luminouz:

Then u best be a beta male!!

Is it such a bad thing? They are awesome.Outside the fact that M is not good in the sack,he is the best man ever.

@luminouz,

Thank you for writing me,thanks for enjoying my diary...people don't usually want to say things to me on here

I agree with you that no one can get everything in one go,there is usually something lacking and I guess a person has to prioritize and cope with the rest.

Frankly,I'm naturally quite contented with what I have and willing to work harder to get the things I don't so i have most things I want but then I'm obsessed with something that I just cannot make happen for myself, the irony of life.. We must all learn to manage

5-8 with quickies in-between? Interesting.I sincerely hope you find your match,it would be disastrous otherwise. There must be someone who can outdo you..If life was less regimented and humans less possessive,it would have us outsource tasks a spouse cannot fulfill without the spouse feeling threatened

M doesn't have the finesse for mental play,even physical is straight to the point,he is amazing in most other ways though,he isn't perfect but when I compare his misdeeds to my father's,it's like child play.
I think in another life,I would still go for him,low libido and all..I don't know if I would trade peace of mind for sex.
It is beautiful to come home to a peaceful man,or have a peaceful man come home to you..He always wants to be home unlike his mates that run away from their spouses.

Alpha males?(shudders),massive turn off so if they're the ones after me,I'm quite happy because i'm 100% sure I would never enjoy a situation where a male is the dominant partner.
It's the nice shy guys with puppy eyes that are my problem,you know those ones that are very eager to please..they tend to trigger the predatory instinct

I hope im able to keep the good fight up,it is very tasking to be 2 completely different people and play to the gallery and i really don't want to have an affair.If M stays good, I have no reason to stray.If he ever has sex elsewhere and I find out,I'm very certain I will have at least one session with another human being.

I also hope I do not meet someone who is hell bent on going after me,cannot cope with being on guard 24/7.

Thank you for your very kind words..

I hope you find what you are looking for, and I hope you have a beautiful 2019.

Cheers!