felixomor:
Thanks for your honesty.

ToriBlue:
All atheists feel this emptiness within them, they know that God exists but they need an excuse to sin without feeling guilty.

DeepRegrets:
Today, February 8 2017 will mark 3 years since I crossed from the other side of the divide into the realm of atheism aka antitheism.
You will come across atheists on the internet, running around like mountain goats, yapping about how atheism has improved their live and shaped their overall perception of the world around, but this is what they will never reveal to you.

My story:

I was born into a very religious christian family to strict parents who highly believed that teaching the young child bible tales is ethical, and using the rod as a measure of correction for an erring child is morally acceptable. My dad was a profane, wicked, heartless, uncompromising theist. He treated me like I was not his child, and once too often he did send me into the cold streets at night, but not before beating me to within an inch of my life. I screamed. I cried. I thirsted. Me was restless. The flames going higher. Satan's little helper running down the steps, hell's door close by.

Sadly, my mum kept quiet all through and acted like I fully deserved the punishing being meted to me by my dad. She was little more than a fawning puppet trapped in the cage of a savage tyrant. I still love her though.

I left the house 2013 and, kneeling down, I swore to the skies to always hate theists, however I needed something obscure to hide my true intentions towards christians, so I embraced atheism.

After I became an atheist, I suscribed to subjective morallity, my morality took a deplorable plunge to a down low. I did many bad things shocking for a 20-year-old. Ranging from clubbing, to engaging in street fights and heated arguments in public places, to drinking excessively and _fucking those hot chics, yeah the ones with gigantic boobs and big asses.

Since God does not exist, I thought life is basically meaningless, senseless and purposeless. Every open door was well utilised fighting theists both online and offline. I argued religion late into the night, afterwards read some materials I will use as weapons against religion the next time before I slept.

I was a 21st century psychopath slowly changing into a lunatic, accountable to neither man, because I believed in subjective morality, nor a non-existent God.

But, despite how fulfilled I felt, despite the arguments I won and riding on the waves of the fleeting joy of ridiculing theists, despite not being afraid of hell fire threat, I still felt an emptiness deep in me. Although evidence and facts state God doesn't exist but my heart is yearning for an answer and reaching for that profound connection my mum seemed to have with the non-physical whenever she got on her knees, her eyes closed, looking up at heaven. The sight was glorious. It was calm and marvellous, beyond human comprehension, beyond all pleasures of life. I think that void in me would be filled if I can find that one thing I have been searching for.

I became an atheist because I was abused by my dad who is a theist and because I also wanted to sin without feeling guilt, not because I lack the convincing evidence to believe in God's existence.

frank317:


Is this a joke or something? U just registered today to tell this joke of a fake story yet u know all the people to mention?
The story make no sense, does not have a base does not have a direction.
Oga, whoever u are, u are not really good at making up fake stories.

U guys to stop mocking the si called religious section u think it's ur God given property. No reasonable person will take u serious with this nonsense u just typed.

frank317:


Is this a joke or something? U just registered today to tell this joke of a fake story yet u know all the people to mention?
The story make no sense, does not have a base does not have a direction.
Oga, whoever u are, u are not really good at making up fake stories.

U guys to stop mocking the si called religious section u think it's ur God given property. No reasonable person will take u serious with this nonsense u just typed.

felixomor:


Keep quiet abeg.
You r the one not making sense.
Mere going through religious section alone, he will definitely know who to mention.
Besides he never said this his first time on Nairaland.

Somebody gave a story of his life and you say it doesn't make sense.
Are u living with him?

Gerrarahia mehn!

DeepRegrets:


That guy is unbelievable. I knew that would be their first defence. Most atheist and irrationality are like siamese twins. Smh.

DeepRegrets:
I became an atheist because I was abused by my dad who is a theist and because I also wanted to sin without feeling guilt, not because I lack the convincing evidence to believe in God's existence.

DeepRegrets:


Who the hell are you?
I don't care if you believe my story or not - you are an atheist so expecting you to be logical is like using a small boat to search for a lost pin in an ocean at night without light.
You guys argue blindly all the time about religion even when presented with staggering evidence. You guys have this habit of doubting anything, trying to pick loopholes even when it's not even necessary. Keep trying through. Religion has been the bane of your existence.

frank317:



This is too cheap, u should be embarrassed

Sinestroo:

I still don't see the point of your OP.

DeepRegrets:

I became an atheist because I was abused by my dad who is a theist and because I also wanted to sin without feeling guilt, not because I lack the convincing evidence to believe in God's existence.

AgentOfAllah:


I hope you now have "the convincing evidence to believe in God's existence". I wish you happiness as you navigate your way through the murky waters of meaningfulness!

jonbellion:
okay brah "sin" away Smoke Drink Party Become a man slut Be the typical athiest stereotype Good for you

DeepRegrets:

Dumb.

jonbellion:
Hopefullandlord, Hahn, lemmycool. Something strange is going on with some monikers
First one moniker named honds claims he's an athiest and then goes about insulting athiests and saying things like "brave" and "cowardly" athiests
Then this dude creates a moniker today starts talking like the stereotypes religious people give athiests and then starts getting patted on the back by the christians
The christians have sunk to a new low
Or
Someone is just being a very bad troll

jonbellion:
okay

DeepRegrets:


Quit being a nuisance because you can. See how you flooded the thread with inane comments yet nothing to show that you have sense. Says a lot about how you reason if this is what you could come up with. Bleating goat.

jonbellion:
okay

finofaya:
If you had any concern about your mental well being I think you should have first eliminated the abuse you allegedly received as the cause of your psychological state. There are too many atheists who are at least reasonably well adjusted psychologically for you to make such a sweeping claim based on your sample of one. Many of us are certainly not in the mental space that caused the abusive behaviour in the story you related, despite our being atheists.

Theists have as much freedom to sin as atheists, if not more, since God can justify even the most heinous acts. So if you became an atheist in a bid to sin more, you definitely didn't think the matter through.

In conclusion, atheists don't tell people the things you have written in your OP because your story and motivations are personal and other atheists are not you. In addition, they also prefer to share the actual bases for atheism rather than emotional nonsense. That's not to make light of your experiences and your struggles tho.

jonbellion:
lol You really have time bro You really have time

DeepRegrets:

Shut up your filthy blasphemous mouth. You ain't making any sense. Foolish boy

DeepRegrets:


You sound pained and I know why. Don't drag me into your messed up life. It's not by force I must join you in your unbelief. Sorry