Aisha95:

Yeah. They are far away from home. One thing about me, is that I bottle up feelings yet am dieing in pains. I easily get hurt.

nigerianium:

Gullible folks. Missclassy logs off by 11.41am and the seemingly dormant Aisha95 logs in to post this hogwash.

The same hogwash Missclassy admitted to in ITS diary in July before it reappeared with ITS Niklausa male account which assumed a misogynist persona.

Gullible sex-starved folks advicing a male trolling as a female in the hopes of scoring cheap brownie points. ♦

Pidggin:


Okay, you know what? start writing down your feelings. Do it and i assure you, it will make you feel better. Another advice i have for you, try controlling your emotions. It seems you get hurt easily because you don't understand people, and you judge yourself a lot. People like you should spend less time alone, because it seems your thoughts are self-destructive. What do you enjoy doing(hobbies)?

Aisha95:

Thanks a lot. Seems you are now understanding my situation. Yes . I don't fancy crowds - trapped in the midst of people is likened to torture for me. It drains my energy. I prefer being in solitude.
My hobbies: Reading (mostly literature and science stuffs), listening to music, movies, surfing the net et al.

Aisha95:

If only you could see through the total eclispe in my heart.
we are sure going to die one day - by accident, sickness or naturally . The pleasures of this earth are all vanities.

Pidggin:


Okay, being an introvert is not bad at all, however in your case it's not helping you. You can make the most of it by listening to music that will lift your spirit, reading books that will motivate you and make you think more positively, watch movies that will make you laugh, join online chat forums with people that share your interests. Good luck

Estharfabian:
woah...Now, I'm dumbfounded! anyways...whatever your decision miss...there'll always be some things worth sticking around for...like family for instance?? Anyways..be good miss! adiòs!!!

cococandy:
My dear find a new hobby and go out some more.-
As you said the feelings get worse when you're in your room by yourself. And idle mind is not a good harvest ground.
If you go out and meet new people more often, it can be quite entertaining and distracting from your daily worries.

Search your heart. You know what really bothers you. Not the bokoharam or everyday accidents ish.
There must be something deeper than that. Unless you lost a loved a one to any of those incidents.

If you do find out what it this that's putting this cloud over your life, you can then face your fear and conquer. It's never easy. And praying won't solve it for you if you make no efforts of your own. I do know praying helps keep one calm but you will still need to face your problems head on. Only then will it go away.

Aisha95:

Meet new people?
That's my number one FEAR. I get scared whenever I get in contact with people. My heart beat increases rapidly. Weird right? I'll try.
Thanks a bunch.

cococandy:


Ok bad idea then. Very bad idea. You might have social phobia or social anxiety disorder.
In that case you do need professional help as meeting new people is something you will have to do in life except you want to work from home all your life. That phobia can make things very uncomfortable and hard for you.
First of all read up on it so you will understand what's happening to you and know it's not your fault.
If you live you in Nigeria, I don't know where I can can recommend for you to go get professional help. But you can ask around.

Conquering that fear is one way to get yourself out of the solitude that keep fertilizing those dark thoughts of suicide.

People are too gullible. believe this story and u'll believe anything

Aisha95:

Your very words just increased my depressional state of mind to a higher level.

Aisha95:
My life force is gradually fading away. . .
Each moment, am alone, sitted in the confines of my room, I experience a sudden surge of suicidal rush. I have fought hard to defeat this feeling but its effect in me is overwhelming.
To me; life is meaningless. It's no longer worth living.
I don't know what else to do with my life.

Estharfabian:
Dude..(if this is really True.. not some Cyber stunt)..Don't...besides...You've got No friends?? Family?? I'd Say Don't...Like what really Promoted it?? u lost someone or something? What's really The issue?? Coz No sane person Would Wanna Kill what GoD Beautifully/Carefully Made..Whatsoever the Reason..Just think twice...trust me "THE GRAVE" has no Air-conditioners...its really Creepy!

Aisha95:

I sincerely appreciate your efforts, ma'am. Considerate and helpful. Will do exactly as you instructed.

Aisha95:

Like who?