PROLOGUE
I have to put this down so that whoever gets to
read it will learn of the miserable life I lived, if at
the end, I choose the path of death tonight. I am a
little above fifteen years of age and addicted to
p*rnography. Before the end of today, I want to put an end to
this, or put an end to my life.

Lying down here on
my hard bed, nothing else bothers me but this
darkness. This Iroko tree has stayed too long and
its leaves have made a mess of my life like a pig's
abode. If I cannot be free alive, I will go for it dead. I do not want to have anything to do with
p*rnography any longer. I am shrinking in this
darkness, and I need light. Just some minutes
ago, I almost raped an innocent young girl. This is
stupid!

So, I am writing this in anticipation of my
funeral. If I just do not get a way to end all of this, I will end myself. I want to be able to say no to p*rnography and do
without it. If I do not break free from this inner
darkness, I will forever deny my eyes of the
brightness of the sun. I want to stop. I want to go to the Internet and not
go near p*rnography. I want to look at the opposite
sex and not feel guilty. I just want to be free. It
has to be this night! (to be continued..........)

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{Excerpt 2}
~Note 1~ My problem began the day my father brought
home a fourteen-inch television set, and a video
disc player that was silver coloured. I was ten
years old, about leaving primary school.

After dad left for his business trips we were
already used to, the two pieces of electronics
became Kenneth's property. He was the first child
of the family. He knew how to operate the TV and
VCD-player so well as though he worked in the
factory where they were manufactured. In no time, Kenneth and Kelvin who is also my
elder brother, started bringing home movies which
were mostly Hollywood movies we commonly
called "American films."

After dinner every evening, they would slot the
disc in and we all would sit down and watch the
pictures on the screen like faithful believers
listening to the pastor. Only Kenneth, Kelvin and
Osarugue, my only elder sister, sat on the dirty
brown sofas we had then. The rest of us pinned our soft buttocks to the hard floor.

...............to be continued.

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waiting.....

Shut Out In Darkness{Excerpt 3} I have seven siblings from two mothers and one
father. My father married my stepmother after my
mother was unable to give birth to a child after six
years of marriage. As if controlled by some external spirit, my mother
took in few months after my stepmother was
brought home by my father. However, my
stepmother was already pregnant. Kenneth my
eldest brother was born by my stepmother before
Osarugue, my sister, was born. Kelvin came next from my stepmother's womb,
and then I did from my mother's. My mother took
over the baton completely by giving birth to two
other children -Victory and Nosa- giving her a
perfect number of two males and two females. My
stepmother balanced the equation by giving birth to a set of female twin twelve years after I was
born. Father was hardly ever at home while I was
growing up, and even up till now, he is rarely at
home. He spent more time away doing business
than taking care of is at home. He only spent four
days in a month with us, until recently he
increased it to six days. He claims he is doing his best to ensure we have a good life. I appreciate
his efforts, but it is unwise to shop a shoe for a
foot that has been cut off from the body. From one movie to another, the TV became
irresistible. Sometimes, we would watch movies
up till midnight before my stepmother would send
us out of the living room like tenants owing rent. ........to be continued! To get a copy of the book titled Shut Out In
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nice one...got your back bro....NB: I'm also a porn addict who wants to break free from the perversion

Shut Out In Darkness{Excerpt 4} We never got tired of watching except maybe
when 'Mr Sleep' came calling; and we never
stopped cursing the National Electric Power
Authority(NEPA) whenever they put a period in our
adventure by cutting power supply. I enjoyed the movies so much and was fascinated
by almost everything in the movie: the enchanting
voices of the actors, the perfectly-made faces of
the actresses, the action, and of course, the
scenes where the actors and actresses kissed,
and the rare sex scenes. Although I was just a ten-year-old kid, I enjoyed
the sex scenes so much and always looked
forward to them. A movie where the actors and
actresses never kissed or made love ended up
very disappointing to me. I knew it was wrong for me to enjoy such a
pleasure, but I could not bear the pain of not
savoring it. I always pretended to look away or
cover my eyes when such scenes were on scenes
were on just to make my elder ones believe I was
still a good boy, but I had a way of still seeing what was going on on the TV screen. I always
wondered why my elder siblings never fast-
forwarded those scenes, or removed the movie
completely since they hammered always that such
scenes were not good for our viewing. Day after day, viewing such scenes in several
movies, I could not help but get overwhelmed by
the unclothedness of total strangers. My mothers
never knew the king of movies we fed our virgin
eyes with. They spent their evenings peeling
melon seeds and gossiping. To get a copy of the book, call 08164041005 if you
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Too short for my liking

Timothy3113: Too short for my liking

That is not the end. More to come

Shut Out In Darkness(Excerpt 5)

Whenever I got to be alone in the house, I would slot in the disc just like Kenneth always did and would speed it up to the scenes where the actors and actresses kissed or made love. It was not difficult learning how to use the remote control. I would mute the TV, sit close to it and bath in the pleasure emanating from the scene into my body. It was enthralling then, but now I have realized that I was feeding myself with a poisoned chalice.

So, as every day passed by, I could not stop thinking of people making love. Every night on the cold mat I slept then in my mother's room, the naked bodies of those I bad seen in the movies would run through my mind and I wanted more daily.

I remained a good boy to everyone, but I was healing dirt deep within. Even while in class, I was always thinking about the sex scenes in the movie of the previous night. Naked pictures were running through my mind all the time.

I knew I was into a deep mess, but I loved it. If I had known then that a little leaven leavens the whole lump, I would never have smelt the leaven in the first place.

To be continued!

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Ok

Shut Out In Darkness (Excerpt 6)

NOTE 2
I have been like a lizard that wants to stop falling from the coconut tree, but ends up climbing the same tree over and over again.

I had my first encounter with real pornography when I was in Junior Secondary School One (JSS 1). My classmate, Buchi, was the first in a class of thirty students to have a phone. Rumour had it that his mother abroad sent him the phone. It was a blue Nokia phone.

Being a close friend of Buchi, I wasted no time in befriending his phone. I fell in love with the soccer game in the phone because I had always loved football.

Back in Primary School, I was an addict of football although just as a spectator. Being so thin like a fountain pen and feeble like pumpkin leaves, I never got the opportunity among the big boys in class to show to everyone that I could teach Ronaldinho how to dribble pass an entire team and score a goal without a drop of sweat coming out of the body

The only strength I had back then in primary school was my brain and nothing else. My teachers always said I had in brains what I lacked in size. I always wished the opposite. Being an intelligent student, it was no huge task coming top in class, although I barely read. Toping the class gave me a good fate. I did nit get beaten up by the big boys, and I did not get to receive lessons from the angry-looking canes of the teachers. I was practically exempted from all forms of punishments.

I carried my brain to secondary school, so with the respect. Although Buchi prized his phone with the value of gold, and allowed no fingers except his to touch it, I was an exception. He always gave it to me whenever I asked for it. He was nit doing that because he was a nice person. He always did that so he could earn the right of bombarding me with questions during examinations. With the phone in my hands, I always had a great time with PES soccer. Even while a teacher was busy forcing some strange things into our little heads, I would be busy defeating Real Madrid in a soccer game.

This continued for weeks until I mistakenly entered the place I never should have entered.


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