Koval12:
A little over one year ago, I shared my devastating battle with depression on Nairaland. I remember how the singular act of faith saved my life. I was lucky enough to reach out to the public, before my next phase of suicide attempt. One year after I shared my story on Nairaland, my life has changed for good. The words of encouragement I got from Nairaland went a long way at healing my pains. I have comfortably settled down. Have got my business, my apartment and now enjoy those luxuries i never thought of beforehand. I have got all I thought was never possible in those gloomy days.Here is the story as shared on Nairaland 22nd of June 2016. I believe most of us still remember this story. I pray it gives hope to those battling depression. Tomorrow holds something better for you.


I have not spoken to anyone about my ordeal but I sincerely hope your advice will go a long way towards healing me and restoring back my sanity.

I started dating this lady whom I still love so much February 2013, few months before I lost my mummy. I was so cautious of the affair at first, knowing that it was the first time I am getting so emotionally entangled to a lady, but after I lost my mum, I was so hurt and the fact that she was the only person very close to me then, I threw caution to the wind and fell helplessly in love with her, hoping that it would help alleviate the pains of losing My mum and praying deep inside my heart that the relationship will lead to marriage. It did to a reasonable extent alleviated the pains of losing my mum.

Even while I was in school, I gave her everything that I somehow lived in deprivation. Her friends were complaining to me that I spend a lot on her and it might backfire one day. I ignored their advice. I buy her handouts, clothes, Mobile gadgets and even give her certain amount of money on monthly basis to add up to her feeding money, I made sure she lived above her peers in school .

The whole problem started late 2014, when I was about leaving for my NYSC. she started acting quite strange, I respected her privacy that I don't even touch her phones, even though I give her the freedom to handle my phones and answer my calls. I noticed she wouldn't pick up her calls while with me. Like I said, I respected her privacy that I never gave so much thoughts into her actions, I loved and gave her my all believing that she will never cheat on me. Then on her birthday, I had got lots of surprising gifts for her and even arranged a little get together without her knowledge. To my greatest surprise, she surfaced at the venue of the party with the excuse that she was going on an errand for her parents. I handed over to her the gifts I got for her, she collected them and left the venue. Little did I know she had gone to see her erstwhile lover. Depression had started creeping in and I was losing my sanity apparently.

To cut the whole story short, when her girlfriend opened up to me that my girl was having affairs elsewhere, I never believed her at first, but after I confronted her, then I was looking so sick and pale, completely lost in thoughts and pains. She eventually opened up and was really sorry to the best of my knowledge . I couldn't help the pains, I. Started taking anti depressants, I have already vowed never to cheat in my life, knowing that prosperity has a way of rewarding Fidelity.

After I was mobilized for NYSC, I left for my Camp, but the ghost of a failed relationship was already hunting me, I had lost interest in living. Shortly after I returned back from my Orientation camp, everyone knew something was wrong with me, I only told them that it was the stress from Camp. Well, I was battered emotionally, that on 31st December 2014, I hit the rock button and decided to end my life and end the pains, I took insecticides and collection of anti depressants in over dose and battery acid, I cheated on death as I was in Coma for 4 days, I was referred to a psychologist for rehabilitation after I was discharged on the 12th of January 2015. I spent 6 months in rehabilitation Center here in Lagos State, where I was also serving then.

After the whole incident, I made up my mind to forgive her and give her a second chance since she was really sorry. The whole scenario started replaying itself, that she started acting strange again, already my friend had told me that she was seeing someone else. My family knew I was slipping into depression again and had wanted to fly me out of the country, but I was denied Visa when I least expected it. I had to leave Enugu for Lagos so as to keep away from her and the environment. but she still calls me on phone, saying that she still loves me, I truly love her so much. Am totally lost of words, lost of ideas. Am terrified to say the least. Am losing my sanity again. Please friends, depression is getting better of me at the moment.. I need a sincere advise.

This is the story as shared.

Now, my message is this, Whatever you are passing through at the moment, just know that time is the greatest healer. Suicide is never an answer and never an option. My attempted suicide left my family with so much pain, talk more of a successful attempt. Read motivational books, and I recommend these series FORGETTING YOUR PAST, STARTING ALL OVER AND DISCOVERING YOUR POTENTIAL, all written by BOB GAS. Be positive minded and don't allow circumstances around you to swallow you. Be open to people (loved ones) about your ordeal. Do not keep the battle to yourself while allowing your inner demons to eat you up. Get your body and soul busy. Always remember that whatever cannot be cured, must be endured. There's certainly light at the end of the tunnel. Cheers!

