Hi there.
So I thought I should do this stuff I usually do when I can't find someone to talk to.
When I get like this I turn to strangers because their judgement won't hurt me.

I find it very hard to tell anyone my deepest shi.t
Like, I feel like I'll never be understood enough.

You know how you share your fear with someone and just reply like it's something that happens everyday?

Anyway, right now I just feel a rush of sadness and I hope it goes away.

It's been 4 years since I was in a real relationship.
I act like I'm okay with being single but I know I'm just putting up a strong front.

It's messed up really. I feel I should be telling this to her but here I am in a season that's supposed to be about sharing and I'm here sharing this with probably no one.

I get scared like, is there anyone out there for me?
Or am I gonna be single forever.
It scares me. Though often times I just say, "I'll find someone. Or they'll find me."

Who am I kidding, right?
It's terrible. What is wrong with me?
I hope I get better. I hope I find someone.

My sincere sad self,
Lonelyloner.

Post Scriptum

Hi again.
If she's out there, I just want her to know I'd be better than I ever was in relationship.

I know better now. I'd write her everyday. Call her every second. I'd be caring and if I wasn't good enough I'd learn.

I know I can be toxic but I can learn and more considerate.

I'm not perfect, but I want to be. So badly that I'm doing this.

I wonder it's like to be a relationship and be wanted in it. Like mutually, both wanted each other.

Cause I've never had that. It's always be me too much or her too much. That equilibrium. I've always wondered if I was the only unlucky one.

It was 2014 when I just got into a relationship. I had not felt that way for over 5 years. Before that, I was last in a relationship in 2009.

It was a terrible break up. I thought we were both as the same place. It turns out we weren't. Same for both.
It was like déjà vu when it repeat itself in 2014.

I put my whole heart into it. Painful each time. Like each time, it's more painful.

I don't know what else to say or do. I'm just stuck at being single. Staring at the world hook up, but me.

Am I really just a spectator?

I understand you bro and it's normal to feel that way but it's takes conscious effort to acting go out there and find her or being active in social media more, she probably somewhere feeling lonely as well and wishing for a man like you to come along.

Relationship isn't all that easy either to keep as some people in it already wanting out however, it gives you every reason to smile when you find that right partner.

This whole idea points you to a direction being more out going, hang out for no reason and be on your best behavior when out, keep a smile and be ready to help strangers in public with the least and interact more with them, Go to recreational spots, bars and social gathering with females in attendance and interact with some and ensure you leave with at least thier contact. The easiest way to go around that is feign being a first timer and get them to teach you stuff as a first timer, that way you forming a bond already.

Be active on social media such as facebook, Twitter and IG then comment intelligently on posts, Target females who reacts or comment on your comment, shoot them a comprehensive and a little bit long DM, Do not ask for phone number at first, discuss on the same topic right on that initial comment you had posted with her and request her number afterwards.

Be consistent with the above and you would get girls because they really waiting to be talk to, trust me bro. A wise woman once told me "Don't expect Womanliness to fall on you like some manner from heaven, you gotta stand up and go talk to them."....Brandy

Saffi should be of help

aaronson:
I understand you bro and it's normal to feel that way but it's takes conscious effort to acting go out there and find her or being active in social media more, she probably somewhere feeling lonely as well and wishing for a man like you to come along.

Relationship isn't all that easy either to keep as some people in it already wanting out however, it gives you every reason to smile when you find that right partner.

This whole idea points you to a direction being more out going, hang out for no reason and be on your best behavior when out, keep a smile and be ready to help strangers in public with the least and interact more with them, Go to recreational spots, bars and social gathering with females in attendance and interact with some and ensure you leave with at least thier contact. The easiest way to go around that is feign being a first timer and get them to teach you stuff as a first timer, that way you forming a bond already.

Be active on social media such as facebook, Twitter and IG then comment intelligently on posts, Target females who reacts or comment on your comment, shoot them a comprehensive and a little bit long DM, Do not ask for phone number at first, discuss on the same topic right on that initial comment you had posted with her and request her number afterwards.

Be consistent with the above and you would get girls because they really waiting to be talk to, trust me bro. A wise woman once told me "Don't expect Womanliness to fall on you like some manner from heaven, you gotta stand up and go talk to them."....Brandy

Thanks bro. I'll try them out.

aaronson:
I understand you bro and it's normal to feel that way but it's takes conscious effort to acting go out there and find her or being active in social media more, she probably somewhere feeling lonely as well and wishing for a man like you to come along.

Relationship isn't all that easy either to keep as some people in it already wanting out however, it gives you every reason to smile when you find that right partner.

This whole idea points you to a direction being more out going, hang out for no reason and be on your best behavior when out, keep a smile and be ready to help strangers in public with the least and interact more with them, Go to recreational spots, bars and social gathering with females in attendance and interact with some and ensure you leave with at least thier contact. The easiest way to go around that is feign being a first timer and get them to teach you stuff as a first timer, that way you forming a bond already.

Be active on social media such as facebook, Twitter and IG then comment intelligently on posts, Target females who reacts or comment on your comment, shoot them a comprehensive and a little bit long DM, Do not ask for phone number at first, discuss on the same topic right on that initial comment you had posted with her and request her number afterwards.

