YoungandDepress: I know the sins of my past are catching up with me. Karma is hitting me from all directions. I see my mates riding nice cars, living in their rented apartment, I cry.
Most of my classmates I finished secondary school with are now responsible graduates and here I am, stuck in 200level.
I see them in the street and I hide myself in shame and disgrace because I can't answer the catching up questions.
I still ask 500 naira from my parents just to go out.
I stayed through out the month of June without earning even one thousand naira by myself.
Sometimes I curse the day I was born and why I came through a mid level family and not a rich family.
God has abandoned me. I can't remember the last time I prayed. Not that I even care now. I am turning into an atheist because of my frustrations.
Sometimes I think why not just die and end it all, I mean we are all going to die one day so what is the point, but then I think of my family and the shame it will bring upon them and at the same time I think what if I die and heaven and hell is real. It's funny how the thought of hell keeps me going and trying to do good with my life when I don't really believe in God anymore.
Safe to say, my suicidal tendencies are very low to non existent but I hope I have the courage to keep pushing. I hope one day, I just don't loose it completely.
Even my phone I am using to type this has a damaged screen which I'm half managing but it is what it is, I have no funds to fix it and no relative to help.
I mean I'm just here watching the days go by, taking evening walks around the neighborhood and thinking how my life would have been if I didn't mess it up or did all these happen to me so I can be a testimony to others if life decides to smile on me? I have no idea.
I'M JUST A YOUNG, BROKE, MISERABLE AND DEPRESSED MAN.
I PRAY MY SOUL FINDS THE PEACE THAT IT DESPERATELY SEEKS.
I just wanted to table my emotions here and vent out all the frustrations in my head because I have no one to talk deep with me. I hope to find little relief and seek solace in the peace of others.
Lol I wish I was 23 all over again
Put that anger and effort into graduating with good grades.
Do not look at your friends or run away when you see them, comparison is a thief of joy and those you see forming as if they have got it sorted out, na lie ooooooo
Life na like Instagram, no one go show you where e dey bite am or as e dey suffer
I suggest you learn new skills on Udemy, develop yourself and you'll start earning.. Pick up excel and software Dev skills if you can
You have plenty of living ahead of you..slow down and allow yourself
Back then when guy man still dey game, I had only 5men as my cartel men which 3 are dead now, but I roll mostly with Vikings. you can hardly know. Even though there is hit with Vikings. We still dey post dey kpaf jmk. .
So, who get sense no dey fall him paddy because of frat or anything. they are some men you grow up with that frat can separate you guys. And to answer the other of your question about been forced to go kill. you can only be asked if you'll roll and not forced. because na odidi dey make hit unsuccessful.
weIMPORT: BBNaija housemate, Erica has opened up to Laycon that she is not in any way attracted to him physically, but mentally.
She made this known to the rapper during a discussion yesterday after he approached her to reiterate his interest in her.
Recall that Laycon had told Erica on Tuesday that he had feelings for her and cares about being in a relationship with her.
However, hours later, Erica and Kiddwaya had a steamy session in bed.
Seeking clarifications on Tuesday night, Laycon approached Erica to reveal her feelings for him.
During the conversation, Erica told Laycon that she is only mentally attracted to him but physically attracted to Kiddwaya.
Eric said:
“I’m mentally attracted to you but attracted to Kiddwaya physically. I’ve decided not to overthink anything with Kiddwaya ,I just want to be happy. Let’s just go back to how we were but I hate making others feel bad.”
saynotocultism: They came in 2010 silver colored Camry around 8 pm. They waited outside mapping me. I was at home with my colleague I was inside seeing everything . They where 4 in number and 3 came out of the vehicle and waited at the gate. I called for backup and took my son and wife to a safe place . Backup came in 30mins and waited at the exit of my estate. I took the back door and waited at the back of the silver camry they came in. One was inside waiting to zoom them off after killing me. My colleague opened the gate and they moved away from the gate . I then told backup to drive into my close and block the exit to my close. They entered into the camry and that was when i came out and shot the tires of the vehicle. searched their phones and saw my pictures. They came with 2 AKs and one PA and axes to take my head like kokoma. AGED between 19, 21, 20,24 . making useful confession. 3 more have been arrested this morning in lekki. The chat gave them out and my pictures. I have not been home in about 3 months as i do have my family join me at my lodge every weekend.
