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Wow. Love d spirit. I share her passion. She dressed well nw why saying we shud see wat she wore

Days later they called again nd invited me home. I kept promising to go bac. Bt I kno I wudnt. I missed dem bt I can't face dem. I felt I was truly harsh making dem miss me all dez yrs. Sam kept persuading I visit. He also wanted to meet dem bt I told him am nt ready for another marriage. I wud quit our rship wen he finds anoda girl to marry. He jst smiled scoffed nd dint say anytin.
Weeks ltr d kids went on vacation. Sam came to my house one day nd gave me some tickets. It was for flight to my state for me him nd d three kids. I was unprepared for dat kinda stuff. D kids were excited. To travel o. They wudnt understand, even George who had been on my side all dez while was thrilled bout it. They l joined voices saying "plsssssss". I felt like hitler. I agreed to d travel nd we all went. We lodged in a hotel. Sam nd d kids had shopped for us so we were almost all wearing same type nd style of cloths, Everyone dat saw us said, "wow U have a lovely family" "I wish I had a family like urs" it was so embarrassing. More becos Sam kept saying "Really?? Tnx"" it dint move me I jst looked at dem nd continued wat I was doing. My mind was occupied at d type of family reunion I wud meet. D nxt day I nd my two kids started preparing to visit my house, Sam started preparing too. Ah ah? Where re u going? I asked him. "Ah ah?" He mimicked me "where did we com to go??" Tot I was going alone. He sed I dint need to go alone dat he was there to protect me. "Dey don't kno u. Who am I going to tel dem u are??" I protested. "Who am I ?" Hm! I stopped preparing nd sat down, I haven't told my family about him. I wasn't taking him as serious as he was taking me. Again I dint want to hurt his feelings. "If u don't want me to come I'll stay bac, it's nt a big deal. He said nd started removing his clothes. I felt bad cos he looked hurt. I thought since I don't care wat my family wud tink bt I care about him let him com wt me just dat I don't want him to be there nd I introduced him as JUST FREND. He was alredy pouting like a baby. I told him dat it's ok let's go togeda. He refused nd lay down on d bed. I had to go thru apologizing explaining nd persuading for him to grudgingly start preparing again. Men!

TheSonOfMark:
About your profile picture: Are you a WELDER?

Sonofmark, why do u ask??

Baddo101:
Hmmm.. D conclusion i can draw frm this is that most ladies and men who are no longer virgins has d tendency to cheat or be unfaithful even when married especially if dia spouse is not up to dia level in sexuality.

Yea because they hav tasted a lotta fruits including d juicy ones. Dats why u hav to test bfo buying. Jst being blunt. Bt dats true.

Baddo101:
So if he doesnt satisfy u. u call it quit and move on to d next guy??

I call it quit? Marriage is nt a reading patner or roommate rship u kno?

Yes I can. Actually I hav. But he started behaving funny nd doing shakara so I left him

Baddo101:
So if he doesnt satisfy u. u call it quit and move on to d next guy??

Yep. Beta dan marrying him nd ltr cheating cos I am not ok wt him

Ayo199:
bt der are several qualities u wud want ur husband to hv in whch dz one is just part of it..wud u prefer to hv a man gud only in dz aspect and bad in other aspects?

No one sed it has to b d ONLY quality. It just has to be one of dem

Ayo199:
dats against d will of God..btw y wud u tink he wont satisfy u

I dint say I think. U put on seatbelt even though u don't tink u wud hv an accident, right?

pbs4real:
u luk cute

Tnx. Lol

Wen u feel like having sex it's natural jst like oda feelings nd involuntarily. Wen u think of having sex of fantasize it, u sin

