Re: Cds by Samtobh(m): 5:19pm On Sep 19, 2016 |
ayobase:
You story is gonna change VERY soon.
Show me a man diligent in his work....
Amen, thanks. |
Re: Cds by indoorlove(m): 6:05pm On Sep 19, 2016 |
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Re: Cds by indoorlove(m): 6:17pm On Sep 19, 2016 |
AnalyticEngine: Me, I graduated with 2,1 in chemical engineering and have been roaming the streets for 2yrs now. I have bought rope already, waiting for my frustration to reach its threshold. Alternatively, I can also build a simple equipment that can saturate my 64 cubic metres room with lethal concentration of carbon monoxide in a few hours. I've gat no time to waste on joblessness. I cannot continue to feed on people's hardwork. It aint my principle. Pls don't kill yourself, it's not worth it. Try and read this thread https://www.nairaland.com/1483094/thread-those-suffering-depression-anxiety |
Re: Cds by idu1(m): 7:34pm On Sep 19, 2016 |
Lotil: I wish I had the right words for you. Alas, I don't as I have bouts of depression myself. Me, I'm 32, jobless and hopeless, beautiful for nothing. I'm described as intelligent, l know I am..I know we all know our good qualities but that is nonsense when you graduate with a 2.2. There's no day l don't regret my result. The missed opportunities, shame and so on.. 99.9% of Graduate Trainee jobs are reserved for the 2.1s and 1st Class. Yearly, I watch as banks and other multinationals conduct their search for the "Best" of us. Well..if waec result counts for anything, l had distinctions in Economics, Commerce, Biology and Literature in English and 4 Cs. Yet, l went to college to waste my life!
It wasn’t even that l was partying and bed hopping with aristos. Maybe if l did that-just maybe.
You see, I lived a simple life in school. When I think about it, l wonder what the eff I was doing with my time that l failed to save the day. Financial security and independence are the most important to me, yet l did nothing to prepare for that aspect of my future. Don't get me wrong, I'm not one to live in the past or wallow in self-pity. Just that my sibling who completed Nysc June this year is a constant reminder that I've not moved forward. She's a 2.1 graduate and still has many years ahead of her. I'm 7 years older than she. Her elder sister, my junior, has been married two years now. So I'm like, "what a wasted life".
Sometimes I look at my family and feel sorry for them. I do because it’s just a matter of time before I take my life. The only reason I haven't done it is because of my mum. Every time I see myself at the other side, a mental image of her forms before me. Then I know I can't do it. It'd ruin her. It'd finish her. I can't do that to her. It's just for my mum. Everything is for my mum. And even though it's for her that I wouldn't take my life, it's still because of her l will eventually do it.
Because I'm her first child and I ought to have been more responsible. To be working and married. I'm 32. See, I'm not even dating. I'm guilty of a lot of things...not making money, can't take care of my family. I'm guilty of eating my mum's food and 'eating from the same plate' with my sisters. At my age? I'm 13 years older than my kid sister who is in 400 level now. if I’m gone I wouldn’t be around to remind my mum that I failed her or that I’m a disappointment. I'm not completely hopeless though. I still make effort. I applied to Firs and NRC and I'm not stopping there yet. I read. I wrote a test last week. But none of these can stop the throbbing pain and the only thing that can free me is death.
This isn't a cry for help. I have learnt that nobody helps you but you. And God forbids that I blame the economy. I wouldn't allow myself such weakness. I know I could have done better in school and that Pry and Secondary Education are to equip you with writing and reading skills, only that. B.Sc is the real foundation. Afterall it’s where you get the results employers want. I also know Masters/Professional Certifications are a good support. But you don't get those papers F.O.C.
I'm sorry I'm not one to light a candle for you @poster but you should know l feel somewhat better sharing my own on here.
which state do you live? |
Re: Cds by vivalavida(m): 8:54pm On Sep 19, 2016 |
Depression is something i have gone through twice in life. It is not what anyone should undergo.
For all those with these pitiable stories,just hang in there and i pray your stories change for good
@lotil,i'll send u a pm. Wanna lighten up ur mood |
Re: Cds by Jdazzle: 9:29pm On Sep 19, 2016 |
nnamdiosu:
Your first mistake....you looked up to seun to save you instead of God that created both you and seun.
Second mistake..you forgot the fact that everyone , even seun has his own problems. So why do u won't to saddle another human being with yours? Look bro.....just look up to God. I know it aimt easy but trust me sooooooo many people are worst than you but them still keeping hope alive. Just be prayerful. Hopeful. God will see you thru ijn. Amen Nnam You're so correct, we should only look up to Jesus, the Author and Finisher of our faith... 2 Likes |
Re: Cds by yusufadebayo02(m): 9:49pm On Sep 19, 2016 |
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Re: Cds by Mekyno(m): 9:54pm On Sep 19, 2016 |
Samtobh: it is well with you OP.
