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I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom: 5:55pm On Oct 02, 2020
It's been 3 months without gambling. From july to september ending. Miraculous! I should be happy for my progress, but I am not. 6 years of bet9ja addiction, has already destroyed me beyond repair. If you see me now, i look unkempt. I hardly take care of my body and health. My body deserves to suffer for my years of foolishness. I am always distraught and disillusioned. I will let you in on reasons why I will never forgive myself....
Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by Disturb: 5:55pm On Oct 02, 2020
Novice22
Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by chatinent: 5:58pm On Oct 02, 2020
I never gamble because I see no reason to begin anticipating to win millions with few hundreds.

Don't be sad, bro.

Just move on.

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Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by Madibah(m): 6:00pm On Oct 02, 2020
Bet kills faster than Corona
I Know I'm a gangster right from the hood
But bet isn't in my agenda
Bet is crazy
Bet has more addiction than caffeine
Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom: 6:01pm On Oct 02, 2020
Just from January to June this year alone, I raised nothing less than 600,000 naira. This same period people were crying of no funds. I raised such huge amount and squandered it. I got the funds from:

1) I made 150000 naira alone convincing students to write WASSCE at my work place. There was the usual commission for bringing candidates. I inflated the enrollment figures to get more. I made a lot from a lady in Germany who wanted to write the exam in absentia.
2) I was among the lucky citizens that got the covid-19 relief money from the federal government. A whooping 250,000 naira was given to me
3) I got 50,000 naira from don jazzy during his lockdown giveaway
4) I made 50000 from January to March engaging tirelessly in teaching WASSCE and UTME classes.
5) I luckily got 50,000 naira from Cubana chief priest on live video in Instagram
6) I got 10,000 naira from helen paul after getting her trivia question.

Hmm. The aforementioned and many more was lost to bet9ja virtual. All my sweat and time squandered at betshops. I could have used those funds to kickstart my life. With betting, we are slaves to our addiction. Now all source of making good money is dried up. They took my labour and joy

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Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by Nobody: 6:04pm On Oct 02, 2020
ChildOfDoom:
It's been 3 months without gambling. From july to september ending. Miraculous! I should be happy for my progress, but I am not. 6 years of bet9ja addiction, has already destroyed me beyond repair. If you see me now, i look unkempt. I hardly take care of my body and health. My body deserves to suffer for my years of foolishness. I am always distraught and disillusioned. I will let you in on reasons why I will never forgive myself....
You are not over it until you forgive yourself,dust everything off and start over again,don't condemn yourself when God hasn't.Some experience are needed for a better tomorrow,your strength now is you not going back to it, my prayers are with you.You shall be great,also find something meaningful and engage in it so as to take most of your time.You are only weak when you submit to your weakness and allow it overwhelm you.Get up and do the needful.May God guide you right

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Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by JOACHINpedro: 6:05pm On Oct 02, 2020
ChildOfDoom:
Just from January to June this year alone, I raised nothing less than 600,000 naira. This same period people were crying of no funds. I raised such huge amount and squandered it. I got the funds from:

1) I made 150000 naira alone convincing students to write WASSCE at my work place. There was the usual commission for bringing candidates. I inflated the enrollment figures to get more. I made a lot from a lady in Germany who wanted to write the exam in absentia.
2) I was among the lucky citizens that got the covid-19 relief money from the federal government. A whooping 250,000 naira was given to me
3) I got 50,000 naira from don jazzy during his lockdown giveaway
4) I made 50000 from January to March engaging tirelessly in teaching WASSCE and UTME classes.
5) I luckily got 50,000 naira from Cubana chief priest on live video in Instagram
6) I got 10,000 naira from helen paul after getting her trivia question.