Delta tins

.... I came out to meEt him as he came to take d kids to sch nd told him I needed to see him. He smiled as usual nd asked if I'd com ova or he shud return I told him I wil go ova to his house. I always felt uncomfortable having him ova cos my place was...kinda.... Smal shaa. I went. Nd we talkd. I told him I was sory for d break nd evry oda tin I loved him bt I stil hav sometin for my husband. He was kinda surprised. "Ur married" I nodded. "U tink my kids are bstds?" "Nop bt I tot u were widowed separated or sometin" "well ...." I hesitated" its a long story" I ended. " Look here swt, I excused mysef frm work today nd d kids won't b bac till noon. I hav all d time in d world... Jst let it go. Wat happend.. Dats if u wish to talk about I oo". Den I told him my story. I told him d whole truth nd d way evrytin happend up till wen I met him nd after dat up till dat moment. D story of my marriage nd single motherhood. Wen I finished nd looked up he had tears in his eyes as I did. He dint com to console me. He jst sat. Nd jst sed "am soryy" like three times. "But its well, wat about ur mum nd siblings" he asked after I calmed nw "wen last did u speak wit dem?" "I call my sister from time to time up till last year wen her numba stopped going. Probably she lost d line" " and all d time u neva spoke to ur mum" He sounded accusing nd disappointed. well, sometimes wen I called my sister she wanted to speak to me bt I always cut d call nd dey wudnt call me bac cos d numba is always hidden.... I dint kno wat to say to her nd I dint want to hear wat she wud say bfo she asks me to go bac to my husband. I jst asked my sis hw hey were, told her we were fine weneva she asked me where we were. The calls were neva mor dan a minute. Dats hw bad it was. Nd I told him. Long silence... Den he sed "Well am nt here to judge u. U had every right to be angry wt dem nd be sad d way u are bt permit me to say it was a lil bit too harsh. They dint ruin ur life dearie u did. U ran from ur problem instead of attacking it. U cud hav started a new life witout ur husband bt wt anoda person. Not all men aree like dat. Am sory u had to go tru all dat wit one man bt its nt always lik dat. Its well ok?. He went on nd on wit d sermon about life. I jst sat nd nodded. Den he came ova nd placed one arm on my shoulder. "I want yu to do sometin for me" he sed sexily. Bt I knew wat he meant. He cudnt be talking about sex right nw. I winced. "I don't kno if I can do it" "yes u can he encouraged. " I don't tink so it has been so long... I can't". He shook my shoulders, raised my head to look at him "Yu can" he sed into my eyes. "I don't even hav their numbers anymore. My sisters number was d only one I had off hrt bt it doesn go tru anymore" he chuckled "I don't bliv u" "its been seven yrs!" I resisted "Yes I kno. Bt It can't be true. U must hav anoda number u remember. Esp ur husband's. Am sorry I mentioned him. Bt jst check". Bt bfo dat... I missed u". Now ur talking!! At last I hugeed him nd tore off his clothes. Gush its been long. "I missed u too" I murmured inbetween nd devoured him..... I am bac!

Honestly I had no oda numba frm hom to call bt he suggested hw I cud get dem. We tried my brothers' facebook pages den got one number. I called it. He picked bt I cudnt talk. It was on d third trial dat he guessed my name "is dat u sis?" He asked "Yes" I answered. "Sis ur wicked! Ur heartless! U seriously hav no human sympathy in u. I wonder if we were siblinGs! Blah blah blah!" I just held d fon I cudnt move. I started crying. Dat was wen Sam took d fon frm me nd switched it off. So I was den d prodigal daughter only dat I was rejected. Some hours later I got a text from d number sayin I AM SORRY. I WILL CALL LAteR. I toldx Sam I cudnt answer d call bt he encouraged me. The call came nd wen I answered it was my younger sis. She was delighted to hear from me she was even crying dat they tot I was dead. Den anoda voice came on nd it was my mum. I greeted her. She shouted my name. After rejoicing for a while she started apologising. Dat I neva gave her d chance to apologise for rejecting me nd trying to force me on my husband. It was on Speakout so Sam confirm d story I told him. She sed she missed me nd had always regreted her actions. She wanted me bac. They all spoke wit me. Odas were in school so I spoke wit five of dem including my mum. They asked me where I was nd if I was cominG home or they shud visit. Sam signaled to say I was coming home which I did. They asked of George alone. Guess they neva blived Mirah Lived. I told dem I was sorry nd I wud contact dem if I was coming bac. because I dint hide d number mum pleaded I shudnt sqitch off my fon so dat they cud call from time to time. She was starting to say somtin else wen my broda hushed her nd cut d call. I was short oF words. Was I really going home. Sam was smiling at me. "Weldone he sed" I dint kno wat to feel. I just hugged him in appreciation. "Thank you" I sAid quietly. "I love yu".....TBC

pbs4real:
are u sure?