Be consistent with the above and you would get girls because they really waiting to be talk to, trust me bro. A wise woman once told me "Don't expect Womanliness to fall on you like some manner from heaven, you gotta stand up and go talk to them."....Brandy

This sounds cool
Thumbs up

for what it's worth you're not alone

Lonelyloner:
Post Scriptum

Hi again.
If she's out there, I just want her to know I'd be better than I ever was in relationship.

I know better now. I'd write her everyday. Call her every second. I'd be caring and if I wasn't good enough I'd learn.

I know I can be toxic but I can learn and more considerate.

I'm not perfect, but I want to be. So badly that I'm doing this.

for what it's worth you're not alone, I like to believe it'd get better with time. hang in there

Lizzie082:
for what it's worth you're not alone for what it's worth you're not alone, I like to believe it'd get better with time. hang in there

you both could get to know yourselves na. Say hi to the lonelyloner G

You should make yourself happy,whether in a relationship or not

bravesoul247:
you both could get to know yourselves na. Say hi to the lonelyloner G

come on, I meant it in a different context

Work on ur mouth odour first bro

Lizzie082:
for what it's worth you're not alone for what it's worth you're not alone, I like to believe it'd get better with time. hang in there

Thanks. I really appreciate. It means a lot.

prettysassygirl:
You should make yourself happy,whether in a relationship or not

I've been doing that for a really long time now. But nothing can actually replace the feeling of loving someone. It gets to a point where even a sugar itself tastes bitter.

Lizzie082:
come on, I meant it in a different context

okay

Being Single is your Best State. Your Body might say otherwise but when when u have ur sh*t together, ur body submits. Am SINGLE and I proudly am. It took me about 3months of taking the RED PILL before i realized that Romance is a Scam.
Anyways, u r free to choose ur path in Life. Choose wisely

OK following

I think i have a similar issue.....no matter how many times i meet someone, it never progresses beyond two dates. Being with the right partner is the only cure for my depression and low spirits, but i am coming around to accept that i may never meet the right person..Just want to add that am 5ft 11 inches tall. Maybe that is why am unable to find that which i seek

How old are u bro

Budex40:
Being Single is your Best State. Your Body might say otherwise but when when u have ur sh*t together, ur body submits. Am SINGLE and I proudly am. It took me about 3months of taking the RED PILL before i realized that Romance is a Scam.
Anyways, u r free to choose ur path in Life. Choose wisely

Lonelyloner:
Hi there.
So I thought I should do this stuff I usually do when I can't find someone to talk to.
When I get like this I turn to strangers because their judgement won't hurt me.

I find it very hard to tell anyone my deepest shi.t
Like, I feel like I'll never be understood enough.

You know how you share your fear with someone and just reply like it's something that happens everyday?

Anyway, right now I just feel a rush of sadness and I hope it goes away.

It's been 4 years since I was in a real relationship.
I act like I'm okay with being single but I know I'm just putting up a strong front.

It's messed up really. I feel I should be telling this to her but here I am in a season that's supposed to be about sharing and I'm here sharing this with probably no one.

I get scared like, is there anyone out there for me?
Or am I gonna be single forever.
It scares me. Though often times I just say, "I'll find someone. Or they'll find me."

Who am I kidding, right?
It's terrible. What is wrong with me?
I hope I get better. I hope I find someone.

My sincere sad self,
Lonelyloner.

There are so many girls out there , u need to bring out time to search if u are really serious, even on social media ,like Facebook etc, a dozen of them looking for someone like u, don't be shy to toast a girl u met ,because they don't bite

Love is a scam. The earlier you realize, the better for you.

Most times when you get Hot, just find a girl to go down with and you'll be alright.

anneboleyn:
I think i have a similar issue.....no matter how many times i meet someone, it never progresses beyond two dates. Being with the right partner is the only cure for my depression and low spirits, but i am coming around to accept that i may never meet the right person..Just want to add that am 5ft 11 inches tall. Maybe that is why am unable to find that which i seek

Being tall is not the issue dear, talls guys plenty. At the right time, you'll meet your prince, just make sure you're ready for him.

That why there is http://instagram/relationship_and_life so you Can share your deepest Shit, join on Instagram @Relationship_and_life for Guaranted hookup, Share your life stories and more

Lonelyloner:
Hi there.
So I thought I should do this stuff I usually do when I can't find someone to talk to.
When I get like this I turn to strangers because their judgement won't hurt me.

I find it very hard to tell anyone my deepest shi.t
Like, I feel like I'll never be understood enough.

You know how you share your fear with someone and just reply like it's something that happens everyday?

Anyway, right now I just feel a rush of sadness and I hope it goes away.

It's been 4 years since I was in a real relationship.
I act like I'm okay with being single but I know I'm just putting up a strong front.

It's messed up really. I feel I should be telling this to her but here I am in a season that's supposed to be about sharing and I'm here sharing this with probably no one.

I get scared like, is there anyone out there for me?
Or am I gonna be single forever.
It scares me. Though often times I just say, "I'll find someone. Or they'll find me."

Who am I kidding, right?
It's terrible. What is wrong with me?
I hope I get better. I hope I find someone.

My sincere sad self,
Lonelyloner.

Same with me, hoping 2019 will be my year