does and he might direct you.

Asking girls out is so old school, and stupid.
Learn game, attract them to you.

Ever heard of the word consistency?

The problem with this generation is:
1) we've lost the ability to start over when we make mistakes the first few times.
2)The information you can come across is so wide, varied and absolutely ginormous that it drowns; if you don't have laser focus, trust me you'd drown in the sea of information. information that could have easily helped you to build wealth.
3)As a result of No.2, you want to explore every option. Now herein lies the problem: you will only want to dedicate very little time to learning say backend engineering, because you're in a hurry to run off to explore other options -YOU WILL DEPLETE YOUR ENERGY. FOCUS!!

It's true, failure is painful. But if you just focus on the frontend dev you're doing now, i believe you will smile soon.

What kind of laptop do you use? Invest in getting a better laptop. I know it might sound stupid to a lot of people but my coding skills and productivity increased tremendously when I got a better laptop and qtguru gave me an external monitor. I was using a folio before and coding from a tiny laptop screen was very frustrating. There's a whole lot you can miss if care isn't taken.

You also need to go back and learn responsive design really well. Its something a lot of devs do not know how to do well especially with vanilla CSS. Dont give up on coding though. Just keep getting better.


For future scenarios whenever you want to do responsive design use this viewports

max width (320px) to target this rubbish dual screen phones that have a small one sided screen

max width 479px for normal screen size phones

max width 767 px for normal screen size phones but in horizontal mode and also smaller tablets

max width 991px for tablet size like the ipad

max width 1100px for things like the ipad pro

the rest is your desktop screen size.

There are scenarios you might have designs for very large desktops and small laptop screens but that rarely happens anyway.


Also when testing your responsive design do not drag your screen to test. Use the device toggler in the google chrome devtools. Only drag your screen when you want to test out bugs at different breakpoints.


Besides you crying everyday is normal. Programming is very hard. I cry everyday when I am solving leetcode questions and sincerely regret my existence. It's so crazy and has completely destroyed my mental health that people think I am mad now.


And lastly do not be too hard on yourself. Nigeria is an absolute shithole of a demonic country to be in. You are lucky you even discovered coding and theres hope. What of those on 30k dead end jobs that cant do anything. You even have a laptop. What of those using their phones or worst coding on paper. Just keep at it. Its not easy.

Spend more time reading and praciting , there is the internet and Youtube, understand what it is you are reading, also programming is not something you read, it's the more you practice.

1. Keep updated with newer tech
2. Join a community
3. Watch Youtube
4. Practice if possible code 10 hours a day

Took me 2 years of coding everyday to be good and some months before I could get a job, It took tensazangetsu20 some months. Times are different, it is so much easier that no one has an excuse unless they are learning programming the wrong way.


talk with tensazangetsu20 ASAP if he can advice you. also your mental fortitude matters, if you are defeatists Programming is going to be hard for you.

Coding is a tough skill don't let any bootcamp romanticize coding, it is tough. You have to put in alot

Supremedrizzy:
Someone gave me a simple job of making an existing static site template responsive within 24 hours and I blew it. A simple task that should take few hours, it looked all good on my localhost only to test it on netlify and it turned out to be a disaster. I'm just so ashamed of myself.

I've been learning web dev since mid last year though its been a case of one month on three months off, I've been grossly inconsistent due circumstances beyond my control. I haven't even coded this year because I come back from my menial hustles with battered bones and weak muscles. You can imagine trying to code after offloading a trailer load of cement all day. I even had to use bet shops around for the gig amidst the pangs of hunger I felt while working coupled with the noisy and distracting environment I was working in which contributed to my legendary blunder.

At the age of 30 and unemployed I've always seen programming as my way out of poverty but it seems I'm not good enough. I'm painfully watching that little flicker of hope fizzle out before my tearful eyes. Which other skill can I dabble into product design?? I suck at designs reason why my frontend skills is below average... should I try backend?? I'm just confused, frustrated and down casted not knowing the next step to take while time is no longer on my side.

Life currently has no meaning and direction to me, I just seem to be flowing aimlessly with the flow. My situation is giving me sleepless nights and I now rely on drugs to sleep for even three hours a day.

I really need someone to talk to, I'm really tired of trying to work out things on my own. I'm 30, broke, lonely and depressed, single has been a constant in my life's equation cos I don't even like myself for who I am presently so I don't expect someone's daughter to like me in this my miserable state.

Someone should please show me the way, this dark tunnel is fast turning to a maze that I can't navigate on my own.

see there is this perception that coding is the only way out in Nigeria, this is why i write on Upworks, but your situation is more extreme than the others, so my advise, is not to try coding, but try looking for skills, you can get to work online. are you using a laptop ? or which. This country is hard

tensazangetsu20:
What kind of laptop do you use? Invest in getting a better laptop. I know it might sound stupid to a lot of people but my coding skills and productivity increased tremendously when I got a better laptop and qtguru gave me an external monitor. I was using a folio before and coding from a tiny laptop screen was very frustrating. There's a whole lot you can miss if care isn't taken.

You also need to go back and learn responsive design really well. Its something a lot of devs do not know how to do well especially with vanilla CSS. Dont give up on coding though. Just keep getting better.