Hmm. The aforwmentioned and many more was lost to bet9ja virtual. All my sweat and time squandered at betshops. They took my labour and joy
Posting it on this section means you're not serious
Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by Disturb: 6:09pm On Oct 02, 2020
ChildOfDoom:
Just from January to June this year alone, I raised nothing less than 600,000 naira.
3) I got 50,000 naira from don jazzy during his lockdown giveaway
4) I made 50000 from January to March engaging tirelessly in teaching WASSCE and UTME classes.
5) I luckily got 50,000 naira from Cubana chief priest on live video in Instagram
6) I got 10,000 naira from helen paul after getting her trivia question.

Hmm. The aforementioned and many more was lost to bet9ja virtual. All my sweat and time squandered at betshops. They took my labour and joy
come give me the jazz wey you take de win this giveaways..

⅛ of that and my life don change
Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom: 6:22pm On Oct 02, 2020
I could have been arrested or beaten up if not for my employer who stood for me. My past assiduousess was why he liked me. Not only did I squander all the money I made in the first six months of the year, I also gambled with some of my candidates enrollment money in my desperation. By March 2020, I had gambled off about 101,500 naira that wasn't mine. I had to open up to my mum to join me and beg my director to cover up for me till I paid back. It has not been easy. I have been living in penury, having only a morsel of food to cope with and negative thoughts. I hit my body on something at times in disgust. It was my penance for my foolishness.

Till the end of this year, I will work as a slave for my boss for nothing, till I pay up. My brothers and sisters, this is money I did not eat o. Now paying the price. Throughout the WASSCE, I worked my ass out engaging in WASSCE runs. All I made was used to service the debt. The long time out of work also did not help matters in paying back the money on time. Sometimes, I feel like running away to another state to start working afresh in order to be paid. But I will stay and protect my integrity. Not like before i fled benin.


Even the 3 months Moratorium from government before I get to pay back the relief loan is off. I wonder what their next action would be. If only we could undo the past. The lust of the flesh has led me to my waterloo

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Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom: 6:37pm On Oct 02, 2020
I am 28 years old but betting has pushed my life back to when I was just 16 years with nothing. That was when i just finished secondary school. No babe, no investment, no house of my own, no proper qualification, no decent clothing, nothing. When ever I go out, I live in regret of what my life would have been if I had spent all I amassed in 6 years well. I am a low-life now. At times, I eat Eba and egusi at local restaurants. It hardly exceeeds 250 naira due to my budget. At times, after eating, I would imagine the kind of food I would have eaten if I saved all the money I made. When I wear torn or patched clothes out, and I see my mates well-dressed and glowing, I imagine the kind of designers clothes I could have been able to get with the money I raised overtime. When I visit people who have attractive interiors/houses, I begin to imagine how I would have had a house of mine with a sound system and flat screen T.V. All my dreams are dashed now till God knows when. I use an obsolete TECNO f2 whose 2000mhz battery has become so weak. I could have easily bought the new infinix zero8 if I had planned well. I remain downcast in sober reflection. Everything I see reminds me of my mistakes.

If i had graduated with my mates in 2015, maybe I would have got a good job by now and saved a lot for marriage, if not for the 'demonic bet9ja virtual' i was introduced to that year. Imagine if I had bought a firman generator with that money as well as dstv for comfort at home with mama. Mama would have been proud. I wouldn't have to pay 50 naira to watch football outside. I feel less human and like one unable to think for himself. Maybe staying humbled will help me overcome.

Well... I hope to update you guys again by the beginning of November on my progress. I set a target of 6 months without gambling for my renaissance.

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Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by Nobody: 6:51pm On Oct 02, 2020
ChildOfDoom:
I am 28 years old but betting has pushed my life back to when I was just 16 years with nothing. That was when i just finished secondary school. No babe, no investment, no house of my own, no proper qualification, no decent clothing, nothing. When ever I go out, I live in regret of what my life would have been if I had spent all I amassed in 6 years well. I am a low-life now. At times, I eat Eba and egusi at local restaurants. It hardly exceeeds 250 naira due to my budget. At times, after eating, I would imagine the kind of food I would have eaten if I saved all the money I made. When I wear torn or patched clothes out, and I see my mates well-dressed and glowing, I imagine the kind of designers clothes I could have been able to get with the money I raised overtime. When I visit people who have attractive interiors/houses, I begin to imagine how I would have had a house of mine with a sound system and flat screen T.V. All my dreams are dashed now till God knows when. I use an obsolete TECNO f2 whose 2000mhz battery has become so weak. I could have easily bought the new infinix zero8 if I had planned well. I remain downcast in sober reflection. Everything I see reminds me of my mistakes.

