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I am a coward!
I hate this version of myself
I am essentially a coward. I fear what I want, and so I self-sabotage. I ruin things for myself.

I distance myself from people. Usually I thought I was an introvert, but no. I’m well outspoken, learned and on the extra, I’m a good looking guy.

I am jealous of those people that can keep close friends. I’ve rarely been hurt by friends like people talk about often, but I fear the process of making friends.

I meet ladies online. I can’t summon the courage of toasting girls on ground. even My 3 years relationship now, I met her on a “singles group”.

I hate the feeling of loneliness but find a strange sense of comfort in it.
Friends are important to me but I can’t bring myself to make any.
I want people to understand me but don’t even try to explain myself.
Initially I felt like I’m alone in this. Everybody else is perfect in this sense, except me.

But because humans are different, because we are different, I believe that there are others like me struggling with this exact problem. We are our own obstacles, and the issue with that is the fact that we cannot ever get past it because the solution is hiding in the last place we would ever search. Like how we overlook things hiding in plain sight because we dismiss them as “too obvious,” we miss the fact that there was actually nothing wrong with the world — there was just something wrong with the way we chose to see it.

Have you considered Neuro Linguistic Programming?

I suggest you research it to see if its any help.

budaatum:
Have you considered Neuro Linguistic Programming?

I suggest you research it to see if it’s any help.

Ok I just googled what it is now. It seems very relative

Why do you recommend? Did you ever have a direct need for it?

nnadychuks:
Ok I just googled what it is now. It seems very relative

Why do you recommend? Did you ever have a direct need for it?

I always have a need for knowledge. It helps me help people like you.

And yes, it has helped me, though not for cowardice, which was never my problem.

budaatum:
I always have a need for knowledge. It helps me help people like you.

And yes, it has helped me, though not for cowardice, which was never my problem.

What did you need it for?

My brother there is everything wrong with the world.
Sha no go kill yourself.
This is just a phase. It will pass.
Better days are coming.

What I just discovered is that it will get to a stage in a Man's Life. That you will just abandon material things, This physical world, And focus more on spirituality.

It is this process of detachment that most people have problems with. Especially for people that are addicted to Things of the world.
All you need is a spiritual father to lead you through the journey.
Because you cannot do it on your own.

It is actually a journey of self discovery.

Since childhood I dey battle my own,I blame my parents wey no plan child birth,they have given birth to 5 kids 2 boys and 3 girls why give birth to me again is 5 not enough?since childhood my life has being an endless struggle.
I am tired already just waiting for death to come when it will come let me go rest,I dont even want afterlife just let me off kpataklata.

bigpriik:
Since childhood I dey battle my own,I blame my parents wey no plan child birth,they have given birth to 5 kids 2 boys and 3 girls why give birth to me again is 5 not enough?
I am tired already just waiting for death to come when it will come let me go rest,I dont even want afterlife just let me off kpataklata.

Lol. Sorry

nnadychuks:
I am a coward!
I hate this version of myself
I am essentially a coward. I fear what I want, and so I self-sabotage. I ruin things for myself.

I distance myself from people. Usually I thought I was an introvert, but no. I’m well outspoken, learned and on the extra, I’m a good looking guy.

I am jealous of those people that can keep close friends. I’ve rarely been hurt by friends like people talk about often, but I fear the process of making friends.

I meet ladies online. I can’t summon the courage of toasting girls on ground. even My 3 years relationship now, I met her on a “singles group”.

I hate the feeling of loneliness but find a strange sense of comfort in it.
Friends are important to me but I can’t bring myself to make any.
I want people to understand me but don’t even try to explain myself.
Initially I felt like I’m alone in this. Everybody else is perfect in this sense, except me.

But because humans are different, because we are different, I believe that there are others like me struggling with this exact problem. We are our own obstacles, and the issue with that is the fact that we cannot ever get past it because the solution is hiding in the last place we would ever search. Like how we overlook things hiding in plain sight because we dismiss them as “too obvious,” we miss the fact that there was actually nothing wrong with the world — there was just something wrong with the way we chose to see it.

You're not alone. This is why people need to speak up,so as for others to help them. You're not a coward, you've been brave enough to say this publicly. People seldom say whatever they're going through in the guise of being mature. But you said yours,that is bravery.

I self sabotage too, but it's not the end of the world, we're humans, we'll survive. As long as we're alive.

