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teechudleyy:

Thanks for taking the time out joa.nee20 and favolly. Will be putting up the next installment soon.

Hi

I love the way you write

I'm following your diary too. You're like a much nicer version of me. Plus it reads like something out of a Francine Rivers novel. Lols

@ your last update..

I saw that you may have misconstrued what i meant when I said being alive is overrated. Maybe, it wasn't about my post but eitherway, I just feel like I should explain what I meant...

I'm glad to be alive and I have serious hopes for a bright future. That's why nothing will ever drive me to take my own life.

However, I came to the conclusion that being alive is overrated because barely 3 months back, I witnessed a loved one battle real hard to stay alive. She had the highest stage of cancer, whatever that means. She was practicaly writhing in pain every minute. Deep in our hearts, we knew the end was near for her but we were still hopeful that some miracle would make her survive it. We would miss her and it would hurt so much if she died. Everyday, I'll get back and peep into her room and see her moaning and groaning. I would watch life seep slowly away from her body. I would watch until I couldn't bear to anymore. She kept crying for mercy and I know God heard her. I can't begin to imagine how unbearable the pain felt but merely looking at her broke my heart everytime.

Then she stopped crying for mercy and started begging God not to take her life. She said she would bear the pain for as long as it lasted but she just didn't want to die. We all joined in praying to God to save her life but she died not long after. Unfortunately?

We were all sad but at the same time, I felt happy for her soul. I knew she was in a better place. I felt consoled that all that pain was finally over. When I saw her body during the funeral, she looked so peaceful and it made me wonder why she would have chosen to continue suffering for a longer time than to just die and rest in God's bosom.

And in that moment, I realized that not every living being is better than the dead. Everyday, we hear things like 'Are you not supposed to be grateful that you're still alive? People are dying everyday. Go to the mortuary and see dead bodies' And the audience may probably be someone that has Ebola or the deadliest disease ever. Personally, I would pray for death if i found myself in such a situation.

A lot of us are just privileged in this life. That's why we can talk about being better than the dead. And yes, a lot of us are better than the dead but look around you. A lot of people are begging on the streets, no arms, no legs, no food, no shelter, no friends, no relatives, nothing. Most of these people die everyday after going hungry for days at a stretch. Do you think the rest of them think that dying and going to heaven is worse than staying alive to see if they'll live through another day?

Yes, I think being alive is overrated and I mean it generically. It has more to do with my personal beliefs and nothing to do with how screwed up my life may be at the moment.

PS; I'm really sorry for derailing this beautiful story

Lol. Favolly your analysis is funny though.

But then life is worth having, being alive cannot be overrated though. When you are alive, there is a tiny thread you hold tight on, called Hope. The people dead looking peaceful in that state doesn't mean they attained their full potential and emptied themselves here before leaving therefore we cannot say they were happy to have died when they did.

If given a second chance most dead people will come back to finish sth they left halfway or say sth to a loved one or forgive someone they have grudges against. When you meet a person who places a high value to Life in spite of his challenge then you will understand that living is a gift and gifts are valuable.

Sorry about your relative.

amicable09:
Lol. Favolly your analysis is funny though.

But then life is worth having, being alive cannot be overrated though. When you are alive, there is a tiny thread you hold tight on, called Hope. The people dead looking peaceful in that state doesn't mean they attained their full potential and emptied themselves here before leaving therefore we cannot say they were happy to have died when they did.

If given a second chance most dead people will come back to finish sth they left halfway or say sth to a loved one or forgive someone they have grudges against. When you meet a person who places a high value to Life in spite of his challenge then you will understand that living is a gift and gifts are valuable.

Sorry about your relative.

It's easy for us to talk about hope because we are privileged enough.

I bet you won't be talking about hope if you found yourself in one of those scenarios I painted. If you found yourself in such situations and somehow you had the power to choose, would you prefer to stay on earth and suffer, or go to a place where you'll never have to suffer?

So sorry favolly about your relative. I practically watched a friend die of cancer too. The most painful and slow death I've ever witnessed. It still hurts and its been years. I understand you. Watching her die helped me mk peace with death.I think that's what you mean. Death isn't so scary anymore...

teechudleyy:
So sorry favolly about your relative. I practically watched a friend die of cancer too. The most painful and slow death I've ever witnessed. It still hurts and its been years. I understand you. Watching her die helped me mk peace with death.I think that's what you mean. Death isn't so scary anymore...

Thanks

Favolly:

Hi

I love the way you write

I'm following your diary too. You're like a much nicer version of me. Plus it reads like something out of a Francine Rivers novel. Lols

@ your last update..

I saw that you may have misconstrued what i meant when I said being alive is overrated. Maybe, it wasn't about my post but eitherway, I just feel like I should explain what I meant...

I'm glad to be alive and I have serious hopes for a bright future. That's why nothing will ever drive me to take my own life.

However, I came to the conclusion that being alive is overrated because barely 3 months back, I witnessed a loved one battle real hard to stay alive. She had the highest stage of cancer, whatever that means. She was practicaly writhing in pain every minute. Deep in our hearts, we knew the end was near for her but we were still hopeful that some miracle would make her survive it. We would miss her and it would hurt so much if she died. Everyday, I'll get back and peep into her room and see her moaning and groaning. I would watch life seep slowly away from her body. I would watch until I couldn't bear to anymore. She kept crying for mercy and I know God heard her. I can't begin to imagine how unbearable the pain felt but merely looking at her broke my heart everytime.

You will never know just how being alive is sweet because you've never discern the happenings of the afterlife.

Then she stopped crying for mercy and started begging God not to take her life. She said she would bear the pain for as long as it lasted but she just didn't want to die. We all joined in praying to God to save her life but she died not long after. Unfortunately?