Well... I hope to update you guys again by the beginning of November on my progress

First thing first.

Forgive yourself and concentrate on being happy with the little things that comes your way.
Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by Freestainworld(m): 7:15pm On Oct 02, 2020
Gambling is a very strong addiction, somehow I was able to deal with it in a very positive manner, just stay away from gambler's
Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by Sapiosexuality(m): 7:22pm On Oct 02, 2020
Keep it up, bro. I love the spirit. The topic got me scared but the content calmed me. Please, keep it up. Three months is good but forever is better.

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Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by CAPSLOCKED: 7:39pm On Oct 02, 2020
ChildOfDoom:
It's been 3 months without gambling. From july to september ending. Miraculous! I should be happy for my progress, but I am not. 6 years of bet9ja addiction, has already destroyed me beyond repair. If you see me now, i look unkempt. I hardly take care of my body and health. My body deserves to suffer for my years of foolishness. I am always distraught and disillusioned. I will let you in on reasons why I will never forgive myself....

HOW FAR?
I GET SURE CORRECT SCORES FOR YOU.
YOU FIT SELL YOUR PHONE STAKE AM, E GO COME.

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Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by Nobody: 8:13pm On Oct 02, 2020
CAPSLOCKED:


HOW FAR?
I GET SURE CORRECT SCORES FOR YOU.
YOU FIT SELL YOUR PHONE STAKE AM, E GO COME.

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Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by sKeetz(m): 8:40pm On Oct 02, 2020
CAPSLOCKED:


HOW FAR?
I GET SURE CORRECT SCORES FOR YOU.
YOU FIT SELL YOUR PHONE STAKE AM, E GO COME.


grin grin grin grin grin

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Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by JIMMY1393: 8:45pm On Oct 02, 2020
ChildOfDoom:
Just from January to June this year alone, I raised nothing less than 600,000 naira. This same period people were crying of no funds. I raised such huge amount and squandered it. I got the funds from:

1) I made 150000 naira alone convincing students to write WASSCE at my work place. There was the usual commission for bringing candidates. I inflated the enrollment figures to get more. I made a lot from a lady in Germany who wanted to write the exam in absentia.
2) I was among the lucky citizens that got the covid-19 relief money from the federal government. A whooping 250,000 naira was given to me
3) I got 50,000 naira from don jazzy during his lockdown giveaway
4) I made 50000 from January to March engaging tirelessly in teaching WASSCE and UTME classes.
5) I luckily got 50,000 naira from Cubana chief priest on live video in Instagram
6) I got 10,000 naira from helen paul after getting her trivia question.

Hmm. The aforementioned and many more was lost to bet9ja virtual. All my sweat and time squandered at betshops. I could have used those funds to kickstart my life. With betting, we are slaves to our addiction. Now all source of making good money is dried up. They took my labour and joy

The covid-19 relief fund is a loan which you would still pay back so if you've squandered it on nothing meaningful then oyo
Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by Nobody: 9:09pm On Oct 02, 2020
life has given u another chance...try make the right choices from now on u go dey okay bro
Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom: 2:44am On Oct 03, 2020
Disturb:
Novice.22
he is unwilling to tow my path.
Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom: 7:44am On Oct 03, 2020
chatinent:
I never gamble because I see no reason to begin anticipating to win millions with few hundreds.

Don't be sad, bro.

Just move on.
'move one' is something i should have done since I lost my first 15,000 to betting. I was adviced then. Had I listened........