For future scenarios whenever you want to do responsive design use this viewports

max width (320px) to target this rubbish dual screen phones that have a small one sided screen

max width 479px for normal screen size phones

max width 767 px for normal screen size phones but in horizontal mode and also smaller tablets

max width 991px for tablet size like the ipad

max width 1100px for things like the ipad pro

the rest is your desktop screen size.

There are scenarios you might have designs for very large desktops and small laptop screens but that rarely happens anyway.


Also when testing your responsive design do not drag your screen to test. Use the device toggler in the google chrome devtools. Only drag your screen when you want to test out bugs at different breakpoints.


Besides you crying everyday is normal. Programming is very hard. I cry everyday when I am solving leetcode questions and sincerely regret my existence. It's so crazy and has completely destroyed my mental health that people think I am mad now.


And lastly do not be too hard on yourself. Nigeria is an absolute shithole of a demonic country to be in. You are lucky you even discovered coding and theres hope. What of those on 30k dead end jobs that cant do anything. You even have a laptop. What of those using their phones or worst coding on paper. Just keep at it. Its not easy.

Thanks boss, ,my pc is a serious inhibiting factor, sometimes it takes ages to create even a react app but that's not an excuse, those your view ports would have been extremely helpful if i saw it earlier.

qtguru:


see there is this perception that coding is the only way out in Nigeria, this is why i write on Upworks, but your situation is more extreme than the others, so my advise, is not to try coding, but try looking for skills, you can get to work online. are you using a laptop ? or which. This country is hard

I am open to trying anyother skill that can fetch me money while I practice. I've written before but I am still very much a novice, I am using a dell pc.

Dust yourself up and try again

And again and again till you succeed

Stay positive

So sorry bro we are all in this together

Stop wallowing in self pity. It kills faster than cancer.

Q

Supremedrizzy:
I really need someone to talk to, I'm really tired of trying to work out things on my own. I'm 30, broke, lonely and depressed, single has been a constant in my life's equation cos I don't even like myself for who I am presently so I don't expect someone's daughter to like me in this my miserable state.

Bros, calm down. Take life easy. One step and one day at a time.

You are doing well and will do well.
You have just exhibited a great success attribute that most people don't have, accountability.
You have owned up and acknowledged your mistakes instead of blaming everything blameable other than yourself.
Now rise up and keep moving. Learn from the past but never live in the past. Life is a school that never ends, when you are in class 5 don't go and sit down in class 4, that one is done and dusted. Keep moving.

Better luck next time

It's normal to feel useless when nothing seems to workout.

The problem I can deduce from your writeup is LACK OF CONSISTENCY, nobody is sucks at anything... CONSISTENCY is the key.
I know you need to eat, if you're alone wolf with no helper of any sort, kindly divide your days. maybe 3 days for hustling, 4 for rigorous learning/practice of your skill. Do this for just a month and you'll see a drastic change.

Keep trying, never underestimate the power of persistence, its too bad our so called celebs like people to think that their success came overnight, no one wants to admit that once upon a time in their lives there were periods of struggles, failures and insignificance.

Fact is there are such periods in peoples lives including the so called successful ones you envy, they wont admit it thogh.

Experience is the best teacher

Seun wants to give this one job

You can't blame yourself for what is entirely not your fault. You gave it a try, but it didn't work out, pick up the pieces, clean the tears, take more classes. Maybe you are just a step closer to your breakthrough, so giving up is not an option
Better luck next time

So what is the issue?

The bad state of the Nigerian economy is causing frustration among the populace...we are going to have a high number of people suffering depression if this trend is not reversed!

You are depressed? Great! That’s the precursor to a massive turning point for you.

Depression is a mighty rich emotion filled with potential energy , take that depression energy, convert it to kinetic energy and keep pushing till you forget you were ever depressed.

Henry Ford founded Ford Motors at age 45.. forget the age, just put in the work

S

D

1st thing is,
It appears you enjoy talking down on yourself.
You can't grow if you keep at that

Second:
You're complaining and not looking for a solution so it doesn't happen twice. You can't survive on pity as a Nigerian man.

What's the netlify link, what did you do to make it responsive, did you fix it after loosing the job?

Munzy14:

Frustrations when the stars refuse to align....

But this shall pass if only you must choose one master...

Either the menial jobs or the programming...

When you have a task, first see it as your own...Then, bring your A game to it...Focus and deliver...The money must come only if you deliver..

Referrals will increae the bank account.

At 30, life just started...Just don't be a fool at 40.

You, have chosen the IT world, stay focused on IT...And keep striving to be the best part of yourself...This shall pass.

I remember in 2013, When I paid a firm to allow me do industrial training, the managers conspired and duped me without agreeing to terms..

It wasn't upto to time, I was asked to go...I left, called my Dad..He said I shouldn't worry, I should return home...I cried that day and left..And, I knew I made some promises to myself...No stopping..

Looking back, when I remember those days, laugh over it...
I mean if I pay people to work for me now, then no cause for a alarm..

Dude focus on the IT work...Don't lose hope and confidence in yourself.

This advice worth millions of dollars, I advice the op to take it, don't also forget the adviser when you eventually make it.