why did my father not forsee these contingencies weighing me down? Because of the status quo, i can't prognosticate a good ending to my melancholy. the following are manifesting in my life due to my lost joy.........

Frustratedrat again?make i siddon.

- you needed to see me eating and eating non-stop yesterday (had constipation this morning). I did so because I saw enough food for once in a long time. The fear of not having to see this opportunity again brought out the voraciousness in me despite when my stomach kicked back. I lost my feelings

Hmm

ebikagboro a fellow catholic member died, itimi my former landlord died, tracy my former course mate died as well but i was indifferent. my mum and others think i'm weird but they don't know mine is imminent. Regurgitated some food i ate yesterday due to my obstructed wind pipe. So.. I've lost my feelings

Feelings, feelings, feelings...

i jerk off more often these days hopefully to get off some worries. But it seems i've lost feelings as I get little or no satisfaction from the exercise. I got the same negative result even when I watched explicit contents of kendallwoods (youngest adult 'film' star) and naomi woods (finest)

today is teacher's day. I'm supposed to be in an elated mood but I'm not. I woke up to a recurrent headache, whistling in my ears and the same uncertainties surrounding me. like how will I pay the overdue rent, bring my quota for the soakaway sucking, get food for that day and so on. It's just like the sleep should never end

fear/insecurities can lead to depression, hypertension amongst other things. I can't help it though.'if you (romancelanders) like, keep mum till i 'go spiritual.' you will surely miss me...


*Jim Reeves - This World is Not My Own on replay*

to think that i was an active layreader in 'His' vineyard for ten years. I never joined bad gangs or smoked hard drugs.


Hmmm.. Life is really cold (wore sweater this morning sef)

sexybbstar:
Frustratedrat again?make i siddon.

wlc miss