I'm a First class Graduate since 2012, sleeping on a bed made from cartoon box in one of the office I got to work with June this year.Denied more than 5 scholarships alone this year and still hoping for better days. Suicide ain't an option bro, I graduated tops of my class and still yet, it ain't what I thought I'll be.keep up the hope, send me a PM! I'm gonna call you.
#Peace
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I have created a thread for something like this. Comments will be appreciated.
https://www.nairaland.com/3358818/no-job-depressed-feeling-suicidal#49500003 hmm, denied 5 scholarships? There may be a spiritual conspiracy towards dat broda.....it can't be ordinary. Go for deliverance. I don talk my own. Why not go back to ur dept, talk wit ur lecturers n HOD, and be a graduate assistant. |
Re: Cds by Mekyno(m): 10:04pm On Sep 19, 2016 |
Rolly83:
My God!!!! What a touching story..I'm totally short of words.... Sister,pls I beg of u don't give up pls pls! wahala dey. Mehn, nigeria is doomed. Frm her write up i can decifer innocence and intelligence.....kai. God hv mercy |
Re: Cds by Mekyno(m): 10:43pm On Sep 19, 2016 |
@Lotil. Jst hang on. Spread ur tentacles to other ventures. Learn new skills. Make frnds and connects/network. Free ur mind. If u can relocate/move away from that environs, it will be better. God will locate u soon, dear. 2 Likes 1 Share |
Re: Cds by Nobody: 7:47am On Sep 20, 2016 |
Lotil: I wish I had the right words for you. Alas, I don't as I have bouts of depression myself. Me, I'm 32, jobless and hopeless, beautiful for nothing. I'm described as intelligent, l know I am..I know we all know our good qualities but that is nonsense when you graduate with a 2.2. There's no day l don't regret my result. The missed opportunities, shame and so on.. 99.9% of Graduate Trainee jobs are reserved for the 2.1s and 1st Class. Yearly, I watch as banks and other multinationals conduct their search for the "Best" of us. Well..if waec result counts for anything, l had distinctions in Economics, Commerce, Biology and Literature in English and 4 Cs. Yet, l went to college to waste my life!
It wasn’t even that l was partying and bed hopping with aristos. Maybe if l did that-just maybe.
You see, I lived a simple life in school. When I think about it, l wonder what the eff I was doing with my time that l failed to save the day. Financial security and independence are the most important to me, yet l did nothing to prepare for that aspect of my future. Don't get me wrong, I'm not one to live in the past or wallow in self-pity. Just that my sibling who completed Nysc June this year is a constant reminder that I've not moved forward. She's a 2.1 graduate and still has many years ahead of her. I'm 7 years older than she. Her elder sister, my junior, has been married two years now. So I'm like, "what a wasted life".
Sometimes I look at my family and feel sorry for them. I do because it’s just a matter of time before I take my life. The only reason I haven't done it is because of my mum. Every time I see myself at the other side, a mental image of her forms before me. Then I know I can't do it. It'd ruin her. It'd finish her. I can't do that to her. It's just for my mum. Everything is for my mum. And even though it's for her that I wouldn't take my life, it's still because of her l will eventually do it.
Because I'm her first child and I ought to have been more responsible. To be working and married. I'm 32. See, I'm not even dating. I'm guilty of a lot of things...not making money, can't take care of my family. I'm guilty of eating my mum's food and 'eating from the same plate' with my sisters. At my age? I'm 13 years older than my kid sister who is in 400 level now. if I’m gone I wouldn’t be around to remind my mum that I failed her or that I’m a disappointment. I'm not completely hopeless though. I still make effort. I applied to Firs and NRC and I'm not stopping there yet. I read. I wrote a test last week. But none of these can stop the throbbing pain and the only thing that can free me is death.
This isn't a cry for help. I have learnt that nobody helps you but you. And God forbids that I blame the economy. I wouldn't allow myself such weakness. I know I could have done better in school and that Pry and Secondary Education are to equip you with writing and reading skills, only that. B.Sc is the real foundation. Afterall it’s where you get the results employers want. I also know Masters/Professional Certifications are a good support. But you don't get those papers F.O.C.
I'm sorry I'm not one to light a candle for you @poster but you should know l feel somewhat better sharing my own on here.