Any oda idea?

.... I continued my sad life. Started taking d children to nd from sch. Bt because I was scared of meeting him in sch I dint go close. I always dropped dem near d scool nd sent a taxi to get dem after school. It continued for two months. I got worried nt because I missed sam bt cos I felt I still hav somtin for my husband Ralph. I missed him too. D good times we had nd all d nice tins he did for me nd my family bfo he changed. I always prayed for him nd wished tins hadn't gone wrong. I tot about wat sam said about me moving on nd to stop hurtin mysef bt I wasn't ready. I kno it sounds crazy bt I was comfortable wit d sadness lonliness nd no FAF life. The kids shared my reason nd dint bother me much about their uncle sam. George always hushed his sister if she wanted to nd I adored him for dat. He looked jst like his dad,

One day I decidded to go pick dem mysef. I just wanted to see if I wud see him nd ask hw he was doing bt hhe dint com. Someone else had been picking his boy. I asked d man hw he was nd why he dint com. But all I go was "I don't kno ma" ha! "Is he around?" I asked. He sed yes. "Is he feeling well?" He sed yes. "Ok o. Bt don't bother telling him someone asked of him. Am his son's teacher nd I wanted to kno why someone else was picking him. The man left like I was alredy wasting his time. I tot ok if he was comfortable keeping away, why won't I be? I tot he was stil outta town nd that was why he dint look for me. So I stayed on my own

One sunday I decided to go to church. Its been a long time I sought God. After church we were waiting for cab. Suddenly my kids left my hands and started running. I ran after dem to see where they were going they were nt even answering as I called. I looked up nd saw Sam nd Danny his son! Oh no! Nt here! I wasn't prepared. I stared for a long time. I dint kno weda to be sorry angry surprised happy or wat I jst stood. Nd jst like him he was smilling bt deliberately nt saying anytin, jst Hugging nd pecking d kids. I forgot hw dat felt. I talked fist after parying nd waiting for him to do it. "Hi. Its been so long..." I sed weakly. "Really? I dint kno u wud notice. Hw hav u been swt" swt? I tot he was mad at me. I nodded d fine.he was chatting wit dem nd All of dem started strolling towards d car naturally. I was not existing. I tried calling d kids bt they dint answer. Wen we got to d car. I told him I nd d kids wud prefer taking a cab home. He smiled still nd sed I cud take d cab nd he wud jst drop d kids home nd leave. Wit dat they got in. George wanted to com down nd folo him bt I nodded he shud stay. I dint hv d legs to go in. I dint want dis. I jst want my life to go on simply. Why does he kip stealling dez kids frm me?!? why can't things jst be simple! I got to my shabby house. Prepared food nd dished it. Bt d kids sed they won't eat dat Uncle sam promised to take dem out. Wat? Including me?". "No" jst me nd Mirah" he answred. I felt both gud nd disappointed. I dint go out wen he came. Nd wen they returned they had sometins for me. I jst typed a THANKS text to him. On monday he texted dat he wud bring d kids bac. D next day same tin. SomEtimes he bot dem lunch so I dint hav to cook nd sometimes he took dem to his house bt he dint invite me nd I dint go. We comunicated thru text. It bcame unbearable. I needed to sort things out nd straighten facts out. Let's kno our stand nd why I can't be wit him.....

He is no longer my partner ooo. Wat shal it profit us if we both die?

He said. Swthrt plssss I don't wanna get hurt can u Do dat for me? Am scared

lorettafrancis:
I really need someone to look into my eyes and tell me romantic stuffs like''honey please manage this 10million naira''. What's the most romantic thing someone has ever said to you? I really need someone to look into my eyes and tell me romantic stuffs like''honey please manage this 10million naira''. What's the most romantic thing someone has ever said to you?

Hahahahahahaa!!!! Oh men! EvEn dangote can't do dat gurl!

