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chiiraq802:
£100m.....

jesselicious:
A nairalander ebene4nija a CO-CEO of Jamz.ng, a nairalander, a blogger, and an internet marketer, just got wedded! See picture below:

Pre-Wedding photos here https://www.nairaland.com/4053562/nairalander-just-found-wife

Zizicardo:
stay in the dark room, they soon bring your order

jidemoh:
Apostle must hear of this!!!

Immatex:
I am content with my lot in life.

Jesus himself said: Even when a person has an abundance, his life does not result from the things he possesses.” (Luke 12:15)

It is also not oversabi. I was IPhone 7 make news headlines and saw the mad rush many made to get it like their life depends on it. Such obsession for material possession is repulsive to my spiritual inclination.

And as you know I reserve the right to hold a contrary opinion.

Risingphoenix12:
Don't worry. Keep your trust in him alone and He'll see you through.

Risingphoenix12:
It's 3:52am and I'm up again. Tired. Emotionally drained. Confused. Feeling of helplessness and hopelessness. Lost. Just one question ringing in my head - "How the F did I get here?"

I wish this was a journal filled with positive thoughts and uplifting words (snickers).. Nah.. This is about the story of my life. I find it hard to open up to people so I figured I'd just write to myself and hopefully someday, I'd read this.. and the current heaviness I feel - a distant memory.

Interestingly, my life has been such a roller coaster ride.. (lol)... quite interesting... perfect image of "Started from the bottom now we are here" (lol).. okay maybe not "there" yet but not doing badly. In my mid-thirties, got a great job I enjoy. Earn a decent income. Decent looks. Live in my own house. Married with two kids. Love my kids like crazyyyy! But the challenge is... I don't love my wife. It's a burden I carry. Been carrying it for a while, and now I'm just tired. I don't think I got married thinking I was going to end up in a divorce, but here I am - smack in the process of it and it is wearing me out.

I have often heard people say, "Endure.. Stick with it!.. Marriage is not a bed of roses.. etc.".. Yep! I tried.. I really did.. But mehn.. every single day, I feel a part of me dying.. and my fear is if I continue like this.. I probably won't get to 45. For my sanity, and emotional stability it's best I leave.

It's really not about pointing fingers saying "Oh! She's the bad one... or she did that.. I did this".. we've just gotten to the point where we are both not happy. And there are fundamentals I didn't think about before I got married. If I could go through a time machine and saw my younger self about to propose, I'd punch him in the face (lol).. or maybe I'd hesitate knowing that this union gave me gifts that I'd go through any form of fire and torment to have (i.e. my kids). Indeed I have thought about so many things. Will I end up alone for the rest of my life? Will I regret this? Is there some punishment waiting for me in future? Will this lead me into a deeper understanding of myself? Questions are endless... and I don't have the answers to them. But one thing I know is this... I must set myself free.

Sarang:
Adimma

Sarang:
I sight you Able..

Sarang:
Exactly how was she able to walk with that..