We were all sad but at the same time, I felt happy for her soul. I knew she was in a better place. I felt consoled that all that pain was finally over. When I saw her body during the funeral, she looked so peaceful and it made me wonder why she would have chosen to continue suffering for a longer time than to just die and rest in God's bosom.[quote]
Did you bother to ponder why she stopped crying and begged God not to take her life? Its said that when a human is near death, he or she sees things? Things happening in the afterlife....

I tell you, if there's a hell or a heaven, I'll have you know that given my current state, I'll rather live a life writhing in pain on earth than burn in that lake of fire forever.


[quote] And in that moment, I realized that not every living being is better than the dead. Everyday, we hear things like 'Are you not supposed to be grateful that you're still alive? People are dying everyday. Go to the mortuary and see dead bodies' And the audience may probably be someone that has Ebola or the deadliest disease ever. Personally, I would pray for death if i found myself in such a situation.

A lot of us are just privileged in this life. That's why we can talk about being better than the dead. And yes, a lot of us are better than the dead but look around you. A lot of people are begging on the streets, no arms, no legs, no food, no shelter, no friends, no relatives, nothing. Most of these people die everyday after going hungry for days at a stretch. Do you think the rest of them think that dying and going to heaven is worse than staying alive to see if they'll live through another day?

Yes, not every living being is better than the dead, the living dead who are better than the living are those in heaven. Those in hell are worse than the living. Death, is a living characteristic, every living thing must die. I tell you, if you knew you were going straight to Hell when you die would you be looking forward to die? Surely I take it you'll like to be bed ridden with Ebola than go down that lane.

Yes, I think being alive is overrated and I mean it generically. It has more to do with my personal beliefs and nothing to do with how screwed up my life may be at the moment.

PS; I'm really sorry for derailing this beautiful story

Well since its on the matter of personal opinion, I believe being alive is not overrated, it can not be over emphasized, because the fear of the unknown is the beginning of wisdom. I for one don't know where I'm going to when I die, I've read books about the afterlife, many fearful and gut wrench terrifying and others subtly... but the truth is, no one knows because no one has crossed over and come back to tell us tales.

So, if you believe life is overrated, I believe it isn't because, life, can not be quantified or measured. We make life what life is for us. Its our own choice to make life better for ourselves and others.

If you want to talk about what is overrated, try marriage! Lol.

Pls na... Let's not derail the story with long long comments. Short ones r cool. Makes me feel like I'm not talking to myself.

teechudleyy:
Pls na... Let's not derail the story with long long comments. Short ones r cool. Makes me feel like I'm not talking to myself.

Sorry.

joseph1832:
Sorry.

Like I will banter with you on this subject too after I've said this is more about my beliefs which you don't share.

Nne, come and continue this story biko

Favolly:

Hi

I love the way you write

I'm following your diary too. You're like a much nicer version of me. Plus it reads like something out of a Francine Rivers novel. Lols

@ your last update..

I saw that you may have misconstrued what i meant when I said being alive is overrated. Maybe, it wasn't about my post but eitherway, I just feel like I should explain what I meant...

I'm glad to be alive and I have serious hopes for a bright future. That's why nothing will ever drive me to take my own life.

However, I came to the conclusion that being alive is overrated because barely 3 months back, I witnessed a loved one battle real hard to stay alive. She had the highest stage of cancer, whatever that means. She was practicaly writhing in pain every minute. Deep in our hearts, we knew the end was near for her but we were still hopeful that some miracle would make her survive it. We would miss her and it would hurt so much if she died. Everyday, I'll get back and peep into her room and see her moaning and groaning. I would watch life seep slowly away from her body. I would watch until I couldn't bear to anymore. She kept crying for mercy and I know God heard her. I can't begin to imagine how unbearable the pain felt but merely looking at her broke my heart everytime.

Then she stopped crying for mercy and started begging God not to take her life. She said she would bear the pain for as long as it lasted but she just didn't want to die. We all joined in praying to God to save her life but she died not long after. Unfortunately?

We were all sad but at the same time, I felt happy for her soul. I knew she was in a better place. I felt consoled that all that pain was finally over. When I saw her body during the funeral, she looked so peaceful and it made me wonder why she would have chosen to continue suffering for a longer time than to just die and rest in God's bosom.

And in that moment, I realized that not every living being is better than the dead. Everyday, we hear things like 'Are you not supposed to be grateful that you're still alive? People are dying everyday. Go to the mortuary and see dead bodies' And the audience may probably be someone that has Ebola or the deadliest disease ever. Personally, I would pray for death if i found myself in such a situation.

A lot of us are just privileged in this life. That's why we can talk about being better than the dead. And yes, a lot of us are better than the dead but look around you. A lot of people are begging on the streets, no arms, no legs, no food, no shelter, no friends, no relatives, nothing. Most of these people die everyday after going hungry for days at a stretch. Do you think the rest of them think that dying and going to heaven is worse than staying alive to see if they'll live through another day?

Yes, I think being alive is overrated and I mean it generically. It has more to do with my personal beliefs and nothing to do with how screwed up my life may be at the moment.

PS; I'm really sorry for derailing this beautiful story

Very beautifully expressed... i agree with you bout being alive been mostly overrated but am not gonna write an epistle on it here cos like you i wouldnt want to derail this fab thread

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So sorry for so many errors. Posted on the go. Will edit later. Thanks for following the black bird story

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Yes i have i sent you an email. How are you today

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I've never read anything this intense. Great work!!

Thanks so much renylee. thats quite encouraging.

beautiful.

Yeah, INTENSE is the word.
I really love the concept.
You're amazing teechudleyy!

this is really good. I love it

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