The pain I felt reading this. Please I know we can not help everybody.But we can help some. |
Re: Cds by dania30(f): 10:43am On Sep 20, 2016 |
Lotil: I wish I had the right words for you. Alas, I don't as I have bouts of depression myself. Me, I'm 32, jobless and hopeless, beautiful for nothing. I'm described as intelligent, l know I am..I know we all know our good qualities but that is nonsense when you graduate with a 2.2. There's no day l don't regret my result. The missed opportunities, shame and so on.. 99.9% of Graduate Trainee jobs are reserved for the 2.1s and 1st Class. Yearly, I watch as banks and other multinationals conduct their search for the "Best" of us. Well..if waec result counts for anything, l had distinctions in Economics, Commerce, Biology and Literature in English and 4 Cs. Yet, l went to college to waste my life!
It wasn’t even that l was partying and bed hopping with aristos. Maybe if l did that-just maybe.
You see, I lived a simple life in school. When I think about it, l wonder what the eff I was doing with my time that l failed to save the day. Financial security and independence are the most important to me, yet l did nothing to prepare for that aspect of my future. Don't get me wrong, I'm not one to live in the past or wallow in self-pity. Just that my sibling who completed Nysc June this year is a constant reminder that I've not moved forward. She's a 2.1 graduate and still has many years ahead of her. I'm 7 years older than she. Her elder sister, my junior, has been married two years now. So I'm like, "what a wasted life".
Sometimes I look at my family and feel sorry for them. I do because it’s just a matter of time before I take my life. The only reason I haven't done it is because of my mum. Every time I see myself at the other side, a mental image of her forms before me. Then I know I can't do it. It'd ruin her. It'd finish her. I can't do that to her. It's just for my mum. Everything is for my mum. And even though it's for her that I wouldn't take my life, it's still because of her l will eventually do it.
Because I'm her first child and I ought to have been more responsible. To be working and married. I'm 32. See, I'm not even dating. I'm guilty of a lot of things...not making money, can't take care of my family. I'm guilty of eating my mum's food and 'eating from the same plate' with my sisters. At my age? I'm 13 years older than my kid sister who is in 400 level now. if I’m gone I wouldn’t be around to remind my mum that I failed her or that I’m a disappointment. I'm not completely hopeless though. I still make effort. I applied to Firs and NRC and I'm not stopping there yet. I read. I wrote a test last week. But none of these can stop the throbbing pain and the only thing that can free me is death.
This isn't a cry for help. I have learnt that nobody helps you but you. And God forbids that I blame the economy. I wouldn't allow myself such weakness. I know I could have done better in school and that Pry and Secondary Education are to equip you with writing and reading skills, only that. B.Sc is the real foundation. Afterall it’s where you get the results employers want. I also know Masters/Professional Certifications are a good support. But you don't get those papers F.O.C.
I'm sorry I'm not one to light a candle for you @poster but you should know l feel somewhat better sharing my own on here.
I had to double check if I wrote this. if not u are older and some few things here and there I would have swore I wrote this. I can totally and completely relate! |
Re: Cds by mofeblij12: 2:49pm On Sep 20, 2016 |
dania30:
I had to double check if I wrote this. if not u are older and some few things here and there I would have swore I wrote this. I can totally and completely relate! God is in control. |
Re: Cds by gmacnoms(m): 11:28pm On Sep 20, 2016 |
Samtobh: it is well with you OP.
I'm a First class Graduate since 2012, sleeping on a bed made from cartoon box in one of the office I got to work with June this year.Denied more than 5 scholarships alone this year and still hoping for better days. Suicide ain't an option bro, I graduated tops of my class and still yet, it ain't what I thought I'll be.keep up the hope, send me a PM! I'm gonna call you.