Beautiful. I must say

Koval12:
my guy. I sight you jaree. Should we tell them??

for wetin, let them help the poor dog na,

Gee
Only we street know wet in dey happen

ChiefAzubuike:
Only a fool still believes in spiritual or voodoo money in this 21st century.

truer words has not been said on this post so far

well good luck super Eagles

Scarpon:
God pls help my country Nigeria

GH�

ccvizzle:
Ok

you made sense here sir

duh

DabuIIIT:
The zoo army shud be made to respond to that..stuppid judge. She knows the vegetable is to blame..mallam na mallam.
Una day dey come

hey man

Respect55:
Wateva sails ur boat bro. I know the God I serve He can do all things He is faithful, too faithful to fail

and he sucks covcks too,

cummando:
Thank you. Wise one.

anytime pupil

cummando:

So shall it be. Your words are fire. Na so e go be for me too

Gullible Idiots, #Fact is Nigeria is fvcked and deep in debt, wake the fvck up

divinehand2003:



INEC, as it is at the moment, has proven herself in recent times as an autonomous entity particularly at the federal level. Only the state INEC need to be delivered from the whims of the State governors.

Besides, people should be allowed to join and form political parties as they wish. It's part of their human right. INEC is bound by law to register such parties once the eligibility criteria is met.

I'll vote for you anytime, please contest

Respect55:
I have resolved to let go of maturation n porn and there is no going back on that.
God help me


To achieve this, friends, weneva the urge comes, overcome it with the word of God. Just open that Bible app on ur phone n read den change ur location. With time, the urge won't even show up again.
Be careful not to break it for there is no better time to start than this new year.

wow I worship I black guy call Lucy Jesus, it worked for me too praise Jesus

smulti:
Good for them,

Christians must wait for Jesus to come with Ak47 and fight for them .

funny asf

wilsonreuben:
Praise be Jesus I thank you Lord Jesus that I am well and alive.

idiot

Mizsylviah:
The baby is still gonna shine with those marks.......

Amen in Jesus name

cooool

Lombrozo:
I BATTLED WITH PIMPLES FOR MANY YEARS AND MINE WAS BIG ONE'S ON MY FACE, I WENT TO DIFFERENT HOSPITALS, CONSULTED MANY EXPERT FOR BOTH LOCAL AND REFINED REMEDIES, BUT ALL IN VAIN.MY BREAKTHRUGH CAME FROM A PHARMACIST WHEN I EXPLAINED MY ORDEAL TO HIM,THEN HE RECOMMEND THREE DRUGS WHICH REALLY HELP ME.
I BELIEVE THIS WILL HELP MANY PEOPLE TO CURE THEIR PIMPLES
AND THIS IS A GREAT OPPORTUNITY FOR ME TO SHARE TO MANY.

bros talk na

source, pics and other shii mahn

lol I don't give a flying fucck

where

not bad

hahaha the poster above me believes in Jesus , smh

kush in your comfort zone is bae

SuperSuave:
Wow! I like what I'm seeing, no matter how hard I try my muscles don't just show my efforts, maybe because I'm kinda slender. I'll chop up then hit the gym again

I know that feeling mate , the struggle is real

SuperSuave:
Wow! I like what I'm seeing, no matter how hard I try my muscles don't just show my efforts, maybe because I'm kinda slender. I'll chop up then hit the gym again

I know that feeling mate ,

DeepSight:


What is there in this hellish planet to appreciate its creator for? ? ?



Why should anyone experience horror and praise the Lord for it?



Is it not so sickening how we thank "God" for tragedy and in this case we are to thank "God" for amputation of a limb?

What is wrong with our reasoning faculties? ? ?

The truth is that whatever force, entity or intelligence conceived and created this world can only be a most malevolent one delighting in cosmic ma.sturbation of a certain sado-masochist nature on a scale incomprehensible to our minds. This world is most likely some sort of video entertainment window for the perverted appetite of the "gods".

wow accurately put

cristianisraeli:


witchcraft is real but i dont support this kind of jungle justice

Real abi, prove it

ashawopikin:
zed

Ashewo Pikin

Towncrier247:
He is even a bible-believing Christian

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so what bro

julietkcee:
are u asking meh why!

Well because your comment was harsh