Breaking up wit me.... I kinda liked his quiet nd responsible way of life bt he dint trust me nd dat hurt

Xiana:
Guys are great liers

Seconded!! So true

I was wit mum nd she hates night calls

Dat he told his uncle nd mum am JUST A FREND because if he told dem am special they wud rush him to wed me... Biatch!

Freegud:
after getting all this without child, long life nd peace of mind (what make's it perfect)

Is it wen u marry a poor short guy dat kids are sure to com?

Pls. Oooo wats wrong wit wanting a tall rich guy wit a secured place of work nd a fat bankk acct? If a tall handsome alredy made guy dat works in shell nd obviously has a fat seven figure acct balance shud com my way I shud bullshit him for a five figure earner in a private sch or shaky firm? Make una free girls oo abeg.

Vivly:
I want a tall muscular guy with a fat bank account living in a well set house and having a fat bank account from his place of work.
Thanks.

Move on baby! Lol. Wonder if its a crime

...He later came by to visit me. Sed he was sorry nd we shud continue like bfo. My kids were all ova him nd he refuSed to go till I agreed. I told him it was unsafe to be spending much time in his house. Den he promised to keep away nd let's jst be like broda nd sister. They went hom nd we started visiting him again. But we rarely slpt ova. Tins were moving on well. But bfo I knew it I fell again.

It started one rainy day. We were at his house wen it started raining heavily till 7pm. We decided to sleep ova. The kids laid down in d visitor's room nd it was awkward of me sleeping in d sitting room so I slept in his room, maintaining a decent space. Three tins contributed to wat happened dAt nyt. I started feeling cold. I was heavily sex-starved. Nd a well built willing nd able man was lying down beside me. But den I was d one who made d rules. I turned to face him nd turned back. As I turned to face him again he was staring at me. Wit a wicked grin on his face. I was frying by den about to burst. He helped me by jst touching my face. Dat was it I jumped ova him kissing madly. As I was opening his PJ he stilled my hands. "Babe pls let's nt do wat we r goina regret later pls. I love d way we are right nw" "it doesn't mata. It won't change anytin" I promised. He told me to jst lie down nd rest on his chest which I did. I felt like I was in labor. My whole body was in pains bt I jst lay down nd he jst held m wasit nd my shoulder smooching lightly. As I wAs about to faint I called him "Sam" "yes swt" he answered "Please...." I started bt he dint wait for me to finish..."Come here" He rushed my PJ off as I did his, it was faster dan d first, hot nd satisfying. He was strong nd swt. He was almost healed by den bt his legs still disturbed bt he did jst fine. We went rounds after rounds dat nyt after which We became lovers. I cudnt jst get enof. Seems I hav been in bondage nd was jst released. Its been more dan five yrs since I had a kiss nt to talk of sex so I was jst greedy about it as was he.