What exactly do these guys gain from this cultism thing?
Ambiitiouscent: Brother I think say na only me dey observe sef. More than 70% of the commenters here are active cultists looking for information.
Someone will just bring up a question about a specific hit, in a specific area and date, all man go begin answer the question dey drop details, dem no Dey reason sef say for person to ask about a specific hit, e get why!!
All man should be careful with the kind of details they drop here.
Some people like myself are just curious, e no get any why
If you mention details about hits, wetin go come happen? Na either the senseless cult bleeps* continue to kill each other based on that or actual readers learn and get sense and know not to join any of them cult groups
My mentor then during his saga He was the 2sm of that deck and they had Rs With Blue kHl also ...the thing is that Blue Hls go side Kman and 3 other lords ruggedly ,d kMan was in the hospital for 3 weeks and 1 Lord marroned,after e return he come hear say FC say may dem deck D RS ,and he was a crazy lord , and he was like wetin concern FC with Deck matters as long as BE never deck am , na so D Kman carry e 2mate plus 5 other lords go for fortification and He was that they have been priced and those HLs must pay ruggedly and he waited .. Those Blue Hls Thought Lords have forgotten about the issue ooo,Na so the. Kman took two lords with him and went to there IBk cove while the 2sm took 3LDS with him and went to the NGS cove .....the Ibaka nd his dove and the Ng and two other birds Gaii that very leg...After that no lords left deck oo,they were patiently waiting for the Blue Hl but they never came ,The Fc got to hear what lords did and black spotted the BE for disobeying him but lords nor gree oothem say if dem born the FC well make e Jazz deck say dem go BB am ,say when HL price, sshey dem want may lords dae look.. The Rs was later decked cos it was close to Examination and they settle but immediately after the Exam na so those Blue Hl echo BB for BE but Njh to Gp he survived but the Kman did something stupid that day that landed him in Singapore
For over two weeks, everywhere was quiet. We became suspicious of the silence. No hit, nothing. Axemen appeared to have gone into hibernation. All the ABC lords were unscrupulous at that point. To see us alone sef na war. Those who didn't sail away from deck were sailing with Rica's map in mind. Then one day, more than 7 axemen stormed Bucaneer terrain with sophisticated weapons. Na that day I know say death can look at you in the face and say "hello". That was when I knew that even the most rugged man I knew (Pablo the sailor) could still be afraid. The axemen were all dressed in black shirts and jeans. They also wore black shoes. They didn't look like Abraka boys (possibly external from Benin or Ekpoma). They had mapped the entire area very well and were moving from hostel to hostel to find us. E be like action film that day. The street was shaking. These men were not smiling. Even police officers were nowhere to be found. Their pump actions and other weapons nor be here. The funny thing was that Pablo ran away and left me in the room ALONE! My BAN father absconded when I needed him the most. Till today, I still don't know how he escaped so quickly. All the songs of ruggedity wey dem sing for am just vanish from my head that minute. All the promises of BDB, NPNP, B4B, everything just crumbled. It became all lords for themselves o. That was the moment I knew I was only going to became another name in a sally if Axemen maroon me that day and that is even if the SJ considers me worthy. I started to think of all the p*ssies I didn't even see. All the rumses that I haven't fully enjoyed. I never even learn Buccanneer OT finish and I was to become a score? I forgot about Grandpa and started praying to Jesus to save my soul...
airsaylongcom: So I deploy eTesting solutions. And I tell you for free that we have test run this and it worked. So the examinee is not looking at another screen. He's looking at his screen. But the computer he's using has two video outputs. The "mercenaries" will be seated directly opposite (or maybe even in another room) out of the view of the camera. Seeing exactly what the examiner us seeing.
