Well. Titi I Dont Know U. Never May.
But One Fact Id Like To Let U Know Is That The Past Sure Knows How To Draw Its Debts.

U Are Already In Deficit. Pay Back Woud Surely Come. But Not To Worry We All Payback Our Dues.

That Doesnt Necessarily Make Us Hell Bound, But We Stiil Payback Our Dues.

Remember That.

But what could i have done ?

AS I READ THIS

I coulnt help but over-flow with compassion for you.  I wont condemn you,  thats not my place.  I know what it is to have a perfect life and then find yourself in a place you never dreamed.   

Never say never.

However, I read this post when you had gone full cirlce.   I would like to pose and just give you a big hug now.  And pray for you. 

Its not over till its over. 

You will need this.

This is not from condemnation but understand the love behind it.

You've taken the childs life.  Legally you have blood on your hands as a result.

However,  you need to take some actions to reverse that debt.

1.  Take a balloon, string, paper and pen
2.  Go and sit in the park alone
3.  Ask God by your side
4.  Blow balloon up, tie with string.  Hold steady while you
5.  Write a letter to your baby (its a soul, so its alive - somewhere, with God i think)
6.  "Dear baby,  mummy didnt mean to do what she did.  I'm really sorry, and ask
      God to forgive me for being forced to be the one to take your life directly (everybody
      contributed - but i was the one to pay the bill).  Into the LORD's hands i committ your
      spirit, redeem my baby, oh God of truth.  Mummy is sorry. Jesus, thank you for the
      blood you shed on calvalry, this blood and your body was shed and broken for my
      sins, wash us clean Lord.  And anything else u wana
      say.
7.  Say these out loud (under your breath if need be - cause spiritual contracts are effected
     by words)
8.  Tie the paper around that balloon, and just let it go

You've released your baby's soul.

I never want to pass judgement in shoes ive never walked.  Only God knows our futures, being self righteous and condemning and stoning somebody can't help.  Its by God's grace we live. 

Imagine those put in a tight spot,  and can't make choices?  May God's hand of mercy go out to you.

I'm sorry you had to go through this.  Focus on God and then yourself.  Everything will take perspective after that.  Wait on the goodness of the Lord,  until He exalts you to receive the land.  Do not end your life.  Even if the other guy becomes funny, or his family changes.

Put God first and you will not be dissappointed.

Peace.

Personally from me.

Dang O/M that was 2 long

@ogamadam, thnx so so much. I have prayed and asked for forgiveness. It has even in a way brought me closer to God. I know i have no satisfiable excuse before God to kill my baby, but it was also in my baby's best interest cause i don't want him/her to experience rejection, i want us to be a whole happy family.

I couldnt look at the ultrasound, cause it would be too much for me. . . but i still find myself thinking its should hv been 18weeks old now. But honestly, i couldnt keep it, it would break me down, the father turned his back, and my parents would be too devastated, my fiancee wont stop crying, i was scared too.

I hope my baby knows i love him/her so much that i wont forgive myself if i bring her to life and make her suffer or rejected.

Hmmmm,

Ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww so srry

I don't get it, how could you then go back and tell your fiance that it was a lie about 8 weeks later? I know if I was him, I would find it hard to believe. Like how did you convince him? And did you tell everyone else that it was all a lie as well?

hihihieeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!
baby girl you are wonderful o, so u think the only probs is that you are pregnant? look if you can open your guys kpomo for another stranger then you can do all things. infact i am already feeling sick for your guy, but i pray for you that he do forgive you. as for keeping the pikin, it's a thing for you to decide.

& why did you stay that long knwing you had unprotected sex with someone you don't wish to get married to. abi u be pikin?

Titi I will rather congratulate you for making up a story that has drawn the highest controversy in Nairaland. Good job babe !!!!!!

But in case all the drama was true, I would have prefered you told the guy you love the truth and walk away from his life and if he still comes back to you. Then you know you are destined to be together.
But by the option you chose you have maltreated someone you claim to love twice, 1. sleeping with someone else and getting pregnant 2. Telling him it never happened.
You know what? Somehow it will resurface.
no sin or offence is too big to handle, you are a far more happier person when you confess your sins and live better for it. When I read the first story I thought you deserved forgiveness no matter what but celeberating your ability to hide the truth is what I cant accept.

However those are my views if the story is not a fiction.

@Mckren
U Mean The Whole Narration Is A Hoax?

Whatver? Who Cares?

It Would Make A Good Home Video. So Lets Just Go With The Flow.

At Least Naira Land It Self Is A Box Office Hit.

I Hope She Comes Up With Part #3. I'm Waiting. I'm A Fan

@Titi. Any Autographs?

U guyz r mean ooooooooooooo--Even if she made up d story, cnt jus pretend haba!!!!!!!

titi,
i think Mckren is correct. You gotta tell him the truth because lying dont help things. I always believe that secrets can never be hidden. personally anyways.

tell him the truth, if he is yours he will be back. you are graduating to a higher level of deception if you lie. and also, dont you think he will pick it up somehow. you will never be the same ofcourse, and he will wonder "whats up?".