By the way, happy to know you are contented. You have no idea what desperation has done to me and many youths
Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom: 12:01pm On Oct 03, 2020
Madibah:
Bet kills faster than Corona
I Know I'm a gangster right from the hood
But bet isn't in my agenda
Bet is crazy
Bet has more addiction than caffeine
very addictive. One can do whatever it takes (both genuine and dubious means) to make money to gamble. Only masturbation comes close
Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom: 3:38pm On Oct 03, 2020
Zzor:
You are not over it until you forgive yourself,dust everything off and start over again,don't condemn yourself when God hasn't.Some experience are needed for a better tomorrow,your strength now is you not going back to it, my prayers are with you.You shall be great,also find something meaningful and engage in it so as to take most of your time.You are only weak when you submit to your weakness and allow it overwhelm you.Get up and do the needful.May God guide you right
yes o. I don't wanna go back to that life again. I will rather gift the little I have to someone than gamble with it and be under the spell of betting again. Thanks for your concern
Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom: 11:37pm On Oct 03, 2020
JOACHINpedro:

Posting it on this section means you're not serious
hmm.. This was the section I started from
Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by bobokeshington: 11:55pm On Oct 03, 2020
ChildOfDoom:
It's been 3 months without gambling. From july to september ending. Miraculous! I should be happy for my progress, but I am not. 6 years of bet9ja addiction, has already destroyed me beyond repair. If you see me now, i look unkempt. I hardly take care of my body and health. My body deserves to suffer for my years of foolishness. I am always distraught and disillusioned. I will let you in on reasons why I will never forgive myself....

HAPPY FOR YOU. IT IS NOT EASY TO BREAK AWAY FROM ADDITION ESPECIALLY GAMBLING
Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by samso247(m): 1:02am On Oct 04, 2020
I will only start saying something, when you change your moniker.. Childof Doom... Don't forget Death and life are in the power of the tongue.. B careful the names u usually call ur sef. It matters.

Life is spiritual
Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom: 7:50am On Oct 04, 2020
Disturb:
come give me the jazz wey you take de win this giveaways..

⅛ of that and my life don change
giveaways are very hard o. It requires lots of begging, vigilance (data on 24/7) and activeness on different celebrities pages. Only 1 out of 10 works out. Since then I am yet to win again sad
Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom: 12:38pm On Oct 04, 2020
Akamariner:


First thing first.

Forgive yourself and concentrate on being happy with the little things that comes your way.
Hmm. I try to stay placated now by immersing myself in my job and getting a stronger addiction (junk food and porn). Because if I get idle, I get sober and hate myself
Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by Nobody: 1:18pm On Oct 04, 2020
ChildOfDoom:
Hmm. I try to stay placated now by immersing myself in my job and getting a stronger addiction (junk food and porn). Because if I get idle, I get sober and hate myself

That is right, but porn is another dangerous addiction that will destroy your brain cell, junk food inclusive. what about getting an interesting book to read, do it constantly and you will soon be addicted to reading.
Albeit stick to interesting motivational books like think and grow rich by napoleon hill. I think i woun't recommend another, you can get that on pdfdrive . com for free.

Do it and do me a favour by letting me know when you have. Ok?
Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by Nobody: 1:30pm On Oct 04, 2020
Disturb:
Novice22
kiloshele
Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by Nobody: 1:40pm On Oct 04, 2020
ChildOfDoom:
he is unwilling to tow my path.
tow which path......

betting is the highest scam as long as am concerned and i have decided to follow the step of hardlife.

congratulation though for staying off it for 90 days.....

I strongly believe anything mastered can be unlearn.
Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by div111(m): 2:15pm On Oct 04, 2020
ChildOfDoom:
yes o. I don't wanna go back to that life again. I will rather gift the little I have to someone than gamble with it and be under the spell of betting again. Thanks for your concern

Righteousness89, charlyg1 come and deliver this one f
Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by JOACHINpedro: 3:44pm On Oct 04, 2020
ChildOfDoom:
Hmm. I try to stay placated now by immersing myself in my job and getting a stronger addiction (junk food and porn). Because if I get idle, I get sober and hate myself
from frying pan to fire

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