As for the earpiece....see below.
This one pass me O..but the average guy won't go to this length though
airsaylongcom: So how will a webcam know if there are two Display units. One without a webcam where mercenaries are solving the questions and whispering the answers to the examinee via a wireless in-ear earpiece?
Wireless in ear earpiece can still be seen
I work with 2 monitors, there's no way you'll be looking at the other one and the person monitoring you won't notice
airsaylongcom: These kinds of exams are called "high stakes" exams as a lot depends on them. How can they ensure the integrity of the exams when there aren't centrally proctored?
You will have to use a pc with Webcam..someone will be monitoring all feeds and they'll be doing it in batches ..like Microsoft exams
Saltzman00: lol...buky boy never had any attributes of a sec man...even the way he talks would make u fall in love with him at first sight ...he eventually got into politics and was beheaded at Spain roundabout ...he was dragged down from his fathers 504 ...
Be like say cult boys dey every nook and cranny of this place..just passed some playing Eiye songs in public on their phone..and they were singing along
perestroika: Bukky Boy's name always popped up then in any fight involving Alora then. Any story about Temitope Olatoye Sugar, the member of HOR that was killed in Ibadan during the last guber election
Used to stay at Camp after UNAAB and was a well known 1 man Trouble then
KKVV: This is my only way of redemption... This is my story as a KK member and me being a part of a hit team that killed Akpo, a very strong and rugged axeman in crutech
Hmm
This one ? https://www.vanguardngr.com/2012/06/the-sad-end-of-a-student-leader-after-curious-invitation-to-lunch/
Saltzman00: eiye no go ever forget wetin der eye see for buky boy Hand that year....kai!!!cultism!!!....where’s is buky boy now ??
Buky boy is dead. I believe he was killed at Sapon roundabout back when cars used to load there. Dragged down from the bus and killed in broad daylight
Koralords: Tasty gee was killed in retaliation for a rgd lord saheed who was kill at Oluwo,he was buried alive and his remains have not been found till today ,that period was the hottest ever in mapoly
Which group was Gee associated with? I thought he was a neutral guy. He did not look tough or affiliated
That period hot badly, thank God things are a bit sane now
Something happened as I was on the bike around 6am today while enroute work
The bikeman stopped at one of the intersections to pay for all this ticket stuff and a guy beside one wall was playing songs loudly on those Bluetooth speakers. They (the ones collecting the ticket fee) seemingly paid respect to him and called him 'Emir' or something like that and he nodded when they collected money
I jus say make i try hear wetin e dey play, na in i start to dey hear
'I no fit forgettt o Aye Nelson Mandela, e ma dey the game o. Anywhere wey 1 Aye dey, na 7 Aye dey there o' (Voice sounded like that of the guy I heard on their Unity regime LP on YT)
I don know say I don enter Aye territory .. but how can you be playing that kind of song on a Bluetooth MP3 device in public, na like death wish
I looked closely at all of them, scars dey them body, them tint hair,tattoos. I just quietly put my phone for my bag, make them no come use me play game early momo
Rotimi47: Good to hear that the bad ones are gradually turning a new leaf.
During my time in Higher institution we use to hear bad news from there. ( 90s)
Omo that school for 90s na war zone, same as Ibadan Poly That Oluwo used to be Abeokuta's version of Ekosodin in Benin Was almost obtained there in 2005 with a friend
My guy chop slap sha
The place was opposite where Tasty Gee was killed in 2003 or so, butchered in broad day light in his studio. I no fit forget
Family › Re: At 23 Years Old, I Have No Idea What I Am Doing With My Life by hustla(m): 11:06am On Aug 07, 2020