#Peace
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https://www.nairaland.com/3358818/no-job-depressed-feeling-suicidal#49500003 my guy sam. I celebrate You |
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Re: Cds by JustCalMeDBoss(m): 7:59am On Sep 21, 2016 |
Me I am a graduate all my mates are married me I am a security man earn less than 25k per month succidcidal thought is a stage in life . |
Re: Cds by yusufadebayo02(m): 10:36pm On Sep 21, 2016 |
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Re: Cds by SuPeRq(f): 11:48am On Sep 22, 2016 |
Samtobh:
Oga Seun, I know how it feels. But I haven't given suicide a thought anyway. Imagine a 4.58/5.00 CGPA still roaming the streets, begging for t-fare after being stranded looking for jobs, V.I, Ibadan, etc. Hmmmm......Lord Save me! It's now I believe First Class is just an Academic Greatness..... Just 5months of joblessness , I am tired already.......May God crown our efforts with well deserved successes |
Re: Cds by Samtobh(m): 12:08pm On Sep 22, 2016 |
SuPeRq: It's now I believe First Class is just an Academic Greatness..... Just 5months of joblessness , I am tired already.......May God crown our efforts with well deserved successes Let's connect sister, maybe we could work something out. |
Re: Cds by DAramis: 6:13pm On Sep 23, 2016 |
SuPeRq: Samtobh:
Bro and sis, Sorry for asking? why didn't both of you explore opportunities as a graduate assistant in your various schools and respective departments? At least, it was what I was told by my lecturer back in the days in a federal university that the federal government law is first class, for graduate assistant position in the university. Atleast, they suppose to honor that arrangement or are they doing 'IM' and probably 'tribal stuff'? |
Re: Cds by Gewezzy1(f): 10:53am On Sep 26, 2016 |
Don't know what drove me but i put a cord on my neck n tighten it so hard, i could feel that rapid headache but the after feeling of what i did felt good and relieved i sure would try it again. Depression is a war, you either win or die trying, my heart beat hasn't been slow recently its so fast. Whatever i hope all this stress is worth it, I hope it eventually pays, I hope I have a success story n if i dnt wtevr jare. |
Re: Cds by Samtobh(m): 10:37am On Oct 06, 2016 |
Gewezzy1: Don't know what drove me but i put a cord on my neck n tighten it so hard, i could feel that rapid headache but the after feeling of what i did felt good and relieved i sure would try it again. Depression is a war, you either win or die trying, my heart beat hasn't been slow recently its so fast. Whatever i hope all this stress is worth it, I hope it eventually pays, I hope I have a success story n if i dnt wtevr jare. send me a PM |
Re: Cds by Legacy80s(m): 5:13pm On Oct 19, 2016 |
PM me. yusufadebayo02: Dear Oluwaseun Osewa, I don come to yarn u my depress story o. Cos as i dey is like say i no dey exist ni. I graduated at 27years (2010) from Kwara State Polytechnics with an HND in Business Administration, Lower Credit. I observed my youth service corp at Ministry Of Defence Abuja(2011). Social anxiety hit hard in the middle of college and I became a hermit, doing well academically but suffering in terms of networking. I've been struggling and struggling to find meaningful work ever since graduating and I'm quickly slipping more into my self-destruction and depression-related behavior. I'll spend half a week in bed and be happy for it. I'll drink myself into comfort constantly. I have 4 years of off/on hard substance abuse, depression, self-harm and suicide ideation. As far back as elementary school I used to write suicide notes for "recreation", I glorified misery, etc. While all that stuff mellowed out in school (except for anxiety, which too mellowed out around my last year), after failed attempts at work I'm feeling more and more like a total failure when I see how many of my peers are financially independent and doing well for themselves. I suggest continuing into further study which am now in PGD session at Lautech with installment option. The school was shutdown due to economic recession and management unable to pay their staffs salaries. This is what i expect with high unemployment stuff, just to stay out of the bad market and add to my qualifications, hoping to find work later when conditions have improved. I have #5,000 in my saving account and am out of my apartment in 3 weeks. In the past I never hated life enough to end it, and I couldn't because I knew my mildly disabled sibling would need me when our parents pass. Also in my culture I think the grief would bring irreparable harm to my parents. But recently... those facts are seeming like smaller and smaller deterrents. I don't know. I sat in training for a shitty call center job today and zoned out thinking about where I'd do it, river or rope, what and to whom I'd leave as notes, etc. None of my friends know. I'm handsome, fun to be around, completely sane-looking and sane-behaving (besides my scarred parts). I'm dating a beautiful intelligent woman and have no problem meeting more, etc, but no one knows how broke I am or how close I am to breaking. If I did it I can't think of anyone who'd not be surprised. I used to have such grand dreams for what I'd want my life to be like; I used to be a skilled Embroidery Designer, my old Designer friends are now abroad in famous stylist shop, etc... meanwhile, I wake today and received calls of two of a beer parlour that pays token and is itself a potent source of shame for me. How did I Bleep up this bad. Baba Seun, i will like you to whistle this my story to those it consign to come for my rescue. Yusuf Adebayo writes. 07038898819. |
Re: Cds by Legacy80s(m): 5:34pm On Oct 19, 2016 |
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Re: Cds by Nobody: 5:51pm On Oct 19, 2016 |
Gewezzy1: Don't know what drove me but i put a cord on my neck n tighten it so hard, i could feel that rapid headache but the after feeling of what i did felt good and relieved i sure would try it again. Depression is a war, you either win or die trying, my heart beat hasn't been slow recently its so fast. Whatever i hope all this stress is worth it, I hope it eventually pays, I hope I have a success story n if i dnt wtevr jare. Houdegbe Girl....check your PM |
Re: Cds by yommysure(m): 9:33pm On Oct 19, 2016 |
Legacy80s: I laugh when i read diff. stories..... I must say that there's no situation in life that can warrant you taking your own life. I've not seen that sad or terrible situation in life that's worth it. You guys are you taking these issues to the extreme. When you hear other ppl's situation, your mouth will remain open for atleast 40seconds. I can't stop laughing cos I have my reasons, If anyone should take his/her own life, you're already a failure. 1. Do you want to know how many years it took me to get a job? 2. Do you care to know how many years i spent in the tertiary institution after my set graduated? 3. Do you want to know how my first wife left because I can't afford anything? 4. Do you wish to know how many years i spent with my parents and collecting N150 per day? 5. Do you feel like knowing how my stories changed? 6. You care to know my present status?
