Allthough dead is inevitable to all human but the fear of who will die first was my teenage obsession.
I've never settle for the younger once or my age mates then; flirting with the older ladies was the priority.
I remember, my very 1st girl friend was the Senior girls prefect.
The fanatical interest in friending ladies keeps increasing to a piont, i bacame obssessive about who will die first paraventure it leads to marriage.

What was that fear when you wanted indulge in a relationship?