I went for an official trip for one whole week nd he looked after d kids. I called every nyt jst like a married woman. Wen I returned I felt lilke My life was back. We neva quarrelld. Cos I wasn't used to nagging nd he knew wen to keep quiet. He dint ask questions about me nd I loved dat. We jst avoided topics about our pasts. He had alredy told me pArt of his time to time bt I dint pay interest.
One night after such bliss he sed he loved me nd he asked me if I loved him. I kept quiet for a long time nd said yes. He kiissed my forehead. Again he asked if I trusted him of course I don else I won't trust u wit my kids. He sed "I want to ask u sometin." My hrt flipped "wats it" "its sometin personal" I alredy knew wat it was so I kept quiet. He removed my head frm where it lay on his chest nd made me face him. "I want to be part of ur life. I want to have all of u bt ur holding bac a lot. I jst wish to kno wat happend to such an angel to make her so crushed. I want to kno about u, ur family nd ur past. Pls quit locking ursef up nd open up swt. I love u nd I want to kno u" "U don't nid to. I can't" "please" he pleadded. I flared up " if u don't like me d way I am den let's quit it. I am me nd dats jst me. No past no family no Story. Got it? If ur done wit dis or if u can't do dis witout a story. Jst lemme kno. Am donne wit dis conversation". He jst stared. I was standing alredy. He heaved a sigh shruggled nd sed finally "Its ok if u don't wanna talk about it. Come sit" but I was alredy hurt. My old wounnd had reopened. " Am out of here I sed nd turned to leave. He grabbed me faster dan I tot a sick person cud. I was alredy on d floor bfo I knew it. I was kinda scared wen he stArted kiising me hot. I tried to push him away bt he kept on. He tore my shirt open nd continued kissing. I got really scared. My hands dat he held open were paining me my lips must be bleeding nd my legs ached. I saw Ralph's face nd memories gushed in... Horrible ones. Tears started rolling den he stopped "U kno d difference btw we men? Some know wen to stop nd wen to continue. Some hav respect for their ladies. Some don't. Nd some can't bear to see diz tears from a lady while some bring dem out. Some are in love odas lust. Nd wen a man ddoes sometin wrong all d men folk don't hAv to pay for it. If a man loves u,d least u can do is trust him nt to hurt u. Wat differentiates us is dat we are nt all d same. There is no way all men in d whole world cud be d same. D earlier u get dat d beta for ur hrt. Stop hurting ursef nd get a life. I neva meant to rape u. I was jst trying to demonstrate wat I had to say. Am sorry if I hurt u ......" He stood up nd drew me up to seat on d couch. " U can let ursef out ltr... See u.. Weneva." Nd he stormed out. I had neva seen him angry bfo bt he was vibrating as he walked out. Later in d day he sent me a text saying he was sorry. I dint reply. I switched off my fon nd cried for days. After some day I swiTched on my fon nd a text came in. It red... "It ok if u don't wanna see me again. I tried to show u wat I felt for u bt it seems I was pouring water on a rock. Ur alredy shattered nd u don't wish to be mended. Sorry for interrupting. Pls move on wi ur life d way u feel is best. I wish u luck nd God bless u. I went outta town nd I don't kno wen I'll be back. Pls my regards to d kids tel dem I love dem..... P.S- Nd weda u belive it or nt I Loved You nd I tink I still do. Take care Sam

.... "Why ar u so sad darling?" He sed most earnestly "why are u punishing ursef so much? Wat eva happened in d past isn't worth u choosing to be dis unhappy all d days of ur youthn why nt let go??" "Yo won't understand" I replied weakly " if u kno wat I av seen in dis life u won't ask me to go out there and mix up wit d world, I don't want to talk about it" "u don't nid to talk about anytin I kno he hurt u. I kno u went tru hell wit him I kno u feel rejected nd alone in dis world bt ur stil Alive nd u hav kids to show for it, why nt let go". But I reAlised I dint want to let go. I was jst ok being sad nd alone. I needed a new life wit my kids ALONE. " Do u still love him? Sam asked. I jst stared. He repeated d qst. I cudnt reply. I suddenly realised d reasson I cudnt let go. We remained silent til his friend came bac wit d kids. We went home. I resumed work nd got a query. D kids resumed sch. After bringing dem bac frm sch we usually went to check on Sam cos his friend goes to work. At a point we had to Be sleeping ova cos I was d one taking care of his wounds nd it was stressful going nd coming frm my house. Things were moving fine though tensed. Time came for his broken leg to be rearranged. I took excuse from work nd I went wit him. It was so painful. He cried like a kid nd constantly hid his face in my bosssom. I took him hom nd held him. He was stil wincing nd uncomfortable. He cudnt eat he cudnt relax. I had an idea to make him relax bt dint kno if it was advisable. We were sitting on his bed nd his head was on my chest I was astride nd he sat btw my legs. I decided to console him by pecking his forehead bt he raised his head nd our lips met. He dint kiss me he jst held my head nd gazed into my eyes. I was uncomfortable so I moved. Bt dat was a msitake it pressed my lips to his nd he seized it.

It was warm. It was passionate. It was slow. I had been starved so u cud guess hw savagely it was. He was groaning I was moaning. We were both hungry. It happened like a magic bt lemme skip d details ( dis is nt d site for it, sorry). We had a long hot nd amazing sex...... I was surprised hw he cud go for it while hurt ( men!). Wen we were tru, I came down nd he laid back, spent. He slept. I went to d palor nd cried mysef out. Hw cud I do dis. Hw cud I let a man enjoy me again? Hw cud I enjoy mysef as if notin happened.