My Brothers and Sisters, if you kill yourself you LOOSE, after 2weeks we forget about you.
[b]Answers: 1. 7years 2. 3years. 3. Her mother packed her belongings from my house with 1week old baby, that i can't take care of them. (Mind you, I've not seen the Boy till date) 4. 10years. 5. I dressed well and visit offices on the Island, asking to work for free for a month. (I source for tfare from church members) 6. I got a job as a Safety Officer the building office I went to last August with a monthly gross pay of N310,000.00
IF I HAD KILLED MYSELF, I WON'T BE ENJOYING NOW. MY ANNUAL RENT IS N650,000 Thank you sir. |
Re: Cds by Adelakun2016(m): 6:11am On Oct 20, 2016 |
Seun: His major problem is depression. All the other things are just symptoms. His life is not as bad as he feels. If it was that bad he would be single. Exactly my point. Result not bad,Good writing skills, dating an intelligent woman......getting a small Job to survive shldnt be a problem because he is not married. I guess he is just tired of trying |
Re: Cds by SuPeRq(f): 4:33pm On Oct 21, 2016 |
DAramis:
Bro and sis,
Sorry for asking? why didn't both of you explore opportunities as a graduate assistant in your various schools and respective departments?
At least, it was what I was told by my lecturer back in the days in a federal university that the federal government law is first class, for graduate assistant position in the university.
Atleast, they suppose to honor that arrangement or are they doing 'IM' and probably 'tribal stuff'? You just hits the nail on the head. We were discarded whereas they recruit all the time. May God pave ways for us....... Success is not celebrated in Nigeria |
Re: Cds by DAramis: 7:26pm On Oct 21, 2016 |
SuPeRq: You just hits the nail on the head. We were discarded whereas they recruit all the time. May God pave ways for us....... Success is not celebrated in Nigeria The bolded is the truth. The funny thing is that, if you find your way out of this country and make giant strides in your field of endeavor, the same 'country people' (I mean politicians) will start preaching to you about the need to come back home and contribute and at the same time playing the "brain draining card" by the European country(ie taking the best African scholars away from their country). A typical example is "Philip Emeagwali" who would have died of frustration and poverty if not for the opportunity he has to travel out in the form of scholarship. We all should keep on pushing till it gets better. Please Madam, try as much as possible to also explore scholarship opportunities, hopefully something positive might come out of it(I am also looking in that direction). GOD will definitely bless our efforts and his grace will manifest in our life. |
Re: Cds by SuPeRq(f): 10:34pm On Oct 21, 2016 |
DAramis:
The bolded is the truth. The funny thing is that, if you find your way out of this country and make giant strides in your field of endeavor, the same 'country people' (I mean politicians) will start preaching to you about the need to come back home and contribute and at the same time playing the "brain draining card" by the European country(ie taking the best African scholars away from their country).
A typical example is "Philip Emeagwali" who would have died of frustration and poverty if not for the opportunity he has to travel out in the form of scholarship.
We all should keep on pushing till it gets better. Please Madam, try as much as possible to also explore scholarship opportunities, hopefully something positive might come out of it(I am also looking in that direction).
GOD will definitely bless our efforts and his grace will manifest in our life. Trying hard thou but cheap things ain't come ease. May God continue to ease our affairs and rectify them. Nigeria will be great when a son/daughter of nobody can become somebody without connections. 1 Like |
Re: Cds by DAramis: 2:01am On Oct 22, 2016 |
SuPeRq: Trying hard thou but cheap things ain't come ease. May God continue to ease our affairs and rectify them. Nigeria will be great when a son/daughter of nobody can become somebody without connections. Amen |
Re: Cds by pleadge(m): 8:00pm On Oct 29, 2016 |
This is Pleadge I got a mail from you via NL , please how may i help you |