Drop the bomb and see if he will forgive you. believe it or not, true love is tested like so.

I wish you all the best.

Love
Madam

i wonder how you go even keep mouth tell the nwaguy this kind story. & if you no take time na twins you go born (girls) you know how stubborn you girls can be.

In love with one and pregnant for another.

this is serious.

how come? how did it happen? i mean how did the man you didnt love get in between your legs.
Some women sha

I'm the happiest person on earth right now !

I thought about the whole issue and i was convinced that sooner or later the truth will come out to haunt me when i least expect, so i decided to back off from the r/ship without telling the truth. I picked up a petty quarrel with him and fueled it, but that didnt help much as he wasnt prepared to let go just like that. So i gradually began to withdraw from him, not picking up his calls, not returning his calls, always havin an excuse or the other for being unavailable. I felt really bad doing all these but all i wanted was to leave his life without messing it up for him.

Then he called me one day and asked me to tell him what was wrong, he pleaded with me and it was too obvious i was hurting him real bad, i couldn't shut him out myself i was only trying my best to. I cried and told him the truth, i told him what happened was the truth and wasnt a joke. I told him i wanted to leave his life without hurting him was why i tried to run away, he was hurt, i felt his pain and i felt i wasnt fit to be happy no more, i planned to run away from evryone, my family, eveyone i knew, i was already putting my papers together to move out of the states to australia, i wanted to stop living but i didnt want to hurt myself physically, i started working long hours, night n day because i cudnt sleep at home, i wanted to shut the memory off my mind.

He didnt call n i didnt either, we didnt talk for about 2 weeks, except on my birthday whn he called to wish me h.bday. My bday didnt help much either, calls from family n friends asking me if my nxt bday would be as a married lady to him, i cried all day decided to go to work to keep my head straight.

One day he called saying he needed to hear my voice n that was it. No calls again for wot seemed like ages but was just about 2 weeks, he said he wanted to know wot i really wanted, i told him i need n want him but i've messed up, to cut the very long story short, he said he was giving me a second chance, i couldnt believe it, now he says i should forget it all happened, that i should think like we've just met n we r starting all afresh, and its being great!

I still feel bad n think i'm crap, but he told me i shdn't, tht if i was crap he wouldn't hv me back.

I owe it to GOD because in the middle of it all God sent someone to me, to tell me I AM STILL HIS CHILD ! And that was wot i needed, i cried n prayed to God for forgiveness, n whn  i knew He had forgiven me, i felt like a new person, i stopped overworking n went to church services instead, my fiance said he got closer to God thn as well as he couldn't tell nobody about his problem.

We've slowed it down about getting married though, we thought we need time to heal off, but with God, i won't let him down nomore.  He means the world to me and i love him so so much.

Thanks to all who gave an advise or the other, and to those who think its a made up story, i don't need to prove it,

so what is this another case of do something bad, live happily ever after??

That is Y--I dnt even Blieve DISS kind of STORIES

@titilayomi
I was really impressed by your story. Can't be happier for you that it all ended up well. Now you have definitely learned your lesson and this whole thing has brought you closer. It is a huge step to be able to get over such an experience. I admire your courage to tell him everything up straight. You were wrong , and you assumed responsibility for it. I think you did the right thing now. Good for you! Wish you all the best from now on.


ps: you mentioned at the beginning you heard it's possible to abort the baby with pills. First of all, the chances are VERY small for it to work and second, 6 weeks is a too advanced pregnancy to do that. I think 2-3 weeks is the maximum.

dear girl this is one of the most terrible thing to do to someone you say u love where is the love. what were u thinking of? if roles were reversed will you forgive him? my advice to you is to get talking fast and pray he's the forgiving type cos i wont advice you abort a baby who never asked to be conceived. take care and God bless.

Make no mistake baby,marry the father of your child,nothing happen unjust in creation,God knows best.

This is just to confirm to you all ladies that women are not save living alone especially when they have reach maturity. You need a man's protection all the time

Thanks white nkem, i'm so happy i eventually did the right thing.
@jaybaby and Akinagirl, I didn't believe i derserved to be forgiven too(by God, my BF and my unborn child), that was why i was almost sucidal, however when God sent someone to me to tell me He still loved me all the same, i felt hope, i felt relieve, i felt it is over. . . still i didn't even think for a moment, My fiance would dare think about forgiving me ,not to talk of a 2nd chance. But I remember the day b4 he called to say he was giving us a 2nd chance, i was at the fellowship, and we were told to ask God of one thing tonite and be sure we will get it. I wept and asked God, to give me back my love, if he(my fiance) is trully the one for me, God should do something. And i was gobsmacked the nxt day when i was given a 2nd chance, which with God will never go sour.

I have done things my own way and failed, so i've decided to put it all into God's unfailing, perfect hands.  
I still wish i could turn back the hands of time.