I dint check on him again until I brot d kids bac. They went to his room to greet him. He sent them to call me bt I cudnt face him again I felt ashamed nd cheap. I dint even use protection. I told d kids to tel him I wud com bac in d evening. He called my fon bt I dint pik. D next day I called his frend to tell him I can't get excuse from work again. Dat my boss was fed up wit my constant absense from work nd was threatening me. So we dint see for two days. I switched off my fon nd was bac to my sad sorrowful nd lonely world wit my kids

... As I was roaming d street I saw them squatting in front of a shop crying. This was about 2am! I felt relief anger shock pity fear nd different emotions at a time. I took dem hom in tears. They cudnt even talk they were both cold nd hungry. I mysef was too angry to eat for days. Hw cud I allow a man to do dis kind otin to me again? It was all because I threw my life at him. I trusted him. I took care of my kids for the rest of d week I dint go to work they dint go to school. The younger one was even sick wt fever nd cold. On sunday I decided to go to church jst to say thank yu to God after which I shal continue wt my malice wt him. After mass we came home nd met a jeep in front of my house, sam was inside in d back seat while anoda guy was in d drivers seat! He cudnt even com out. I dint kno weda to eat him raw or fry him bfo eatin. I finally jst stood nd let d tears roll. His friend tried to console me bt d tears turnd to sobs nd d sobs to wail nd den I was crying bitterly. The oda man tried to calm me down immediately he touched me I went into rage. I slapped him heavily nd pushed him away. I opened d car, grabbed sam frm d car as he hadn't even com down so I dragged him down. To my utmost surprise he fell right down wit no resistance. I stopped hitting him nd saw he was wearing POP on his neck nd bandages on his limbs. I stood stunned. He was crying too. His frend started explaining hw he had an accident three days ago on his way frm work n was unconsciius since den. He jst woke ds morning nd insisted he was brot to my place. (Skipping so many details) I entered d car wt d kids nd we went to his house. D place looked beatiful. We carried him in his wheel chair to d palor. D friend left to get some tins nd d kids went wit him. Wen we were alone he sed he was sorry nd asked me wat happend dat day. I cudnt explain in order nt to bring bac d agony. I told him nt to explain wat happened let bury d hatchet. We stayed silent for a long time.I dint kno wen I started weeping again. Den he drew his wheel closer to me nd held my hand nd was caressing d bac of my hands....