So,op. Be cool,be calm, you've got this. Everything's going to turn out just fine, eventually. Just start mingling, making friends bit by bit. It might feel impossible after some failed attempts,but you can only keep trying if you want success. We'll be fine, you'll be fine...

bigpriik:
Since childhood I dey battle my own,I blame my parents wey no plan child birth,they have given birth to 5 kids 2 boys and 3 girls why give birth to me again is 5 not enough?since childhood my life has being an endless struggle.
I am tired already just waiting for death to come when it will come let me go rest,I dont even want afterlife just let me off kpataklata.

How old are you

You aren't a coward, your inner self is just afraid of being disappointed or disappointing others.
Buy a big mirror, every morning look in it and tell yourself "i need to speak your mind without fear".

It is no big deal bro once once try to mingle with people

liveyourlife007:
My brother there is everything wrong with the world.
Sha no go kill yourself.
This is just a phase. It will pass.
Better days are coming.

What I just discovered is that it will get to a stage in a Man's Life. That you will just abandon material things, This physical world, And focus more on spirituality.

It is this process of detachment that most people have problems with. Especially for people that are addicted to Things of the world.
All you need is a spiritual father to lead you through the journey.
Because you cannot do it on your own.

It is actually a journey of self discovery.

Thanks a lot brotherly.
Material things doesn’t excite me much, probably why I’m not invested in those things

QuietDamilare:
You're not alone. This is why people need to speak up,so as for others to help them. You're not a coward, you've been brave enough to say this publicly. People seldom say whatever they're going through in the guise of being mature. But you said yours,that is bravery.

I self sabotage too, but it's not the end of the world, we're humans, we'll survive. As long as we're alive.

So,op. Be cool,be calm, you've got this. Everything's going to turn out just fine, eventually. Just start mingling, making friends bit by bit. It might feel impossible after some failed attempts,but you can only keep trying if you want success. We'll be fine, you'll be fine...

I ask myself…
Do I need friends? I say no?
Then why do I feel envious or jealous whenever I see a circle of friends?
That’s what brought me to this topic.
I know what I want but won’t admit it.
Well…
Thank God for people like you that take out time to advise ppl like us

What do u mean by u don’t have or don’t know how to make friends?

The family is the first and major agent of socialization . Other agents are the church or mosque, school, peer groups and so on. Is it that u didn’t socialize in all these places?

I understand that people are raised or developed differently. But these agents of socialization have been set up to affect your life in certain stages of life.
Look forward to finding solutions in one of them depending on the stage of life u find yourself.

nnadychuks:
I am a coward!

Oops! This must be a bitter pill to swallow.

nnadychuks:
I ask myself…
Do I need friends? I say no?
Then why do I feel envious or jealous whenever I see a circle of friends?
That’s what brought me to this topic.
I know what I want but won’t admit it.
Well…
Thank God for people like you that take out time to advise ppl like us

Do you need friends? Yes. We can't do everything alone. We're humans, sometimes it gets too hard to deal with, and a word of encouragement from a genuine friend is all we need. Or just a hug from someone that cares. Denying the fact that you need them will only make you yearn for it more. Why not just go for it?

RealityKings1:
You aren't a coward, your inner self is just afraid of being disappointed or disappointing others.
Buy a big mirror, every morning look in it and tell yourself "i need to speak your mind without fear".

I love this comment
I am passing through similar thing

nnadychuks:
I am a coward!
I hate this version of myself
I am essentially a coward. I fear what I want, and so I self-sabotage. I ruin things for myself.

I distance myself from people. Usually I thought I was an introvert, but no. I’m well outspoken, learned and on the extra, I’m a good looking guy.

I am jealous of those people that can keep close friends. I’ve rarely been hurt by friends like people talk about often, but I fear the process of making friends.

I meet ladies online. I can’t summon the courage of toasting girls on ground. even My 3 years relationship now, I met her on a “singles group”.

I hate the feeling of loneliness but find a strange sense of comfort in it.
Friends are important to me but I can’t bring myself to make any.
I want people to understand me but don’t even try to explain myself.
Initially I felt like I’m alone in this. Everybody else is perfect in this sense, except me.

But because humans are different, because we are different, I believe that there are others like me struggling with this exact problem. We are our own obstacles, and the issue with that is the fact that we cannot ever get past it because the solution is hiding in the last place we would ever search. Like how we overlook things hiding in plain sight because we dismiss them as “too obvious,” we miss the fact that there was actually nothing wrong with the world — there was just something wrong with the way we chose to see it.

I am passing through exactly similar thing.Just become more spiritual,you will find fulfillment and inner peace