Bill Gate, i have no child at the moment, and even if i did i won't marry the father as i will be willingly signing in for bullying and suferring + he doesn't want anything to do with God

Is ok sister,so what about the pregnancy, I pray your man accept it too. Wish you good luck

Bill Gate:


Is ok sister,so what about the pregnancy, I pray your man accept it too. Wish you good luck

read all the posts and you will understand; don't make the girl write the same thing twice.

titi,when i read through ur mail i almost cried but held myself since i was in the public office,it reminded me of similar incident years ago.i had date this girl 4 more than 2 yrs,but guess what; on my graduation day after 5yrs of school,just 3 days 2 the day i had pland 2 introduce her 2 my family,i caught her , she betrayed me too.it hurt me so much because i had already organised a light party, 2 take her by surprise.what do i tell my friends who were waiting 4 me at home 2 bring her along.it was an unforgettable day in my life.as i left d room,she taught 2 herself that it was over and never came back,i know she just couldnt face d shame.i remember i told her it was over and thai neva wanted 2 see her but i later realised i still loved her and hoped she came back 2 apologise but my stay in school was up,so i tarveld home and we neva saw again.by Gods grace i now have a good job and a fience when she calld again after so long 2 apologise and asked 2 come back.i knew if she sincerely apologised then i would have 4given her.but its just 2 late now.titi, if he really loves u ,give him time but dont relent keep calling him, he might change his mind 4 nothing is impossible.u can learn from my experience.   abboy.

@topic

Pawaful Story . U sef.

Sha no go kill ur self. There's still hope your "Love" will forgive.

thnx abboy, i'm sorry aby ur ex's story but happy for u tht u found a new love.

my fiance says he has forgiven me and is given us a 2nd chance, which by God's help nutting will mess it up. We planned moving together by april (he agreed to move over) and get married in december, but tht was b4 i spoilt it all, after then he stopped all the process of relocating and now he says he isnt too keen on it tht maybe we shd both relocate to a new place entirely and slow down on the wedding arrangement, which is fine by me.

I cant see mysef happy wit someoneelse.

The ultimate lesson from the story

Long Distance R/Ships Dont Work

If He/She will be gone for long, just break up.

_{I think.}

hmm cant u just get an abortion, or y didnt u get on the after morning pill.
personally i would advice u to some how not tell him
i dont think he might forgive u dear, afterall he is a man
i mean men are not daft they know women cheat and might cheat on them but they never want to hear about it, they only just want to suspect it.
so sweety this i sprobably the worst advice i have probably given anyone but i really dont think u should keep it, and by somehow he accepts it then thank UR Lord JEsus Christ.
nnne gooooooood luck
i believe u need it alot

titi

look here let me tell u something, yes what u did was wrong, but ur sin is no greater from half of this useless nigerian men here condemning u. these are the same guys who would tell a girl hey i dont like condoms, and 80 percent of them will probably cheat on their wives. u know the most amazing thing ABOUT humans is that we aRE dynamic, and unpredictable, some of these guys can claim that they would never ever cheat but tomorrow whenthey are 40 yeras oldnad are lacking sex from their wives they will start looking else where, so please im beggin u just ignore their bullshit.

REMEMBER THIS ITS UR LIFE NOT THIERS. THEY CAN RUN THEIR PIE HOLES BUT U HAVE TO LIVE IT OK. MANY OF US CLAIM WE ARE GOOD CHRISTIANS BUT YET WHEN WE GET MONEY WE CANT EVEN USE IT TO FEED THE POOR, WHAT DO WE DO, WE GO TO TANTALIZERS AND EAT FRIED RICE AND CHICKEN OR GO TO COLLECTIBLES OR THE GAP AND BUY A NEW PAIR OF JEANS. AND GUESS WHAT THAT MONEY WE JUST SPENT PROBABLY COULD HAVE SAVED A LIFE OR TWO. THE FUNNY THING ABOUT SIN IS THAT ITS NOT BLACK AND WHITE. THERE ARE MANY GREY GREY AREAS TO IT, SO IGNORE THEIR ASSES, MAYBE IF U KEPT THE BABY AND TOMORROW HE BECOMES A 419 AND KILLS PEOPLE BECAUSE HE NEVER GO THE LOVE HE NEEDED WHO WOULD THEY BLAME. HIS MOTHER NOT EVEN HIS FATHER BUT HIS MOTHER, SO GURL CHECK URSELF, AND LIVE UR LIFE THE BEST WAY U CAN BEING AS TRUTHFULL AS POSSIBLE AND AVOIDING FUNNY SITUATIONS. REMEMBER OUR LORD FORGIVES NO MATTER WHAT, SOMETHING MOST HUMANS CAN NEVER REPLICATE SO HOW DARE THEY SIT HERE AND CONDEMN U WHEN THEY HAVE NO UTTER IDEA WHAT UR GOD FEELS ABOUT U. GOODLUCK SWEETY (PERSONALLY I THINK U DID THE ONLY THING U COULD) I MEAN FOR GOODNESS SAKE U DONT EVEN KNOW HOW MANY CHICKS UR FIANCE SLEPT WITH. THE PAST IS THE PAST MOVE ON

next time cheat but use protection