.... Well I shouted at him as I was scared alredy. I warned him to lay off my kids or I wud report to d police. He jst kept smiling each tym I was raking. I hated his guts.he found out my kids were my weaknes nd started coming tru dem buying dem tins droppin dem off frm sch wit his own kid. And By d tym d term went tru my kids had alredy started calling him Uncle Sam nd dat made him more irritating to me!
One day I agreed to go out wit him nd d kids. While they were playing nd I sat down wit him. He started telling me hw his ex wife walked out on him nd his son nd he has been scared to lov again bt as soon as he saw me he got a feeling dat he shud be frends wit me... I allowed him to land bfo I quietly nd politely told him to lay off me nd my kids. I told him I hated him d first day we saw nd I dint want to hav anytin wit him. He is annoying me by creating a connection wit my kids. Dat he shud do me a favor by separating frm me nd my kids. I ttok my kids nd left. He kept a distance for a while. Bt d kids kept bugging me about him at a ppoint I told dem he had stopped coming so they started sulking bt they soon got ova it cos I was nt bulging. I cudnt allow any oda man hurt me or my kids. We went bac to our lives. On d xmas party I went wt d kids nd was watchin dem dance. I hrd somone say hi nd turned to see him. Aagain!!! My smile dried up. I ignored him but He kept on rattlingabout his life problems, hw he loved his kid wit his life, his occupation nd everytin bout him. I wasn't listening. I was jst praying for time to rush so I cud leav, until suddenly we hrd a shout. My son George had sprained his ankle nd hit his head on d play slide while fighting wit anoda kid, I wasn't looking cos I wasn't concentrating. I got hysterical, we rushed him to a hospital bt he dint regain consciousness. I was prepared to commit suicide if he died. I neva knew I was narrating my ordeals in life while I was waailing.shoting hw hrtless life has treated me nd threatening to burn d world if I lost dis boy. I cried truout d nyt bt mr sam was wit me all tru. I refused to let my daughter out of my sight so he went home nd brought us food nd blankets. George came around d nxt evening but had to use crutches. Wen I went to kno wat our bill was they told me Mr sam had alredy paid it. I thanked him nd he took us home. For d first tym I invited him insde. We talked into d night. He sed he hrd all I was saying at d hospital dat I shud open uP to him,I dint say anytin. He sed I shud stil trust God who neva fails. I shud trust him dat he won't hurt me or my kids. I told him I was a divorcee nd dats all. I dint nid anyone. He said he wanted to be close bt I told him I can't bt he sed he won't giv up till I see him for who he truly was. wat kind of wahala is dis. He came twice daily to check on my son brought us provisions nd played wit them (that was a relieve as we were sooo broke) The more I told him I shall neva hav anytin to do wit a man the closer he came to us. My hrt was alredy locked so I decided to be enjoying d money nd ignored him. He was d one picking d kids frm sch everyday, helped goerge wit his health nd helped me wit d bills nd food. So I bcame free wit d kids. Until One day I went home nd d kids were nt ther I called him he dint pic. I died a hundred times. Wat hav I done to my sef. I knew dis man was danger frm wen I met him. I searched d sch d church our streets until midnight av nt still found my kids nd because of my stubborness I dint kno where he lived nd he neva offeerd to tel me cos I hardly allowed him into my house till d incident..... I had no close person to cry to, my neighbours jst gave their sympathy nd went bc inside. I was jst roaming d streets alone weeping and wAiling at dat nyt looking for d only tins dat kept me moving, I was lost in my predicament....... TBC

She started complaining hw my kids ate a lot. If I had money for dis or dat. I Neva sed anytin until my sis visited home wit her kid nd I was asked to move frm my room for her I refused nd hell was let loose. I reminded her hw she was d one dat pushed me to marry Ralph. D nxt day mum askd me to either o bac nd beg my husband or find were to go. I was expecting dat so I called my roommate wen in sch nd asked if I cud leave my kids wit her for a while to sort mysef out. She agreed nd we moved out during d weekend despite my siblings plea to ignore our mum. I left my kids wit christy nd went to anoda state far from my state I squatted in d Catholic Church boys quarters until I found a private N/P sch dat pays enof money to at least pay house rent nd feed my kids

I went nd collected my kids nd we started life anew. I was a sad lonely lady. Who was mad at d whole male gender. Weneva I went to seek for job nd the proprietor was a man I left d job. I had so much hatred for men dat I wished my two kids were girls. I was angry at life generally. My only source if joy was seeing my kids sef nd far from doz dat caused me misery. I switched of my line nd was like lost to d world. Sometimes I used hidden lines to speak wit my siblings maybe on Xmas nd birthdays bt u Neva went home for five yrs. No one in my area knew me I lived a simple life. Had no friends safe fo few neighbors nd colleagues at work who I dint allow close enof to visit. My kids knew jst me nd I knew jst dem. they were going to public schools nd wore jst okrika clothes. So were we feeding frm hand to mouth nd content wit wat we had till one day as I was bringing dem bac frm school some church crusade people stopped their vehicle beside me to invite me. I was in a haste nd was trying to let dem kno I won't visit their programme as I hardly go to church. Another man frm behind me collected d tract nd told me "we shall com u guys can leave as u can see she is in a haste nd he whiskd me away. I thanked him nd he wanted to introduce himself bt I left him. He persisted nd offerd to take us home, That made me stop a taxi nd told him to speed us. Luckily Mr whoeva dint folo us. On returning to pik d kids d nxt day I saw him bt weneva he tried talking to me I jst passed him nd Neva spoke to him... On d Friday after dat I went to pik my kids bt d teacher sed their uncle Samuel alredy took dem I shouted at d teacher nd threatend to kill her personally if they were nt at hom. I reached d gate nd saw mr whoeva smiling at me at d gate..... Wt my kids alredy in his car..... TBC